“I didn’t tell you shit.”
“You wrote it on a piece of paper.” She dug through her pocket. “You said he could help my son.”
“No. No, no.” He shook his head. “I didn’t do that.”
“Where are they?”
“Look, I don’t know you. I barely know Donny. How would I know where your kid is?”
She placed the coffee on the dresser, picked up a studded belt and lashed him across the stomach until he cried an apology.
“I thought you and Donny were friends.”
“We met at the Glass, hooked up a few times. I must’ve kissed and talked about what I do, I don’t remember. He called me about your boy. I never should’ve answered.”
“What do you do?”
“I know people.”
“Like Micah.”
“Like Micah, sure.”
“Where are they, Barry?”
“How do you know my name?”
“Where’s my son?”
“Listen, I’m sorry. I truly am. Your son was young and confused. Shit, I’m old and confused, but I know better than to... than to shove a fucking needle in my head. Especially one labeled with the Maze.”
He whispered the last part.
“You afraid they can hear us?” Sunny sat down. “Maze! You think they’ll hear that, they’ll come running? Is that what you think? Maze! Maze!”
“Shh-shh... goddamnit. You don’t know what the hell you’re doing.”
“Then tell me. Where do I go next, Barry? I want to find my son. Who do I talk to? I went to 511; I asked for Micah. I went to the police. Where do I go, Barry? Where?”
He collapsed like a punctured balloon. Sunny bounced her foot. His cheeks were flush. He was moaning about a headache and a dry throat while twisting his wrists in search of a way out of the nylons. She wasn’t much of a knot-tier aside from her shoes, but she’d fashioned those knots better than a crusty sailor could make.
She went to the kitchen and returned with a couple of white pills and a glass of water. He gladly swallowed them.
“I got to piss.”
“Not yet,” Sunny said.
“Look, I don’t know what to tell you. I’m nobody. I party with important people; I know a few names. All those people connected with the... the Maze...” Again, he whispered. “They’re crazy. Certified. Your son probably thought it was a game. It happens all the time. I’m sorry, but I can’t help you.”
“What happens all the time?”
“Kids, they think it’s a game.”
“What is it?”
He picked up his head. An artery throbbed on his forehead. “Are you serious?”
She knew the Maze was dangerous, knew it was a felony, but it was clear she knew less about it than everyone in the world.
“Do the research. Find out what your son got you into and then run, that’s my suggestion. Now can you untie me? I’m the least of your problems.”
“Who is Micah?”
Again, he collapsed, this time with laughter, rocking his head into the pillow. She was almost done with the coffee and was prepared to make another cup.
“He’s someone,” Barry blurted. “I met him at a party. He was a little weird, even for me. Someone said he was god, that’s all I know, I swear on my dead dog’s grave.”
“You sent me to him.”
“Yeah, well, I wasn’t thinking straight. Don’t go back.” He yawned, smacking his lips. “I can’t help you, really. Even if I could, I don’t want to. It’s your son’s fault, tie him to a bed and make him piss himself.”
The sheets around his midsection were soaked. He’d relieved himself and didn’t care. The smell of urine mixed with various lotions and past sexcapades.
She decided to make that second cup.
When she returned with a vanilla espresso and the laptop she found in the next room—the logo brightly lit—he was singing a dance tune, rolling his head and hands, tipping his feet. She sat back and listened. He was oblivious, laughing through a jumble of words, his lips fattening with each syllable.
The roofies were starting to kick in.
There was a bottle of them in the bathroom. He thought she’d given him aspirin. How many times did he use them on someone else? Her guilt for tying him up had vanished the moment she found them.
He went silent when she started tapping the keys. “What’re you doing?”
“Learning about Micah. And the Maze.”
“No, no, no, nooooo... no, no. Not on my... don’t do that. Don’t, don’t. I swear, please don’t type that search. There’s a... look, I have a jump drive of... of Mazes you can take. Just... untie me and I’ll—”
“Where?”
He threw his head back into the pillow and growled.
“Where is it, Barry?” She tapped the keys randomly. “Where?”
“Desk drawer. Red drive.”
She could drag him to the desk before he passed out and let him sleep it off. Sunny sipped the coffee while he sang another song; this one she didn’t recognize. Drool seeped from the corner of his mouth.
She went to the office and searched the desk drawers. There were several jump drives, but only one red one. She took them all.
He was still singing when she returned with a kitchen knife, the words blurred into one long slur, and untied one of his hands. He was completely unaware she’d put the serrated blade on his chest, but he’d find it when he woke and cut himself free.
“If you want to find me,” he sang, “I’ll see you at three, but not a minute before, you walk through the door. You won’t find me, so you can’t be free...”
He sucked in a long breath, arching his back.
“You can’t... be... freeeeeee—”
“Shut up.”
She was going to slap her hand over his mouth, maybe even sit on his chest until he passed out. But the knife had slipped off his chest. It was in his free hand. She had a vision of him sticking it in her stomach with a stupid grin on his face. He would call the police and they would take her to the hospital before Barry pressed charges for kidnapping and torture. She’d go to prison and they would never find Grey.
Maybe she was feeling paranoid, but that thought felt more like a memory that came from the same place her hatred for him was born.
She kept her distance.
“What’s that mean?” she asked. “The song.”
“He’s not coming back,” he sang.
“Why do you say that?”
“He’s just not.” His eyelids were heavy. “And even if he does, he won’t come back. Not really.”
For a moment, she thought the truth would slip from his drugged-soaked brain, that his secrets would leak out. She sat at the foot of the bed with an empty barbell in her hand, far away from his free hand and the knife. If he attempted to cut himself free, she’d break his kneecap.
Whatever it takes.
“Where did they take him, Barry?”
“I don’t know,” he breathed. “You won’t find him, but they still want you to look. That’s why you’re here.”
“Here?”
“It’s why you came here, to look for him. They want you to look.”
“Why?”
“To keep it going.”
“Keep what going?”
His drug-fueled laughter rattled down the tracks. He muttered the song again, barely arching off the bed now.
She clutched the bedspread. It was stupid to put the knife near him. She wanted to shake the answers out of his mouth, smack him until he bled the truth. She imagined bloodstained pillows and gory laughter, saw herself lost in a rage that would hurt him far more than she wanted. He had answers and he was taunting her. She dropped the barbell. It landed with a heavy thud.
Maybe she’d put that knife there to protect them both.
“If you want to find me,” he slurred. “I’ll see you at three...”
Sunny rinsed the coffee cup and placed it in the sink. He was grinding his teeth when she re
turned to the bedroom. Sweeping the laptop under her arm, she started for the door. She would look for her son, Barry was right about that. She would find him, too.
It was why she was here.
12
Sunny
After the Punch
SUNNY HELD THE ELEVATOR open.
The hallway had grown longer. Her rain-soaked clothing rubbed between her thighs. Barry’s laptop was tucked under her arm. It might not work after the downpour. She listened outside her apartment door. A cat meowed in Mrs. Jones’s apartment, the hallway still empty.
Sunny opened the door.
Her apartment exhaled a stale breath. She hesitated outside Grey’s bedroom, closed her eyes and uttered a childish wish that didn’t come true.
She pulled food from the pantry, aspirin from above the stove and went to the shower to wash off days of sweat and worry, hot water cleansing weary skin. She closed her eyes, the water running to her toes, and sang.
There were no words in the song, just a rambling hymn vibrating in her head. It was soothing, relaxing. She’d done that when she was a kid, following the melodic rhythm of a music box while a ballerina turned on top. She still did it to calm her nerves in the shower, when she was cleaning or driving or just alone.
She grabbed full handfuls of hair. It had grown a full inch.
Wiping steam off the mirror, she dried off in front of it, noticing how the skin stretched between her ribs. The jagged scar throbbed across her forehead. Her fingers trembled over it, the raised flesh sensitive. Her gums were receding; vivid green eyes with lighter bands like a wagon wheel stared back from hollows. Her mother used to talk about her eyes, said they were magical—the outer rings dark and focused, the inner irises streaky green, almost metallic.
No one has eyes like you, Mama would say.
Something fell.
It was a bump on the wall or floor. Sunny’s senses perked up, those emerald eyes laser tight. She held as still as prey.
“Grey?” she called.
Nothing was in the front room. The deadbolt on the door was still in place. Rain spit against the window. Clean and alert, she put on fresh clothes, ditching the uniform. Might as well throw it away. She wondered if Donny was at work. Had he tried to call? Did he stop by?
Where is he?
There was a wallet in the back pocket of her uniform. She didn’t carry a wallet; neither did Grey. It was filled with cash. The name on the driver’s license wasn’t familiar, but the face was. His real name was Trevor Martin.
Hamlet.
There had been a party somewhere on Barry’s floor the night she’d followed them back. She stepped onto the elevator with them and slunk in the corner as they fell against each other. Hamlet melted onto the floor. She offered to help. Barry stumbled ahead, barfy sounds sliding out of him. That was when she heard the party somewhere on the floor, when she dragged Hamlet into the hall.
Why do I have his wallet?
There was three hundred dollars inside it and a business card. City Shelter for the Homeless. She knew this place, had volunteered there a couple times when Grey was with his dad and she had nowhere else to be. Maybe Hamlet was a resident, was just using Barry for a hot and a cot and a roll in the sexatorium. There was a symbol on the back of the card, something she’d seen before.
A snake eating its tail.
Panic seized her by the neck. She had to get out before someone came looking for her. The man in the black coat, the person on the phone had warned her to leave. What am I doing here?
She grabbed Barry’s laptop and stepped into the hall. The cats meowed from the old woman’s apartment. Lightly, she tapped the door.
“Mrs. Jones?”
The door was locked. Maybe the old woman was sleeping. She only wanted to say thanks for the other day and ask if anything suspicious had happened since she’d been gone. If anyone had called.
Had she seen Grey?
Sunny waited for the elevator. When it arrived, she could still hear the cats.
COFFEE BEANED WAS FOR hipsters and introverts.
Sunny grabbed a fashionably scarred wooden chair in the corner. Trinkets, local art, and old movie props were on display. A long bullwhip was coiled on the wall, the leather tassels dangling above her head.
Sleep deprivation was bending the corners of the room.
If she closed her eyes, she’d drip onto the floor. This sometimes happened at work when they were behind schedule, when they stacked shifts. Bolts would wiggle out of steel plates and jump like exposed earthworms until she blinked them back into reality. She’d learned to ignore it, to plow through it.
It was how she lived her life.
She would never admit, deep down, tragedy was a welcome change from the monotony. When the trapdoor popped under her feet, at least she felt something. Even if it was terrifying.
Just not Grey. Don’t let anything happen to my Grey.
She would give anything to trade places with him, to give him a chance. Her life was half done. He deserved more. She had already dealt him a shit hand of genetic predisposition to soul-crushing depression.
She wanted something different for him.
“Soony?” someone called.
She raised her hand.
The man who had taken her order delivered a muffin. She devoured it and shut her eyes, the chaos of the café driving her down a melting pot of sleep, where rich aromas carried her into a dreamless nap. She awoke to a fresh crowd of people and the laptop warming beneath her cheek.
It was fully charged but choking on viruses. The jump drive contained exactly what he said it would—a long list of video clips, each with cryptic labels and symbols. All of them inside the Maze.
She didn’t want to watch them, didn’t want to imagine her son in some sort of animated death match where he respawned again and again, dying over and over. Some videos were simple smash and dash competitions. Others were a bit more complex.
All of them psychologically irreversible.
She opened a browser and typed a search: survivors of the maze.
It sounded like research, not an inquiry into participation. Whatever alarms crawled the Internet, she hoped it wouldn’t set them off. It was an illegal, black-market operation, but these kids were somehow finding the clips without getting arrested.
The first link was a winner. Stopthemaze.com.
Sunny tipped the screen and clicked. The infamous icon faded onto the screen—the thick black lines contrasting with a stark white background.
WHILE THE MENUS LOADED, her heart sank into the refreshed memory of Grey lying peacefully in bed. Mission statements, personal stories, up-to-date newsfeeds from law enforcement, videos and links to report suspicion appeared.
She wasn’t alone. There were others fighting back. Sunny clicked the “About” tab—
“What is the Maze?”
Quickly, she muted the sound and stopped a video, not that anyone would hear it over the music. She read the transcript.
Why does the Maze exist? Money. Power. Those are the big ones. Participants are guaranteed a handsome payout, win or lose. Nine out of ten will, in fact, lose and have no understanding of their winnings that eventually goes to their families. Some see this as a means to help out desperate people in need, but the sad truth is that the Maze feeds on despairing souls to deliver power to the few behind it.
It’s gambling with your mind.
The winners, it is said, emerge with clarity of mind described by some as a state of enlightenment, although these claims have been disputed. Because winners are rarely heard from upon exiting the Maze.
Grey could win.
Sunny would benefit from his winnings. She couldn’t care less; money was not the cause of her suffering. But would Henk receive those winnings, too? That bastard would revel in that treasure whether Grey was a bodhisattva or a basket case.
What am I thinking? He’s been kidnapped. And winners are rarely seen again.
What was worse, seeing him drooling no
nsense or never knowing what happened? Her hope continued a slow march to the gallows.
Perhaps, the transcript continued, one of the most appealing draws of the Maze is something beyond fame and wealth. Some suggest the Maze is a spiritual journey, one that allows the true identity to escape the mortal coil, to be free of the desires inherent in the flesh. The creators of the Maze are rumored to be gods that created humankind as a vehicle to give birth to the mind and, in turn, imagine alternate realities as real as earth and stone. That the games and wealth and entertainment of the Maze are simply a means to deeper realization.
Not all of the Maze games are blood and guts. Some are psychological thrillers designed to erase the personality so that the players find themselves in the Maze. And thus find the god-spark of creation.
The true purpose of the Maze is a gift to set us free.
Sunny wondered why a site devoted to stopping the Maze sounded more like an advertisement. There was nothing selfless about the Maze. The website’s personal stories segment proved that—tales of men and women, boys and girls, all losing out to a game, lured by the promises of money and everlasting peace.
One story caught her attention, that of a single mother finding her son comatose. She had returned from work. He was on his bed. The mother managed to enter the Maze in search of him.
Sunny rubbed her eyes. The names were not Grey and Sunny Grimm; the faces were different. The people different. It never said if she found him.
She clicked the next link—ARE YOU A VICTIM?—but it circled back to the homepage, flashing the Maze icon before reloading the menus. One of the cooks was approaching, his greasy apron dangling around his neck. He balanced a small plate with a scone in one hand, a coffee cup in the other.
Sunny nearly closed the laptop. He stopped just short of her table, turning to an old woman reading a book. She made room for the delivery, nodding her approval. She was bundled in an old coat, a multicolored scarf wrapped around her neck and a silk one around her head.
Black saucer sunglasses.
“Mrs. Jones?”
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