New and Selected Poems 1974-2004

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by Carl Dennis


  To be open with, he found a tribe of painters

  To learn from, and that was enough,

  The silent encouragement of high examples.

  She’d tell me who the callers are

  If I ever asked her.

  Why should I sift the soil

  If her roots sink deep enough

  And the tree is flourishing?

  It’s too dark to see from my window

  The dogwood we planted this year.

  The breeze lifting the curtains

  Carries the smell of dry leaves

  Fallen on a street in Paris outside the Salon.

  Zola and Cézanne are glad to walk out of there

  And breathe the fresh air of fall.

  They’re not surprised that the judges

  Threw out all the entries that were dazzling.

  Now as the smell of leaves reaches her room

  She may recall, as she listens,

  Walking with me last fall. It’s not unlikely,

  But why begrudge her an earlier memory?

  Let her go riding again on her father’s farm,

  Bouncing along on a pony she’s never mentioned,

  Who wouldn’t be fed by anyone but her.

  More Music

  This one thinks he’s lucky when his car

  Flips over in the gully and he climbs out

  With no bones broken, dusts himself off,

  And walks away, eager to forget the episode.

  And this one when her fever breaks

  And she opens her eyes to breeze-blown,

  Sky-blue curtains in a sunlit house

  With much of her life still before her

  And nothing she’s done too far behind her

  To be called back, or remedied, or atoned.

  Now she’ll be glad to offer her favorite evening hours

  To Uncle Victor and listen as he tells again

  How the road washed out in the rain

  And he never made it to Green Haven in time

  To hear the Silver Stars and the Five Aces.

  And she’ll be glad to agree that the good bands

  Lift the tunes he likes best above them to another life,

  And agree it isn’t practice alone

  That makes them sound that way

  But luck, or something better yet.

  And if Victor thinks he’s a lucky man for the talk

  And for his room in his nephew’s house

  Up beneath the rafters, and the sweet sound of the rain

  Tapping on the tar paper or ringing in the coffee can,

  Should we try to deny it? Why make a list

  Of all we think he’s deserved and missed

  As if we knew someone to present it to

  Or what to say when told we’re dreaming

  Of an end unpromised and impossible,

  Unmindful of the middle, where we all live now?

  What Has Become of Them

  Somewhere back in the lost place, you’re still repeating

  The same partial, uninspired replies to the girl

  Who looks out the diner window in despair,

  And your mother still wipes her eyes, still walks away

  From the grave of her daughter,

  And your dead father still searches for a house

  Where bad thoughts can’t force the door.

  Once you thought these ventures finished,

  Crumbled to powder, blown away. Now you know

  They go on elsewhere as they were, unheard, invisible,

  As the stream found in the woods, breaking on the rocks

  In white water, continues to break after you’ve gone.

  The sea wall washes away; the tree blows down

  In the summer storm. But you still wake in the house

  That burned to the ground years back

  And turn to the arms of your young wife

  In fresh joy, as if the fire were merely dreamed.

  These moments are far now, farther each day,

  But at night you make it to the town they live in

  And watch them at their lighted windows

  As they lose themselves in their parts

  With the same emphatic gestures,

  Not one word altered, not one left out.

  They’re too caught up to notice their audience,

  And it doesn’t matter if you stay to watch

  Or drift to the spectral outskirts of tomorrow.

  Later

  Later you’ll notice how slanted the floors are

  And learn the meaning of the cracks above the lintels.

  Now on the morning you move in

  The dazzling, eastern light floods the big rooms.

  The man who couldn’t be happy here

  Under these high ceilings won’t find another place.

  If you saw now what you’ll see then

  You wouldn’t be moving in, though later

  You won’t regret your choice.

  The bad news will arrive slowly and be different,

  Not like a stranger’s illness but a friend’s.

  You’ll sit by his bed to cheer him up.

  Then it’s back to your study

  To finish your novel about the lake.

  Later you’ll see how coarse it is,

  Not the last draft, as you suppose now,

  But the first. Be grateful for your ignorance,

  For the gift of foolish confidence that allows you to begin.

  On the first day out with his new boat,

  Your hero, docking on an island,

  Meets a stranger down on his luck

  And invites him home.

  Later, when he pulls in the driveway,

  You can have him remember how small his house is,

  How crammed with relatives,

  All of them fretful as the years

  Rub them the wrong way.

  For now, as the breeze bellies the sails,

  Let him imagine guest rooms waiting, and guest wings,

  And months left at the doors like gifts,

  May baskets, June boxes, July crowns,

  August horns of plenty.

  Charity

  Time to believe that the thin disguise

  On the face of the blessing in disguise

  Will never be pulled off,

  That the truth that’s still in hiding

  Will stay there, far in the dark.

  All that can be revealed is revealed.

  All that can be learned from the burning house

  Was learned the first time, when the smoke

  Blackened the walls in every room.

  So much for more experience. What can grow

  Has grown; what’s small now stays small.

  No portion waits for those who deserve more.

  The flowers in the yard of the blind and deaf girl

  Will never smell any sweeter to her

  Than they smell now to any of her visitors.

  The music she imagines will never compare to ours.

  Her best day will brighten with no joy

  That hasn’t brightened our day more.

  Time to admit that her steady cheer

  Is the burden she assumes to keep us here

  Touching her fingers for a while.

  Time Heals All Wounds

  The first wound, the cut at the cord stem,

  No longer tender, the scab fallen off,

  The baby no longer sleeping with its knees

  Tucked up, dreaming of the dark,

  But reaching for the window on belly,

  Elbows, and hands, on feeble frog legs;

  The cut closed in the boy’s head

  Received as he ran back for the catch,

  Not hearing as the fielder called for it

  Or hearing but not believing the ball

  Destined for anyone but him;

  Pain gone from the wrist

  Sprained when the enemy stormed the camp

  And tore
the flag from the guard’s hands

  While the guard played dead,

  Thinking how unfair it was

  For the good side to be so outnumbered;

  The tear in the hollow of the thigh

  Where the angel touched it and the holy,

  Aspiring sap of the wrestler

  Leaked out, wetting the ground,

  Feeding the seed of a flower whose smell

  No one alive remembers, all healed now;

  The wounds in the back

  Where once the wings joined the body

  Healed, and the legs grown used

  To the whole weight.

  from The Outskirts of Troy (1988)

  Heinrich Schliemann

  If the main plot in his life were his rise

  From grocer’s apprentice and shipwrecked scrivener

  To rich indigo merchant with a palace in St. Petersburg,

  The master of a dozen languages, it would be easy

  For critics like us to patronize,

  Easy to grant him a place in the storybook

  With Dick Whittington and the woodcutter’s youngest son.

  And we could pity his distance from the real world

  When he leaves the trading firm in middle age

  To learn the ancient Greek of Homer

  And falls in love with an Athenian schoolgirl

  When he hears her recite Andromache’s long plea

  And marries her, moving his life from storybook

  Into dream, as if the noise of traffic outside the church

  Were the hubbub on the fields around Troy.

  If only he hadn’t taken it into his head

  To dig in a sleepy backwater village

  For Troy’s walls and somehow found them;

  If he hadn’t knelt in the dirt all day

  With beautiful Sophia, chipping away crust

  From the tiles of Priam’s palace, from bracelets

  That once circled the slim wrists of princesses;

  If he hadn’t proved that his dream was graspable,

  That the stories he loved were fashioned in the high style

  Not to escape the world but to remember it,

  An offering to the dead, to the dead bright ones

  Whose gestures, vivid as they are in song,

  Were doubtless in the flesh more dazzling.

  The Promised Land

  The land of Israel my mother loves

  Gets by without the luxury of existence

  And still wins followers,

  Though it can’t be found on the map

  West of Jordan or south of Lebanon,

  Though what can be found bears the same name,

  Making for confusion.

  Not the land I fought her about for years

  But the one untarnished by the smoke of history,

  Where no one informs the people of Hebron or Jericho

  They’re squatting on property that isn’t theirs,

  Where every settler can remember wandering.

  The dinners I spoiled with shouting

  Could have been saved,

  Both of us lingering quietly in our chairs,

  If I’d guessed the truth that now is obvious,

  That she wasn’t lavishing all her love

  On the country that doesn’t deserve so rich a gift

  But on the one that does, the one not there,

  That she hoped good news would reach its borders

  And cross into the land of the righteous and merciful

  That the Prophets spoke of in their hopeful moods,

  That was loved by the red-eyed rabbis of Galicia

  Who studied every word of the book and prayed

  To get one thread of the meaning right;

  The Promised Land where the great and small

  Hurry to school and the wise are waiting.

  Henry James and Hester Street

  Two or three characters talking in a lamplit parlor

  Beside a fire, the curtains closed—

  So the novel begins, and James is happy.

  What a relief to reach this quiet shelter,

  Back from America, far from the castles of Fifth Avenue,

  From their fresh, unweathered vulgarity,

  Far from change run wild, the past trundled away,

  His father’s dependable neighborhood

  Forced to give ground to “glazed perpendiculars”

  That compel the passersby to feel equal, equally small.

  In the curtained parlor, where tea is being served,

  The banker protagonist fills the cups so graciously

  I’m convinced he’s gathered his treasure with spotless hands,

  His flaws as fine as the hairline cracks

  In the landscapes from the Renaissance that adorn the walls.

  Why shouldn’t James protect his characters from the world

  If that’s what he thinks they need to be free?

  Soon they’ll have problems enough of their own

  Without being made to feel what their maker felt

  Touring Manhattan slums, shoved to the curb

  By hordes of “ubiquitous aliens.” Imagine those crowds

  Hawking and bargaining on Hester Street,

  Their clanging pushcarts and swarming children,

  Immigrants like the couple in the photograph in my hall,

  My mother’s father and mother fresh off the boat.

  Had I stood where James stood back then

  They’d have made me uneasy too,

  Though now I assume they felt even more alien

  Than James felt when he left for good.

  As the banker, setting his cup down,

  Peers at a landscape to inspect some travelers

  Sheltered under a plane tree in a storm,

  I inspect the faces in the photograph

  As they stare out, eager and sober,

  Brave though confused. Their faith in a life

  Whose outlines even now are still concealed

  Inspires me, just as James’s fidelity to his muse

  Must have inspired the younger writers who visited.

  Pulling their coats on, they stepped out into the chill

  And grimy fog they planned to describe in plainer,

  Ruder detail, but in a light more revealing

  Than the murky light of history, the day more meaningful

  Than any November Tuesday in 1913.

  Visiting a Friend Near Sagamon Hill

  If I take this drive as leisurely as I can,

  I may remember, by the time I spot my friend’s house,

  My speech of consolation,

  Which so far seems to have hidden itself

  Among the speeches powerless to console,

  The ones that silence would be an improvement on.

  This road winding through beech and sycamore,

  This spring sunlight filtered and shimmering,

  Reminds me I’m one of the lucky few.

  I too have grown on well-drained soil

  In unstinted sun, smiled on,

  As Homer might say, by Hyperion,

  Not like the stunted, scrubby trees

  Rooting below in marshland.

  Those marsh trees are like my sick friend,

  Whose life hasn’t been sent to test him

  But to sap him, to wear him down.

  One life, and he knows that his one hope now

  Is to be two people,

  The sufferer and the one who observes

  His suffering from above

  As calmly as Zeus observes from grassy Ida

  The warriors fighting and falling at Troy,

  At ease in the best seat in the house.

  That’s it, down there, the little dark spot

  Balancing the highlights on the other side.

  The scene lingers a moment and then fades.

  Zeus drifts back to the clouds;

  My friend discovers himself in bed


  Listening as a car crunches in the gravel drive.

  Now for the task of finding himself delighted

  When his visitor tells him the road from the valley floor

  Has never looked greener, the beech and sycamore

  Escaped from the clutch of winter without a scratch.

  Twenty Years

  I

  Other prisoners you’ve written to

  Must have told you stories like mine,

  How, when they were ten or eleven,

  Their fathers began to drink too much,

  How when the beatings grew too heavy

  They ran loose all night.

  I’m willing to admit that my brothers, as wild as I was,

  Turned out all right. I don’t compare

  Their daily killings on the market now

  With the one killing on my hands.

  All I ask you to see is how much more hate

  I had to keep in check than you had to

  Or have to now, how good feelings,

  When they come to you, come mostly from the heart,

  Unforced, not from the will.

  If I could write well

  I’d write a book on the subject of unequal chances,

  Unequal tests and trials,

  And not mention myself at all.

  The subject must interest you too.

  Why else would you want to write me,

  A stranger and a prisoner? I’m glad you do

  In spite of the days when a bad taste rises in my throat

  As I think how little anger you have to swallow

  Waking each day in the sunlit, carpeted room

 

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