by Nicety
“Baby? Bitch I’m not raising no damn babies. This little shit is going to die in my body with me because I ain’t taking any meds, nothing. I just want to die happy knowing I’ve sought revenge on the motherfuckas who deserves it,” Diamond snapped angrily.
“You sound like a fucking demon, yo. I can’t believe you are that thoughtless. That life growing inside of you is a blessing and didn’t ask to be made. You could at least give it a chance at life.”
“For what, I can’t take care of it. I’m gonna be dead anyway so what’s the point. I don’t want it growing up knowing that I did this to it. So I’d rather just end its life before it starts. Besides, revenge is the only thing I care about right now,” Diamond headed over to the trash to throw the rest of her breakfast away.
“Ugh. Revenge this and revenge that. What is that even going to solve?” Lexi bellowed as she sat down at the table.
“It’s going to help me die happy knowing motherfuckas will be dancing in hell with me,” Diamond laughed swaying her hips erotically from left to right.
Lexi fiddled her spoon around in her bowl of cereal realizing she had not even put the milk in it as yet. The more she looked at it the more she felt as though her hunger pangs had diminished from Diamond’s inconsiderate words. Her conversation with Diamond was pissing her off beyond measure making it impossible to focus on or think about anything else. She flicked her bob cut and prayed that the knowledge she was about to release from her mouth would bring her sister back down to reality.
“Diamond, you are grown and I can’t tell you what to do. But if you think that killing off the people who wronged you will make you happy, you’re crazy. You need to focus on the life inside you and give yourself a chance as well. You are too young for this shit.”
“Okay you know what? I’m gonna need for you to drop this shit. I’m not going to change my mind and I’m going to do what I want to do. So you either get over it or you leave me the fuck alone. You’re my lil’ sis and I love you but don’t get on my bad side, alright?” Diamond walked off heading to the living room.
“Well what about the baby, Diamond?” Lexi roared following right behind her.
“What about it?”
“Give it to me.” Lexi spewed tears from her eyes as she gazed upon the confused look on her sister’s face, “Give it to me and I’ll take care of it. Just um, take the meds for as long as you’re pregnant and then when you give birth, give it to me. Please!”
Diamond exhaled lowering her head then raised it smiling back at her, “Why do you want this so badly?”
“Because you keep saying that you’re gonna die, if that’s true, I at least want a piece of you still around. I’ve lost one sister; at least I can have a part of the other one.”
The tears flowed like a faucet from Lexi’s eyes. She did not know what made Diamond so coldhearted but she felt that giving up on her would be giving up on her, would be niece or nephew. There was a life so innocent and so pure growing inside of her and she had no emotional ties to it whatsoever. Staring at Lexi’s tears made her feel remorse, briefly.
“The baby didn’t ask to be made, Diamond. Please just think of someone harmless. Think of someone other than yourself,” Lexi pleaded.
“Okay! Sheesh, don’t lose your mind. I’ll think about it. Think! Do you understand?” Diamond retorted sternly pointing her finger.
“That’s all I could ask for right now. Now where are you going?” Lexi asked as she watched Diamond slip on her coat.
“I need to go do some research about something. I’ll be back later.”
“Diamond,” Lexi side eyed.
“Don’t worry, don’t worry. I’ll be back,” She laughed as she heads out of the front door.
“You missed my damn birthday!” Lexi bellowed trying to get a word in edgewise before Diamond stumbles out the door.
Diamond retraced her steps back inside shutting the door behind her in total dismay. She could not believe that she was so caught up in her own stalking affairs that she forgot her favorite sister’s birthday. She saw the pain and hurt in Lexi’s eyes and knows that her hurt runs deeper than just her forgetfulness. There was an underlying problem there and judging by the food that was left out on the stove and the well-designed layout on the dining room table that was left untouched, it had something to do with Kojack.
“Baby sis, I am so sorry about yesterday. I hate to say I totally forgot but…”
“It doesn’t matter. I mean you’ve got your own thing going on and I respect that and Kojack has work. It’s cool. It’s cool,” Lexi interrupted while she allowed the tears to continue down her chubby cheeks.
“No it is not ok. We are going to go out and we are going to do whatever it is you want to do! Come on, get dressed,” Diamond sat beside her stroking tears from off her cheeks as they fell.
“D, I don’t feel like doing shit now. I just wanna lay here and wither away.”
“Up, now, bitch! I ain’t got time for you feeling sorry for yourself now. You’re better than that. Fuck that nigga. If he can’t see how special you are then fuck him.”
“Don’t talk bad about him, Diamond. He probably just got caught up at work.”
“Hmm. Yeah whatever, just get dressed,” Diamond said checking her cell for the first time, “I just gotta make one stop first and by the time I get back you should be ready right?”
“Yeah I guess so,” Lexi shook her head thinking bullshit just flew from Diamond’s mouth. She knew they were not going to celebrate and did not even bother to oblige her request to get dressed.
Diamond jetted out the door quickly and walked over to her car then hopped in. Driving down the road all she could think about was what she would do when she got to her destination. Her adrenaline was pumping through her veins like gas at a station and it felt damn good. Twenty minutes later she pulled up in front of the house next door to Tino’s. She sat there as if she was on a stakeout waiting for something to happen, waiting for the moment to present itself on the outside of the house. For the last week, she had been watching Tino’s every move making sure she had him down to a science. It was important for her to study him so she would not be caught slipping once she moved in for the kill.
Just as the sun crept across the snow shining brightly on the house, she noticed there was minimal movement at the front door. A female exited the house and walked around to the back carrying a small plastic bag full of trash. Right after her, Tino and a man exited the house standing on the stoop together. His very existence made her skin crawl. Her breathing increased as her eyebrows frowned. She wanted to hop out the car and slit both of their throats much like Pandora had done to Sun, a clean sweep from ear to ear. Diamond tried to envision what it would be like to watch his blood squirt out of his neck and stand over him as he struggled to breathe. She wanted his gurgling to manifest in his brain so that it was the last thing he heard before his heart stopped and his soul drifted off to his rightful home, hell.
“Ugh!” she growled lightly as she watched them make out heavily on his door stoop, “Nasty motherfucka, so that’s how you got AIDS…fucking other niggas with no condoms.”
Diamond popped her knuckles, one right after the other, licking her lips simultaneously as if she was about to pounce and maul her prey. She quickly ran ideas through her head as to how she would make him suffer. Once the light bulb went off, she knew what tools she needed to get the job done. The anticipation grew with every waning second fucking with her mental, desiring his blood sooner than later. She waited for the love fest to end as the chick returned from behind the house, walking up to them and joining them in their tongue lashing. It sickened Diamond even more to watch, turning her head until the man walked off. The clock on the dash read 9:30 am on the dot as the man headed towards his car and his playmates headed back into the house.
“You sorry piece of shit, dying of AIDS is too good for you. Naw, you’ve gotta pay for what you’ve done, for all the lives you’ve ruined. Give me a few days and I
got you motherfucka,” Diamond snarled as she started her car and drove off finding herself unconsciously following the man in the car.
The man seemed to be swerving as if he were drunk or high. It was dangerous for her to follow him especially with the slush and sleet on the road but something inside of her needed to see his face. Diamond pressed her foot on the gas to speed up before the other cars got in the way. It was morning rush hour traffic, which made it difficult to keep up with anyone. The man appeared to have sped up his car and as he bobbed and weaved in and out of lanes, he nearly nicked a car trying to run a red light. He made it but she did not, having been stopped by the Ford truck in front of her, infuriating Diamond to no end.
“Dammit!” she snapped banging her fist on the steering wheel profusely in a wail of a tantrum.
As she sat there she realized how foolish she was to follow him when her beef was not even with that man. It had become apparent that after a week of stalking Tino and learning his everyday habits and rotation, she had become not only obsessive but also insane. She could think, eat, or drink of nothing else but her revenge on this man. The light turned green and as she merged on to the expressway she knew that it was time to eliminate her obsession before it destroyed her. It was one thing to consume her life but it would not kill her, at least not before she had the chance to kill him first. She was no clown though.
Bringing nothing to a gunfight would surely get her planted six feet deep with nothing to show for it. This was a game she was going to play well but not fair in order to win and knew she needed some heavy firepower to get the job done. En route, her cell buzzed like crazy in her pocket and as bad as she did not want to answer it, she did it only because she knew who it was.
“Yeah Lex.”
“It’s not Lex, bitch.”
“Pandora…if it isn’t my selfish, evil, bitch of a twin, how are you toots? Jailed, I hope,” Diamond’s voice sounded smug.
“You would like that wouldn’t you? That was a bitch move you pulled and you know it. You know just as well as I do that you belong in that fucking jail cell right along with me!” Pandora bellowed. “That shit was all your idea.”
“Yeah, but it wasn’t my idea to cut him open like a Christmas ham now was it? No bitch that was all you.”
“Well somebody had to stand up and take control of the situation. Your weak ass didn’t.”
“Ugh, what the fuck do you want, Pandora?”
“Oh, right. I almost forgot. I just called to tell you that I love you big sis. But your ass is going down. You and that slut of a sister of yours are dead.”
“Don’t speak love to me hoe, when you damn sure don’t know the meaning of it and as for your idle threats, I’m shaking in my boots, P.”
“You should be. See you would’ve been dead but I guess if you want shit done you’ve gotta do it yourself,” Pandora sucked her teeth. “And I want my fucking money back. I know you and that slut stole me shit.”
“What money? Awe sis, you know me better than that,” Diamond grinned.
“You’re right. I do know you better than that, we’re twins, remember? I know you are the only one who could pull off taking my shit without a fucking trace. So here’s how it’s gonna go down. You give me my fucking money and I just might think about letting you two bitches live,” Pandora smirked.
“I don’t know what the hell you’re talking about and you scare no one bitch. Bring it on. Oh and Lex told me to tell you that Kojack’s dick tasted mighty good last night. A taste, you’ll surely miss,” Diamond laughed as she hung up the phone.
The phone immediately rang back. It rang again and again until Diamond reluctantly answered, “What!”
“When you die, I’m going to take pleasure in watching you beg for your life. I’m going to cut off every limb you have including your tits and watch you bleed to death while you beg for mercy, bitch.”
“My tits, ewe, sounds like sexual harassment if you ask me or should I say incest. I mean, Lex told me she banged you but I never thought she would be able to turn you into a dike!” Diamond guffawed wildly.
“Argh! Shut up, shut up! You and that little bitch are fucking dead!” Pandora screamed in a low voice through the phone.
“Meanwhile, don’t they record these phone calls in jail? They really gonna keep your ass now. Watch out for those spoons!”
“Who said I was using a jail phone? Watch your back, ho.”
“Like I said, bring it on bitch,” Diamond recited to herself as she pushed the END button and placed the phone back inside her pocket.
Chapter 5
“Not until you’re eighteen.”—Kojack
Kojack moved through the crowd tapping his hard hat making sure it was on securely. It was lunchtime and his face adorned the same look all day, distress. The thoughts in his head plagued him all day no matter how hard he worked to get his mind off of the situation. He talked with his workers and buried his self in blueprints but it seemed like the more he worked the more the thoughts flooded his brain.
“Hey guys I’m out for the day,” Kojack hollered to his main manager as he waved them off and headed back to the car.
He sighed deeply as he sat in his car staring at his phone struggling with whether or not he should make a phone call. His heart was beyond heavy as he tried to calm his nerves. One touch of the number in his call log sent the call as he placed the phone up to his ear waiting for an answer.
“Hey baby,” Lex answered enthusiastically.
“Uh, hey,” Kojack breathed as he started up the car.
“Okay, so I was thinking we would go out for dinner tonight, just you and me. What do you say?”
“Lex…”
“Because I was thinking like I could cook something but you don’t really have any food in there and I’m not really a good cook so it’s a no brainer,” Lexi giggled as she rambled on.
“Listen, listen, we need to talk.”
“If this is about this morning, I’m so sorry I overslept. I wanted to be there for you before you went to work but you didn’t wake me up. Shit after waiting up so late for you last night baby, I was dog tired,” Lex snickered playfully.
“No, no it’s not that. I didn’t even come home last night, Lex. You didn’t notice?”
“Oh God,” Lexi said gripping her stomach feeling as though it was jumping through hoops, knowing the storm that was coming.
Apart of her knew that the unspoken elephant in the room was eventually going to mutter its first words. It was the inevitable but she had hoped that it was something that would work itself out without complication. Her forehead became riddled with sweat bullets as she took a seat at the dining room table, breaking from the cleaning she was doing.
“Yeah, you have to understand Lex that I truly do love what we’re doing here but we can’t go on like this. I’m risking my reputation, my business, and my freedom fucking with you.”
“Jack we’ve been through this…”
“I’m just afraid of losing everything that I worked so hard for over some pussy.”
“Well, what if I said I wanted to be more than just pussy to you?” Lex sounded like she was about to break down in tears.
Even though she put on the facade like she could never love anyone, she could not help the feelings she felt for him. He was something real in her world full of mystery. He was the calm in her world full of chaos and destruction. She knew if she lost that goodness that her world would go tumbling back down again. Her age was the only deciding factor in their relationship and though it was a major factor she could not allow it to be the only one.
Lexi slapped her hands against her forehead multiple times before it gives her a headache. She was fucked up in the head by Kojack’s cold words. It sounded as if he did not care about her. Her heart cracked into a million pieces wondering if he had ever allowed himself to feel anything for her. The age difference was the one hurdle she did not know how to get over. All she could do is replay the moment he found out and the person
who spoke the thought into his mind.
“That bitch!” she screamed as she wiped tears from her already drenched cheeks and swung her arms knocking the flower vase off of the table.
It felt good to hit something. She lifted the dining room table tipping it over letting the loud crash sound that it made soothe her some more. Her eyes cased the living room for more things she could destroy before they zeroed in on the bright yellow sunlight shining through the kitchen window. Kojack heard the crashing of things in the background and automatically knew she was destroying his house. He lowered his head deciding not to confront her about it feeling like if that was what she needed to vent then so be it.
“Lex, there’s no way I can have a relationship with you. Not until you’re eighteen.”
“But I just turned seventeen yesterday, that’s almost eighteen and might I add that you didn’t even think enough of me to come home or call or shit to wish me a happy one. But I’m willing to look past all of that and assure you that no one will ever know. I’ll…I’ll dress older and only go out where people won’t notice how young I am.”
“Lex…”
“I’ll act very adult and make sure that I don’t act immature and shit around your family and friends.”
“Lex!”
“Kojack, please!” Lexi sobbed, “Please don’t do this to us. We need each other. I need you. You’re the only thing that keeps me clean.”
“See girl. That’s insanity. You think just because I eat pussy really good that you don’t need Yompers but you never needed or wanted them in the first place. You’re too young for me but you’re old enough to realize that what we’re doing is wrong.”
“Kojack, I am begging you. Do not do this to us.”
“Lexi, you and Diamond can live at my house for a few weeks until you guys find someplace to stay. I can find somewhere to go for a while.”
“Kojack! Kojack, wait!”
“You’d better go get tested, Lexi.”
He had hung up the phone as her cries blurted through his receiver. He tossed the phone in the passenger seat as it rang and vibrated profusely hopping around. He ignored it turning the volume up on the radio to drown out its excessive badgering. As he drove on, he tried to put Lexi out of his mind for good. It was usually easy for him to write people out of his life for the sake of protecting his own feelings but the fact that his emotions were deeply involved with her made it difficult.