She would never bow to any man…
London, 1815
Trevor Bailey is on the cusp of opening the greatest hotel in London. His days as a gutter snipe are behind him, as he enjoys a life of wealth, society, and clandestine assignments as a spy in the service of the Crown. Until one tumultuous night churns up the past he’d long left behind…
Turned out by her employer for her radical beliefs, Lucy Greenleaf reaches out to the man who was once her most beloved friend. She never expected that the once-mischievous Trevor would be so handsome and gentleman-like and neither can deny the instant attraction.
But Lucy’s reformer ways pose a threat to the hotel’s future and his duties as a spy. Now Trevor must choose between his new life and the woman he’s always loved…
This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is coincidental.
Copyright © 2015 by Jenny Holiday. All rights reserved, including the right to reproduce, distribute, or transmit in any form or by any means. For information regarding subsidiary rights, please contact the Publisher.
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Table of Contents
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Epilogue
Acknowledgments
About the Author
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Chapter One
Late July, 1815
It was happening again.
“You’ve mistaken me for someone else, my lord,” Lucy said, though she knew perfectly well he had not. She had endeavored to be less obvious with her pedagogical methods this time, but somehow he had found her out. Taking a step back, she tried not to panic, praying her voice would not shake. “Perhaps you meant to summon one of your guests. I’d be happy to fetch—”
“No,” snapped the viscount, who, in Lucy’s six months in residence at Galsmith House, had exhibited very little interest in his daughters, and hence, even less interest in Lucy, their governess. Until, apparently, he somehow discovered she was instructing his children according to the ideas put forth by the great—and controversial—writer Mary Wollstonecraft. “I meant to summon you. I know exactly who you are. Or, more to the point, I know exactly what you are.”
He took a step toward her, pupils dilated. Lucy’s breath quickened, and she glanced around, assessing possible escape routes. The study was tucked into a corner of the house, so there was only the one door, which led to a sitting room from whence she could easily make her way into the ballroom. Even from here, she could hear fragments of laughter and snippets of music. The night was advanced—her charges had long since gone to bed—but the unexpected arrival of a storm had kept the guests making merry into the wee hours.
The door was so close! A mere twenty feet away. The problem was the very large, and, judging from the smell emanating from him as he advanced, very inebriated aristocrat standing between her and it.
“And if I had known what you are, I never would have permitted my wife to retain you,” he sneered. “To think, you’ve spent months poisoning my daughters with that lewd woman’s lies! I can only thank heavens the youngest isn’t reading yet, or you’d most likely be swapping her primers out for A Vindication of the Rights of Women and God knows what other blasphemy.”
With every sentence, he forced Lucy a step closer to the bookshelves that lined the wall behind her, so she didn’t bother informing him that four-year-old Edna was, in fact, already reading—Lucy was a very good governess despite her distaste for the profession. She was fond of her charges and was diligent about doing right by them, even though she would be delighted if she never had to supervise another pianoforte practice session again. “I would be pleased, my lord, to have a rational discussion as to the inspiration behind my pedagogical methodology. You should know, for example, that until Mrs. Wollstonecraft’s husband published that account of her life that has become so infamous and, in the process, unjustly besmirched her reputation, she—”
“One shouldn’t even call her a woman, should one?” he interrupted, taking another step toward her.
Her back made contact with the books, and her stomach dropped as he placed a palm flat against the shelf next to her, effectively creating one half of a cage. “‘Unsexed.’ Isn’t that what Polwhele called her in his poem? A lightskirt at the very least, no? If a respected clergyman like Polwhele has found her character so lacking, who can reasonably defend her?”
“I can! If you took the time to read her actual works instead of merely the baseless ranting of her critics, you would see that—”
The other arm shot out. She was trapped. “I console myself that if you’re anything like your heroine, at least I’ll be able to enjoy you before I turn you out without a reference.”
Annoyance flared, though she knew fear was probably a more sensible response at this particular moment. “You’re not even listening to me! Are we having a conversation, or are you having a monologue?” She ducked, squatting low, moving to one side and popping up outside the enclosure of his arms.
After blinking for a few moments as if unable to comprehend that she’d escaped, he lunged at her. “You whore!”
Now it was time for fear—terror, even—as the unease that had been slowly churning in her gut exploded into panic and tore through her limbs. Lucy knew all too well what happened to governesses unable to escape the advances of their employers. Perhaps she was destined to follow in her mother’s footsteps after all.
No.
So she ran. Or tried to—she only made it a few steps before he tore off her cap, causing her to cry out at the pain that whipped through her neck as her head and body moved in opposite directions. Though she’d dressed when she received the summons he’d relayed via the upstairs maid, she’d only had time to hastily shove her unbraided hair into a cap. The locks fell freely now, and he tangled his fingers in them and pulled, hard enough to make her yelp again as he slammed her back against him.
“I am going to make you sorry,” he hissed. “I will ruin you. In every possible way.” Reaching his hands around, he yanked the front of her bodic
e, the resulting tear louder in her ears than the thunder raging outside.
“No.” She spoke the word aloud this time, in unison with the voice in her head. The voice was familiar, yet it seemed not to be her own. Whatever it was, it was right. A kind of surety settled over her, bringing quiet to jangled nerves and making room for a fortifying breath where a moment ago there had been only ineffectual gasping.
Distantly, she registered the sound of him issuing vile threats, and she wondered if this was how it had happened to her mother. Making an effort to separate her mind from what was happening to her person, she allowed herself to be spun to face him, even as rough hands shoved their way inside her chemise, pawing at her breasts.
No longer frantic, her mind turned inward, methodically looking for an escape. Then, suddenly, the question came to her all at once, crystalizing in her being, the question that had yet to let her down.
What would Mary Wollstonecraft do?
She smiled, retracted her leg, and kneed the viscount in the groin with all her might.
…
There was something exceedingly satisfying about weathering a storm inside one’s own home. Remarkable, really, how wind rattling the windows and torrents of water lashing the just-finished roof could feel so rewarding.
Trevor had suffered through plenty of storms in his thirty years. Sipping brandy as he stared at the fire in the small library he’d built as part of his personal apartment atop the soon-to-open hotel he was building, he thought back to some of them.
The worst were in Portugal, in tents—if they were lucky—awaiting the carnage that would descend as whatever battle they faced unfolded. In those miserable days, cold and wetness were the last thing the men needed on top of the ever-present hunger, depravation and, he would freely admit, fear. England’s cause against Napoleon had been just, but one couldn’t help but wonder during some of those sodden nights whether God was.
The storms of his childhood had been annoyances more than anything, necessitating pauses in whatever grift he had going at the moment, but he had endured most of them hungry, just like in Portugal.
Recent years had passed high and dry, for the most part. His rooms in Bartlett’s Buildings, home until a month ago, had been comfortable, luxurious even, as his fortunes rose steadily. But there was nothing like owning the walls that kept one safe from a storm, nothing like being sheltered by a structure that had been built to one’s exact specifications. A home, at last. And, nestled atop London’s most spectacular new building, what a home it would be.
He sipped his brandy and tucked the edges of a blanket around his feet. The dozens of candles he’d lit—another rewarding consequence of financial success—cast a warm glow on the shelves that lined two walls. Soon, they would be filled with books. He couldn’t contain a sigh of satisfaction. Yes, of all his ventures—shipping, mining, investing—the hotel that would also be his home was going to be the best. The best meaning not just the most lucrative—though he hoped it would be that, too—but the most fulfilling. He raised his glass, even as he recognized the absurdity of making a toast in an empty room.
He laughed a little as he tried to summon the appropriate words. “To the hotel,” he finally said, favoring, as usual, a brief but accurate summation of the circumstance. “To the Jade.”
As the balance of the brandy in the glass slid down his throat, the hairs on the back of his neck rose. He was up in an instant. Four years with the Earl of Blackstone—both on the battlefield, where they’d become bosom friends despite their class differences, and in their post-war intelligence careers—had honed his senses. He’d learned to trust those back-of-the-neck hairs. They were the reason he was still alive.
Picking up a branch of candles, he made his way out into the main corridor. He was five flights up, but as he started down, he could begin to make out a thudding, distinct from the wind and the rain, coming from somewhere below him.
As he descended, the noise resolved itself into a rhythmic pounding he followed to the empty kitchen at the back of the hotel. On the other side of the heavy oak door was a small, presently empty courtyard he intended to convert to a kitchen garden next spring. Someone clearly wanted in—someone who would have known there was a back entrance through the courtyard, or had nosed around enough to discover it.
He devoted a fleeting thought to whether he ought to have armed himself, but he and Blackstone weren’t working on a mission now, so his pistols were upstairs locked in a case in an armoire. Rummaging through one of the boxes he had yet to unpack, he searched for a knife. Blackstone the spymaster would not be impressed. Just because they didn’t have an active mission—Waterloo had finally ended the wars against Napoleon—was no reason not to keep his guard up.
The wind screeched—even after a week, the storm raged on—and the pounding continued. Whoever it was, friend or foe, the poor bastard must be soaked to the bone.
Trevor palmed a paring knife, threw back the bolt, and swung open the weighty door.
He heard his own sharp intake of breath as the knife clattered to the floor.
She looked exactly the same as she had all those years ago when they’d run wild on the notorious streets of Seven Dials. Mahogany hair a tangled mess, clothes dirty and torn. No, that wasn’t entirely correct. There was one significant difference. Back in the rookery of their childhood, there would have been a hint of mischief in those light brown eyes. It had never made sense, given the circumstances, but it had been there all the same, telling him that she was well, that the impossible, hardscrabble life they led hadn’t defeated her yet.
For it to be gone…maybe he had made a mistake that day. Because preserving her spirit had been the whole bloody point of sending her away.
“I need help,” she whispered.
The years fell away, all at once, like a great, heavy coat falling to the floor.
“Lucy,” he said, his voice catching. “Lucy.”
Chapter Two
“I need help,” Lucy whispered. It was the truth, and it was all she had left. Trevor Bailey was her last option. She could only pray that he had not become so grand he would turn her away.
They stood there for what must have been a mere moment but felt like a lifetime as a complicated swirl of emotions and sensations threatened to overtake her. She was hungry, cold, and bone-crushingly tired.
And so, so frightened. It shouldn’t have been so hard to make her way on the streets. She should have been able to slip right back into the old ways, like donning a well-worn cloak one had thought lost.
But a smartly-dressed woman on the streets, one who obviously didn’t belong, was different than a wiry waif of a girl. The girl could slip unnoticed into market stalls and emerge with her pockets full of vegetables. The woman attracted attention, mostly of the wrong sort. The girl had been fearless and graceful. The woman was scared and clumsy, like a sailor who’s lost his sea legs.
And there was one more difference. The girl had had a friend, a boy who’d looked after her, made her brave. She had never been alone back then. Until that day. The day Trevor Bailey sent her away.
And who’s to say he wouldn’t do it again? As he stood there, gaping at her, dressed in his fine clothes and looking every inch the gentleman, she feared she had made a mistake. She had been thinking of him as her last option, but of course they both knew firsthand that wasn’t true. Women always had options.
An image of her mother flashed in her mind, and tears began to fill her eyes.
Lucy had been so stupid. So careless. Worse than all this hunger, this fear, was the heartbreak of having broken a covenant with herself. The day she’d left Seven Dials, choking back sobs in an impossibly luxurious carriage, she’d drawn a line. On one side was her childhood and all the misery that had accompanied it. On the other was…everything else. Whatever would come next. Her new life. She’d promised herself two things that day. The first was never to go backward. The second: never again would she trust a man. She would make her own way in the world.
These were the vows she repeated every night, like prayers. But prayer was the wrong word because she, not some distant God, took responsibility for these vows.
The last time she’d seen Trevor Bailey had been that day. He’d stood silently among the chattering crowd, his face unreadable. This is what you wanted, she’d been tempted to scream. You did this. She’d felt his attention as she climbed into the carriage. When she’d waved good-bye to everyone, a false smile pasted on her face, she’d forced her eyes not to linger on him any longer than on anyone else.
She’d imagined that he stood on the street, watching until the carriage was out of sight. But she didn’t know because she hadn’t looked back. She’d been too busy drawing the line that meant she would never see him again.
And now, once more, as much as she hated to admit it, he was the only thing that might prevent her from becoming her mother.
“Lucy,” he whispered. “Lucy,” Just her name, twice, but she knew then he would not forsake her. Relief crashed over her as surely as the wind had whipped through the thin cloak she’d stolen yesterday. She tried to warn herself. He might take her in tonight, but he could not be trusted, not elementally. Trevor Bailey had taught her many things. How to make a fishing line from a bit of string and a pin. How to pick pockets in Covent Garden Market. Which plants in the park to eat and which to avoid. But the biggest lesson he had taught her was that, even despite apparent evidence to the contrary, a woman is always alone in the world.
Her body, weary and hungry and cold from her week on the street, was not paying attention to the warnings of her mind, though. It must have recognized that respite was within reach, for it began to shake violently. Embarrassingly, for she never did like him thinking she was weak.
Suddenly, his arms came around her, pulling her inside. But then he didn’t let go, just gathered her against him, one hand against the back of her sodden head, the other splayed at her equally drenched lower back. Seized with an intense desire to hug him back, she forced herself to stand neutrally, permitting the embrace but not encouraging it. She didn’t know this man, she reminded herself. Not really. Thirteen-year-old Trevor, the one who sent her away, would never have embraced her. In fact, she couldn’t remember ever having touched him, except maybe as their fingers brushed when one of them passed some bit of contraband to the other or when she’d had to tend to one of his injuries.
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