As she went up the stairs, she heard Harge say, "Well, many happy returns, Carol. I'd like to say it. Do you mind?"
Carol's birthday, Therese thought. Of course, Carol wouldn't have told her.
She closed the door and looked around the room, realized she was looking for any sign that she had spent the night. There was none. She stopped at the mirror and looked at herself for a moment, frowningly. She was not so pale as she had been three weeks ago when Harge saw her, she did not feel like the drooping, frightened thing Harge had met then. From the top drawer, she got her handbag and took her lipstick out of it. Then she heard Harge knock on the door, and she closed the drawer.
"Come in."
"Excuse me. I must get something." He crossed the room quickly, went into the bathroom, and he was smiling as he came back with the razor in his hand. "You were in the restaurant with Carol last Sunday, weren't you?"
"Yes," Therese said.
"Carol said you do stage designing."
"Yes."
He glanced from her face to her hands, to the floor, and up again. "I hope you see that Carol gets out enough," he said. "You look young and spry. Make her take some walks."
Then he went briskly out the door, leaving behind him a faint shaving-soap scent. Therese tossed her lipstick onto the bed, and wiped her palms down the side of her skirt. She wondered why Harge troubled to let her know he took it for granted she spent a great deal of time with Carol.
"Therese!" Carol called suddenly. "Come down!"
Carol was sitting on the sofa, smoking a cigarette. Harge had gone. She looked at Therese with a little smile. Then Florence came in and Carol said, "Florence, you can take these somewhere else. Put them in the dining room."
"Yes, ma'am."
Carol winked at Therese.
Nobody used the dining room, Therese knew. Carol preferred to eat anywhere else. "Why didn't you tell me it was your birthday?" Therese asked her.
"Oh!" Carol laughed. "It's not. It's my wedding anniversary. Get your coat and let's go."
As they backed out of the driveway, Carol said, "If there's anything I can't stand, it's a hypocrite."
"What did he say?"
"Nothing of any importance." Carol was still smiling.
"But you said he was a hypocrite.”
"Par excellence."
"Pretending all this good humor?"
"Oh—just partially that."
"Did he say anything about me?"
"He said you looked like a nice girl. Is that news?" Carol shot the car down the narrow road to the village. "He said the divorce will take about six weeks longer than we'd thought, due to some more red tape. That's news. He has an idea I still might change my mind in the meantime. That's hypocrisy. I think he likes to fool himself."
Was life, were human relations like this always, Therese wondered. Never solid ground underfoot. Always like gravel, a little yielding, noisy so the whole world could hear, so one always listened, too, for the loud, harsh step of the intruder's foot.
"Carol, I never took that check, you know," Therese remarked suddenly. "I stuck it under the cloth on the table by the bed."
"What made you think of that?"
"I don't know. Do you want me to tear it up? I started to that night."
"If you insist," Carol said.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Therese looked down at the big cardboard box. "I don't want to take it." Her hands were full. "I can let Mrs. Osborne take the food out and the rest can stay here."
"Bring it," Carol said, going out the door. She carried down the last dribble of things, the books and the jackets Therese had decided at the last minute that she wanted.
Therese came back upstairs for the box. It had come an hour ago by messenger—a lot of sandwiches in wax paper, a bottle of blackberry wine, a cake, and a box containing the white dress Mrs. Semco had promised her. Richard had had nothing to do with the box, she knew, or there would have been a book or an extra note in it.
An unwanted dress still lay on the couch, a corner of the rug was turned back, but Therese was impatient to be off. She pulled the door shut, and hurried down the steps with the box, past the Kellys' who were both away at work, past Mrs. Osborne's door. She had said good-by to Mrs. Osborne an hour ago when she had paid the next month's rent.
Therese was just closing the car door, when Mrs. Osborne called her from the front steps.
"Telephone call!" Mrs. Osborne shouted, and reluctantly Therese got out, thinking it was Richard.
It was Phil McElroy, calling her to ask about the interview with Harkevy yesterday. She had told Dannie about it last night when they had had dinner together. Harkevy hadn't promised her a job, but he had said to keep in touch, and Therese felt he meant it. He had let her come to see him backstage in the theater where he was supervising the set for Winter Town. He had chosen three of her cardboard models and looked very carefully at them, dismissed one as a little dull, pointed out some impracticality in the second, and liked best the hall-like set Therese had started the evening she had come back from the first visit to Carol's house. He was the first person who had ever given her less conventional sets a serious consideration. She had called Carol up immediately and told her about the meeting. She told Phil about the Harkevy interview, but she didn't mention that the Andronich job had fallen through. She knew it was because she didn't want Richard to hear about it. Therese asked Phil to let her know what play Harkevy was doing sets for next, because he said he hadn't decided himself between two plays. There was more of a chance he would take her on as apprentice, if he chose the English play he had talked about yesterday.
"I don't know any address to give you yet," Therese said. "I know we'll get to Chicago."
Phil said he might drop her a letter general delivery there.
"Was that Richard?" Carol asked when she came back.
"No. Phil McElroy."
"So you haven't heard from Richard?"
"I haven't for the last few days. He sent me a telegram this morning." Therese hesitated, then took it from her pocket and read it. "I HAVE NOT CHANGED, NEITHER HAVE YOU. WRITE TO ME. I LOVE YOU. RICHARD."
"I think you should call him," Carol said. "Call him from my house."
They were going to spend the night at Carol's house and leave early in the morning.
"Will you put on that dress tonight?" Carol asked.
"I'll try it on. It looks like a wedding dress."
Therese put on the dress just before dinner. It hung below her calf, and the waist tied in back with long white bands that in front were stitched down and embroidered. She went down to show it to Carol. Carol was in the living room writing a letter.
"Look," Therese said, smiling.
Carol looked at her for a long moment, then came over and examined the embroidery at the waist. "That's a museum piece. You look adorable. Wear it this evening, will you?"
"It's so elaborate." She didn't want to wear it, because it made her think of Richard.
"What the hell kind of style is it, Russian?"
Therese gave a laugh. She liked the way Carol cursed, always casually, and when no one else could hear her.
"Is it?" Carol repeated.
Therese was going upstairs. "Is it what?"
"Where did you get this habit of not answering people?" Carol demanded, her voice suddenly harsh with anger.
Carol's eyes had the angry white-light she had seen in them the time she refused to play the piano. And what angered her now was just as trifling. "I'm sorry, Carol. I guess I didn't hear you."
"Go ahead," Carol said, turning away. "Go on up and take it off."
It was Harge still, Therese thought. Therese hesitated a minute, then went upstairs. She untied the waist and the sleeves, glanced at herself in the mirror, then tied them all back again. If Carol wanted her to keep it on, she would.
They fixed dinner themselves, because Florence had already started her three weeks' leave. They opened some special jars of things that Carol said she
had been saving, and they made stingers in the cocktail shaker just before dinner. Therese thought Carol's mood had passed, but when she started to pour a second stinger for herself, Carol said shortly, "I don't think you should have any more of that."
And Therese deferred, with a smile. And the mood went on. Nothing Therese said or did could change it, and Therese blamed the inhibiting dress for not being able to think of the right things to say. They took brandied chestnuts and coffee up to the porch after dinner, but they said even less to each other in the semidarkness, and Therese only felt sleepy and rather depressed.
The next morning, Therese found a paper bag on the back doorstep. Inside it was a toy monkey with gray and white fur. Therese showed it to Carol.
"My God," Carol said softly, and smiled. "Jacopo." She took the monkey and rubbed her forefinger against its slightly dirty white cheek. "Abby and I used to have him hanging in the back of the car," Carol said.
"Abby brought it? Last night?"
"I suppose." Carol went on to the car with the monkey and a suitcase.
Therese remembered wakening from a doze on the glider last night, awakening to an absolute silence, and Carol sitting there in the dark, looking straight before her, Carol must have heard Abby's car last night. Therese helped Carol arrange the suitcases and the lap rug in the back of the car.
"Why didn't she come in?" Therese asked.
"Oh, that's Abby," Carol said with a smile, with the fleeting shyness that always surprised Therese. "Why don't you go call Richard?"
Therese sighed. "I can't now, anyway. He's left the house by this time." It was eight forty, and his school began at nine.
"Call his family then. Aren't you going to thank them for the box they sent you?"
"I was going to write them a letter."
"Call them now, and you won't have to write them a letter. It's much nicer to call anyway."
Mrs. Semco answered the telephone. Therese praised the dress and Mrs. Semco's needlework, and thanked her for all the food and the wine.
"Richard just left the house," Mrs. Semco said. "He's going to be awfully lonely. He mopes around already." But she laughed, her vigorous, high-pitched laugh that filled the kitchen where Therese knew she stood, a laugh that would ring through the house, even to Richard's empty room upstairs. "Is everything all right with you and Richard?" Mrs. Semco asked with the faintest suspicion, though Therese could tell she still smiled.
Therese said yes. And she promised she would write. Afterward, she felt better because she had called.
Carol asked her if she had closed her window upstairs, and Therese went up again, because she couldn't remember. She hadn't closed the window, and she hadn't made her bed either, but there wasn't time now. Florence could take care of the bed when she came in on Monday to lock the house up.
Carol was on the telephone when Therese came downstairs. She looked up at Therese with a smile and held the telephone toward her. Therese knew from the first tone that it was Rindy.
"... at—uh—Mr. Byron's. It's a farm. Have you ever been there, Mother?"
"Where is it, sweetheart?" Carol said. *
"At Mr. Byron's. He has horses. But not the kind you would like."
"Oh. Why not?"
"Well, these are heavy."
Therese tried to hear anything in the shrill, rather matter-of-fact voice that resembled Carol's voice, but she couldn't. "Hello," Rindy said. "Mother?”
"I'm still here."
"I've got to say good-by now. Daddy's ready to leave." And she coughed.
"Have you got a cough?" Carol asked.
"No."
"Then don't cough into the phone."
"I wish you would take me on the trip."
"Well, I can't because you're in school. But we'll have trips this summer."
"Can you still call me?"
"On the trip? Of course I will. Every day." Carol took the telephone and sat back with it, but she still watched Therese the minute or so more that she talked.
"She sounds so serious," Therese said.
"She was telling me all about the big day yesterday. Harge let her play hooky."
Carol had seen Rindy day before yesterday, Therese remembered. It had evidently been a pleasant visit, from what Carol had told Therese over the telephone, but she hadn't mentioned any details about it, and Therese had not asked her anything.
Just as they were about to leave, Carol decided to make a last call to Abby. Therese wandered back into the kitchen, because the car was too cold to sit in.
"I don't know any small towns in Illinois," Carol was saying. "Why Illinois?... All right, Rockford... I'll remember, I'll think of roquefort... Of course I'll take good care of him. I wish you'd come in, nitwit... Well, you're mistaken, very mistaken."
Therese took a sip from Carol's half-finished coffee on the kitchen table, drank from the place where the lipstick was.
"Not a word," Carol said, drawling the phrase. "No one, so far as I know, not even Florence… Well, you do that, darling. Cheerio now."
Five minutes later, they were leaving Carol's town on the highway marked on the strip map in red, the highway they would use until Chicago. The sky was overcast. Therese looked around her at the country that had grown familiar now, the clump of woods off to the left that the road to New York passed, the tall flagstaff in the distance that marked the club Carol belonged to.
Therese let a crack of air in at her window. It was quite cold, and the heater felt good on her ankles. The clock on the dashboard said quarter to ten, and she thought suddenly of the people working in Frankenberg's, penned in there at a quarter of ten in the morning, this morning and tomorrow morning and the next, the hands of clocks controlling every move they made. But the hands of the clock on the dashboard meant nothing now to her and Carol. They would sleep or not sleep, drive or not drive, whenever it pleased them. She thought of Mrs. Robichek, selling sweaters this minute on the third floor, commencing another year there, her fifth year.
"Why so silent?" Carol asked. "What's the matter?"
"Nothing." She did not want to talk. Yet she felt there were thousands of words choking her throat, and perhaps only distance, thousands of miles, could straighten them out. Perhaps it was freedom itself that choked her.
Somewhere in Pennsylvania they went through a section of pale sunshine, like a leak in the sky, but around noon, it began to rain. Carol cursed, but the sound of the rain was pleasant, drumming irregularly on the windshield and the roof.
"You know what I forgot?" Carol said. "A raincoat. I'll have to pick one up somewhere."
And suddenly, Therese remembered she had forgotten the book she was reading. And there was a letter to Carol in it, one sheet that stuck out both ends of the book. Damn. It had been separate from her other books, and that was why she had left it behind, on the table by the bed. She hoped Florence wouldn't decide to look at it. She tried to remember if she had written Carol's name in the letter, and she couldn't. And the check. She had forgotten to tear that up, too.
"Carol, did you get that check?"
"That check I gave you?—You said you were going to tear it up."
"I didn't. It's still under the cloth."
"Well, it's not important," Carol said. When they stopped for gas, Therese tried to buy some stout, which Carol liked sometimes, at a grocery store next to the gas station, but they had only beer. She bought one can, because Carol didn't care for beer. Then they drove into a little road off the highway and stopped, and opened the box of sandwiches Richard's mother had put up. There was also a dill pickle, a mozzarella cheese, and a couple of hard-boiled eggs. Therese had forgotten to ask for an opener, so she couldn't open the beer, but there was coffee in the thermos. She put the beer can on the floor in the back of the car.
"Caviar. How very, very nice of them," Carol said, looking inside a sandwich. "Do you like caviar?"
"No. I wish I did."
"Why?"
Therese watched Carol take a small bite of the sandwich fr
om which she had removed the top slice of bread, a bite where the most caviar was. "Because people always like caviar so much when they do like it," Therese said.
Carol smiled, and went on nibbling, slowly. "It's an acquired taste. Acquired tastes are always more pleasant—and hard to get rid of."
Therese poured more coffee into the cup they were sharing. She was acquiring a taste for black coffee. "How nervous I was the first time I held this cup. You brought me coffee that day. Remember?"
"I remember."
"How'd you happen to put cream in it that day?"
"I thought you'd like it. Why were you so nervous?"
Therese glanced at her. "I was so excited about you," she said, lifting the cup. Then she looked at Carol again and saw a sudden stillness, like a shock, in Carol's face. Therese had seen it two or three times before when she had said something like that to Carol about the way she felt, or paid Carol an extravagant compliment. Therese could not tell if she were pleased or displeased. She watched Carol fold the wax paper around the other half of her sandwich.
There was cake, but Carol didn't want any. It was the brown-colored spicecake that Therese had often had at Richard's house. They put everything back, into the valise that held the cartons of cigarettes and the bottle of whisky, with a painstaking neatness that would have annoyed Therese in anyone but Carol.
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