Many of the other women didn’t fare as well. With their husbands gone there was no one to till the land or slaughter the animals. The few men who were left behind were too weak to do much, even though they tried. With no other options, many of the women moved into the large cities to take jobs in the factories they’d railed against only a few years prior. Slowly but surely everyone in town left and then there were only a few of us hanging on to our way of life.
The war was coming to a close and it was clear the South was losing. The people in Grace who’d put their faith in the Confederacy felt a sense of hopelessness. Many of them had lost their children and their husbands and now they had nothing to show for it.
A few wounded soldiers made it back to Grace only to find that their families had left to try and make it in the cities. They arrived broken and left broken, searching for the wives, children, and mothers. My heart broke every time I saw one of them hobbling along the road.
My farm was one of the few that were still up and running so I invited the soldiers in for a hot meal, caring for their wounds as best I could. I asked each man if they’d seen my husband or heard from him and their answer was always the same. They were apologetic but clueless. No one was sure as to where my love had ended up. A few of the soldiers told me he deserted to fight for the North and I could only pray that they were wrong.
My husband had always had a very strong sense of right and wrong and while it made sense to me that he’d fight for the north, I didn’t want him to be killed. If he was caught he’d be hung without trial. Justice was harsh and unfair in this world.
One day I was helping a soldier to the husk of what used to be his house when the postman came galloping through town, the bag at his side bouncing. A few letters fell out and I gasped, telling the soldier to sit and wait for me. I ran after the postman, picking up as many of the letters as I could. I finally caught up to him, breathing heavily.
He glanced back at me and the sadness in his eyes told me everything I needed to know. My bottom lip trembled as he hopped off his horse and went to the board where the lists of the dead were nailed. Every few weeks he would bring a new list and tack it to the side of the church. It had started out as a small board but now the entire side of the church was covered in the names of the dead men who’d fought in this stupid, useless war.
As the postman got back on his horse and rode off, I approached the new list, my eyes wet with tears. I read down the list of names, stopping when my eyes landed on the one I’d prayed wasn’t there. I clasped a hand to my mouth and wailed, gripping the death notice as I fell to my knees, clinging to the piece of paper and sobbing desperately, reading his name over and over again.
‘Richard Marshall. TRAITOR.’
Chapter Three
The day I lost my husband was the day my world was turned upside down. I was suddenly alone with no one to turn to. My parents had both died of consumption a year before this terrible, awful war. I felt abandoned and even church didn’t bring me solace. I stopped going out completely and I stopped praying. What was there to pray for? It had been made evident to me that prayer didn’t matter. No one was listening.
I stayed curled up in my house, rocking my baby’s bassinet and doing my best to comfort the child. Poor Gabriel had hardly stopped crying since his daddy died. He was just over a year old and he’d never know is father.
Richard had managed to avoid the draft until the very end of the war. If only he’d managed to hide or escape, maybe things would be different, but it hurt too much to speculate about that. I didn’t want to think about what it might be like if my husband hadn’t died because I knew no matter what, he was gone and he wasn’t going to come back. I had to settle with that.
Soon enough the finances ran dry. There was no one left in town to buy my crops or quilts. Even with no money, I was managing. I could grow my own food and make my own clothes. As long as I had a roof over my head I’d be alright. Too bad that was about to be taken from me too.
A few short months after I’d learned of my husband’s death, men from the state government came with a court order. I owed a fine of three thousand dollars for my husband’s desertion. Even though he was dead they were set on collecting the money he owed them for fighting for the North. They offered me cold stares when I told them I’d never be able to pay them. My entire farm, livestock and all, was barely worth three thousand dollars.
They just offered me stiff smiles and tipped their hats my way. “Three months, little lady, or we’ll come for your house.”
The words were cold and raw. They had no forgiveness or kindness to them. It was just another blow that tried to knock me down and they just about succeeded. I was running out of options. I asked the few people in town if I could stay with them, but I had no luck. So many people had lost so much and were barely managing to keep their own heads above water. They were apologetic, but could not offer me any help. Everyone just shook their head sadly and told me to pray.
Their answers discouraged me, but I could not be angry at them. This was now a town full of people who had nothing left. Even if they wanted to help, they had nothing to offer and I understood. If someone came knocking on my door I knew I would not be able to help them. How could I fault my neighbors for being in that very same predicament?
I sat in my living room, crying into my hands. Gabriel was asleep in the bassinet beside me, cooing softly in his sleep. I’d been up all night trying to soothe him and had only succeeded a few hours prior. I was running on empty at this point. I wasn’t sleeping enough and I wasn’t eating enough. I was hungry, sad, and winter was coming. I was about to find myself homeless and without protection from the winter, my son and I would surely die.
It seemed my only option was going to be going into the city and finding work like the other women. Another sob wrenched its way from my chest and I curled up, choking on my tears as they fell and stained the newspaper clipping I’d wrapped some meat in. I opened my eyes slowly, glancing over the ad. It was an ad for a mail order bride. I’d seen these before but never paid too much attention to them.
Some families refused to go to the cities and opted for traveling west instead. The Western lands were starting to become settled, though it was still dangerous. There were roaming bands of natives and wild cats so big they were known to carry off small women and children. Desperation sent most of the families and widows north.
The West had mostly been settled by men looking for gold, adventure, or land of their own, and so there were few women out there. They men eventually became lonely and wanted companionship and a family. The only way to find wives was to send ads back east, begging women to come west. They often paid for the woman’s travel expenses and took care of them once they arrived.
I stared down at the ad, realizing it might be my only hope. I took a chance and responded to it and was a bit surprised to have and envelope with $100 dollars in it arrive a few weeks later. The letter that came with the mail offered an address and instructions that the money was to be used for traveling fees. It was more than enough to cover the cost of a ticket and my meals.
As I stood in the living area of my home, I stared down at the money, tears coming to my eyes, knowing it was going to be what saved us. This was our ticket out and it came just in time.
I left the house for the bank to take, giving my livestock to the neighbors who’d helped me through Richard’s death. Soon I was on my way to Charleston, Gabriel strapped to my back. The ride into town took several days but soon enough I was at the train station with my small suitcase in hand. I bought my ticket and boarded the train, settling in and trying to ignore the air of sadness that seemed to encompass the box car.
Soon the train pulled away from the station and I was on my way to my new life.
Chapter Four
The journey lasted for what felt like months. The money my soon-to-be-husband sent was only enough for me to afford the cheapest seats and meals. I was squished between two larger women who’d insisted o
n wearing fashionable dresses despite their many layers and the heat of the train. It was cold outside but the thick windows didn’t let any of the chill into the stuffy train car.
We made a few stops along the way, one of them being Chicago. I considered getting out and exploring the city for the few hours we were there. It seemed like a good idea until I stepped off the train and saw a man shot right in front of the platform. The man who’d shot him stole his wallet and ran from the scene. No one even stopped him or tried to help the wounded man.
The sight left me in shock and I turned around, running back into the train car and sitting back down in my seat, clutching Gabriel close. We were safe as long as we were in the train. I decided I wasn’t leaving for anything. This wasn’t Grace. I didn’t know my way around these large cities and I certainly didn’t know how to protect myself.
The trip was hard on Gabriel too. He spent most of his time crying or nursing. The rumbling of the wheels made it hard for the poor thing to sleep and the tight quarters didn’t make things easier. I didn’t sleep well while we were on the train and neither did he. It broke my heart to see my poor baby so exhausted. I wanted to help him, but I didn’t know what to do.
I wasn’t sure how much longer I could be on this train and stay sane. The sounds and smells were starting to get to me, but just as I was about to snap we came to my stop: Billings, Montana. It was a fairly large town for the west, though my future husband lived in a small town just outside of Billings called Whispering Hills.
As I stepped off the train, I was assaulted with a sudden wave of surprisingly warm, dry air. Fall was just around the corner so the air wasn’t too hot, but the dryness of it caught me off guard. I gasped softly and rushed into the station, coughing, a hand pressed to my chest. I was all but doubled over, doing my best to catch my breath.
I was sure I was going to choke when I felt a gently hand on my back. “You must be from the South,” a soft voice said, a smile in her tone.
I glanced up, my eyes watering from coughing. A beautiful woman stood before me, chuckling as she offered me copper cup full of water. “Take a drink.”
The water felt good on my dry throat and as soon as I’d drained the mug, I wiped my mouth and looked at the woman who’d offered it to me. “How did you know I was from the South?”
“I’m from Richmond. I had a similar reaction when I got off the train for the first time. The air is quite different here. My name is Rebecca. What’s yours?”
I took a breath and sighed. “Mary. I’m from North Carolina.”
“A beautiful state,” she said, offering a toothy smile. She glanced down at my baby and beamed. “What a lovely little boy!” she sang.
A smile finally came across my face and I nodded. “He is, isn’t he?”
Rebecca didn’t ask my about Gabriel’s father, though she probably already knew. I’m sure she’d heard a million stories just like mine. After a moment of tickling Gabe’s belly she looked up at me and hummed.
“What was your full name? We’ve had a few Mary’s come in today.”
“Mary Marshall,” I said.
Rebecca’s face fell a little and she looked down. “Oh, um, come with me.”
I didn’t like the tone her voice had taken. I could already tell something was very wrong. She led me through the train station and brought me over to a man who wore a clean uniform and wide brimmed hat. His hair was a little too long and swept out of his face, his eyes tired. He looked at me and then at Gabriel, sighing.
“Who is this?” he asked.
“Mary Marshall,” Rebecca said softly.
He sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose a moment. “She has a kid?” he grunted, turning towards Rebecca.
“Sheriff, I don’t think she knows,” Rebecca said quietly.
I instantly became nervous. Was this the man who was supposed to save my child and me from destitution? “I told you I had a child in my letter,” I said frowning, turning to glance at Rebecca. “What don’t I know?”
The Sheriff sighed and removed his hat, scratching his dark hair. Now that he was facing me I could tell he was a handsome man. He had a strong jaw and just enough stubble for it to be mildly attractive. The most beautiful part of his face, hands down though, were his green eyes.
I’d always loved Richard’s emerald eyes because I felt mine were dull and brown. He always told me I had hair like golden wheat and eyes like honey. I never believed him for a second though. How could I compete with those gorgeous green orbs?
Now I was staring into the face of a man who had eyes just as beautiful as Richard’s and it made my heart ache for him. I swallowed as he glanced back at me and crossed his arms over his broad chest.
“I’m not the man you wrote, Mary.”
I frowned a little and took a step back. “Then who are you?”
“I’m the mayor and lawman of this town. My name is Sheriff Mitchell.”
“Where is my husband?” I asked carefully.
Sheriff Mitchell sighed a little and shook his head. “He died. He was helping a nearby rancher and he was trampled to death.”
I felt my legs turn to jelly underneath me, and as I wobbled the Sheriff gasped and reached out, grabbing my elbow to steady me. I could not stop the tears that began pouring down my cheeks. Soon I was pressing myself to the Sheriff, sobbing as Rebecca rubbed my shoulder, trying to calm me down.
“I cannot go back! I cannot go back there! There’s nothing for me there!” I sobbed, clinging to him. “They took my house, the war took my husband and I have nothing! This was my last chance!” I sobbed, my body shaking desperately as I clung to him.
The Sheriff seemed shocked but gently wrapped his arms around me and held me close, clearing his throat. “Now, don’t you worry. We aren’t going to send you back, Mary,” he said gently. “We’ll just have to find you someone else to marry.”
“What do I do until then?” I asked through my tears.
There was a moment of silence before he cupped my cheek and lifted my gaze. I stared into his eyes for a moment and my throat went dry. The world faded away and it was like I was looking into Richard’s eyes again.
“You’ll stay with me,” he said softly.
“ Really?” I asked, hardly believing his kindness.
He nodded. “I’m the Sheriff here. It’s my job to protect the people of this town and now that you’re here, it’s my job to protect you too,” he said gently with a nod.
My eyes welled with tears and I threw my arms around him, holding him tight as tears spilled down my cheeks. “Thank you!”
I could hear the smile in his voice and it warmed my heart. The fear dissipated as he patted my back and gently pulled me away. “Let’s go get you settled, alright?”
Chapter Five
Sheriff Mitchell was the most amazing man I’d ever met. He was kind and patient, offering everyone in town the same amount of respect. He was fair and exactly with this Western town needed. He and a small group of deputies kept order in the city, though they were never unjust. It was a fine balance and they juggled it with impressive ease.
He took me into his home and cared for me as if I were his wife. He lived on a small farm in cabin that only had one bedroom. He offered Gabriel and me the bed and insisted on sleeping near the fire in a makeshift cot. It was more than a little sweet of him and made me care for him even more as the days wore on.
Living with him was easy. He was a kind man and he took to Gabriel quickly, often spending his evenings helping me feed and care for the little boy. I learned that his name was Jared and he’d been born in Billings. His father had been one of the original settlers and was the Sheriff before him. When I told him it suited him he got flustered but thanked me.
Jared seemed like the type of man who didn’t know just how wonderful he was. He went about his day helping everyone else and never took time for himself. His entire life was dedicated to keeping the people of Billings safe and he took that job very seriously.
It was strange to me that Jared didn’t have a wife. How could a man like him not have women falling all over him? I learned quickly that it was his dedication to his job that kept him single. Women threw themselves at Jared, though he hardly seemed to notice. He was too set on caring for the town and the people under his protection.
I seemed to be the only woman who broke that spell. Even though we weren’t married, I took on the role of his wife. If he was going to be so selfless and take care of me and my son, the least I could do was help take care of him as well. I kept the house clean and organized and even managed to help care for the livestock her had on the farm.
He was impressed that I was such a hard worker and seemed even more awed when I explained I’d helped my husband run our farm back home. Jared only had a horse, a cow and some chickens, so caring for them wasn’t that hard; I’d had a lot more responsibility in Grace.
Jared never asked me about Richard, though I didn’t mind. Richard’s death was still a sore spot and I didn’t handle talking about it well. I missed him terribly and whenever I thought about him too long, I’d burst into tears. I missed my home and I missed Richard, but when Jared wrapped his arms around me and held me close all of that pain disappeared for just that moment. The pain of losing everything I’d once known would not ever go away, but I knew it would get easier with time.
The rest of the town accepted me with open arms and Rebecca became a good friend. She was a kind woman with a big heart and a loving spirit. I learned that she had come here as a mail order bride as well, though she wasn’t married before all of this began. She’d been looking for adventure and boy did she find it.
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