Hard to tell, of course, when he's trying to catch a lungful of air.
"As much as I can about someone I've known about two weeks. I care enough to want to know you more. My momma always said, when you find the right gal, you'll feel it. And, I don't want to scare you off, thinking I'm going psycho or somethin', but I know I like being with you. I never even got to this stage with another guy, heck anybody. You think I'm nuts, huh?"
"Weirdly, no." Kabe quit fighting and snuggled in. "Look, everyone I've ever met saw me like, you know, this totally not serious dude. Guys my own age treated me like a stupid surfer kid. Okay, I'm a rock hound, I live to climb, don't mean I'm not a person."
"Of course you're a person," I gave him another squeeze, not as hard as the other, "what are you going on about?"
"A lot of guys look at someone like me and they think twink, which means, to many of them, stupid. You, you didn't like me, I could tell." Kabe's legs wrapped up all in mine. It was like having a warm Kabe blanket, better than one of my mom's quilts. "But you didn't not take me seriously."
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"I didn't not take you seriously?" Shifting some, I got our hips lined up, more importantly his hip bone didn't grind into my cock. The pressure there was getting a might uncomfortable. "Now that's a mouthful."
"You saw me as useful, first."
"Rightly, I saw you first as a lot of trouble." I reached down and grabbed a handful of his butt. Then I used it to push his crotch into mine. "A hot bit of trouble, but definitely trouble."
Kabe helped by squirming some. "Well, I definitely ended up being a whole lot of trouble for you."
"Naw, you weren't no trouble. Least none that I didn't want." I was done with talking for awhile. We'd said a good bit of everything we needed to. With my free hand I pulled his chin up and locked my mouth on his. Those hard kisses of his tasted so fine. I could drown in them. Fall forever and not care.
Kabe pulled back and drew down some air. "You know the other night," his hazel eyes seemed to get brighter, like a deep forest bursting with browns and golds and mostly green, when lust got on him, "that was hot." He rocked his hips against mine.
From what I could tell, that kiss warmed us both. "Hot?"
Kinda liked being trapped this way, though I was still gonna have to get used to the briefs Kabe'd thrown in my cart those few days back.
"I like how you just took charge." With as hard as he was, the boy'd liked it just fine. "I had guys who played that game before. But none of them really, you know, lived it."
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"Lived it?" I had no idea what he was on about. "I don't get what you mean there."
"You know, the Dom thing."
Smacking his ass, not too hard, but enough it stung, I chided him, "Your hat's on too tight. I'm just me."
"That's what I mean." If Kabe kept moving like he was, we'd end up without our clothes pretty quick. Not that it was a bad idea. "It's not 'let's dress up in leather and play around.' Although you'd, wow, you'd be hot in it. But you take control and make me feel things. I could get off on that. A lot.
You're doing it 'cause you want to enjoy it and you want me to enjoy it, not because you wanna push me around."
"I never wanted to push you around." Although I did push him 'round right then; pushed his butt down so our hips ground together again. "Slap you upside the head maybe..." I licked my lips. I need more of that taste. "Now you done talked us blue. Why don't you put your mouth where your attitude is and bring it on here."
Kabe laughed, kissed me like I'd asked. There was a powerful need behind that kiss. Both his and mine. It worked up and overwhelmed me each time I touched him.
And I knew right then, knew the moment his lips touch mine, that this screamer I'd been on, down into a bottomless abyss, well, I'd be okay. My rope was playing out at fifty miles a minute, but there was this hard slip of nothing boy anchored solid to the face and he had me on belay. So I figured it was about time to let myself fall, fall real hard, so long as I landed in his arms.
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About the Author
James Buchanan, author of over ten novels and single author anthologies, lives in a 100 year old Craftsman in Pasadena with her SexyGuy, two demon spawn and a herd of adopted pet dogs, cats, rats and fish. Between managing a law practice with SG, raising kids and writing books, James volunteers with the Erotic Author's Association and Liminal Ink as well as coordinates the newsletter for the ManLoveAuthor's co-op. James has spoken and read at conferences such as Saints & Sinners and the Popular Culture Association. In the midst of midlife crises, James bought and learned to ride a Harley—it went with the big, extended-cab pickup. James has been a member of CorpGoth since 1993
and been known to wear leather frock coats to court. If you don't find James at the computer working on her next book, you're liable to find her out on the bike.
Visit James on the web at:
www.james-buchanan.com/
eroticjames.livejournal.com/
groups.yahoo.com/group/eroticjames/
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MLR Press Authors
Featuring a roll call of some of the best writers of gay erotica and mysteries today!
Maura Anderson
Victor J. Banis
Jeanne Barrack
Laura Baumbach
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P.A. Brown
James Buchanan
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Kirby Crow
Dick D.
Jason Edding
Angela Fiddler
Dakota Flint
Kimberly Gardner
Storm Grant
Amber Green
LB Gregg
Drewey Wayne Gunn
Samantha Kane
Kiernan Kelly
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Josh Lanyon
Clare London
William Maltese
Gary Martine
ZA Maxfield
Jet Mykles
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Neil Plakcy
Luisa Prieto
Rick R. Reed
AM Riley
George Seaton
Jardonn Smith
Caro Soles
Richard Stevenson
Claire Thompson
Kit Zheng
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the trevor project
The Trevor Project operates the only nationwide, around-the-clock crisis and suicide prevention helpline for lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender and questioning youth. Every day, The Trevor Project saves lives though its free and confidential helpline, its website and its educational services. If you or a friend are feeling lost or alone call The Trevor Helpline. If you or a friend are feeling lost, alone, confused or in crisis, please call The Trevor Helpline. You'll be able to speak confidentially with a trained counselor 24/7.
The Trevor Helpline: 866-488-7386
On the Web: www.thetrevorproject.org/
the gay men's domestic violence project Founded in 1994, The Gay Men's Domestic Violence Project is a grassroots, non-profit organization founded by a gay male survivor of domestic violence and developed through the strength, contributions and participation of the community.
The Gay Men's Domestic Violence Project supports victims and survivors through education, advocacy and direct services. Understanding that the serious public health issue
of domestic violence is not gender specific, we serve men in relationships with men, regardless of how they identify, and stand ready to assist them in navigating through abusive relationships.
GMDVP Helpline: 800.832.1901
On the Web: gmdvp.org/
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the gay & lesbian alliance against defamation/glaad en español
The Gay & Lesbian Alliance Against Defamation (glaad) is dedicated to promoting and ensuring fair, accurate and inclusive representation of people and events in the media as a means of eliminating homophobia and discrimination based on gender identity and sexual orientation.
On the Web: www.glaad.org/
glaad en español: www.glaad.org/espanol/bienvenido.php servicemembers legal defense network Servicemembers Legal Defense Network is a nonpartisan, nonprofit, legal services, watchdog and policy organization dedicated to ending discrimination against and harassment of military personnel affected by "Don't Ask, Don't Tell"
(dadt).The sldn provides free, confidential legal services to all those impacted by dadt and related discrimination. Since 1993, its inhouse legal team has responded to more than 9,000 requests for assistance. In Congress, it leads the fight to repeal dadt and replace it with a law that ensures equal treatment for every servicemember, regardless of sexual orientation. In the courts, it works to challenge the constitutionality of dadt.
sldn Call: (202) 328-3244
PO Box 65301 or (202) 328-FAIR
Washington DC 20035-5301 e-mail: [email protected] On the Web: sldn.org/
the glbt national help center
The glbt National Help Center is a nonprofit, tax-exempt organization that is dedicated to meeting the needs of the 286
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gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender community and those questioning their sexual orientation and gender identity. It is an outgrowth of the Gay & Lesbian National Hotline, which began in 1996 and now is a primary program of The glbt National Help Center. It offers several different programs including two national hotlines that help members of the glbt community talk about the important issues that they are facing in their lives. It helps end the isolation that many people feel, by providing a safe environment on the phone or via the internet to discuss issues that people can't talk about anywhere else. The glbt National Help Center also helps other organizations build the infrastructure they need to provide strong support to our community at the local level.
National Hotline: 1-888-THE-GLNH (1-888-843-4564) National Youth Talkline 1-800-246-PRIDE (1-800-246-7743)
On the Web: www.glnh.org/
e-mail: [email protected] If you're a GLBT and questioning student heading off to university, should know that there are resources on campus for you. Here's just a sample:
US Local GLBT college campus organizations dv-8.com/resources/us/local/campus.html GLBT Scholarship Resources tinyurl.com/6fx9v6
Syracuse University lgbt.syr.edu/
Texas A&M glbt.tamu.edu/
Tulane University www.oma.tulane.edu/LGBT/Default.htm University of Alaska www.uaf.edu/agla/
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University of California, Davis lgbtrc.ucdavis.edu/
University of California, San Francisco lgbt.ucsf.edu/
University of Colorado www.colorado.edu/glbtrc/
University of Florida www.dso.ufl.edu/multicultural/lgbt/
University of Hawaiÿi, Manoa manoa.hawaii.edu/lgbt/
University of Utah www.sa.utah.edu/lgbt/
University of Virginia
www.virginia.edu/deanofstudents/lgbt/
Vanderbilt University www.vanderbilt.edu/lgbtqi/
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Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
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