The Year I Became Isabella Anders (Alternative Edition) (Sunnyvale Alternative Series Book 1)

by Jessica Sorensen

  “I jumped out of the car and fell.” I slump back, resting my head against the door. “Please, Grandma Stephy, just tell me her name.” Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe through the pain.

  “Her name is Bella,” my grandma says right before I pass out.

  When my eyelids flutter open, my eyes are instantly assaulted by florescent light; the smell of cleaner attacks my nostrils; and my knee feels like a zombie took a bite out of it.

  “Where the hell am I?” I mutter as I sit up.

  “Easy, Isa.” My grandma Stephy appears by my bedside, looking paler than normal. “We had to take you to the hospital.”

  I take in the privacy curtain, the thin bed I’m lying in, and Indigo sitting in a chair. “How’d I get …” I cup my head then my mouth sinks. “Oh …” The last few hours rush back to me.

  Grandma Stephy pats my hand that’s resting on my waist. “You’ve never been good with blood. You worried me to death when you blacked out.”

  I look down at my knee, which is now wrapped in a bandage, thank God. “Did I have to get stitches?”

  “You did.” Grandma Stephy smoothes my hair from my forehead so she can look me in the eyes. “How are you feeling? About everything?”

  “The leg hurts,” I admit. “And the thing with my mom … you said her name is Bella.” I smile at that. “I have to be named after her, right?”

  “I guess so.” Grandma Stephy glances over her shoulder at Indigo. “Honey, would you mind going and getting me a soda from the vending machine?”

  Indigo nods and Grandma Stephy waits until she ducks out from the curtain before she sits down on the edge of the bed.

  “Isa, your dad knows I told you about your mom. That’s why he came over to my house today.”

  “How did he find out? I didn’t say anything to him.”

  “You didn’t have to. He said he knew from the moment you got back from your trip. He said you looked so much like her, and he just jumped to the conclusion that your change came from learning who your mom is.”

  “I look like her?” I try not to act too giddy since Grandma Stephy seems upset, but I can’t help it. I’m totally freakin’ excited!

  “According to your dad, you do.” She gazes off into empty space. “I can’t believe how your father acted today. I mean, I always kind of knew he was a spoiled brat. But …” She looks back at me. “Your grandpa used to spoil him all the time because he was his only son. Everything Henry wanted, your grandpa gave him. I knew one day it would backfire. The way he treated me”—she shakes her head—“I just can’t believe that man yelling at me today is my son.”

  “I’m sorry. I feel like this is all my fault.”

  “It’s not your fault. He never should’ve kept you in the dark like he did. What I don’t get is how on earth he thought I told you how your mother looked, and all the other stuff he was saying. He acted like I somehow found out everything about her and told you.”

  “Maybe he thought you hired a private investigator.” I shift my leg into a more comfortable position as the low ache ignites into a fiery pain.

  “Maybe.” She mulls over something, tousling her short hair with her fingers. “I don’t know, though. I’d have to have a starting point for that, which I don’t.”

  “But there has to be a starting point. I mean, if she had me and I lived with her for a while, it’d be documented, like say … with a birth certificate.”

  “You sound like a mystery novel right now, Isa,” she says with a thoughtful smile.

  “Well, I do read them a lot,” I admit. “But I’m just saying, her name has to be on it, doesn’t it?”

  She promptly shakes her head. “I know where you’re going with this, and the answer is no.”

  I give her my most innocent look, my lips parting, my eyes widening. “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

  “Your father is already upset as it is,” she continues, ignoring me. “If he caught you snooping around …” She shakes her head in dismay. “I don’t even want to go there.”

  “He’s not going to hurt me, if that’s what you’re thinking.”

  “I know he won’t hurt you, but with how they treat you now, and if Lynn gets involved in this …” She sighs heavily as she checks the screen of her phone. “I really think you should reconsider my offer to come live with me. Your father won’t be happy about it. That doesn’t mean I can’t fight it, though. He’s proved way too many times that he doesn’t deserve to have you around.”

  “I don’t think he’d care,” I say, repositioning my leg.

  “I wouldn’t be so sure of that,” she tells me with a heavy-hearted look. “In fact, he might have mentioned something about me staying away from you while he was mad. And he’s probably going to yell at me when he gets here.”

  My mouth curves down into a frown as my shoulders slump. “He’s headed here? Why?”

  “Because he’s your guardian and you’re on his insurance.” She covers her hand over mine. “Don’t worry; he’s just going to be angry with me.”

  “Well, I’m going to let him know this is all my fault.” I grip her hand, trying to tell myself that everything will be okay. “I’m sure once he realizes that, he’ll let me see you again.” Besides, there’s no way Lynn would ever let my dad try to keep me at our house.

  “I’m not sure he’s going to change his mind about this. Usually, I’d say yes—that his threat was one of his temper tantrums—but this time, he seems pretty dead set on you keeping your distance from me.” Determination fills her eyes. “I can make it happen, Isa. Just say you want to live with me, and I’ll make sure to get you out of that house.”

  I take in her kind eyes that have dark circles under them and her pale skin. She looks way more worn out than the Grandma Stephy I know. The fight she had with my dad today must’ve gotten to her more than she’s letting on.

  “I’m fine,” I assure her as confidently as I can. “Besides, I don’t want to have to change schools and be known as the new girl for my senior year.”

  “You never know; being the new girl might give you a chance at a fresh start, which was what you and Indigo were always yammering about during the trip. Every damn night, that’s all I heard while I tried to fall asleep.” She tries to appear annoyed, but a trace of a smile forms on her lips.

  She’s right. Starting a new school could give me a fresh start. And, hey, maybe I’d even make some new friends and no longer have to be Loner Girl. But putting more stress on Grandma Stephy is definitely something I don’t want to do.

  “Can we talk about me living with you in a couple of weeks? Maybe after my dad’s cooled off? He might be more willing to agree to let me go then.” I’m almost certain he will. It’s not like he wants me there, anyway.

  “Maybe.” She sounds pretty skeptical, though, which makes me wonder exactly what was said during their argument. Her shoulders slump forward as she sighs. “If that’s what you want. But only if you promise to call me the moment things get too bad.”

  Things have been bad for years now. I don’t point that out, though.

  “All right, I promise.” And just because I know it’ll make her smile, I stick out my pinkie. “In fact, I pinkie swear.”

  She shakes her head, but a smile breaks through. She hitches her pinkie with mine.

  The moment we pull away, my dad comes storming in.

  He looks at Grandma Stephy as he points toward the exit. “Get. Out. Now.”

  “Watch your tongue, young man.” Grandma Stephy collects her purse from a chair and slings the handle over her shoulder. “You might think it’s okay to talk to your mother like that, but it’s not. You will respect me.”

  “I’ll respect you as much as you respect me,” he growls, stepping toward her. “Telling Isa what you did, you had no right.”

  “I’m not going to get into this with you again,” she replies as calmly as she can. “I’m going home, and I’ll call you in a few days when you’ve calmed down.”
r />   “Don’t call ever again!” he shouts after her as she walks out of the room. “And you’re never to see Isa again.”

  “Dad, stop,” I hiss. “Leave Grandma alone. She didn’t do anything wrong.”

  My dad’s attention whips back to me and, by the anger in his eyes, I expect him to yell at me. When he speaks, though, he’s unsettlingly composed.

  “We’re not going to talk about this ever again. No mention of it, okay?”

  I shake my head. “No, I’m going to mention it. A lot. And I’m going to bug you until you tell me who my mom is.”

  He ignores me, his back as stiff as a board. “I’m going to get the doctor.”

  Before I can get another word out, he leaves the room.

  I grit my teeth, more furious than I’ve ever been.

  I make another vow to myself right then and there that the second I get home, I’m going to get my hands on my birth certificate.

  Chapter 13

  Okay, so I might have been too confident at the hospital about how easy it was going to be to get ahold of my birth certificate. I’ve been searching the house for days and haven’t stumbled across it yet. I did find Hannah’s in a trunk in Dad and Lynn’s room, so logically, mine should be in there, too. But nope. Not even my social security card was in there. I even tried looking for information on the Internet, but the only thing that came up under my name was my blog and the last entry I made on it where I broke down and rambled on about my search for my mother.

  I thought about deleting the post right after I wrote it, but since I have three followers and none of them are from around here—except for Grandma Stephy—I decided it’s okay to leave it up. Plus, it felt kind of good to talk about it aloud … well, aloud in a way.

  To add more complication to my life, Lynn and my dad have gone into Isabella-doesn’t-exist mode. They refuse to acknowledge when I’m in the room, when I speak, or even when I “accidentally” dropped a glass cup on the floor to try to get their attention. My dad did make eye contact with me a couple of times. Mostly he just stares at me like he’s seen a ghost. The look honestly creeps me out.

  If it weren’t for Hannah, I’d seriously believe I somehow got ahold of an invisibility cape and am unintentionally wearing it. She lets me know I still exist in the visible realm, in a very, very Hannah-like way.

  “What’s up with those god-awful shoes?” she asks Saturday morning as I enter the kitchen to get some breakfast.

  My dad and Lynn are on vacation, so I get a break from two of the three people that hate me. If only Hannah would’ve gone somewhere too. Then I would’ve had the whole place to myself.

  Sigh. A girl can dream, can’t she?

  I glance down at the flip-flops on my feet. “I have to wear flats because of this.” I point at the bandage on my knee that covers the stitches.

  “You look fucking stupid, like you’re going to the beach or something, which is just dumb since we live in the mountains, and it’s September. Plus, you really need a mani/pedi if you’re going to wear stuff like that,” Hannah sneers as she breaks apart a granola bar. Once it’s in half, she reads the side of the box. “So that makes it seventy-five calories,” she mutters to herself.

  All the things I wish I could say to her burn at the tip of my tongue. I want to ask her if she knows about my mom, if she told anyone, if she sent me those texts while I was on my trip. But I bite them back, mostly because I’m not in the mood to war with her. And I doubt she’d just confess everything to me.

  While she’s calorie counting, I steal a vanilla cupcake from the platter on the kitchen island and a soda from the fridge. As I’m hurrying out of the room, her eyes zero in on me.

  “Ew, is that what you’re eating for breakfast?” She glares at the cupcake in my hand. “You’re going to get fat if you eat like that.”

  “I always eat like this.” I lick a huge glob of frosting off the top. “It’s so yummy.”

  She practically drools as she eyeballs the delicious treat in my hand, and I find it oddly satisfying knowing she wants to eat the cupcake but won’t.

  “Good luck keeping the weight off!” she hollers after me as I dash out of the kitchen. “Oh, yeah … and, Isa!”

  “So close,” I mumble to myself then lean back and pop my head into the kitchen. “Yeah?”

  “Mom and Dad wanted me to tell you something.” She drums her manicured nails against the granite countertop. “Hmmm … I think it’s important, but I can’t remember what it is.” A smirk curls at her lips. “Oh, I remember. They told me to tell you that they loved you, to be safe, and that if you need anything, to call them.”

  “They did?” I ask, then a second later realize my mistake.

  It’s too late. She’s already grinning like the Cheshire Cat.

  “Oh, wait,” she says with a fake laugh. “That message was for me.” She stands up from the barstool with half a granola bar in her hand. “They wanted me to remind you that you’re not allowed to see Grandma Stephy and to make sure to clean the entire house while they’re gone.” She skips out of the kitchen, intentionally bumping me into the wall as she passes by.

  I’m unsure if she’s telling the truth or not, and I’d be lying if it didn’t gut me. I hate that there’s a huge chance she’s not lying.

  By the time I make it to my room, my eyes are watery, my chest aches with loneliness, and I’ve wolfed down most of the cupcake. I pop the tab on the soda and take a swig before setting it down on the nightstand. Then I stare at my plain, white walls that are patched up from all the tacks and nails I used to hold up my drawings and posters.

  Indigo has yet to make it over to paint the mural, mostly because we haven’t really gotten a chance. I know if my parents are around when she comes over, they’ll put a stop to our painting and punish me big time. If I do paint it while they’re gone, it’ll take them some time to discover what I’ve done since they’ve gone back to never coming up to my room.

  I decide to text Indigo so we can put the mural plan in motion while my parents are on vacation for the weekend.

  Me: Hey, u wanna come over and paint my wall or what?

  Indigo: Sorry! Can’t today. I have a job interview.

  I’m mildly bummed but super excited for her.

  Me: Where?!

  Indigo: At that art gallery, applying for that job I told u about.

  Me: Yay! I’ll keep my fingers crossed for u.

  Indigo: U better. If I get this job, then I can get my own place. No offense to Grandma Stephy, but I’m getting a little tired of Friday night poker at the community center. Plus, that Harry dude has been coming over a lot. I seriously can’t look either one of them in the eye when they’re together.

  Me: LOL! I still can’t believe we walked in on them.

  Indigo: I wish I could forget … The sounds, they still haunt my nightmares.

  Me: But she seems happy with this Harry dude, right?

  Indigo: She really does.

  Me: Good. I want her to be happy. And fingers and toes crossed u get the job!

  Indigo: Thanx! Let u know when I do. Rain check on the room painting.

  Me: Yep! Might go get paint supplies today, since I don’t have anything else to do.

  Other than look for my birth certificate. I’m honestly running out of places to look. There’s only one thing I can think to do, and that’s confront my dad. I’m not sure he’ll even acknowledge me asking.

  “When they get back from their trip, I’m going to ask my dad if I can go move in with Grandma Stephy, and then I’m going to confront him,” I tell myself with fierce determination. “Right now, I’m going to go get some paint … give myself a little break from this house and this room.”

  I pull a face at the walls as I grab some cash from my nightstand drawer from a stash I’ve collected over the years. Most of it came from my grandpa. Every holiday and birthday, he gave me a card with at least ten bucks in it.

  “For college,” he said simply. “Or just a rainy day.”<
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  I glance out my window at the raindrops beading the glass. “Perfect. A rainy day.”

  I tuck a few twenties into my back pocket then stuff the rest back in the drawer and collect my jacket from my closet. I then zip up my jacket and head out in my shorts and flip-flops. I’m going to seriously freeze my butt off, but I’ve done the walk to town in sun, rain, and snow before and lived.

  My outfit isn’t that fashionable or practical for cold weather. But pulling on skinny jeans over my knee is like trying to stuff Indigo’s and my movie candy stash into a purse, which never, ever worked—we both have serious sweet tooth issues.

  Luckily, I hit the sister jackpot, because Hannah’s nowhere in sight as I head downstairs. If she were, she’d be all over my shorts and hoodie combo.

  When I reach the back door, my jackpot status goes kerplunk as my phone dings with another text from the unknown caller.

  Unknown: I have something that could ruin your life.

  Attached to the message is a photo of what looks like the corner of a piece of paper.

  I have no clue what’s on the piece of paper, but a cold chill runs through my body that I might soon find out.

  Anger bursts through me. Dammit! I hoped this shit would stop now that I was home.

  I need to find a way to get it to stop.

  Before I can even think about what I’m doing, I reply.

  Me: Hannah, cut this crap out. I know it’s you.

  I hit send, and seconds later, they respond.

  Unknown: Who’s Hannah?

  Fear briefly flashes through me before I shake the emotion away. This is probably just another way to try to get to me. It has to be her.

  I message Indigo about it, but she doesn’t reply. Sighing, I then shove the phone into my pocket, wrap my fingers around the doorknob, and yank the door open.

  Cold rain instantly soaks through my clothes as I limp down the driveway, moving awkwardly since I can’t bend one knee. The situation should make me more upset, but I’ve always been a sucker for the rain. It smells so great and puts a calmness over me.