“Why would you want to have communications with your ex? He should have moved here to be with you. He obviously didn’t know what he had.”
“Because our relationship was beyond anything that you would want to just throw away and never have that good thing in your life again. When someone loves you unconditionally you want to cherish that and keep it with you for as long as the Creator allows you to keep it. It does not mean that we are going to ever get back together, it means more that I have the security of knowing that I have someone in my corner that I can call when or if I need to. Love can endure to produce a great friend that is connected to you on a deeper level than most.”
“I don’t keep things going with my exes. Once it is over, it is over and I don’t look back nor do I go back.”
“Why are you so willing to just throw something away because you don’t have the relationship anymore. Did they mean anything to you outside of a sexual partner?”
“Not when we are not together anymore.”
“Have you ever been in love before? Have you ever loved someone in good and in bad?”
“If it is bad enough to break-up then there is no need to have anything to do with them anymore. I only deal with my ex-wife because of the kids.”
“Monti, what brought you to the point of being so callous? Your heart is hard…that could be another reason you have those insecurities because you don’t care.”
“It could be, I don’t know. I wanted this to be a nice dinner and you have not got to the best part yet.” Monti said trying to avoid the conversation. “Cameron, are you ready for my surprise dessert?”
“Sure thing, Monti. I am ready. What is this surprise?” Cameron let the day go as Monti planned it. He was reassured that Monti had a different outlook on life and on relationships. Cameron had to make a mental note to accept Monti where he was at and hopefully help him to be a better person.
“Close your eyes.”
Cameron closed his eyes as Monti got up from the makeshift table and walked into the kitchen. He got the dessert that he made, that he had chilling in the refrigerator, and came back to the living room where Cameron was sitting with his eyes still closed. Monti placed the plate down in front of Cameron and said, “You can open now.”
When Cameron opened his eyes he was pleasantly surprised. There on a plate were a dozen fresh red strawberries covered in different types of chocolate. Some had crushed Oreo cookies on them, others had sprinkles and some were just chocolate covered. Cameron was surprised and he wanted to know how he managed to make twelve masterpieces without the experience of a being a chocolatier.
“Monti, they look amazing. How did you do this?”
“I just remember one of the conversations we had before we met. You said you liked chocolate covered strawberries. I wanted to make sure that you had some and that you could try different kinds.”
“That was thoughtful of you.” Cameron said as he got up to give Monti a hug. They embraced and held each other. It felt good to both men, as they both needed something that the other offered. Cameron needed to know that he made the right decision to see Monti. Monti needed to be loved and affirmed. They released each other but not before Monti gave Cameron a kiss on his forehead.
“Go ahead, enjoy dessert; hopefully we can make sure the night stays as sweet as those strawberries.”
“I am not going to eat all these by myself,” Cameron explained, “Come here and let me feed some to you. You have to let me give it to you and you have to suck my fingers to make sure all the chocolate gets off”
Monti and Cameron sat next to each other and fed the strawberries to each other. Monti did not leave any residual chocolate on Cameron’s fingers or his lips. Cameron was glad to reciprocate the gesture. The intimacy that the two of them created together was making it hot in the room and Cameron shocked himself by asking, “Do you think I can get a little more comfortable? I am getting hot.”
“I don’t mind if you do that…in fact, I am getting a little bothered myself.”
They both disrobed. Cameron had on only his tan jock strap because he knew his ass was firm enough to not giggle when he walked. Monti went down to his birthday suit. Cameron looked at him and made sure to take in every chocolate inch of his body. Monti’s body was almost hairless. Cameron did not know if he was naturally hairless or manicured that way. As Monti stood before Cameron, you could see that Monti had smooth shiny skin. His shoulders were broad and his torso was V shaped. He had a belly that was not a spare tire because it was not soft, it was hard and tight. His navel did not protrude. Moving down, Cameron noticed some hair form a happy trail down to his smooth and dark stiffness. His thighs were solid and thick like a linebacker. His knees were perfectly moisturized but his feet were in need of Ling-Ling’s expert hands.
Monti was built like a black stallion and he was ready to be tamed. He was truly a sight to see and this physical manifestation of a god made all of Cameron’s senses go on alert. Monti went over to Cameron and pulled him into his chest. Cameron instinctively wrapped his arms around Monti’s waist, allowing his arms to rest on Monti’s nice, tight and perfectly round ass. It was just the ass you would see in a muscle magazine. Cameron took Monti’s cue as he led him back to his bedroom.
Cameron sat on the edge of the bed. Monti turned his stereo on and sat beside Cameron. The Patti LaBelle and Michael McDonald song On My Own started to play. “So many times, said it was forever.” Patti sang as they began to kiss again, both knowing the hurt of losing someone you love. They knew the pain of how love cuts like a knife. They understood the lyrics that said that this was not how it was supposed to end. They each allowed the other in to their personal space. They connected not only physically, but also emotionally and spiritually. Cameron let down his guard and Monti allowed Cameron to find a spot in his heart.
They held each other and caressed each other. They kissed each other deeply, as their tongues did the forbidden dance. They tasted each other’s neck and ears. Cameron’s neck tasted sweet like fruit, while Monti had more of an earthy taste. Monti slid down and put Cameron’s pierced nipple in his mouth. Cameron felt a little warmth as Monti’s skilled tongue rolled the steel around his mouth and sucked his nipple. Cameron reached his arms around Monti’s back and pulled him in tighter. Monti took this as a cue to suck harder. The first time Monti nibbled on Cameron’s nipple, Cameron let out a moan that intoxicated Monti even more. He worked Cameron’s nipples one after the other, occasionally nibbling on them. He was amazed to see how turned on Cameron got with his nipples being played with.
Monti knew he wanted to explore all of Cameron so he moved his attention down to Cameron’s stomach and his groin by kissing his way down. Monti kissed lightly on Cameron’s sides then he sucked hard and sensual. Cameron moaned with sinful pleasure as Monti found more of Cameron’s sensual spots. Cameron bit down on his lip to prevent him from letting Monti know just how good he was making him feel. Monti would leave just enough space between his mouth and Cameron’s skin that he could breathe warm air on his skin. Cameron was completely turned on and his manhood told it all. He kept his eyes closed anticipating what sensation he would feel next. Cameron’s manhood was leaking pre-cum to the point where his genital area was pre-lubed with Cameron’s clear, slick and silky pre-cum. It was so much that as Monti worked Cameron’s sides and stomach, Monti’s chest was coated with it.
Monti grabbed Cameron’s swollen manhood and used his hand to draw up more of Cameron’s pre-cum, as he squeezed the base of Cameron’s sex and ran up the entire length of it. He used his finger to wipe it off the tip of Cameron’s swollen dick. He had to know what this tasted like. Monti put his pre-cum covered finger in his mouth and tasted the sex that Cameron was freely sharing. Monti was intoxicated with the taste and wanted more. Then Monti did something that took Cameron’s breath away. In one movement, Monti opened his mouth and took Cameron’s sex into his mouth all the way till it hit the back of his throat. The warmth and wetness of Monti’s mo
uth sent Cameron into ecstasy. He took Monti’s head and began to hold it as he started to wind his hips in a circular motion. Monti grabbed the base of Cameron’s sex as he worked more pre-cum out of it. Cameron was feeling the pressure build in his sex and Monti felt it swell even thicker. Monti then moved to Cameron’s nutts to allow his manhood to desensitize. He wanted evening to turn into night then turn into day again.
This night was more about Monti than about Cameron. Monti needed to be wanted. He needed to be with Cameron. He knew he would do whatever it would take to keep this man in his bed even if it meant for him to worship Cameron while he was in bed. Monti worked Cameron up to the edge and then let him come back down multiple times until Cameron could not take it. He was getting sore but his body wanted more.
“You gonna give me that nutt?” Monti asked.
“Yes, where do you want it?”
“All over your stomach and chest.”
With the go-ahead, Monti took Cameron in deep. He was sucking Cameron at the same time he was jacking him. It was not too much longer when Cameron’s testicles drew up in his scrotum sack and his hips retracted. Monti knew what was coming next as he took Cameron’s sex out of his mouth. He worked the head of Cameron’s sensitive sex bringing Cameron to a climax. Cameron had a deep orgasm that shook him to the core of his being while his cum shot up and hit him on his chin. Cameron came so hard that he had a trail of cum from his chin down to his navel. Monti smiled as he watched Cameron’s body lie there completely yielding to the pleasure of release. Cameron had beads of sweat on his forehead as he was trying to catch his breath but his orgasm continued.
Monti then took his hand and wiped the cum off of Cameron’s stomach and chest.
“Where do you want my nutt?” He asked.
“On my stomach and chest.” Cameron replied.
He got up and straddled Cameron at his hip as he continued to stroke his swollen manhood. Monti began to stroke his stiff dick using Cameron’s cum as lube. Cameron watched him as he jacked himself. Monti used long strokes up and down his entire shaft. You could see his sex glistening from Cameron’s cum. Monti was hot and turned on as he increased the speed of his hand. He was breathing hard as his body began to twitch. Cameron knew that Monti’s release was imminent so he reached up and squeezed Monti’s nipple. The added sensation of his nipple played with was all Monti needed. He let out a sound as if he had just gotten punched in the stomach and his body contorted with spastic rhythms as his sex spilled its load on Cameron’s stomach and chest. Monti stayed straddled across Cameron’s hips as he had a few orgasmic aftershocks. Once he regained his composure, he bent down and kissed Cameron again.
Monti rolled over on his back after they finished. Cameron laid his head on Monti’s chest. The cum between them was still hot as they allowed themselves to be vulnerable. Within a few moments, they were both sound asleep as Gladys Knight said “It's sad to think, we're not gonna make it.” She sang Neither One of us as if it was the last time she would sing it the two slept like they were the last couple in the world.
Chapter Nineteen
h ow’s That Working For You?
A couple days later Cameron was on his layover. Monti called Cameron so they could continue their discussion about the state of the relationship. “We’ve been together for two months.” Monti stated.
“Yeah, it’s been a nice time.” Cameron replied.
“So, where do you want this to go?”
“I am just enjoying the ride. You are a cool guy but I feel that there is something you are keeping from me. I have not met any of your family or friends.”
“You are enjoying the ride huh?”
“Yes I am so far but I have something that is not letting me go full steam ahead.”
“What is blocking you from moving forward?”
“I just feel that there is something that is not yet complete with you. Something that just makes me cautious. It is hard to put my finger on it but when I do, I will know what it is.”
“Prayerfully that will change soon.”
“Oh, really…how so?”
“Just be ready for it when it happens.”
“I am ready when you are.” Cameron said. “Let me get going, I have to get to work for my flight today.”
After a month of dating, Monti was spending more and more time at Cameron’s townhouse. Cameron even gave Monti a key to the townhouse. Their relationship seemed to be taking off, despite Cameron’s reservations. Though they never had a definitive conversation about the status of their relationship, they both allowed it to morph into what they were seeing before their eyes. After day two of Cameron’s trip, Monti called Cameron.
“How was your flight?”
“It was ok. I am glad the day is over.”
“I understand. I have a question for you. When are we going to get rid of our A4A accounts?” Monti inquired.
“I am ok with that. Have you deleted your account already?”
“Yeah, I did it already.”
“Alright, I’ll do it, too.” Cameron replied. “How was your day?”
“My day was ok. I am just finishing up these classes.”
“I understand what you are talking about. I remember when I was finishing up my undergrad. Just keep going and you will be alright. I can’t wait to see you graduate. You worked hard and it is an accomplishment.”
“Thanks man. I can’t wait to be done. I have to get my Ph.D.”
“You are already thinking about your Ph.D.? You have not gotten your undergrad yet. Take it one degree at a time.”
“I know what you are saying; I just want to get this degree so I can put Dr. Monti Burroughs on my business cards.”
“You had better hit those books so that you can get done. I am going to turn in because I have an early flight in the morning to I make my way back to Detroit.”
“Ok. Good night.”
“Night.”
* * * * *
Cameron laid down in the layover hotel bed; however his mind was not allowing him to get any rest. He tossed and turned all night. He had a long day ahead of him with four flights the next day. He needed something to help him find some form of sleep so he turned on the radio and found an R&B station that would help him slow his mind down. Even the music didn’t help this time. This was going to be a long night for him. Something in his mind was not letting the conversation with Monti go but Cameron could not figure out what it was he was supposed to get from this uneasiness.
Monti knew that he and Cameron just had a conversation about the online hook-up site. He knew that Cameron said that he would delete his account. He also knew that he told Cameron that he had already deleted his account. Monti’s mind wondered how he would know if Cameron deleted his account, if his was deleted. Monti devised a plan to make sure that he was not being played. He went to the Yahoo server and created another email account. With that new account, he went to the A4A site and created a new account with the handle ‘theblkgod’.
Once the new account was set up, he logged into his old account and inactivated the account. His insecurities would not let him rest on the word of Cameron. He had to know what was going on. He didn’t want anyone to get anything over on him. Monti tried to sleep but he could not help but think about what or who Cameron was doing. At about 2:45 am, Monti finally found some rest, but that was short lived when the nightmare came back again. He got up and turned on the television. He had watched the local news multiple times earlier in the day so he turned on CNN to see what was going on in the world.
Cameron’s alarm went off at 5:15 am. He had an hour to get ready and be downstairs for pick-up with the crew. He lay there in the bed as he thought about the conversation with Monti last night. He picked up his laptop from the nightstand and powered it up. Once it came up, he logged into his A4A account ‘Sex_e_Cam’. He saw the email indicator light up with a ‘3’ in parenthesis, which indicated that he had messages waiting for him. Cameron loved the attention that he got from the guys on t
he site. Even though he didn’t plan on meeting most of them, the constant compliments helped Cameron deal with his self-esteem issues.
The last email he got to was from a new member with the handle ‘theblkgod’. The description sounded good to Cameron; he could not see the photo because the administrator was still approving it. He opened up the email.
Hey man, I just checked you out. You look like the type of guy I could be with. Are you down? Are you single? I can keep a secret if you need to but I am interested in getting to know you a whole lot better. Hit me up.
Cameron smiled knowing that he still had it. He was closing out of the email without responding, the email indicator light came on again. He went back in it and there was this new guy again. He clicked on the profile to see where this guy was from.
Are you going to respond to my email? I think you are fine as hell and I wanna get to know you better.
Cameron thought this guy was persistent. He decided to respond to the message.
Hey man, thank you, I was not going to respond but because you are here now and a little persistent, I guess I will say hi.
Almost immediately another email came through.
What is up man? When are you going to give me some time? Are you single?
Responded the mystery man.
I could give you some time but I am not sure that you would be worth it. I am not officially in a committed relationship but I am not single either.
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