by Beth Hoyer
nice. I asked him why he was giving me the roses. He said he wanted to apologize for getting me sick. I get the feeling he’s cheating on Sue. I could be wrong. It’s just a feeling I have. I sent Sue a video message telling her Kurt sent me roses in a bucket and apologizing for making me sick. I got dressed in the same boring dress as usual, had breakfast and I went outside and put the roses in the ground. Then I walked around town for I was upset and I needed to clear my head. I saw the forest and felt a longing feeling to howl and run in there. I explored the area. I walked home and then I looked online a computer looking for gymnastics stuff. There were books on gymnastics. The books were mostly how to do gymnastics and coaching stuff. Boring
At home I didn’t do much. I took a short nap and was waked up at 5pm by my light blinking. It was dark outside. I went downstairs to the front door. I saw no one outside. I opened the door and looked outside. All I saw was no one but there was a newspaper lying on my doorstep. I picked it up and opened it. The newspaper article showed Penny Smith on the cover being found guilty of escaping from prison and violating my house. Humph. There was a map on the back of the newspaper. I posted the map on the bulletin board. It showed the entire town. The town is kind of small. There are only four roads. The street my house is on is called Rosebud Avenue. What a weird name. I fed the cats and ate. Getting the newspaper was weird. I called Lad on the videophone. I told him about getting the newspaper on my door. Lad explained it was Georgia herself that left the newspaper. She has a new job. Lad seemed distracted when he told me this. He seemed to be lying. I don't know why. We signed off. I cleaned the litter box and put the garbage in the garbage chute which was in a wall in the kitchen. I went to take a shower.
I’m in my bed with the cats on my bed. I left my door open and they both came wandering in. It’s nice having a cat. It is okay except cleaning the litter box is a real bummer.
Today I found my journal lying on me like someone hid it and then gave it back. I woke up feeling sick. I felt awful. I threw up in my wastebasket. I threw up two times. I didn't feel good. I emptied the wastebasket in the toilet. I can’t believe I threw up. The cats came in my room to see what the matter was. I’m tired. Good thing I went to bed early. As I threw up I felt hands on my arms and back as if someone was holding me and comforting me. It was weird but I went back to sleep. I woke up later feeling much better. I had a dream that Mom was shaking me and calling my name. She was shouting something. I don't know what. It was very weird. I called Sean on the phone and reached the video answering machine. I left a message explaining that I threw up this morning. I felt tired. I ate some breakfast. I felt fine. I can’t believe I threw up. I decided to take a nap. I took one. I woke up by the cats jumping and walking around on me. One cat even tried to sit on my face. I forgot to feed them. I fed them. I wrote on a piece of paper what I ate yesterday. Sean called me on the phone. He told me to come over to the medical bay.
I got dressed and walked to a stone arch. This time there was no fog when I walked to the arch. I walked inside and I felt like I was being led through a hallway because of walls on the sides when I spread out my hands to a room. I went to the medical bay and then Sean came to examined me.
I felt sick during the examination that I threw up again in a wastebasket at his office. Sean determined that I have side effects from the virus. He gave me a pill to take along with water to drink. I felt better after that. Sean told me to come tomorrow if I still threw up. He added about getting the stuff I threw up checked. I could have an allergy. I hope not. I walked home feeling fine thru the fog and got to the house fine. I played with the kittens. They loved the game of string. I dangle the sting in front of them and they try to get the string. What a cute game. I felt better. I watched some TV and ate dinner and I‘m working tomorrow. I haven’t thrown up yet. I hope I’m fine. I watched TV. I miss watching gymnastics. I miss the sport. I can’t wait to watch gymnastics. I searched all over the house for gymnastics videos. I went online the computer for gymnastics stuff. I didn’t find a thing. There are over a hundred web sites on the TV shows on TV. I think I’ll go to bed now. Good night.
Feeling Sickly,
Elizabeth
February 20, 2101
Dear Anne,
It was Sue’s day off. Anna was in a good mood. I’m happy about that. We have a new employee. His name is Garret Geroti. He’s in his forties. I saw him working at the credit register. He works fine. He introduced himself to me. He had a confused look on his face. When he talked to me he talked over my head like there was someone besides me. It was like he was talking to the second person. Very strange.
The customers are messy. Hmph. I’m annoyed. I can’t wait to quit this job. I hate it. Argh. I’m in a bad mood. Bruce didn’t stop by. I miss him. I can’t wait to see him. I couldn't wait for my shift to be over. I checked the schedule. I have tomorrow off. I’m glad. I hate working here. I hate it that I’m upset to hate my job. I really have a love hate relationship with my job. I love it one day and I hate it the next day. If Bruce stopped by he could put me in a good mood. I feel relieved. I’m glad my shift ended. I walked home after doing some grocery shopping. I fed the cats. They're always hungry. I put the groceries away. I hope I have a good day tomorrow. The phone rang and it was Sean on the phone. He told me not to eat chocolate. Said my body is rejecting chocolate. I’m upset about that. He added I might have diabetes. I guess its needle shots in the arm. He asked me to come over at noon. He wanted to do some blood tests on me. I was told not to eat a thing. I’m going to be hungry. After Sean called, Sue called. I had a nice chat with her. I told her about being sick in the morning and what Sean told me. She told me she was sick in the morning too. I guess it’s her pregnancy. We chatted for a while then signed off. I went online the computer. I checked out web sites. Then I made a web site on gymnastics for it’s my favorite sport. I know how to make a web site. I learned it in college.
The cats are in my room wandering around doing their thing which is sniffing and playing with my stuff. My room is in a mess. I left dirty clothes strewn on the floor and my backpack hanging on the desk in the room. I left Sue’s old room just the way it is. I haven’t cleaned it. I’m not big on cleaning. Good night. I hope the cats won’t bother me.
Yours,
Elizabeth
February 22, 2101
Dear Anne,
Yesterday I woke up and I walked to the medical bay in this fog. I felt hungry. It took me fifteen minutes to walk there. I waited for someone to come at the door and take me to my tests while Serena was here in the office on the phone. I sat on a bed as needles from a robotic arm drew my blood. I had blood drawn from me three times. Lad was there to interpret. Sean sympathy explained I might have diabetes. I hope not. It’ll mean eating a well balanced diet with no chocolate. I also will have to take a pill every day. The pill helps my body make insulin. I’m glad its pills instead of needles. I walked home. At home Bruce was waiting for me on my front steps. I was happy to see him. He seemed concerned about me. I told him about having diabetes. I hope I’ll be fine with the pills. I let him inside the house. We chatted for a while in sign language. I’m glad sign language is still around. We talked about my doctor’s appointment. Then Bruce kissed me on the lips and left me. I cleaned out my refrigerator. I got a list of foods I could eat from Sean. I took out the food I can’t eat and set them in the living room. I called a taxi to take me to the grocery store. I returned the unopened food items. Then I got food on the list. It involves rabbit food. I mean food such as salads, lettuce, carrots, and fruit. I’m going to miss eating chocolate. Then a taxi drove me home. At home I put the food away. Victoria rubbed herself against my legs. Demeter didn’t mind being held. She’s a lap cat. I ate some salad for dinner with orange juice to drink. I guess I better start liking orange juice. Sean told me a shipment of pills from the other continent is coming over soon. I can’t wait. I don’t want to be sick. It explains why I’m thirsty a lot. It explains it. I drink a lot of water.
I even have a water bottle so I can reach it whenever I’m thirsty when I sleep. After eating I got a video message from Anna reminding me to show up for work tomorrow. She knows that I went to the doctor so she’s cutting back my hours. I hope I’ll be fine…
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I don't know who wrote that but I think it was my ghost in the house trying to communicate with me. I was writing but the journal was taken out of my hands and then I blacked out. I woke up and it was tomorrow the twenty second and discovered this writing in my journal. I can't read it but during the night I had a dream of my mom. She was sitting next to my bed crying. It was like she was upset. I tried to speak to her but my throat tightened up. She was holding my right hand as I lay on the bed. Then my vision clouded and went