by Ava Marsh
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Acknowledgements
Prologue
1 Three Years Earlier
2 Monday, 19 January
3 Friday, 23 January
4 Thursday, 27 January
5 Monday, 2 February
6 Wednesday, 4 February
7 Monday, 9 February, 9.30 p.m.
8 Monday, 9 February, 1.15 a.m.
9 Tuesday, 10 February
10 Friday, 13 February
11 Saturday, 14 February
12 Saturday, 14 February
13 Thursday, 19 February
14 Wednesday, 25 February
15 Thursday, 26 February
16 Saturday, 28 February
17 Sunday, 1 March
18 Monday, 2 March
19 Saturday, 7 March
20 Wednesday, 11 March
21 Thursday, 12 March
22 Friday, 13 March
23 Monday, 16 March
24 Friday, 20 March
25 Saturday, 21 March
26 Sunday, 22 March
27 Wednesday, 25 March
28 Friday, 27 March
29 Saturday, 28 March
30 Monday, 30 March
31 Monday, 30 March, 6 p.m.
32 Tuesday, 31 March
33 Tuesday, 31 March
34 Wednesday, 1 April
35 Tuesday, 7 April
36 Tuesday, 7 April
37 Wednesday, 8 April
38 Thursday, 9 April
39 Friday, 10 April
40 Friday, 10 April
41 Saturday, 11 April
42 Saturday, 11 April
43 Saturday, 11 April
44 Monday, 13 April
45 Monday, 13 April, 3 p.m.
46 Tuesday, 14 April
47 Wednesday, 15 April
48 Thursday, 16 April
49 Friday, 17 April
50 Easter Sunday, 19 April
About the Author
Copyright
UNTOUCHABLE
Ava Marsh
For JR. And everyone else I’ve neglected while writing this.
Acknowledgements
Gonna keep this short and sweet. Big thanks to everyone who helped launch Grace into the world, particularly my agent Mark Stanton, for his boundless enthusiasm, patience, and sage advice. Also my lovely editors at Transworld: Frankie Gray, Katy Loftus, Rachel Rayner and Kate Samano. And Claire Ward for her outstanding artwork. Thanks also to the rest of the team at Transworld, who’ve worked so hard behind the scenes to make sure you’re reading this now.
Prologue
‘So, Grace,’ he says. ‘Here we are.’
The temperature in the room drops several degrees. The breath catches in my throat and I swallow hard.
He knows my name.
He knows my fucking name.
‘Why are you here?’ I ask, struggling to keep any trace of fear from my voice. ‘What do you want?’
He smiles, finally, but it has no warmth in it. ‘I came to deliver something, Grace.’ His tongue sliding over my name, caressing it.
‘What?’
He raises his hand, and I flinch, but he strokes my cheek.
‘A message from Michael.’
The hand drifts lower to my neck. He stares deep into my eyes, his features giving nothing away as his grip around me tightens, his fingers digging into my skin while his thumb traces the line of my throat. At the base, in the hollow where it joins my chest, he presses down. Not enough to stop me breathing. Just hard enough to make me very afraid indeed.
My pulse starts to sing in my head, and all I can feel is the constriction in my throat, this man’s breath on my cheek as he leans in and whispers three words in my ear. Three words like punches, like a kick to the guts.
‘Michael says hello.’
1
Three Years Earlier
You expect more the first time you turn a trick. You hear about women who throw up the moment the client walks out the door. Some resort to hysterics, or the bottle. Others are overcome with remorse, resolving never to do it again.
In my case, nothing. He came. He came – eventually. And then he left.
Sliding the lock behind him, I felt no more than a vague sensation of having lost my virginity all over again. I walked into the bathroom and examined my face in the mirror above the sink. Searching, as after fumbled, hasty, anticlimactic sex at fifteen, for clues to what had changed.
Not much, it seemed. Same sleek dark hair, though underneath eyes more weary two decades on. The hint of a wrinkle I allowed to elude my focus, this not being the time for self-doubt.
So that’s that, I told my reflection. You’ve sold yourself for money. You’re a whore, Grace Thomas, a prostitute, a hooker, a harlot, a working girl.
I released myself from my own gaze, feeling slightly numb and slightly elated. I’d crossed the line and there was no going back.
Once a tart, always a tart. Another thing I’d never live down.
2
Monday, 19 January
Forget violent clients or venereal disease, the true scourge of working girls is tax returns – at least for those of us who bother to file one. How to describe your business, for instance? The get-out clause on every independent escort’s website – being paid purely for ‘time and companionship’ – won’t wash with the Inland Revenue.
I opt for my standard evasion: personal therapist – vague enough to obscure the real source of my earnings, truthful enough to pass muster should anyone dig deeper. Grabbing my calculator and diary, I tot up my appointments. Three hundred and thirty-six hours at an average of £250 per hour gives me an income last year of … blimey … a gratifying £84k.
That’s before expenses, of course. I tap my pen against my teeth, trying to remember what I can claim for. Condoms and lube, certainly. Cost of website and updating photographs, yes. Taxi fares – probably.
But stockings? Clothing? Make-up? Brazilians? Vibrators? Batteries?
And how much for working from home? Assess how many rooms you use for business, suggests one website, and for what proportion of the day. Hmm. I see around half my clients as in-calls, here at my flat. So if I spend around seven hours a night sleeping in my bedroom and, say, an average of three or four a week fucking in it, what proportion does that make for business use?
And what about the lounge? If I screw someone on the sofa, does that count as using the room for work purposes?
The trill of my mobile cuts through my ruminations. I check the screen – a London landline. I answer on the fourth ring.
‘Stella?’ He sounds American. Or possibly Canadian – I can never tell the difference.
‘Yes?’
‘My name is Gerald. I wonder if you might be free this afternoon. For an hour?’
I think for a moment. I should really get this done – the deadline’s in a few days. ‘Where?’ I ask.
‘The Randolph Excelsior. Knightsbridge.’
I check the clock on my phone. It’s nearly one. ‘What time?’
‘I was hoping two o’clock. Does that suit?’
Another set of calculations. An hour to finish this – or at least wrestle it into submission. Five minutes to eat. Ten to shower and run a razor over all the bits that count. Add ten to dress and slap on some make-up, fifteen to dash to Boots for more condoms, and at least twenty to get to the hotel.
‘Three would be better,’ I say.
He hesitates. ‘Three o’clock is too late. A quarter after two?’
I inhale, make up my mind. Tax dodging it is.
At exactly 2.15 p.m. I’m standing outside Room 759, savouring my last few seconds off the clock. And the anticipation. You never qui
te get over it, having no idea who’s about to appear at the door, knowing in just a matter of minutes you’ll be as intimate as two people can be. Suspense has proved an enduring aphrodisiac.
The door swings open to reveal a tall, slim man with an unexceptional face. Probably in his early fifties, judging by the lines around his eyes and the recession in his hairline. Though his teeth as he greets me are improbably white – I’m guessing he’s had them bleached.
Gerald Archer stands aside to let me in. I give the place a quick once-over. The room is larger than a standard suite, the bed flanked by two dark, solid bedside tables. The curtains and walls are all muted beige; even the art print on the wall confines itself to tasteful neutrals.
Meanwhile Gerald conducts his own evaluation, his face expressionless as he takes me in. I smile, but he barely responds, and I wonder with a slight lift in my stomach if this is going to be one of those occasions when a client gets cold feet. It happens sometimes. A crisis of conscience, perhaps; or simply a case of not particularly liking what he sees.
I hover in the middle of the room, waiting for some kind of reaction. Gerald’s lips lengthen into a tight smile. ‘Would you like a drink?’
I shake my head. ‘No thanks.’
He nods. Pours himself a Scotch from a bottle on the desk. Takes a sip and sets the glass back down.
‘You warm enough?’ He gestures towards the thermostat on the far wall.
‘Thanks, I’m fine.’ To prove the point I remove my jacket, folding it over the back of one of the armchairs.
Gerald eyes me again as the TV chatters away in the background. He makes no move to switch it off, but then I’ve lost count of the number of North American clients who think it’s perfectly normal to screw to a soundtrack of CNN.
‘I apologize for it being rather last minute,’ he says finally.
‘No problem.’ I’m wondering now if I’m here because another girl cancelled.
‘I wasn’t sure of my schedule, you see. Not till this morning.’ His lips barely move as he speaks, giving his face a shifty look. I glance at his feet. He’s wearing red socks, a blaze of colour in a room full of understatement.
‘You look nice,’ he says, taking in my grey Whistles sheath dress and black executive-height stiletto boots. ‘Very chic.’
I relax a little. Perhaps I was actually his first choice.
Gerald picks up the whisky glass and downs the remainder, then steps towards me and plants his mouth on mine. Cut to the chase, why not? I taste the Scotch on his breath, and beneath it something more pungent. Garlic, maybe. I repress the urge to draw away. This, after all, is what I’m paid for – the willing suspension of disgust.
‘I’ve been looking forward to fucking you,’ he murmurs, drawing back, eyes locking with mine. His are the kind of blue that fades with age, surrounded by heavy lids that echo the hint of jowls along his jawline. Otherwise, he’s not too bad. Handsome even – or at least was once.
‘Do you mind?’ I nod towards the TV. He reaches for the remote and switches it off, then slips an arm around my waist, dropping his head to kiss my neck.
No awkward small talk. No inane attempts to make this feel like anything other than it is.
He releases me and I bend to unzip my boots, then take his hand and lead him to the bed. We undress each other quickly. He pushes me on to the pristine white sheets, burying his head in my crotch, his tongue drumming against my clitoris with an insistence that makes me flinch.
He doesn’t take the hint. I endure it for a minute or so, then fake an orgasm. Nothing showy. You don’t have to go all When Harry Met Sally. A hitch in your breath, a couple of urgent gasps, a final undulating moan – that usually does the trick.
Gerald lifts his head, chin glistening, eyes glinting with satisfaction. Nothing flatters a client more than thinking they’ve got you off; it’s the challenge, perhaps, or the reassurance. They may pay for every minute of your time, but most want to believe you’re enjoying it as much as them.
And sometimes I am. Just not today.
‘One second.’ I slip off the bed and grab a condom from my bag, tossing it on the bedside table. It’s then I notice the book – an Anne Tyler novel, the one about the couple who marry during the war. Next to it a pair of reading glasses, lilac with small diamante chips on the outside of the frames. The type only a woman would wear.
Why not hide them, I wonder. A simple omission, possibly, or is he trying to make me uncomfortable? I consider asking, then remind myself I’m not his therapist; I’m here to deal with his cock, not his cognitive style.
I turn back to Gerald, who’s stretched out on his back, arms folded behind his head, watching me. I avoid his gaze. Look instead at the dark nest of his pubic hair. There’s no sign of an erection, so I bend down and take him in my mouth, changing the rhythm as he enlarges, trying to keep my thoughts on the job at hand. Done with full concentration, fellatio can be almost meditative; just my mouth and a prick, a little dance of mutual satisfaction. But my mind keeps wandering to the glasses on the table.
No wonder he was so antsy about the time. I feel a wave of revulsion, and drag my focus back to his erection. Cocks, in themselves, are rarely repellent. It’s easier to hide your antipathy if you concentrate on this – the business end – rather than the dick it’s attached to.
‘Stop.’ A slight gasp in Gerald’s voice tells me I’m in danger of going too far.
I sit upright, offering him a languid smile. ‘Too much?’
‘Nice,’ he says, his eyes not quite meeting mine, ‘but maybe a bit too nice.’
‘Let’s take a breather.’ I glance at the travel clock on his bedside table. Still half an hour to go.
Three years in the business and I’ve learnt that pace is everything. It’s not rocket science. You’re working on roughly one ejaculation an hour for most guys over thirty – any more is too much effort, and puts you at risk of going over time; any less and, well, you can forget that repeat business.
But Gerald clearly has other ideas. ‘Come here.’ He beckons me back up the bed. I fold myself into his outstretched arm. He reaches over and caresses my breast as I trace a line down his belly with my forefinger and curl my hand around his balls, giving them a gentle squeeze of encouragement. I don’t want him wilting on me.
Premature ejaculation and a flaccid penis – Scylla and Charybdis, the rock and the hard place. The two hazards every working girl has to navigate.
Twisting round, I grab the condom from beside the clock. Rip the foil with my teeth, checking it over briefly before unfurling it over him. It’s tight, the rubber extending only two-thirds of the way up his shaft and pinching a bit at the top. It’ll have to do – Boots were all out of large.
I sit up and straddle him, lowering myself on to his erection. Gerald closes his eyes as he eases into me, slowly, firmly, lifting his hips to meet my downward thrust. I toss out a few responsive noises, until Gerald stops moving. He pulls out and removes the condom, then pushes me on my back and thrusts his cock in my mouth. A few jerks and he shudders into stillness. I swallow fast, but the hot, saline tang of his semen scalds my taste buds and I fight the urge to grimace.
‘Well …’ Gerald says as I wipe my lips with my fingers. ‘That was fun.’
‘Mmmm.’ I try to sound appreciative.
Gerald sinks back into the pillow. His face is impassive, his mouth a half-smile.
‘So tell me, Stella,’ His tone deeper now, more relaxed. His gaze cool. Assessing. ‘Does your boyfriend mind?’
‘Mind what?’
He raises an eyebrow. ‘You doing this.’
I eye him steadily. ‘Does your wife?’
Gerald’s left eyelid twitches. Slowly, stiffly, his lips contract, then he looks away. He’s up and off the bed before I can even think how to excuse myself. Wrapping himself in a dressing gown, he retrieves his jacket and hands me the envelope with a tight expression.
‘Thanks,’ I say, taking this as a dismissal. I dress quic
kly, silently. Gerald stands with his back to me, pretending to examine something outside the window. Turns only as I head for the door. His cheeks are flushed and I can’t tell if it’s from the sex or my verbal indiscretion.
‘A word of advice, Stella.’ His voice has a hint of quaver, there’s a tension in his expression as he speaks. ‘When you manage thirty years of marriage, you get to judge, OK?’
I nod, genuinely abashed. Let myself out the door.
Neither of us bothers with goodbye.
Pressing the button for the lift, I dig in my bag for my inhaler. Release a blast of salbutamol deep into my throat. My chest feels hot and tight. I want to get out of here, into the fresh air, find the nearest bar or café. Get something to chase away the taste of Gerald, of this whole inglorious episode.
What the hell happened back there, I ask myself as I will the lift to arrive. I never used to be so touchy. I let the crap clients said wash right over me, just deleted it in my head, like so much junk mail.
Another minute passes. I press the button again. Wonder if I should take the stairs. At that moment the lift doors slide open. I dart in, too fast to see the woman exiting. We collide awkwardly, and I drop my bag.
Half a dozen little foil packets spill on to the floor.
‘I’m so sorry,’ she gasps, though it was conspicuously my fault.
‘No, no. It was me.’ I stoop down to grab the condoms. Praying she hadn’t time to register what they are.
‘These elevators you have over here,’ she says, in a distinctly American accent. ‘They’re so small. It does take some getting used to.’
I stand to see a middle-aged woman, a Hobbs carrier in one hand, a dry-cleaning bag containing a man’s suit in the other. My cheeks start to burn. My hand trembles as I fumble with the clasp on my handbag. I force myself to look at her face, worn, plump, but amiable. Kind.
Giving me the benefit of the doubt.
‘I’m so sorry.’ I jab the button for the ground floor. ‘All of it. Entirely my fault.’
Her smile is warm. ‘Don’t worry, dear. These things happen.’ The lift door closes between us, sparing me the sight of her walking away.