by Sandra Brown
“No air-conditioning? Are you fucking kidding me?”
The heat inside the apartment was, if anything, more stifling than the unventilated vestibule and staircase. And that was only one of the many amenities the apartment lacked. As Todd surveyed it, his misgivings were realized. And then some.
It was a rat hole, and that was putting it kindly. Actually, it would need to undergo a major renovation to reach the classification of a rat hole. No self-respecting rat would be caught dead here.
An oscillating fan was blowing hot air around the matching beanbag chairs that served as living room furniture. It was also circulating the stench of leftover pizza that had congealed inside its box on the small table that, along with a two-burner hot plate and a sink, comprised the kitchen.
“I was in the shower.” Indeed, Roark had answered the door sopping wet. His only nod toward modesty was a hand towel clutched around his hips.
“I thought maybe you’d gone homo,” Todd said querulously.
“Come on, you gotta see this.” Roark turned and headed toward an open door that led into another room.
Todd was so angry he could barely suck the stifling oxygen into his lungs. His deposit money had been squandered. If Roark had signed a lease on this place, then he could eat it for all Todd cared. He would flatly refuse to be responsible. Obviously his friend had suffered a mental lapse, or had lost their pooled money along the way, or had gotten it stolen, or something.
No rational person, no one who wasn’t absolutely destitute and desperate, would voluntarily take shelter in this building. Being homeless had more stability than this, because unless the sky fell, a homeless person wouldn’t have to fear being crushed to death by a loose plaster ceiling.
“Roark, damn you!” Todd struck out after him, shouting his name. “Roark! What the fuck?”
The door led into a small cubicle of a room with twin beds. One was groaning under the weight of Roark’s belongings, most of which were still packed. Articles of clothing had been pulled from the crates and were spilling out over the tops of them like entrails.
On the other, Roark had been sleeping. And working, apparently. A computer terminal and keyboard were on the bed itself, the tower and printer were on the floor beside it.
“A computer?” Todd exclaimed. “You got a pc? When?” They had wanted word processors the way most collegiates covet TransAms. Roark had said nothing to him about buying a computer. “Is that what you spent our money on?”
“My uncle gave it to me for graduation,” Roark called in a stage whisper. “Now will you shut up about that and get in here? Hurry.”
Todd turned toward the opening where a door should have been. Instead, the detached door had been propped against the adjacent wall. Todd had a fleeting thought that it might have been placed there to provide the wall with additional support.
Through the opening was a bathroom. What differentiated this one from the communal bathroom in the fraternity house was that the one in the frat house had been cleaner and more sanitary—tobacco spit cups, shower fungi, and unattended fixtures notwithstanding.
But even more appalling than the condition of the sink and toilet was the sight of his friend, who had dropped the towel and reentered the shower. He was standing beneath the spray and staring out an open window.
“What uncle? Why didn’t you tell me your uncle had given you a pc for graduation?”
Roark glanced over his shoulder. “Are you coming, or what?”
“I’m not getting into that filthy shower with you. I’m waiting for you to tell me what the—”
“Just shut up and come here. Quick. Before they go inside.”
Roark’s excitement was contagious and compelling. In spite of everything else, Todd was intrigued. He slipped off his sneakers and stepped into the shower fully clothed. Pushing Roark away from the window, he peered through the rusty screen.
On the second-floor roof of the neighboring building, three naked girls were sunbathing. Naked meaning completely nude. Not just topless, but mother nekkid. All they had on was a glistening layer of suntan oil. In fact, while he stood there stupefied, one of the girls was languidly spreading the oil over her torso.
“That one’s name is Amber,” Roark whispered.
Amber was rubbing her breasts now, smearing the oil over nipples as large and red as strawberries. Todd gulped. “You know them?”
“Hell, yeah. To speak to and call by name. Our buildings share a parking lot. They dance at a strip joint.”
Which explained why they were visions of the most carnal variety. This was no trio of ordinary-looking women. They were spectacular. Their tits probably weren’t the ones they’d been born with, but who the hell cared?
“The one with the shaved crotch is Starlight,” Roark informed him. “For her grand finale it glitters with this sparkly stuff.”
“Her pussy glitters?”
“Swear to God. They aim the spotlight right at it.”
“Damn.”
“The brunette is Mary Catherine.”
“Doesn’t sound like a stripper’s name.”
“She strips out of a nun’s habit. Then she takes this rosary and—”
“Don’t tell me. Let me be surprised.” The brunette was lying facedown on her towel. Todd kissed the air. “Look at that ass.”
“I have,” Roark said with a chuckle. “Like a valentine, isn’t it? Frankly I’m partial to her. She’s the friendliest, too.”
“They do this every day?”
“Except on Sundays. Saturday nights they do three shows, so they usually sleep all day Sunday.”
Amber capped the bottle of suntan oil, then lay down on her beach towel, spreading her thighs wide enough to make certain the sun could reach the insides of them.
“Oh, man,” Todd groaned.
Laughing, Roark stepped from the shower and retrieved his towel. “I think you need a few minutes of privacy.”
“It won’t take a few minutes, buddy.”
Roark was dressed in a pair of shorts, sitting cross-legged on his bed, his keyboard bridging his knees, when Todd appeared in the doorway and propped himself weakly against the jamb. Roark looked over at him and grinned. “Well, what do you think of the apartment?”
“Fucking fantastic, man. I can’t think of anyplace I’d rather live.”
Chapter 18
Mike Strother laid the manuscript pages aside. He sipped from his glass of lemonade made with lemons he had squeezed himself. He was taking a day off from working on the mantel. Yesterday he had applied a coat of varnish and was giving it an extra day to dry because of the humidity. That was the explanation he’d given Parker anyway.
Throughout the morning, Mike had worked outdoors. Parker had seen him on his hands and knees turning the soil in the flower beds with a trowel. Later, he’d swept the veranda and washed the front windows. But the afternoon heat had driven him inside in time to prepare Parker’s lunch, which he was only now getting around to eating.
He had been writing—actually rewriting—since dawn and was now anxious to hear Mike’s reaction to this latest draft.
Parker valued Mike’s critiques of his work, even when they were negative. Although he sometimes felt like telling the older man to go to hell and to take his lousy opinion with him, he invariably reread the disputed passages with a different perspective, only to realize that Mike’s observations were well founded. Even if he didn’t agree with them, he took Mike’s insights into consideration during his rewrites.
Mike was never quick to comment, whether his review was good or bad. But when he was piqued at Parker for one reason or another, he deliberately withheld his remarks until Parker asked for them. Today, he was taking even more time than usual, and Parker knew he was doing so just to be vexing.
But Parker was feeling rather ornery himself. He stubbornly waited as Mike thumbed through the pages a second time, rereading several passages, making noncommittal harrumphing sounds like a physician listening to a hypochondria
c’s litany of complaints, and tugging thoughtfully on his lower lip.
This continued for at least ten minutes more. Parker was the first to crack. “Could you please translate those grunts into a semblance of verbiage?”
Mike looked across at him as though he had forgotten he was there, which Parker knew to be a ruse. “You use the word ‘fuck’ and its derivatives a lot.”
“That’s it? That took ten minutes of contemplation? That’s the substance of your critique?”
“I couldn’t help but notice.”
“Guys their age use that kind of language. Particularly in the company of other guys. In fact, they try and top each other, see who can be the most vulgar, talk the dirtiest.”
“I didn’t.”
“You’re an aberration.”
Mike scowled but let the insult pass. “You also use the word ‘homo.’ Very offensive.”
“Granted. But in ’88, we hadn’t yet coined the term ‘politically correct.’ And, again, I’m staying true to my characters. Randy, heterosexual males having a private conversation aren’t going to be sensitive and deferential when referring to gay men.”
“Or to the female anatomy, it seems.”
“Particularly to the female anatomy,” Parker said, ignoring the implied reproof. “They wouldn’t use the polite or clinical word for an act or a body part when there’s an off-color alternative. Now that your fussiness over the coarse language has been addressed, what did you think—”
“You didn’t go to the cotton gin today, did you?”
“What’s that got to do with the manuscript?” Parker asked impatiently.
“Does it have something to do with the manuscript?”
“You’re being awfully contrary this afternoon. Did you forget to take your stool softener last night?”
“You’re changing the subject, Parker.”
“Or is that lemonade spiked with Jack Daniel’s?”
“More to the point, you’re avoiding the subject.”
“Me? I thought the subject was my manuscript. You brought up—”
“Maris.”
“The gin.”
“The two are linked,” Mike said. “After months of preoccupation with that place, you haven’t been back to it since she left.”
“So?”
“So the fact that you haven’t gone back to the gin has nothing to do with what happened there between you and Maris the morning she left?”
“No. I mean yes. I mean… Shit. Whatever the hell you just said.” Parker hunched his shoulders cantankerously. “Besides, nothing happened.”
“Going there wouldn’t bring back memories either pleasant or disturbing? It wouldn’t remind you of her? Wouldn’t make you recall something that she said or something that you said that you’d rather forget?”
“You know what?” Parker tilted his head back and eyed Mike down the length of his nose. “You should have been a woman.”
“Let’s see. During this one conversation you’ve managed to accuse me of being a freak, then a closet drunk with bowel problems, and now you’re insulting my masculinity.”
“You’re as nosy as an old woman who has nothing else to do except butt into other people’s business.”
“Maris is my business, too, Parker.”
His sharp tone changed the character of the conversation and signaled that the banter was over. Parker turned away and stared out over the ocean. It was calm this afternoon, a mirror casting a brassy reflection of the sun off its surface.
As they did each day at about this time, a small flock of pelicans flew in formation just above the treetops toward their nighttime roost. Parker wondered if it was constraining or comforting to be part of such a closely knit group. He had been a loner for so many years, he couldn’t remember what it was like to be a member of a family, or a fraternity, or any community of individuals.
Mackensie Roone was beloved by readers all over the world. He resided on their nightstands and in their briefcases. He accompanied them to the beach, to the toilet, and on modes of mass transit. He was taken into their bathtubs and beds. He shared a rare intimacy with them.
But Parker Evans was known only by a few and loved by no one. That had been his choice, of course, and a necessary one. Recently, however, he had begun to realize the tremendous price he had paid for his years of reclusion. Over time, he had become accustomed to being alone. But lately he’d begun feeling lonely. There was a difference. That difference became evident the moment you realized that you no longer liked being alone as well as you liked being with someone else. That’s when aloneness turned to loneliness.
Staving off the threatening despair, he quietly apologized to Mike for involving him in his scheme. “I know you feel responsible to some extent, and I admire you for having a conscience about it.”
“I played along with that ridiculous test we put her through because you asked me to. Was that necessary?”
“Probably not,” Parker admitted in a quiet voice.
“I could have told her you were Mackensie Roone. I could have pretended that it slipped out. You would have been angry at me, but you would have gotten over it. Instead, I went along with the whole charade, and I’m ashamed of myself for it.”
“Don’t be, Mike. You’re blameless. This is all my doing. From start to finish, beginning to end—whatever the end may be—I’m the guilty party here, not you.”
“That doesn’t exactly absolve me for my voluntary participation.”
With a rueful shrug, Parker said, “No, but that’s the best I can do.”
They lapsed into a weighty silence. Eventually Mike picked up his reading glasses, unknowingly reminding Parker of Maris and the eyeglasses she had been wearing the last time he saw her. Which might have been the last time he would ever see her, he reminded himself.
“These young men seem to have reconciled completely,” Mike remarked as he thumbed through the pages again. “I don’t sense any residual hostility between them.”
“Following the incident with Hadley, Roark carried on as though it had never happened,” Parker explained. “He made a conscious decision not to let it affect their friendship.”
“Noble of him. Nevertheless, it’s still—”
“There,” Parker interrupted, completing the other man’s thought. “Like an unsightly birthmark that mars an otherwise beautiful baby’s face. Neither wants to acknowledge the blemish on their friendship. Both look past it, hoping that it will gradually fade and ultimately disappear completely, as some birthmarks do, so that, eventually, no one can remember the baby having had it.”
“Good analogy.”
“It is, isn’t it? I may use it.” He jotted himself a note.
“You didn’t specify or explain the family obligation that prevented Todd from leaving with Roark.”
“It’s discussed in the next scene. Roark extends condolences to Todd for his mother’s death. She didn’t want to worry him during those last few crucial months leading up to his college graduation, so she didn’t tell him that she’d been diagnosed with a rampant cancer. She attended the commencement exercise, but it was an effort for her. The therapy she’d been receiving had weakened her, but unfortunately had had no effect on the malignancy. So rather than leaving for Florida, Todd accompanied her home. He stayed with her until she died.”
“Quite a sacrifice, especially when you consider what moving to Key West represented to him.”
Parker smiled sardonically. “Save the kudos. I have him saying… Wait, let me read it to you.” He shuffled through the sheets of handwritten notes scattered across his worktable until he found the one he was looking for.
“Todd thanks Roark for his expression of sympathy, so on and so forth, then he says, ‘ “Actually, her death was very convenient.” ’ Roark reacts with appropriate shock. Then Todd adds, ‘ “I’m only being honest.”
“ ‘ “Cruelly honest,” says Roark.
“ ‘Todd shrugs indifferently. “Maybe, but at least I’m not
a hypocrite. Am I sorry she’s dead? No. Her dying left me completely untethered and unencumbered. Free. I’ve got no one to think about except myself now. No one to account to. Nothing to cater to except my writing.” ’ ”
Mike assimilated that. “So the white gloves are coming off in the next segment.”
“If by that you mean that Todd’s true character will be revealed, no. Not entirely. We do, however, begin to detect chinks in the facade.”
“The same way Noah Reed’s true character was revealed to you once you moved to Key West. Bit by bit.”
Parker felt his facial muscles stiffen as they did whenever Noah was called to the forefront of his mind. “It takes Roark only a few chapters to see his so-called friend for what he really is. It took me a couple of years. And by then it was too late.”
He stared hard at his legs for several moments, then, forcing those ugly memories aside, he referred once again to his handwritten notes. “Professor Hadley is also resurrected in the next scene.”
Mike poured himself another glass of lemonade, then sat back in his chair and assumed a listening aspect.
“Actually, it’s Todd who introduces the subject,” Parker explained. “He comments on how wonderful it is that they managed to turn that situation around. He says if he hadn’t pulled that trick on Roark, their present relationship with the professor might not be as solid as it is. He says Roark should be thanking him for what he did.
“Roark isn’t ready to go so far as to thank him, but he concedes that it worked to their advantage in the long run.” Parker took a breath. “This conversation is to inform the reader that Professor Hadley had seen such promise in these talented young men, he’s offered to continue critiquing their work even though they’re no longer his students.”
“Very generous of him.”
Parker frowned. “He’s not completely selfless. I have a chapter planned, written from his point of view, where the reader learns that he would coach these two young writers simply because he recognizes their talent and wants to see it honed and refined, and then, hopefully, published and shared with an appreciative audience.”