He scares the fuck out of me. But just like watching a horror flick, it thrills me too. He was right when he said that if he had approached me in the bookstore and took me out like a normal man, I would’ve fallen for him. The way he carries himself, the way he speaks, and his passion are irresistible.
And he’s also right that if I had fallen in love with a lie, I would’ve been devastated. I just wish he wasn’t such a bad guy.
But then he’d be a different man—a man you might not be able to love.
Doesn’t matter.
I refuse to love my shadow. And I’m not going to fuck him, either. What happened two nights ago was sexual assault and I’m not going to spin it any other way.
“That’s not why I want justice for her,” I say quietly. My hand drops and I meet Daya’s soft gaze.
Never one to judge me. Even when I probably deserve it.
“I obviously never met Gigi, but Nana loved her to a million pieces. And I don’t think she ever quite got over it. Not only do I want justice for Gigi, but for Nana, too.”
That seems to placate her. “Good. Because I did find a lead on one of Seattle’s most notorious crime families in the 40s.”
I perk up, leaning over to look at the laptop screen. She turns it towards me for a better view.
“Back in the 40s, the Salvatore family ran the streets. Angelo Salvatore was the crime lord.” She points towards a picture of five men.
In the middle is what you would expect from an Italian mafia boss. Deeply tanned skin, large bulbous hooked nose and incredibly handsome, with his wide smile and sparkling brown eyes.
Surrounding him are four men, their ages ranging from what looks to be eighteen to late twenties. Based off the white hair peppered through Angelo's black hair, these must be his sons.
They all look like him and are equally good-looking. Two of them are wearing military fatigues, most likely having been drafted in WWII.
“Those are his four sons,” Daya confirms. “But they’re irrelevant, sexy as they are. Look in the background behind them. Do you see him?”
She points to a grainy, slightly blurred image of a man looking off in the distance behind the Salvatore family. Most of his body is concealed but what can be seen is a handsome face, part of a nice suit, and a top hat.
“This is the only picture I could find but I think there’s a possibility that’s Ronaldo.”
My nose is nearly smushed into the screen, I’m staring so hard. It’s a reach. Any man could be in a suit and a top hat in the 40s. But something is different about him.
“You see what I see?” Daya questions, excitement in her tone.
“He has a black eye, and his lip looks busted…” I trail off when I note Angelo's right hand, gripping a glass of alcohol. “Angelo's hand is busted too!”
I look to Daya and it’s like looking into a mirror. I know the excitement burning on her face reflects my own.
“And guess the date on the picture,” she says, smiling wider.
My eyes round. “Bitch, just tell me. “
“September 22nd, 1944. Four days after that entry from Gigi saying Ronaldo came in beat up.”
My mouth pops open, and I look back at the picture. Staring at the man that could’ve possibly been Gigi's stalker.
And her murderer.
I’m drunk.
I ended up drinking two more margaritas, and Daya had the bright idea to take more tequila shots.
My world spins as I stumble up the stairs, a giggling Daya on my heels. We’re both on all fours, our hands planted on the dirty wooden floors so we don’t fall.
“Bitch, why did you make me drink this much?” I ask, giggling harder when I almost topple sideways.
“I felt it was appro-ahh—appro—priate while we’re inveshtigating a murder,” she stutters, her voice wobbly and filled with giggles.
I snort in response, my vision still playing tilt-a-whirl with my head.
I walk her to the guest bedroom and help her get to bed. I’m not much help, considering I nearly send us both crashing to the ground a time or two when I try to help her get her jeans off.
“How are you going to get yours off?” she asks, staring at my jeans.
I wave a hand. “I’m sure the stalker will help me,” I retort. She widens her eyes comically.
“If he puts his peen in you, record it. I want to watch it later.”
Right now, the prospect of fucking my stalker seems hilarious. We'll both regret it later, I’m sure. If we even remember.
We giggle like schoolgirls, her laughter following me out of the room. I lean heavily against the wall as I stumble my way to the bedroom.
I don’t even bother trying to take my jeans off. I just plop on the bed, on top of the covers and everything, and I’m out seconds later.
A brush of skin across my cheek wakes me. I groan, my world still spinning as I open my crusted eyes and see my shadow standing by my bed, brushing the hair from my face.
“Oh, great,” I grumble. “You’re here.”
“Little mouse, are you drunk?”
“Way to ask the obvious,” I mumble, slurping up some drool that’s leaking out of my mouth.
I’m still too drunk to be embarrassed. Shakily, I sit up and stare around the room. The lights are still on—I guess I forgot to turn them off—and it feels wrong to see my stalker in anything but the darkness.
It makes him more real, and I don’t like it.
“Turn the light off,” I demand, refusing to meet his eyes. I much prefer when I can only see shadows of his face.
He turns and does what I say. I’m so surprised that he listened that I almost snap out another demand when the light clicks off, just to see what he’ll do.
He’s once again hidden in the shadows. When he walks through the room, it’s like the darkness clings to him. He is darkness.
I can’t figure out what scares me more—him in the dark, or him in the light.
“I need to take my jeans off. I suppose you’re going to watch me, aren’t you?”
The alcohol is making me feel bold right now. I’m not thinking about consequences or his threats. Even the fear I feel swirling around is muted.
Right now, I feel like I can say or do anything. Like being drunk somehow gives me a protective armor, when in reality, it just makes me more vulnerable.
He leans against my door, his arms crossed as he watches me unbutton my jeans and slide them down my thighs.
“You know,” I start, stumbling as I try to get the pant leg around my foot. Who the fuck invented skinny jeans, and why am I wearing them? “I don’t even know your name.”
“You never asked,” is his reply.
“I’m asking now, kitty cat.”
Finally, I get my foot through the hole and slide my leg out. I straighten and look at my freed leg in victory. One down. One to go.
“You know,” I say again, before he can even open his mouth. “I do quite like calling you kitty cat.”
“But it wouldn’t sound so good when you’re screaming it,” he taunts, his voice a little closer than it was before. I look up to see he's stepped away from the door, his form creeping through the darkness.
I snort. “You don’t think so? I bet I could make it sound good,” I challenge.
It looks like his entire body turns to stone. And that makes me feel even bolder. I slide the other pant leg off, this one going a little smoother than the other.
And then I climb up on the bed, in nothing but a bra and t-shirt and my purple thong.
He gets a good view of my ass, but that’s the least of my concerns. I grab a pillow and straddle it.
“Addie,” he growls his warning. The deep rumble has dampness gathering between my thighs. It’s unfair how his voice has a physical effect on my body, but I guess right now, it works for me.
I grind on the pillow, tip my head back and moan out, “Kitty cat.”
I squeak when I see his hand flying towards my face from my peripheral. The a
lcohol has sucked away all my reflexes, so when his hand grabs my hair roughly, I can do nothing to stop it.
My back arches as he yanks my head back. His beautifully scarred face appears above mine. Those goddamn yin-yang eyes, with thick lashes framing them.
He’s terrifyingly beautiful. And right now, he looks pissed.
“What?” I breathe out innocently.
He leans down and softly brushes his lips against mine. Electric shocks ignite from where our lips touch. I suck in a sharp gasp, appalled by the reaction his body creates within my own.
“Zade,” he whispers against my lips. “That’s the only name that will ever leave your lips from now on, especially when you’re making that little pussy feel good. And when I’m making that pussy feel good, then you can call me God.”
All the oxygen in my lungs evaporates. If he had given my soul back, it would be gone again.
“I think Lucifer would suit you better,” I whisper, my lips sliding against him as I speak.
A sinful smile flashes across his mouth, baring his straight teeth for a brief second. The one second was a stark reminder in my drunk-addled brain that I have someone very dangerous in my face right now.
And I need to get him away from me.
I arch further back, pulling my face away from his.
“You gonna assault me again? Is it going to be you forcing your dick in my mouth this time?” I spit at him, narrowing my eyes in thin, hateful slits.
“I thought about it,” he admits in a contemplative murmur. “I would love to see you swallow my cock tonight.”
There’s a but, and in my drunken state, I’m almost offended.
I quirk a brow, but even I know it doesn’t have the same effect as him doing it.
“But you’re still inebriated. And you’d vomit all over my cock the second it touched the back of your throat.”
Okay, now I’m really offended.
My mouth pops open in shock. “I would not, you asshole!” I squirm away from him, but he reinforces his hold in my hair and keeps me still.
Always fucking forcing me.
Who could love this man?
He laughs—a dark, cruel laugh. But it also transforms his face right into the devil’s. Handsome and ruthless.
“Are you saying you want to try?” he taunts, his eyes glittering in the moonlight.
I scowl at him. “Never. You know what, you’re right. I would vomit, but not because I can’t handle your puny dick. But because I would be so disgusted by it.” The venomous words spew from my mouth without preservation.
My fear is muted so my mouth is uncensored.
He arches a brow, and my mouth dries.
Fuck. Why does it look so scary when he does that?
He stares at me, and I hold my breath, waiting for him to snap. To murder me. Hurt me. Do something.
When his free hand reaches to his zipper and slowly pulls it down, I know I fucked up.
You just couldn’t keep your mouth shut, could you, Addie?
I stare at his hand movements like he’s about to open up a jar of spiders. He pops the button on his jeans and then stills for a beat.
A gasp bursts from my throat as he wrenches my head roughly to his pelvis right as he pulls out his cock.
Fuck. Fine. Okay.
So, maybe his dick is the exact opposite of puny and would surely kill me if he did decide to choke me on it. And maybe it wouldn’t be the worst way to die when it’s the most mouth-watering thing I’ve ever seen.
It’s otherworldly.
He holds his cock in his hand, and my pussy weeps in response.
I’ll never tell him how glorious he looks because right now, I want to fucking chop it off. Just like he did Arch’s hands. He wouldn’t be a man without his cock, and I wouldn’t have to worry about him using it as a weapon and crushing my windpipe.
He yanks my head closer until it’s inches from my face. Musk and the scent of leather and spices waft to my nose. Of course, he smells as tempting as he looks.
“You think you can handle this?” he asks darkly.
I swallow, desperate to lubricate the dryness in my throat. The false bravado is steadily slipping away, and now the fear is coming back full force.
“Yep,” I say, my voice wobbly. “But I will bite it off if you try it.”
I’m too busy staring at his cock to notice the smirk glide on his face. The tip caresses my jaw, the soft skin sliding against me, sending shivers down my spine.
I stare at him in disgust, but my face is a mask of lies. And the fucker knows it.
He starts to pump his cock, gripping it tightly, the veins bulging beneath his grip. Even swallowed in his large hand, it looks intimidating.
“What are you doing?” I snap. He slaps the head of his dick on my cheek in response, silencing me with a sharp gasp.
The asshole.
He continues to pump his cock, and when I realize that he’s jacking off on my face, I start to struggle.
His hand tightens painfully, needle-like pricks of pain blooming along my scalp.
“Let me go,” I hiss, pushing both of my hands against his thick thighs.
He lets go of his dick and darts his hand up to my face, squishing my cheeks painfully together. My teeth bite into the sensitive flesh, but he doesn’t let up. Tears line the edges of my lids, threatening to spill over as he leans down and bares his teeth in a vicious snarl.
That fear holds me completely immobile. Finally, I feel the terror penetrate my thick skull. Because this man could easily kill me. My bravery is sucked out of me like a vacuum, and I melt into a puddle of fear and hatred.
“You want to act brave, then I’m going to show you exactly what happens to smart mouths. You’re going to swallow my cum like the fucking bad girl you are, and I don’t give a fuck if you don’t like it.”
He roughly lets my face go, and the hand still tangled in my hair yanks me back to its previous position. I glare up at him through blurred eyes, but if anything, the sight only spurs him on.
He pumps his cock in quick, rough tugs. It doesn’t take long before he’s growling again, the veins in his neck tightening.
“What’s my name?” he growls.
“Kitt—” he briefly lets go of his dick to deliver a sharp slap to my cheek. It stings, but it wasn’t enough to actually hurt me.
I snarl. “Zade.”
He sucks in a sharp breath. “Open your mouth, little mouse. Now.”
When I refuse, he slaps his dick across my face again, this time harder. I’m getting tired of him slapping me. Rage burns hotter, and I’m tempted to reach over and bite the tip of his dick until it’s severed completely.
“You really want to test me right now?” he challenges, cocking that damn brow and breathing heavily. Desire shines in his yin-yang pools, and although he’s punishing me, he’s staring down at me like I’m a priceless jewel.
With reluctance, I open my mouth, hatred spewing from my eyes. He flashes a sinister smile before he says, “Now thank me.”
I go rigid, fury spiking hot. He wants me to do what?
“Fucking thank me for letting you swallow all my cum, Adeline.”
A dark edge creeps into his tone, and I just can’t let go of the fear, even as I work up the nerve to deny him. Images of him holding a gun to my face and pinning my tied-up body to the bed as he took what he wanted flash through my mind, fortifying the terror in my bones.
“Thank you,” I choke out angrily. As soon as I say the words, ropes of cum are spurting from his dick and right into my mouth.
A deep, rumbling growl releases from his throat, traveling straight to my core. I clench my thighs as my tastebuds are invaded with the flavor of his saltiness. Desperately, I want to spit it out right in his face.
“Fuck, that’s a good girl,” he breathes.
In response, a tear slips from my eye. I shiver from the words, just as my hatred for him burns brighter.
When the last bit of cum drops from his tip and
onto my lips, he grabs my face again, pinching my cheeks together and preventing me from spitting it all back on him like I planned to.
“Swallow,” he demands, his voice dark and full of warning.
I do because I have no other choice. His seed slides down my throat, alongside a mouthful of hateful words I want to spit at him.
I refrain for now. The situation has cleared the alcohol-induced fog, and at the moment, I feel stone-cold sober.
He tucks himself back into his jeans and stares at me as if he can’t tell if he wants to eat me or hurt me.
“Your pussy is wet for me, isn’t it?”
“Fuck you,” I snap back, my tone uneven and filled with unshed tears. So much for refraining.
“Let me see, little mouse.”
My brow plunges, and I stare at him in confusion.
“Stick your hand in your underwear, dip one of those fingers into your pussy, and show it to me.”
I open my mouth to tell him to fuck off, but he squeezes my cheeks again. Another tear slips free.
“Did you not just learn your lesson about having a smart mouth?”
My fists curl, bleaching my knuckles white from the force.
And to think this man believes I’ll fall in love with him? I want to laugh in his fucking face. No, I want to add my own scars to his face. Cut it up until he’s nothing but ugliness, just like he is on the inside.
Again, I do as he says. I slide my thong to the side, plunge my middle finger in deep, and present him with the only fuck you I can give, my arousal glistening on the digit.
He smirks at my dig, not the least bit bothered. Embarrassment clouds my vision, but I don’t let him see it. He’s getting nothing but poison from me.
He grabs my hand and brings my finger to his mouth. I resist his hold, but I’m powerless against him. His warm, wet mouth wraps around my finger and sucks off my juices in one swirl of his tongue. I hiss through my teeth, those electric waves shooting from where he licks me and throughout my body. His eyes roll backwards, acting as if he’s sucking on the best lollipop he’s ever had.
I can’t control how my stomach tightens, and thighs clench in response. I’m drenched and embarrassed.
He pops my finger from his mouth, and it takes massive strength not to send my fist into his dick.
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