Terri considered this. “Pakistan is easier,” she replied. “But let’s put Syria aside. Your ‘Al Zaroor’ is clearly headed for the Bekaa Valley, which is controlled by Hezbollah. You’re piling risk on risk.”
Brooke felt a rising urgency—if he could not persuade Terri, he might fail altogether. “Long before Hezbollah existed, the Jefaar smuggling clan ran contraband through the Anti-Lebanon Mountains into and out of the Bekaa—hashish, guns, antiquities. Even now, Hezbollah doesn’t control every inch of territory—”
“But assuming you can smuggle in the bomb, how do you get it to Israel?”
“By private jet from the Bekaa.”
“From an airstrip? Improbable.”
“From anywhere,” Brooke responded. “According to Carter, back in the seventies the Outfit helped foreign arms dealers supply the Maronite militia. They’d fly into the Bekaa at night, land in an open field, trade the guns for hash, and take off in fifteen minutes. Our operative would know that.”
“What about the Mossad? They’ve got an intelligence network in the Bekaa looking for Hezbollah rocket sites and underground military installations.”
“Less so now. When I was there, Lebanese intelligence—with information from Hezbollah—rolled up a network of informants working for the Mossad. Do you really think those Lebanese didn’t give up their Israeli handlers? Mossad’s been wounded, including in the valley. Our operative knows that, too.” Brooke put down his fork. “His problem in the Bekaa is Hezbollah. But their presence is also a temptation. Al Qaeda has already launched rockets at Israel from Hezbollah-controlled territory. What would happen if a plane from the Bekaa Valley demolishes Tel Aviv? Especially if Israel—as they undoubtedly would—knows where the plane took off?”
Terri stared at him. “You think they’d attack Iran with nuclear weapons.”
“And Hezbollah, destroying Shia power while setting the stage for Bin Laden’s caliphate.”
Terri rested her chin on her palm. “Have you tried this on anyone else?”
“Carter. He didn’t challenge my thesis; he simply directed me to get the bomb through Lebanon to Israel. I just did.”
Silent, Terri poured more wine for both of them. At length, she said, “I’ll comb our shop for whatever our signals intelligence people might have, or anything strange in Syria or Iraq. But you want something more.”
Brooke hesitated. “Your support.”
“I’d assumed that. But for what?”
“I want to go back to Lebanon.”
Terri sat back, puffing her cheeks before she expelled a breath. “Some people will say this is personal to you. In a word, that you’re obsessed.”
Though he was not surprised, Brooke felt stung. “Do you think I am?”
“Honestly? Perhaps. You haven’t told me the end of your story—the death of your agent, or the incident that got you pulled out of Beirut.” She paused a moment. “But that doesn’t mean you’re wrong. If you want my help with Brustein, you’ve got it.”
SEVEN
On the night he was to enter Iraq, Al Zaroor paced the beach on Failaka.
Haj was late. One hour passed, then another, Al Zaroor fearing that his design had been shattered. He felt helpless, despising himself for that. At last, near 2:00 A.M., he heard the low thrum of a motor, and wondered if this were enemy or friend. He backed from the sand into the low grass, preparing to hide.
The prow of the motorboat slid to shore, its motor silent. A flashlight traced a circle in the darkness.
Al Zaroor moved forward, his steps feeling heavy in the sand. The form of a man stepped from the boat and, seeing Al Zaroor, came toward him.
“Allahu akbar.”
Haj’s voice. Closing the distance, the two men embraced. As he pulled back, the fighter’s face was grave. “There’s trouble,” he said. “I couldn’t risk calling you.”
“What trouble?”
Haj grimaced. “The dummy shipment was intercepted at a checkpoint, by the American fools who search for drugs. Perhaps they were groping in the dark. But your caution may have surfaced an informant.”
Al Zaroor felt the coldness coming over him. “Then you must kill him.”
“I would, if I knew who he was. But I can’t say whether he belongs to the truckers or to us. Or even if he exists.” Haj’s voice became apologetic. “This may be an accident, nothing more. But I can no longer assure you of safety.”
Al Zaroor imagined Americans scouring Failaka with their Kuwaiti stooges. Steeling himself, he said, “Have you come here only to report your doubts?”
Haj stood taller. “We know our business, brother. We’re working on an alternative.”
“How long?” Al Zaroor snapped.
Briefly, Haj bowed his head. “I ask your patience for two more days.”
Two precious days, Al Zaroor thought. “So I wait with my package for whatever comes.”
In the half-light, Haj’s face had a determined cast. “You will wait for us,” he answered. “If anyone dies before then, it will be the person who betrayed us.”
Al Zaroor closed his eyes, schooling himself to patience. His plan had provided for treachery and mischance; that was why he had embedded decoys. “It doesn’t matter who else dies,” he said. “I did not come this far to fail.”
Haj looked him in the face. “Nor will we fail you.”
Driving home from dinner with Terri, Brooke watched the rearview mirror. He supposed he always would. But another level of his consciousness slipped further into the past—a winter afternoon in New York City; a warm night in Mexico. Way stations to the life he was leading now.
On a blustery Sunday in March, he had gone with Anit to the Film Forum. The offering was Point of Order, the venerable documentary about Joe McCarthy’s witch hunt for “traitors” in the army. Anit emerged fascinated by the vulpine persona of Senator McCarthy, bullying and blustering his way through the ruin of his victims’ lives until, too late, he was ensnared in his own excess. Emerging from the theater into a bitter, chafing wind, Anit said, “How could such a man wield so much power?”
“Paranoia. The Soviets had stolen the secrets to our atomic bomb. So every Communist sympathizer—real or imagined—became part of this ‘conspiracy.’” Brooke put his arm around her. “Frightened people aren’t always discerning about who their enemies are. McCarthy was clever enough to exploit that, and amoral enough not to care about who got hurt.”
As they walked, Anit burrowed into him, sheltering her face from the weather. They decided to stop at an espresso bar. Safely inside, she conceded, “I’m not built for winter, I guess.”
“Just as well. It’s hard to imagine you as a Swede.” Brooke studied the snowflakes spattering the window. “Truth to tell, I suffer from seasonal affective disorder.”
Anit nodded in recognition. “SAD, I’ve discovered they call it—and no wonder. It’s like becoming trapped in an endless Bergman film.”
“True enough. Though some people claim that winter helps them savor spring.”
Anit shrugged. “Do they also need pneumonia to enjoy its absence?”
Smiling, Brooke considered her. “There is a solution for us,” he proposed. “A place in Mexico, Cabo San Lucas. It only rains there eleven days a year. So far I’ve missed them all.”
She gave him an amused, affectionate look. “The charmed life of Brooke Kenyon Chandler. Do you ever run out of ‘places,’ I wonder?”
“Not with you, I hope. Why don’t we go there?”
“You can just do that,” she said flatly.
He felt slightly embarrassed. “As you say, I’m lucky.”
“I no longer mind,” she assured him. “But it bothers me not to pay my way.”
He took her hand. “Let me do this, Anit. You’re what luck is for.”
She smiled at this. “What would we do, I wonder, with all that sun?”
“Use our imaginations. Maybe take some time to talk.”
She seemed to follow his unspoken thoughts
. Softly, she asked, “About what?”
“Our lives,” Brooke answered simply.
She loved it. Swiftly, Brooke discovered that Anit Rahal was a nature sensualist—just as endless winter deflated her, sun and warmth and endless ocean exhilarated her. She seemed to shed her cares with the first layer of clothes. Grinning as she ran into the surf, she proclaimed, “I’m a child of the Mediterranean.”
Brooke grabbed her hand. “I think you’re a child of the shtetl,” he joked, “haunted by ancestral memories of Russian winters.”
She gave him a sideways look. “Don’t forget pogroms,” she said, and dove into the water.
She swam with savage energy, as though she were fleeing her enemies, or bent on winning a race. At that moment Brooke knew that he wanted her for the rest of his life. Right now they had a week.
Brooke had found a casita overlooking the Pacific. In its walled garden was a pool where they could swim without clothes. They ate breakfast and dinner on the porch above, shaded by a palapa made from palm leaves as they watched the first and last sunlight tint the water shades of yellow and aqua. They jogged along the shoreline in midmorning; walked the hills in later afternoon. In between they read and made love and slept naked in the warmth. Anit seemed to devour the days.
In two months, Brooke well knew, she was due to return to Israel.
The knowledge shadowed his pleasure. Away from New York, their conflicting attachments to different lives, he felt the life they could have together. His need to say this nagged at him. Cabo San Lucas, he felt certain, was more for them than a state of mind.
On the fourth morning in Mexico, they walked in the surf. Abruptly, Brooke asked, “What do you tell Meir?”
She gave him a guarded look. “About what?”
“Us.”
She turned her gaze to the surf ahead. “That I’ve met someone I like. That we spend time together.”
“That’s all?”
“Not all.” She stopped, facing him. “What would you have me say?”
He was not quite ready, Brooke realized; perhaps he was afraid. “Let me sleep on that,” he said. “Then maybe we should talk.”
“All right,” she responded matter-of-factly, and continued marching through the surf. But in the next days, there were moments when she seemed subdued. Silence made Brooke a keen observer of her moods.
Two evenings before the end of their time in Mexico, they took a picnic to the beach at sunset. Shoulders touching, they shared cold lobster and ceviche and a chilled bottle of Mexican Chardonnay. As darkness enveloped them, they slipped out of their clothes. “I want you,” she whispered. “Now.”
They made love with a new, almost desperate intensity that seemed to come from Anit. Afterward, she lay on his shoulder. The night sky was crystalline with stars; the air smelled faintly of salt. Perhaps Brooke only imagined the silent tears he felt where her face touched his bare skin.
The next morning, they climbed on a rock and sat watching the water glisten with first sunlight. After a time, Brooke said, “You asked what I’d like you to tell Meir. As hard as it may be, I have an answer.”
Though trained on the water, her eyes seemed troubled. “What is it?”
Brooke paused, then spoke with far more confidence than he felt. “That you’ve decided to finish school at NYU.”
She faced him now, her gaze hooded yet unsurprised. “Why would I do that?”
“So we can live together.”
She smiled a little, though this seemed tinged with sadness. “And then?”
He took her hands in his. “And then the next year, and the next. The beginning of our life.”
Her hands were limp, as though all her energy were absorbed by their words. “Where do you imagine us living?”
Brooke tried to feel encouraged. “We’ll pick a place together,” he said lightly. “Somewhere warmer than New York.”
“But not Israel.”
“That’s not what I was thinking, no.”
Anit stiffened. “So this life of ours requires that I abandon my homeland.”
Pausing, Brooke framed his answer. “Without being sentimental, America is everyone’s place. For a host of reasons, Israel is a Jewish place; that’s its reason for being. It’s not meant to be my place.”
“And our children,” Anit asked bluntly. “Will they be Americans, too?”
Brooke shook his head. “If we’re both academics, we could spend the summer in Israel. Our kids would be dual citizens.” He summoned a smile. “If both of us don’t start cross-breeding, our descendants will have sloping foreheads and crossed eyes. We owe this to the species.”
She shook her head with a mixture of fondness and dismay. “You would say that, Brooke Chandler.”
“Actually, Ben said it first.”
“Then maybe I’ll take it more seriously.” The trace of humor vanished from her eyes. “I promise to think about all you’ve said. But I can’t talk about it now. Just give us this time, okay?”
Hopeful and deflated, Brooke pledged that he would.
A decade later, in a city fearful of extinction, Brooke Chandler drove to Langley in sparse commuter traffic. The exodus was swelling.
He worked alone for several hours, refining al Qaeda’s route from Iraq to the Bekaa Valley. In midafternoon, Terri Young opened his door.
“Good news,” she told him, “if you can call it that. I’ve found something—two things actually. They may help you look a little less like Captain Ahab.”
EIGHT
For an hour, Brooke and Terri reviewed their theory with Carter Grey. At the end Grey, satisfied, called Noah Brustein to request a meeting.
The deputy director’s schedule was jammed: after huddling with the president’s task force, he was scheduled to brief leaders of the House and Senate. All Brooke could do, Grey told him, was to prepare himself for whatever time Brustein could spare.
Brooke worked into early evening, outlining his thoughts on paper in anticipation of challenges and questions. At last, confident that he had done his best, he let his mind go where it would.
Often, this was useful. He had long since learned that the subconscious, left to itself, surfaced insights that the conscious mind passed over. But on this night, as often lately, his thoughts returned to Anit Rahal.
Whatever had become of her, it was not what Brooke had wanted.
Three weeks after their return from Cabo San Lucas, the first breath of spring, breezy and temperate, had inspired Brooke to call her—a round-trip on the Staten Island Ferry was one of the city’s undiscovered pleasures, and free at that. Though she sounded subdued, Anit had agreed.
The ancient boat they took was a triple-decker with its bottom deck devoted to cars, and a top deck where passengers on long wooden benches could take in Manhattan from the water. Rounding the tip of the island, Brooke and Anit gazed at the stunning, solitary heights of the Twin Towers, impressive even at a distance. “Have you ever been there?” Anit asked.
“Twice. Once to visit Ben; once with my parents to the top-floor restaurant. Both times, the height seemed unnatural—I couldn’t shake the feeling that the damned thing was destined to topple over. To be that high flattens everything out.” Brooke sipped his beer. “I told Ben that his view was a metaphor for the financial community: too much distance, too little perspective.”
“What did he have to say?”
“He patted me on the shoulder, promising never to forget the little people.”
Anit smiled a bit. “That’s so like Ben.”
Something in her tone sounded valedictory, as though recalling a friend from her past. Warding off this intuition, Brooke pointed out landmarks—Ellis Island, where both Ben’s and Aviva’s ancestors had arrived from Poland; the strange, deserted landscape of Governor’s Island; the Statue of Liberty, which Anit confessed that she found mysteriously forbidding; the tugboats shuttling barges filled with trash, or oil from refineries in New Jersey. But beneath the surface of the day, Brooke fear
ed the drift of Anit’s thoughts, wondering if she had decided their future. Lately he seemed to think about little else. As troubling as Anit’s silence was Ben’s reticence when Brooke spoke of her; beneath his banter, Ben was a tender and perceptive man. Brooke had been too cowardly to probe this.
Beside him, Anit had fallen into a trance, so still that the only movement was the breeze rippling her black curls. He looked around them, assuring himself that no other passenger could hear. “Are you okay?”
In profile, she shook her head. A single tear trickled down her cheek.
“What is it, Anit?”
“So many things. There was a suicide bombing, in Haifa. A classmate from high school, Jordana, was celebrating her parents’ anniversary.” Anit closed her eyes. “Jordana was an only child. Her parents lived. It’s unnatural for a family to end in such a way. And yet it keeps happening to us.”
Brooke felt a torrent of emotions: horror and pity for this man and woman he did not know; revulsion for the “martyr” who had done this, and the ideology that compelled him; a selfish relief—shameful even in the moment—that Anit’s response did not damn his hopes. But when he put his arm around her, she did not respond.
“I’m sorry,” he said helplessly.
“Whenever I hear such stories, I shrink inside. But this is someone I knew.” Her voice caught, then steadied again. “If I were still on the border, I find myself wondering, would we have caught him? Then I tell myself not to be stupid—that you can’t measure each day by what you’ve done to prevent someone else’s tragedy. I can even hear your voice in my ear.” She turned to him, finishing quietly, “But then I hear my own. It’s one thing to seek your own happiness, another to make that your only reason for being.”
“What are you saying, Anit?”
In that moment he saw naked sadness in her eyes. “I can’t be with you, my love. However deeply a part of me may want to.”
Brooke steadied himself, determined not to give this woman up. “Then either way, Anit, you lose.”
Her eyes dampened again. “Do you think that I don’t know that? Do you imagine that some other woman laughed with you, made love with you, told you when she was happy or sad? That was me, Anit Rahal.” She softened her voice. “This is not about Meir. I wish it were—that would haunt me less, and perhaps you would accept it more easily. It’s that you’re so American, while I’m completely and inescapably what I am. The terrible thing is that I love you for who you are, and yet can’t live in your world. I’d lose too much of myself.”
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