“I’m not much of a skier,” she finally said.
She would have preferred to leave it at that but he pressed on. “So why are you here?”
Katie fought the urge to gnash her teeth at what was beginning to feel like an interrogation. “I like it here. Of all my siblings, I probably spend the most time here. This is where I come when I need to relax and recharge. I love the mountains, even in the winter. I like the solitude of it and the slow, easy pace. I guess I just needed a break from the rain.”
“So you decided howling winds and three feet of snow would be more to your liking?”
“It doesn’t snow all the time,” she muttered. She frowned suddenly, remembering something that had been puzzling her since he arrived. “How did you know how to find me, anyway? Only a few people knew I was coming.”
“You know, it’s amazing. The truth can open all kinds of doors. Maybe you ought to try it sometime.”
Before she could control it, her breath caught as the jab poked under her skin. She deserved it, she acknowledged, especially with the secret she still kept from him, the one she knew she could never tell him. Knowing his contempt was warranted didn’t make it any easier to take.
“Who told you?”
“I phoned your office. Once I gave your assistant my name and told her I needed to speak with you on an urgent matter, she was eager to help. She said you were staying at the family ranch and gave me the number here. From there, it was easy to connect the phone number to a location.”
She should have known. If Peter hadn’t been there, Katie would have groaned and banged her head against the back of her chair a few times. She loved her sixty-year-old assistant dearly but Lila Fitzgerald had a romantic streak as wide as the Columbia Gorge. She read the Weekly faithfully and must have seen the picture of them together at the bachelor auction.
Katie could just guess at the wild speculation that must have been running amok through Lila’s feverish imagination when Peter had called looking for her.
What kind of gossip was raging around the water coolers at Crosby Systems about her and Peter Logan because of that blasted picture? There were already some on her team who thought she didn’t have the experience or the know-how to lead the R & D division. What would her co-workers think when they saw a picture of her consorting with the man many considered to be the enemy?
What would her family think?
She already knew Sheila would be livid. She could only be grateful her mother was in Europe and wouldn’t be returning for several weeks. What about Trent and Ivy and Danny? They wouldn’t care so much that Peter was a Logan, but they would worry whether he had hurt her. And when she turned up pregnant, she knew they would wonder at the timing. She just had to hope she could brazen it out.
“I’m still not sure why you went to all the trouble to come out here. If you had the number, why couldn’t we have had this delightful little reunion over the phone?”
Peter didn’t have a rational answer to that. He only knew that the moment he found out where she was, he’d known he would come after her. He’d used the excuse of finding out what she had learned about the super-router project, but the truth was he’d been consumed with the need to see her again, corporate spy or not.
He’d be damned before he told her that, though, and he opted to change the subject. “Are you going to eat this delicious stew or just push it around in the bowl?”
Color crept along her cheekbones but she still looked far too pale for him. “I’m not very hungry.”
“Still feeling sick?”
Her gaze flashed to his, then back to the bowl of stew. “No. I’m fine.”
He didn’t want to worry about her. He wanted to wrap himself up in his well-deserved fury.
She had deceived him, had possibly stolen Logan secrets from him, jeopardizing a project that had been in the works for years. Maybe even jeopardizing his own future at Logan.
She was a Crosby, for hell’s sake. That alone should have been enough to squash any softness he might be tempted to feel.
So why was he fighting the completely inappropriate urge to take care of her?
“Have you seen a doctor?” he asked abruptly.
That color spread until even her nose was pink. “It’s just a—a bug. Nothing to worry about.”
“Is it contagious?”
A corner of her lush mouth lifted at that, then settled back into solemn lines. “No. I can guarantee you won’t catch this particular bug.”
A particularly strong gust of wind rattled the big window, but the merry little fire put out plenty of heat.
Peter couldn’t help wondering what they would be doing right now if circumstances had been different. If she wasn’t ill, certainly, but also if he had never learned her true identity.
Two days ago he would have given everything he had to be right here with the woman who had haunted his dreams for three months. To be alone with Celeste in an isolated ranch house, snug and warm and enchanted, would have been a fantasy come true. They would have snuggled under a blanket and listened to the wind howl outside while they kissed and touched and made love a dozen times.
The reality of their situation was so far removed from that fantasy that he gave a humorless laugh.
“What?”
“Just wondering what your brother would say if he knew I was here,” he improvised quickly.
“I’m old enough that I don’t need to ask my brother’s permission for much these days.”
The depressing reality of their situation here made his voice sharper than he intended. “Do you bother to ask him which unwitting business rivals to seduce, or do you figure that out all on your own?”
He regretted the words and the end to their temporary détente as soon as they escaped, especially when he saw hurt flare in her brown eyes. Was the emotion real, he wondered, or was she just a damn good actress? Whatever the answer, he didn’t like seeing her wounded.
Her chair scraped the wood floor and she pushed it back and rose, her expression now veiled. “I’m tired and I don’t have the energy to trade barbs with you, so what do you say we call it a night?”
He opened his mouth to apologize for his cruelty then stopped himself just in time. He didn’t have a damn thing to be sorry about. She was the one who had screwed him over.
“Sweetwater has six bedrooms suites,” she went on. “Two on this floor and five upstairs. Each has clean linens and a wood stove or fireplace for warmth. I’m sure you’re capable of starting your own fire, or you can sleep here on the couch if you would rather.”
“Kate—” He wasn’t sure what he was going to say. Not an apology, damn it. She cut him off anyway before he could form any kind of coherent sentence.
“Good night, Peter,” she murmured in a voice every bit as cold as that bitch of a wind, then she picked up her bowl with its untouched stew and carried it to the kitchen.
CHAPTER THREE
After her grand exit, Katie knew she had no choice but to hide here in her bedroom for the rest of the night.
It was too early to sleep, only about eight-thirty or so. She was tired enough, certainly—she was always tired these days—but even if she could manage to close her eyes, she had no doubt her mind would continue its wild race. She had a whole assortment of books to read, but none of them grabbed her interest. Why bother when she knew she wouldn’t be able to concentrate on it anyway?
Surrendering to the inevitable, she pulled the quilt up to her chin and gazed into the flames and let her mind replay the night of the Children’s Connection bachelor auction, one small slice of time that had altered the course of her life forever.
* * *
Stand up straight and smile. If you feel beautiful, the world will see you that way. Her best friend Carrie’s advice rang in her ears as Katie stood outside the ballroom at the Portland Hilton.
Trouble was, she didn’t feel beautiful. The borrowed dress was gorgeous and she liked the wispy supershort new haircut Carrie’s stylist had
given her, but she couldn’t help feeling like a fraud.
This was a crazy idea, thinking a new look would change who she was inside, would somehow instantly transform her into someone glamorous and desirable.
Inside she still felt fat and dowdy and shy.
She would have been content to stay forever in the background. But then she received an e-mail from Stacy Cartier, an old friend at boarding school, who happened to mention she’d heard through the grapevine that another of their classmates Angelina Larson had come back to Portland for a visit and would be attending with her husband, Steve—who just happened to be Katie’s ex-fiancé.
She hadn’t seen Steve in years, not since she threw his ring at his head after she overheard him at a party laughing and joking with one of his friends about the little cash cow he was marrying.
She had been forty pounds overweight but she thought he loved her despite the extra weight and her propensity to feel most comfortable with her nose in a book. The realization that he was marrying her only for her family’s money and connections had been a bitter betrayal she wasn’t sure she had ever recovered from.
Though she never wanted to see him again, she was committed to attend this benefit auction. She had to be there but she suddenly couldn’t bear to have Steve—or his wife, Angelina, who had tormented her mercilessly through their childhood—think she hadn’t changed at all in the six years since she’d broken off the engagement. Hence the makeover, the haircut, the borrowed designer gown.
You look good, she reminded herself. Better than you’ve ever looked in your life. Pretend you’re beautiful and the world will see you that way.
With one more deep breath for courage, Katie walked into the ballroom, festooned with magical twinkling lights and holiday greenery.
Maybe this was all for nothing, she thought. In this press of people, she likely wouldn’t even run into Steve and Angelina. For a moment she stood there feeling lost, then she caught sight of her brother Trent talking to a group of people she didn’t know.
She approached him, grabbing another flute of champagne from a passing waiter as she moved through the crowd. She stood behind him for a moment until he finished speaking, then tapped him on the shoulder when the group started to break up.
“What time do they start the bidding?” she asked. Trent was one of the bachelors up for bid; she had agreed to come in the first place only to give him moral support.
He turned at her words, a ready smile on his handsome features that slid away when he saw her. If she hadn’t been so nervous about his reaction she would have laughed at the way his eyes widened and his jaw dropped.
“Katie?” he exclaimed. “What have you done to yourself? Where did you get that dress?”
The momentary delight she had taken at his stunned expression gave way to a flicker of annoyance. She hadn’t expected him to put on his overprotective big brother act. Usually he reserved that for Ivy, since Katie seldom gave him any reason to worry.
“Carrie Summers. She has a whole closet full of designer clothes from her modeling days. Why? What’s wrong with it?” she asked, when he continued to stare.
“Nothing, other than there isn’t nearly enough of it.” He cocked his head and took in all the changes she had made in the last few days. “You look incredible! You cut off all your hair. And where are your glasses? After all the years of Sheila’s nagging, I can’t believe you finally broke down and went for contacts.”
Here’s where things might get a little tricky, she thought. “I, um, had laser correction surgery earlier in the week. That’s why I haven’t been into the office. It was my Christmas present to myself.”
Just as she feared, his commanding features tightened. “Surgery? You had surgery and you didn’t bother to tell me? Why not? If you’d told me, I could have checked out the doctors and the facility, even researched the procedure. Hell, at the very least, I would have at least come with you to hold your hand.”
That was exactly why she hadn’t told him. He would take over like he always did and she would let him. She knew she relied too much on Trent. All of them did. Trent had basically raised all the Crosby children while Sheila was busy with her affairs and her position in society and Jack was busy building a business and carrying on plenty of affairs of his own.
She loved Trent deeply but after Ivy married a few months earlier, Katie realized perhaps she relied on him too much. She needed to stand on her own as Ivy had done, to find her own strength. The surgery was something she’d been thinking about for a long time and she wanted to do it alone. She didn’t regret it for a second; she could see better now than she ever dreamed possible.
“I didn’t want to bother you since I know how busy you’ve been with the super-router project.”
He opened his mouth to argue—probably something about how he was never too busy for his little sister—but before he could utter a word, his name came over the loudspeaker.
“Will Mr. Trent Crosby approach the podium, please? Trent Crosby.”
Katie turned and saw a woman she knew casually, Jenny Hall, giving the announcement.
Trent made a face. “Maybe I’ll luck out and they’re going to tell me they don’t need to put me on the auction block after all.”
She laughed. “You volunteered, buster. I think you’re stuck.”
He studied her for a moment. “You look good, Katie. If you can manage to fight off all the men who are going to be clamoring around you, save me a dance, okay?”
“Of course. Good luck.”
She watched him go to the dais, then scanned the room looking for someone else she knew. The panic that had abated somewhat in Trent’s presence bubbled back. This had to be the craziest idea she’d ever had, she thought again, nabbing her second—or was it third?—glass of champagne off a tray.
Whatever possessed her to think a little window dressing would cover her basic inadequacies? Her shyness, her social fumbling? She was one of those people who faded into the background and usually that was just the way she liked it.
It hadn’t taken therapy for her to figure out it was a learned behavior, developed early when she discovered that if she could manage to avoid attention, Sheila’s mercurial moods and sudden rages would rarely be aimed in her direction.
Trent wanted her here but she wished for once she could have said no to him. As much as she loved him, sometimes her older brother could be as forceful in his way as their father. She should have told him she couldn’t come and stayed home in her little condo in Lake Oswego, where she was comfortable and boring and safe.
She should leave, she thought. Really, her obligation here was done. Trent needed moral support and she had given it. This whole idea was ridiculous. Childish. Even if she saw Steve Larson, he probably wouldn’t care about any of this—the vision surgery, the blond highlights in her hair, the designer dress. He had the beautiful, though poisonous, Angelina on his arm.
She was about to set her glass on yet another tray carried by one of the ubiquitous waiters and make her escape when a tall man in an elegant black tuxedo approached her.
She recognized him instantly. Of course she knew who he was, since his younger self had starred in most of her adolescent fantasies—Peter Logan, oldest son of Terrence and Leslie Logan, and CEO of Crosby Systems’s biggest competitor, Logan Corporation.
She waited for a spark of recognition, then the inevitable cold disdain once he realized she was one of the despised Crosbys. But all she could see in his eyes was frank male appreciation.
For her! Peter Logan was looking at shy, dowdy, plump Katie Crosby like he wanted to devour her from top to bottom.
No, not plump anymore, she reminded herself. After the debacle of her short-lived engagement, she had worked fiendishly hard to whip herself into shape. Instead of the comfort foods she had survived on since her lonely boarding school days, she began to eat a healthier diet and to exercise obsessively.
It took her three years of hard work but she hadn’t been Steve L
arson’s cash cow for a long time, even if she still preferred dressing in baggy clothes and hiding behind thick glasses and long hair.
He smiled at her, then, before she realized what was happening, he gripped her arm and maneuvered her onto the dance floor. Despite her shock at his high-handedness, she couldn’t help laughing. “Smooth. Very smooth. I see your reputation is not unfounded, Mr. Logan.”
To her shock, her voice sounded sultry, smoky, like cognac trickling into a heavy crystal tumbler. Probably because she couldn’t seem to breathe with him so close, with his expensive cologne filling her senses and his fingers entwined with hers.
“Ah, no fair. You know my name,” he murmured, with what she almost thought looked like resignation in his eyes. She studied him for a moment, wondering at it. Perhaps the charmed life of a wealthy, successful bachelor wasn’t as carefree as the world liked to believe.
“Peter Logan, CEO of Logan Corporation,” she murmured, her mind on the memory of another long-ago dance and an act of great kindness he had done for a fat, miserable fifteen-year-old girl at her first society event.
“What woman in Portland hasn’t seen a picture of you in the society pages,” she went on, “and longed to be magically transformed into the latest elegant creature at your side?”
Where did this sudden flirtatiousness come from? she wondered, stunned at herself. She didn’t think she even knew how to flirt! She also hadn’t realized this fantasy of dancing again with him had been lurking inside her all these years.
“Since you know who I am, it’s only fair you tell me your name, then. And address and marital status while you’re at it. Oh, and are you free tomorrow night?”
She laughed and opened her mouth to answer, then snapped it closed again. Suddenly she didn’t want to tell him who she was. When she did—when he knew the woman in his arms was none other than Katherine Crosby—that warm, appreciative light would disappear and he would turn cold and angry.
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