by Meg Medina
“Let me in!” Her voice is muffled through the glass. “I’m freezing to death!”
I wrap the comforter around me and ring her in. A minute later, Lila steps into the apartment, shivering.
“Cristo, it feels like December out there.” She hands me a greasy Dunkin’ Donuts bag. “Lunch: special delivery.”
Inside is a Boston cream doughnut, my favorite.
“Oh, I love you.”
“Didn’t you hear me ringing? I was about to knock on the old lady’s door to let me in.” She tosses her jacket on the coatrack and rubs her hands together to warm them. I can see her new nail polish, a navy blue.
“I fell asleep,” I say. “And, anyway, Mrs. Boika wouldn’t have let you in. I don’t know what her problem is. She hasn’t said two words to us since we moved here.”
“Racist old bat,” Lila mutters, and starts for the kitchen, where I settle in at the table, the bulky comforter around me like a cocoon. When I sink my teeth into the doughnut, cream squirts down my chin. Lila makes a face.
“Don’t judge me,” I tell her, licking my fingers. “I’m starved.” My hair is coming out of my ponytail, and my lips are parched and cracked.
She puts the cafetera on the burner, opens Ma’s catchall drawer, and pulls out a hairbrush.
“At least let me make you presentable. I’ll comb you out.”
She stands behind me and lowers the comforter as I take another bite of doughnut. Suddenly she sucks in her breath.
“¿Y esto?”
“What?”
She taps the back of my neck with the brush, and I reach for the spot. Is it zits on my back again? Chicken pox?
“You got a nice hickey, mija.”
“What?” I run to the bathroom mirror to check. Sure enough, when I crane my neck, the edges of a dark raspberry are showing. The sight of it makes my heart race. Suddenly I remember Joey at my neck. Now I want to see him again — just to rip off his stupid lips.
“Shit, shit, shit.” I hold a hand mirror and turn around to see the full damage. It’s huge and purple as a bruise. The guy has lips like a bass.
Lila follows and leans against the doorway, amused.
“So, who is the little sucker?”
My face goes a deeper red than the hickey.
“Nobody.”
“Really?” she says, laughing. “You gave yourself a chupón on the neck? Nice trick. You should join the circus!”
I scowl at her and start to yank my hair out of the matted ponytail. Maybe my hair can hide this until it fades. Tears spring to my eyes as I rip strands from the band. Already, I’m making a mental list of all the turtlenecks I own. Only two. Jesus! I’ve got to get to the store. If Ma spots this, I’m dead.
Lila reaches for my hand to stop me.
“Calm down, already. You don’t want a bald patch, too, do you?”
“What am I going to do?”
“Wait here.” She disappears and comes back holding a sample tube of foundation. “Try this. If it can hide the circles under my eyes, it can hide anything.”
She doesn’t say a word as I glob the tan liquid on the spot. A few minutes later, the hickey is barely there. It’s nothing more than a secret.
When I’m done, Lila steps inside the bathroom and kisses my cheek. She brushes my dirty hair in long strokes until it’s smooth and covering my neck.
“It looks nice down,” she says softly. “It makes you look grown.” She moves her pinkies gently over my full brows and runs her palms over the slope of my cheekbones as she studies my reflection in the mirror.
“What?” I say.
“Your mother is worried about you, Piddy.”
Great. They’ve been talking.
“Ma is always worried.”
“True. But should she be this time? She said you disappeared last night. She didn’t know where you went. That’s not too safe.”
I don’t answer.
She puts her face next to mine as she admires me in the mirror. I can smell the perfume she always dabs behind her ears, until the smell of espresso coming from the small pot on the stove overpowers it.
“Just be careful about letting boys touch you, Piddy. It feels good, but it’s not a game, no matter how much fun you think you’re having.”
I look at her carefully. Fun? Was I having fun with Joey?
“Is that what you think when you’re with Raúl?”
Lila doesn’t blink. It’s a fair question, and she knows it.
“No,” she says. “But I should.”
The phone rings as Lila is draining her mug. The caller ID says DANIEL JONES HIGH SCHOOL. I answer it.
“Is this the parent or guardian of Piedad Sanchez?” The voice on the other line is strangely familiar.
“Yes,” I say.
The caller snorts. “Oh, please. It is not.”
“Eh kyoos me?” I say, trying to imitate Ma’s accent.
“Quit it, Piddy. It’s me: Darlene.”
“Oh.” I let out my breath. Making attendance calls must be one of her aide duties. I can hear phones and voices in the background. “You scared me for a second. What do you want?”
She turns on her secretary voice.
“I’m verifying your illness today.”
“I’m sick, Darlene. My mother knows.”
Darlene lowers her voice.
“Well, who cares about that?” It sounds as if she has her hand wrapped around the receiver. “Of all days to be absent, Piddy! You missed it all. You won’t believe it.”
“Believe what?”
“She got busted!” she says.
“Who?”
“Are you kidding me? Who? Yaqui Delgado, that’s who! The cops came with dogs and everything.”
My mouth hangs open.
“Is this a joke, Darlene?”
“Dead serious. I’ll tell you everything tomorrow. Gotta go,” she says. “Oh, and bring an excused note, or I’ll have to write you up.”
The phone goes dead.
I’ve heard the ladies at Salón Corazón say that miracles happen every day. You wake up to find your garden statue of la Virgen crying tears. Your uncle’s bad tumor dissolves overnight like a sugar cube. Once one of the manicurists even found a hundred bucks in her smock pocket on rent day, though Gloria swore she didn’t put it there.
I always thought they were lying, but now I get this early birthday present from God, and what can I say? It’s like el Señor himself put his hand out to help me in my time of need.
Darlene is waiting for me in the school yard when I get there the next day. She fills me in on the good news. Yaqui Delgado was suspended.
“The po-po hauled her off.” Darlene is practically hopping up and down like a third-grader — not exactly gangsta. “They caught her stealing somebody’s cell phone right out of their backpack in the hall yesterday. I was subbing in the front office while they were writing her up. That’s, like, larceny. You had to see it. She told the cop to eff himself.”
“Did her parents show up?” If I stole something, Ma would be a much worse fate than any cop. Besides, I’ve been wondering what kind of people spawn a Yaqui. It’s not every day you get Hate on Two Feet.
“Just a caseworker. Big surprise.” She rolls her eyes. “Anyway, I’ll bet that’s a level-four offense — an automatic three days out of school — or at least in-school suspension for a week! Who knows? Maybe she’ll get jail time, and she’ll rot in prison! You never know.”
I can’t believe my ears, but Darlene’s smile tells me God’s miracle is true. I’m going to light our Virgin candle when I get home.
The bell rings, and the herd of kids starts up the stairs. I wonder if the cops will give back the stuff Yaqui took. Will I get my jade elephant back again, after all? I let out a breath and imagine Yaqui lying helpless on a jail floor, rats in her hair. It’s going to be a great day.
Ma used to try to make me feel better about things by pointing out people who were worse off than we were. Back when I used
the free-lunch form, she’d tell me about all those kids in the Third World starving and getting worms through their bare feet. I suppose she thought that would make me feel better about having to turn in that form in my old shoes, right there in front of everybody’s prying eyes.
“You could be one of those hungry kids,” she’d tell me as she forced the paperwork into my hand. “Be grateful you’re not.”
That’s what comes to mind when I get to my locker. I’m unpacking, still a little drugged from the joy of a Yaqui-free school day, when I notice that there is a new word written on Rob’s locker. HOMO, it says. The go-to insult when “loser” isn’t quite enough.
Jesus. Where’s the Bully-Free Zone now?
Maybe it’s all the light-headedness over my Yaqui-free day ahead that gives me courage. But just like that, I uncap my Sharpie and get busy covering the letters with thick squiggles. I’ve had some good luck today. Why not pass it on?
I’m practically done when someone suddenly taps me.
“What do you think you’re doing?”
It’s Coach Malone. He sniffs at the strong scent of marker and gives me a nasty look.
“It had a bad word.” Instantly, I feel like a liar, even though it’s true. There’s no proof left. You can’t see a trace of anything under my handiwork.
He whips out his pad and pen.
“Name.”
Mr. Flatwell, dean of student discipline, is not a friendly man. According to his framed diplomas, he’s actually a graduate of John Jay College of Criminal Justice, a pretty screwed-up springboard for a high-school educator, if you ask me. He’s tall and dark, with buzzed hair. He’s wearing a clip-on tie, I notice, in case someone tries to choke him, I guess. His muscles show through his shirt. Nothing decorates his desk but a computer, stack of passes, and a walkie-talkie that keeps clicking and sputtering, even with the volume turned down low. He has my school record pulled up on his computer screen, and his burly hands are folded.
“Pee-ay-dad Sanchez,” he says, scanning the referral. “Let’s see what brings you in for a visit this morning.” When he finishes, he looks up at me coolly. “Defacing school property.”
“That’s not true.” I pull nervously on my turtleneck. This office is hot, or maybe it’s my nerves.
“Really? Coach Malone lied?”
Uh-oh. A trap.
“That’s not what I mean,” I say. “The locker was already messed up. I was trying to fix it.”
His eyebrows shoot up.
“With a permanent black marker?” He leans back and pulls out my confiscated Sharpie from his shirt pocket. Exhibit A. Contraband per the student handbook.
The whole thing sounds stupid, even to me.
“Somebody wrote an ugly word on the locker,” I explain. “I wanted to get rid of it.”
“I see. What did they write on your locker?”
“It wasn’t on my locker. It was somebody else’s.”
“Okay: somebody else’s locker. What did it say?”
I try to size him up. You never know who you’re talking to. He could be a closet homophobe, and then I’m really done.
“Homo.”
No reaction.
“You didn’t write it, did you?” he asks.
I can feel my cheeks going red. “No. I was covering it up, that’s all.”
“And why is that?”
For a second, I’m quiet. I have no idea why, except that I didn’t want Rob to see it. “It was mean,” I say finally.
He picks his spotless nails, thinking.
“Whose locker is it, exactly?”
“Rob Allen.”
“Ah. Mr. Allen.”
I look straight at him, but he doesn’t give me an inch about what he’s thinking. He is definitely not surprised. Either he thinks Rob is gay and won’t help, or he just knows that Rob gets picked on. Why doesn’t he do something about it? Isn’t that his job? I decide to remind him.
“I don’t know whether or not it’s true, but Rob doesn’t need it written on the front of his locker. It’s none of anybody’s business, right? Besides, this school is supposed to be a Bully-Free Zone, isn’t it?” The sour thought is out of my mouth before I can stop it. “We have posters and everything.”
He stares for a few seconds without saying anything. Maybe he doesn’t like my “tone.” He glances back at the screen and scrolls through some details.
“You’re new this year, Miss Sanchez, and yet I notice you’re already starting to collect tardies and detentions. You cut study hall two days ago. Not a very good start. Any reason you’re having trouble getting to class?”
“No.”
“And you like school so far? Things going well?”
I pick at my chipped nail polish, thinking.
“I liked my old school better,” I say carefully. If I tell him about Yaqui, everything will just get worse. Being a narc means you’re too weak to take care of yourself. You need a grown-up to be your shield. Where will that leave me? I’ll be even more of a social outcast than I am now — open season for anyone to get after me.
Just then, there’s a knock on the open door behind me. For a split second, I’m relieved for the interruption. But then I see it’s Coach Malone. I try my best to make myself small, wiping my eyes when Mr. Flatwell looks away.
“Staff meeting at four today,” Coach Malone says with all the enthusiasm of announcing a colonoscopy.
“Oh, and here’s the list of wrestlers,” he adds, walking over to Mr. Flatwell’s desk. “Let me know which of my darlings isn’t eligible.” Just as he hands over his clipboard, he takes me in. “Ah. The locker artist.”
Mr. Flatwell cocks his head at me, like a cat staring at a canary.
“Can I go?” I ask desperately.
“Not yet.”
I keep staring into my hands while they finish their business. After Coach Malone leaves, Mr. Flatwell leans back, waiting.
“Anything else you want to tell me, Miss Sanchez? Why you liked your old school better? If you’re having problems, we can try to help.”
I sit in silence, refusing to let him break me. I can’t trust him. Yaqui’s suspension means nothing but a little vacation. What happens when she comes back from home or prison, or wherever she is? I’m no dope.
“Miss Sanchez?”
“No,” I say. “I’m just still adjusting, I think.”
Mr. Flatwell sighs.
“Defacing school property is a big deal,” he says. “You should have reported the graffiti to a teacher and not taken it upon yourself to remove it.” His voice gets lower, and he leans toward me. “We can’t help unless we know what’s going on.”
Help? Help?
The ridiculousness of it all grabs me tight. My head goes light and prickly, my hands start to shake, and a little giggle ripples up my throat. Before I can stop them, tears leak down my cheeks. I can’t stop giggling, no matter how hard I try.
“Is something funny?”
“No.” I take a deep breath and bite my lip hard to keep from grinning. “Can I please go back to class now? I have work I need to make up.”
Mr. Flatwell’s eyes narrow. I can see he doesn’t like being left out of a joke.
“Yes, but you’ll need this.” He hands me an official-looking disciplinary form.
“What’s this?”
“You have a Saturday detention, eight fifty-five, sharp. That’s the consequence for defacing property. Have your parents sign.”
Suddenly I’m sober. I can practically hear Ma’s shouts.
“Are you kidding me?”
“I’m not known for my jokes, Miss Sanchez.”
“But . . . Saturday is my birthday,” I blurt out.
“Oh.” He turns to the computer screen to check my date of birth. “You’re right. Happy birthday.” With that, he opens a file folder and starts reading the next referral in the stack.
Now I’m desperate. “But, Mr. Flatwell, I work on the weekends —” I begin.
He doesn
’t look up.
“Not this one, I’m afraid. Good-bye.”
Mr. Flatwell’s papers are burning a hole in my pocket as Ma and I get off the bus at the old building on Friday afternoon at six. I haven’t asked Ma to sign them, but maybe I can talk Lila into it, if I can get her alone. That might be tough. When Lila throws a party, it’s always mobbed.
When we get to the lobby, we find a handmade poster taped near the mailboxes. A picture of a werewolf is staring back at us.
COME TO A MASQUERADE PARTY!
RUM, MUSIC, AND BEAUTY MASKS
TONIGHT, APARTMENT 3E
AVON BY LILA FLORES
Ma sighs.
“I hate parties,” she says.
The lobby door opens just as she says it, and Mrs. Halper steps out. She’s holding her mailbox keys. She has Joey’s same blond hair, but none of his cockiness or spark. She’s a thin lady and quiet. She glances at the flyer and nods quickly at Ma.
“Hello.” Ma’s eyes flit to Mrs. Halper’s arms, the same way mine do. Five little bruises, like black pearls, ring her wrist. “Vamos, Piddy,” Ma says.
I hurry up the stairs, trying not to stare at Joey’s apartment as we go past.
Lila’s hair is still in hot rollers when she throws opens the door. She’s in a clingy black dress and slippers.
“Ay, thank God you’re here. I’m running so late!” The furniture has all been pushed to the wall, and spice-scented candles are burning everywhere. She gives Ma a look and pouts. “You guys promised me you’d wear costumes.”
“I’m dressed up as an overworked shipping clerk at Attronica,” Ma says drolly. She points at the Salón Corazón T-shirt that I pulled over my turtleneck. It features a picture of Gloria and Fabio rubbing noses. “And she’s dressed up as a beauty shop gofer.”
Lila shakes her head and turns to me. “Here. Put these on the table.” She hands me a bottle of Bacardi rum and a bag of candy corn.
“You’re going to get them drunk first?” Ma hangs up her coat and surveys the arrangement of bottles. “What a business strategy!”
“Don’t start,” Lila says, pulling on one of her rollers. “The food trays are in the kitchen.” She kisses Ma on the cheek and disappears into the bathroom.