“You don’t think anything could have, you know, happened to them?”
Frieda looked up at her daughter, whose expression had suddenly and drastically morphed from one of annoyance to one of concern. “Of course not,” she said with a lame attempt at a smile. “They probably just got caught in traffic.”
But by eleven thirty Frieda was sick to her stomach with fear. It was now too late to get to the airport in time for their flight. She fought back the panic she was afraid might overwhelm her. She had to keep a clear head for Bella’s sake.
“I’m going to talk to the clerk,” she said, her throat dry. Bella followed her to the reception desk, where Frieda briefly explained the situation.
“I’m not sure what I can do,” the clerk replied kindly. “I’m sorry.”
A burst of loud laughter followed by voices speaking in the local patois caused Frieda to flinch. She just wanted to be back home, safe and sound in their house on Maple Drive. The Braithwaite family. All four of them. She wanted them to be home.
“Can you call the museum?” Frieda pleaded. “Maybe they’re still there. Maybe my husband just lost track of time.”
“I’m scared, Mom,” Bella said, her voice trembling. “Dad never loses track of time. He’s the most punctual guy ever.”
Frieda said nothing. She couldn’t. She stared at the young woman as she placed a call to the museum. She listened to the clerk’s questions and to her maddeningly uninformative replies. After a moment, the clerk hung up.
“Yes,” she said. “An American man wearing a blue shirt and glasses and a girl with red hair were there, but they left about a half hour ago. Would that be your husband and daughter?”
Frieda nodded and swallowed hard. “How long would it take to drive back to the resort?” she asked.
The clerk shrugged. “At this time of the day, ten minutes?”
Bella grabbed her mother’s arm. “Mom, what are we going to do? Something’s happened to them; I know it!”
Mindlessly, Frieda shook her head. Something has happened. Something has happened. And then the glass doors of the reception area slid open and two uniformed police officers walked into the lobby.
“Oh no,” Frieda murmured, grabbing Bella’s hand. “Please God, no.”
“Mom!” Bella cried as the officers walked toward them, their faces set. “Mom! What’s going on?”
“Mrs. Braithwaite?” the taller of the two police officers asked.
Frieda could only nod. She was aware of little whimpering sounds coming from Bella and of a roaring in her own ears. She was vaguely aware that the clerk had come out from behind the desk to stand just behind them.
“Mrs. Braithwaite,” the officer went on, his voice gentle and low. “I’m afraid I have some bad news for you. Perhaps you would like to sit down.”
Chapter 1
Ruby Hitchens stood at the living room window of her house on Kinders Lane, awaiting the arrival of her daughter and granddaughter. She glanced down at her watch, a serviceable Timex she had had for more years than she could remember. It was almost two o’clock. They should be arriving soon.
And for the first time ever Frieda and Bella would be staying with Ruby for the entire summer. It was imperative that they did because just before the one-year anniversary of the car accident that had killed Aaron and Ariel, Bella had suffered a serious setback. Every advance she had made toward happiness had stalled. She suddenly refused to see her grief counselor. She suddenly stopped confiding in her mother. Her interest in the world around her had waned alarmingly. Frieda was at her wit’s end. Ruby was not. She had summoned her family home.
“We can’t let this situation go on,” Ruby had told her daughter. “Bella is slipping away from us and we’re allowing it. Maybe together we can prevent a disaster. We have to believe that we can.”
Ruby shifted and her right leg protested. “Stupid leg,” she muttered. Well, it wasn’t the leg that was stupid; in fact, there was nothing stupid about the incident that had resulted in her right tibia being smashed to bits a little over a year ago. It had happened very early one morning. A fifteen-year-old patient had suddenly gone wild, flying from his bed, tearing out his IV drip and monitor attachments, and thrashing angrily at whoever got in his path. Ruby had joined two other nurses trying to subdue the boy before he could hurt himself, but he managed to break free. Ruby and her colleagues pursued him and Ruby managed to catch the boy just as he tore open a door at the end of the hall. And that’s when it happened. The boy, his eyes wide with fear, roughly pushed her away and she had fallen through the doorway and down that never-ending staircase.
It wasn’t the patient’s fault. A bad reaction to one of the medications he had been given had caused the brief but terrifying event. He had little recollection of the episode afterward and had been released a few days later. Ruby hadn’t been so lucky. Two surgeries; three months of putting absolutely no weight on the leg, which meant getting around in a wheelchair and with generous and uncomplaining assistance from her beau, George Hastings; a slow graduation to a walker and then crutches; and, finally, a cane. Now, sixteen months later, Ruby walked unaided but with a slight limp that she suspected would be hers for life.
A limp she could live with. What Ruby sometimes felt she couldn’t live with was the unreasonable but no less painful guilt she felt about having missed that fateful vacation in Jamaica the previous April. If she hadn’t intervened with that disturbed patient she wouldn’t have broken her leg. If she hadn’t broken her leg she wouldn’t have had to stay home while Frieda, Aaron and the girls went off to celebrate Bella’s sixteenth birthday in style. If she had been in Jamaica with them maybe she could have . . . Could have what, Ruby thought for the thousandth, the millionth time. Could have prevented the car accident that had taken Aaron’s and her sweet Ariel’s lives?
“The little cricket on the hearth has stopped chirping,” Ruby whispered aloud, “and the sweet sunshiny presence has vanished, leaving silence and shadow.” It was a paraphrase of a few lines from Little Women, one of her favorite books. Like Beth, Ariel had been one of those special people whose enormous influence was only fully realized in her absence.
And indeed Ariel’s favorite place to be in her grandmother’s home had been curled up in one of the armchairs in front of the living room fireplace, a big stone structure with a wide mantel and deep hearth. The house surrounding this magnificent fireplace had been built in three stages, starting in 1834. From what scant records there were at the town hall, Ruby had managed to estimate that around 1872 an addition had been added and then, around thirty years later, a new kitchen and, for the first time, a bathroom. There had been a barn on the property at one point but that was long gone; in the mid-1980s the then owners had replaced it with a two-car garage.
After so many years of living in cramped spaces, whether it was an apartment over a store in town or a cottage behind a landlord’s spacious three-story home, Ruby gloried in wandering the many rooms of the farmhouse—nine in all if you counted the mudroom off the kitchen and Ruby did. She gloried in knowing that it all belonged to her and her alone. If there was little cash to leave to her family at the end of what would hopefully be a long life (she was only sixty-four and gunning for another twenty years) then at least there was this structure, solid and tangible, to gift to the future.
There were hooked or braided rugs in every room, many made locally. The aforementioned stone fireplace kept the house heated during the autumn and winter months. The kitchen was painted a cheery yellow and there were lacy white curtains on the window over the sink. There were four bedrooms on the second floor. Ruby’s bedroom was decorated in shades of soothing blues and greens. The second bedroom was a bit smaller; the center of attention there was a beautiful white coverlet with matching white curtains. The third bedroom was painted a rosy pink. In the smallest bedroom, the one with a pullout couch, an enormous wreath of pinecones hung over the bed, a gift from the grateful mother of one of Ruby’s patients.
/> Ruby had found most of the furniture at antique shops and yard sales. Phil Morse, her best and oldest friend and a master of home decoration, had advised her in the art of haggling so that even after the purchase of major items like the pine table for the kitchen Ruby’s budget hadn’t suffered unduly. Even though there was nothing the house really needed in the way of essentials, Ruby still enjoyed cruising flea markets and antique malls for the odd “must have” item, like the bright orange Fiesta Ware vase she used as a container for wild flowers and the milk glass salt and pepper shakers just like the ones Ruby’s mother had owned.
In short, Ruby felt she couldn’t be happier or more content living where she did, in this lovely house in Yorktide, Maine. Well, one thing might make her happier she thought, looking again at her watch. It was ten minutes past two. She hoped there hadn’t been an accident—Stop it, Ruby told herself. Don’t let that happen. Don’t let fear take over, not after all you’ve been through. Not, she thought, when there were so many challenges to face, like the matter of George, that wonderful man who had presented her with a dilemma she wasn’t sure she had the strength to solve.
Just then Ruby spied her daughter’s car as it turned onto Kinders Lane and breathed a sigh of relief. She hadn’t been seriously worried; she hadn’t really thought there had been an accident. Still, the sight of Frieda’s serviceable Subaru pulling into the driveway was very, very welcome.
There was a lot riding on this summer, Ruby thought, hurrying to the front door, most important, her granddaughter Bella’s future. And that meant the future of the entire family. What was left of it.
Chapter 2
“Bella, aren’t you hungry?” Frieda asked. Her daughter’s voracious appetite was well known; even in the weeks after the accident she had shown interest in eating while Frieda had barely been able to tolerate the cups of strong, hot tea people seemed to keep forcing on her. But since the anniversary of Aaron’s and Ariel’s deaths in April, Bella’s progress toward a place of peace seemed to have come to a halt. No, Frieda thought. What had happened was more like a reversal, not simply a halt.
“Not really,” Bella said, pushing another bit of her dinner around the plate.
“Eat something,” Ruby said. “No wasting away allowed in my house. Besides, I’ll take it as an insult to my cooking if you don’t eat.”
Bella gave a ghost of a smile and took a bite of the pasta and calamari Frieda’s mother had prepared.
“So,” Ruby announced suddenly. “Now is as good a time as any to discuss house rules.”
Frieda was surprised. “You’ve never set house rules before,” she said. “I mean, besides the obvious like ‘don’t forget to turn off the burners on the stove when you’re done using them.’”
“True,” her mother told her. “But you’ve never spent more than two weeks at a time under this roof. You’ve always been more my guests than my roomies. This summer it’s different. If the three of us are going to cohabitate peacefully for the next few months we each need to help out around the house. We’ll take turns making dinner as well as cleaning up after it, and that means not only loading the dishwasher and washing the pots and pans and knives but also wiping the table and sweeping the floor. Oh, and scrubbing the cutting board. We can’t have one of us coming down with salmonella poisoning.”
Bella, who had never shown the least bit of interest in housekeeping, didn’t protest her grandmother’s directions, as Frieda might have expected her to. But things were different now. Bella was different. They all were.
“And Frieda,” Ruby went on, “you can share the grocery shopping with me and running whatever odd errand needs to be run. George has been handling most of the yard work since my accident—stupid leg—but he might need assistance at some point. He’s got a home of his own, after all.”
“Sure, Mom,” Frieda said. “Whatever I can do to help.” After all, she thought, her mother had offered a lifeline to her daughter and granddaughter this summer. Without Ruby’s assistance Frieda wasn’t sure she could help Bella in the way she needed to be helped—whatever way that was. “Whatever either of us can do,” she added.
Her mother nodded. “Good. Bella, you’ll need to keep your room clean and tidy, which means changing your sheets once a week and vacuuming the rug and dusting the furniture. And we can each do our own laundry so there won’t be any mix-ups resulting in shrunken clothes, et cetera. I’m partial to my cotton sweaters staying in one piece.”
Bella still didn’t protest these additional chores, but Frieda thought her expression betrayed the slightest bit of rebellion. If that was true, it was a good thing. Bella once again showing some spirit.
“And as for Bella’s paying job—” Ruby began.
“A job?” Bella’s voice held an undeniable note of annoyance. “Why do I have to get a job?”
At last, Frieda thought gratefully. A bit of resistance! “Mom,” Frieda said, “I’m not sure that’s really necessary. Bella needs time to—”
“It will be good for her to get out of the house and interact with people,” Ruby said firmly. Then she turned to Bella. “I’ve arranged for you to work at Phil’s shop twenty hours a week, more if you want the hours. He’ll set your schedule.”
Bella laid her fork on the table. “But I know nothing about curtains and rugs and stuff like that,” she said.
“You’ll learn. Phil’s a good teacher and he’s more patient than most people.”
Frieda watched her daughter’s face closely as the brief spirit of protest faded.
“All right,” Bella said quietly. “May I be excused?”
“Yes,” Frieda said before her mother could usurp her authority.
Bella got up from the table and a moment later Frieda heard her climbing the stairs to her room. She had barely touched her meal.
“Mom,” Frieda said, “don’t you think you’re being too tough on Bella?”
“No, I don’t. Don’t bite my head off, Frieda, but I think you might be indulging Bella’s grief by not urging her into more activity. Have you encouraged her to start studying for her driver’s license again?”
“No. Back in March she said she was thinking about it, but then she told me she was still too scared to get behind the wheel. She said that if her own father—”
“I know what she said,” Ruby interrupted. “But she’s going to have to get past the fear sometime if she’s to be independent.”
“She’s doing all right on her bike,” Frieda protested, but she knew her mother was right. The crushing fear of driving that had come over Bella since the accident had to be conquered. At least Bella found riding in a car tolerable. That was something, wasn’t it?
“And when she wants to go somewhere too far away for her to cycle there, what then? Is she going to rely on you forever? Are you going to allow that?”
“Mom,” Frieda protested. “Don’t be dramatic. It’s only been a little over a year.”
“And what about Colleen, her grief counselor?” Frieda’s mother pressed on. “They were doing good work together from what I could see. Have you told Bella she needs to go back to seeing Colleen?”
“I’ve encouraged her to go back, yes.”
“But have you forced the issue?”
“No,” Frieda admitted.
“You can, you know. You’re her mother; you’re allowed to tell her what to do.” Ruby sighed. “I know you don’t want to hurt her, but I’m afraid you might not be doing what’s ultimately in her best interest by, well, by letting her off the hook. It’s not okay that she not engage.”
There was truth in what Ruby said; Frieda couldn’t deny that. Still . . . “It’s just that I’m so afraid of pushing her too hard or of alienating her to the extent that she’ll never come back to me. To us.”
“I know.” Her mother reached across the table and took her hand. “I do. And I’m sorry if I came across as a bit heavy-handed just now. I’m not opposed to coddling. We all need to be protected from the misery of life at times. But
only at times, or else we become quivering masses of uselessness.”
Frieda managed a smile. “Charlie, my grief counselor, says that avoidance has its place in healing, but it’s a very small place. It’s sometimes hard to remember that.”
“Smart man.” Ruby released Frieda’s hand and sat back.
Frieda sighed and rubbed her forehead. “Bella and I were a comfort to each other after the accident, Mom. What happened to make it all go wrong? I’m so afraid Bella’s setback isn’t only about the feelings the anniversary of the accident brought on. I’m so afraid that I relied too heavily on her this past year and didn’t give her enough of the care she needed. Maybe she just can’t bear the burden of my grief any longer. And if that’s the case, how can I change things? What if I’ve caused irreparable damage to my child by being so selfish?”
Ruby shook her head. “No. I saw how well Bella was doing. She was making real progress. Whatever happened to send Bella slinking back into the darkness had nothing to do with you; I’m sure of it.”
Frieda smiled ruefully. “How can you be?”
“All right then, I’m as sure of your innocence as I can be.”
“Thanks,” Frieda said. “I guess. By the way, where’s George? I thought he’d be here.”
“I asked him not to join us for dinner,” her mother told her. “I thought it would be better for the three of us to be alone this first night.”
“Was he okay with that?”
Her mother smiled. “George is okay with everything. Sometimes I think he’s too good for me.”
“Mom, you completely deserve someone who treats you with the respect and love George shows you. Believe it.”
Her mother didn’t reply but pushed back her chair and stood. “I’ll clear away the dishes tonight. You had a long drive. Why don’t you just relax this evening?”
“Thanks, Mom,” Frieda said gratefully. “I am tired. And Mom? Thanks for asking us to spend the summer with you. I know our being here might cause some disruption to your life.”
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