Pulling into the fairgrounds, I hear my cell phone.
Finn: Meet me by the Ferris wheel.
Me: Okay
I can’t do this. I can’t walk away but I can’t allow Will and Tommie to lose their practices and livelihoods.
Suck it up, Tess. Walk down the middle of that fair and give everything you have to Finn with your final goodbye. I finally spot Finn with a group of his friends and don’t miss his eyes light up when he sees me. He rushes over to me, swooping me off my feet and twirling us around in a circle.
“You are fucking gorgeous, Tess.”
“I love you, Finn,” I say in a rush holding all my tears back.
“What’s wrong?”
Finn immediately picks up on my distress, cupping my face and waiting for an answer.
“Nothing,” I lie. “I want you to walk me down this fair and show everyone in town who you belong with.”
I know it’s incredibly selfish asking him this knowing I’m leaving him, but it’s just what I need to let him go.
“Any fool already knows who you belong to.”
Finn walks me down the county fair.
My hand spends the whole time memorizing his. We pass several booths, and I want to stop and scream to the world what is happening, but in slow motion, step by step I lose Finn and our love story.
“Finn,” a random voice shouts.
We both turn towards the sound to see a group of men.
“Hey,” he hollers back.
“Do you mind?” He asks, gesturing to the group.
“No, but I have to use the restroom,” I say.
“Okay, meet me back here.”
Grabbing his face, I say, “I love you, Finn. I thought I knew love and had felt love before, but I never did until you. Thank you.”
“Tess, I love you, too. Is everything okay?”
“It is now,” I whisper.
The next sixty-two steps of my life are the hardest I ever attempted. I leave one final note on Finn’s truck before pulling out of town.
Finn,
Never forget that I love you. I’m leaving town because your dad has requested so. I hope by saying this much it doesn’t cause any more trouble. Just know I wanted to stay, but our greatest fear came true. I’ve left Tommie, Will and Scarlett similar letters. No one knows where I’m going and it truly is the best for all of you. I’ll always love you, Finn Evans.
Tess
PS- Thank you for the best summer of my life.
Epilogue
Six Months Later
Driving back into town rivals anything I’ve ever had to face. I’ve been gone for months, but have kept in contact with Tommie on a weekly basis. I’ve never been able to bring myself to contact Scarlett or Finn. Tommie begged and pleaded every time for me to come home, and I explained to her I couldn’t. She said they knew everything, and they didn’t care what Dr. Evans could do to them. Little does she know that things will never be the same and Dr. Evans will be really hell bent on war if I ever come back.
Tommie is due to have her baby this week. She called last night with horrible news. Finn found Granddaddy Jimmy dead in his bed. I drove twelve hours straight to get home to Finn and to be there for the birth of Tommie’s baby.
Stepping out of my truck, I first spot Tommie and Will outside the funeral home, and I make my way to them. I hear Kara’s voice and then soon spot Finn. She’s right by his side, standing in the place I belong.
“Tessa,” Scarlett yells.
And that’s when all heads turn, and I feel the need to cover my protruding belly with both hands to protect my unborn child from all the stares.
Tess & Finn’s story will continue in Walk Beside Me
Winter 2014
www.hjbellus.com
Marissa Carmel
Prologue
Laney
The cheerleaders on the sidelines chant: Wolverines … let’s hear you yell ... blue … BLUE! Wolverines … let’s hear you yell … white … WHITE! Put it together what’s that spell … blue … white. The crowd echoes BLUE! WHITE! Then a cheerleader flies twenty feet in the air, touches her toes, and plummets back down to earth. This weird phenomenon has become my life. Three months ago I couldn’t fathom spending a Friday night in the stands of a stadium watching a football game. Yet, here I sit—in the middle of Nowhere, Alabama—cheering on the Wolverines in the state championships. Nowhere is where my father’s from, and after my parents’ divorce, he decided we needed to move out of New York City for a while. Which brings us to the here and now. Please don’t get me wrong. I’m not opposed to football, but relocating to the Heart of Dixie has definitely opened my eyes to the magnitude, commitment, and love of the game in the South. My father has always been a diehard fan, but he has become a different man living here. In New York, celebrity Chef Riley (that’s my dad) was going all the time. If not social networking on his phone, he was on the computer—if not the computer, he was in the kitchen cooking up new recipes. There wasn’t much time to sit back and watch four quarters. When we moved, that all changed. Lately he seems to eat, sleep, and breathe the sport, much like everyone else in this small county town. I don’t really get it. I like the cheerleaders; my cousin Miranda (the one who was flying through the air a minute ago) is co-captain. And honestly, if it wasn’t for her, I’m not sure how the transition from big city to small town would have gone.
It’s been tolerable so far. Especially when you get to ogle your chem partner every morning in first period. Said chem partner is also the quarterback currently kicking the other team’s ass. Just like he said he was going to do. Such the ego.
The first day I met Kamdyn Ellis, he called me sugar and I nearly knocked him out. I told him I have a name, and he had better use it. He laughed at me and then corrected himself, calling me Lemon instead. Because as sweet as I look, I’m totally sour. I’m fine with him thinking that. I’m not interested in his arsenal of southern charm, boyish good looks, or baby blue eyes.
Hey, I said I’m not interested, not dead. He’s hard not to notice. Especially when he’s sitting a foot and a half away from you, wearing low slung jeans, a tight Roll Tide t-shirt, and backwards baseball cap.
See, not only have I noticed his southern charm, boyish good looks, and baby blue eyes, I’ve also noticed the revolving door of women he has on his arm. Like, a new one every other week. Sorry, I’m no one’s hot and sweaty solitary southern night.
So I keep my distance and flirt from afar, leaving him to his womanizing ways. Flirting with Kam has become one of the highlights of my day. Because, trust me when I tell you, living in Nowhere Alabama, I need to be creative with my time.
Chapter One
Kam
I zip my fly.
Ahhhh. Nothing like a little stress reliever the morning of a big game. I help Darla stand. She runs her hands up my chest and locks her arms around my neck. “I love starting my day with you.” She has that starry look in her pretty green eyes.
“Sugar, I’m a better caffeine rush than coffee.” I smile, unhooking her hands.
“You’re more than just a rush, Kam.” She blinks up at me flirtatiously. “How about I wear your practice jersey to the game tonight, so I can show everyone I’m your number one fan.”
Time out.
If there’s one thing that screams ‘item’ in this school, it’s wearing a player’s football jersey. And, umm, no thanks. I’m not in the market for being anyone’s significant other, boyfriend, or one half of an item. And Darla knows that. Everyone knows that. I spent the last three years with the most cold-hearted bitch in school, and I’m done with duos. I’m done with status and done with image. Done with the captain of the football team dating the head cheerleader.
Senior year is all mine. No strings attached.
The warning bell rings for first period. Couldn’t be better timing.
“We better go.” I avoid responding altogether, making a quick getaway. Am I being a dick? Yeah, a little. But you shouldn’t ask
questions you already know the answer to. I open the door to the storage closet and peek my head out. The coast is clear, no faculty in sight. Get caught making out—or in my case getting head—and it’s suspension row for us. I don’t think The Touchdown Club would be too happy their star player had to ride the bench because he couldn’t keep it in his pants. Darla and I slip into the growing mass of students filling the hall. I move fast, snaking my way through my peers and away from Darla. Scot-free. Or so I think. I’m not ten feet in when I run smack dab into Laney Summers. She gives me that look. Her big blue eyes sharp. Yup, busted. She always knows.
“Blowin’ off a little steam this morning?” she asks. Her tone is curt but amused at the same time. She sometimes drops the G off her words. It’s cute as hell. She’s cute as hell.
“You know me so well.” I smile down at her. The sweetest, most enticing smile I can manage. She rolls her eyes as we walk down the hallway and into chemistry together. The first time I met Laney was in this very spot. Chemistry class, the beginning of the school year. Our seats were already assigned, and lucky me, I got to sit with the new girl from New York. I knew all about her already. Her cousin, Miranda, filled me in. Miranda was one of my ex’s best friends until we broke up. Our separation divided our group, and Cheyenne actually demanded people choose sides. So everyone did, and they chose mine.
Laney was forced to move to Alabama when her parents got divorced. Pretty harsh moving the summer of your senior year. Miranda basically threatened my life if I wasn’t nice to her. Me? Not nice? To a girl? I asked if she remembered who she was talking to. What I wasn’t prepared for was Laney not being nice to me! I called her sugar—not even thinking—I call everyone sugar. She snapped at me, saying she had a name and I better use it. I apologized and told her I’d use her name. From that moment on I’ve called her Lemon. Sweet if you add sugar, sour if you don’t. I’m waiting for the moment I get to pour some sugar on her and really take a bite.
Sassy city bitch.
I fell in love with her immediately.
“You coming to see me kick North’s ass tonight?”
“You sound pretty confident in yourself, country boy.” She drops her backpack on the floor next to the table covered with glass beakers, test tubes, and burners.
“I am confident, Lemon. We’ve beat them once already. Actually, I wouldn’t even use the word beat, annihilated is more like it. It’s in the bag. Bet I don’t even get sacked.” I cross my arms haughtily.
“Oh, well if that’s the case, I’ll probably just stay home and surf Facebook. Doesn’t sound like it’s going to be a very interesting game.” She curls her lip.
“Lemon,” I stress, causing Laney to smile smugly. “Are you messing with me?”
“It’s so easily done.”
That’s what she thinks.
“So you are coming?” I sit down in my usual first period seat, with Laney a few inches away from me. It’s my favorite place to be. Breathing in her … exotic scent. It’s the only word I can come up with.
“Miranda would decapitate me if I didn’t.”
“Do you hate football so much that Miranda has to threaten you to go to a game?” The concept is foreign to me.
“No.” She shrugs. “I just don’t get what the big deal is. It’s a game.”
My mouth drops open. “Sugar, it’s not just a game in these parts. It’s a religion.”
“Is that why there’s a play called a Hail Mary?”
Now I’m the one rolling my eyes. “You don’t like anything about football?”
She smirks darkly. “I like you in those tight pants.”
My blood heats. “So you do like me?”
“I like to look at you.” She flirts. I love when Laney toys with me. It electrifies my insides.
“Lemon—” I lean in close to her ear, getting an injection of her intoxicating scent. “If you hang out with me after the game, I’ll let you do so much more than just look.”
She burns me with those scorching blue eyes. “Thanks, but no thanks. I’m not interested in being just another touchdown in your end zone.”
I can’t stop the ridiculous smile from spreading across my face. “I love when you talk dirty to me.”
Actually, I love everything about Laney, from the way she looks with those red streaks running through her hair, to her casual Converse, and smart mouth. She’s the anti-southern bell. And exactly what I need.
“You better be careful, Laney Summers, or else you might get caught from behind.”
“Is that a threat, Kamdyn Ellis?”
I glare at her like I want to devour her. “It’s a threat, and a promise, and a pledge.”
“You don’t scare me.”
“Oh no? Care to put your money where your mouth is?”
“And what did you have in mind?”
“A bet of sorts.”
“We’re eighteen. We’re not old enough to gamble.”
“Then let’s just keep it between us.” I lower my voice provocatively.
“I’m listening.”
“If we win tonight, I get you.”
“Excuse me?”
“If we win the state championship, I get to have you, in the bed of my pickup, to do with what I want.”
“You want me to bet my body?” She raises her eyebrows.
Maybe your heart, too?
“It seems to be the only way you’ll give me the time of day,” I say vulnerably, hoping my humble tone and baby blues will persuade her. It works on all the other girls, but Laney is different. She doesn’t topple that easily. She needs persuading and a challenge.
She sighs, as if considering. “What’s the spread?”
“Spread?”
“Yeah, you know, how much do you have to win by?”
“For a girl who claims she doesn’t like football, you can talk a good game.”
She shrugs. “It’s discussed nonstop in my house. I listen with one ear open.”
She is always surprising me. Since day one.
“Okay.” I mull it over carefully; the last time we played North we won by seventeen and that was with all their starters healthy. Since then, they’ve lost two of their best players to injury: their quarterback and a tight end. “Twenty-point spread.”
Laney’s eyes widen. “That’s a huge number. Are you that confident?”
“Baby.” I put my hand on her leg and run it up her thigh. “Football is what I know. So yes, you’ll be mine tonight.”
Chapter Two
The roar of the crowd is deafening. The smell of fresh cut grass intoxicating. The feel of the ball in my hands exhilarating.
I thrive on all of it. It’s what causes my heart to beat and blood to flow through my veins. It’s my vitality. I have lived football for as long I can remember. My mother says I was born to play. She knew the instant I threw my binky across the room at three months old. She’s always said I was special, and I have always believed her. When I was a freshman, Sports Illustrated did a top ten article on football prodigies in the US, and I was number one. My whole life I have been compared to the likes of Tiger Woods and LeBron James. Descriptions like speed, power, and pinpoint accuracy have followed me everywhere. I have trained at the best football camps in the US with the most well-known names in the NFL. I broke the record for most passing attempts, most completions, and most passing yards my sophomore year. And have continued to crush those numbers into the ground. I was recruited by over fifty colleges and given full rides to all of them. Football is not only my future, it’s my life. I dominate in the arena; no one can touch me.
The cheerleaders are shouting on the sidelines and the announcer’s voice is echoing into the clear night sky. I glance at the score board. Wolverines 35; Visitor 10. I told Laney we would spank them. Looks like I won that bet, and I fully intend to collect. But right now, I have to keep my head in the game and not think of Laney naked under the stars. Just the way I’ve always wanted her.
There’s forty-five seconds left.
This is the last pass of my high school career. It has to be a good one, not just for me, but for my brothers-in-arms. These ten guys have looked to me the last four years to lead them, and in doing so they have protected me, bled with me, and allowed me to thrive.
I call the play in the huddle: Gun south right, X flash on two.
Break!
We take formation up on the thirty yard line. My center, Bugger, crouches down. He’s a big-as-life black dude, snarling at the opposing team. I take one last look around the stadium. This is the start and the end of my legacy. Miranda flies twenty feet in the air as the cheerleaders below chant blue and white. The clock feels like it’s ticking down in slow motion, and the monstrous defensive lineman who has had my number all night looks like he wants to rip my head off. It’s an adrenaline rush.
“I’m coming for you, Q,” number sixty-seven growls.
“You’ll have to get through me first,” Bugger rumbles. I just smile. “Might as well go home. We wiped your ass with the field. Again.”
Sixty-seven howls. The guy actually howls like a freakin’ injured coyote.
It’s time to finish this.
“Blue forty-two!” I scream out. “Blue forty-two! Hike! Hike!” Bugger snaps the ball right into my hands, a perfect exchange, and everyone disperses in a frenzy. The lines collide like Spartans going to war as I scan the field for my receiver. I watch Duce burn grass down the center and everything inside me ignites. It’s the same feeling every time. A tingly sensation under my skin, like pins and needles. This, right here, this second, is pure control. An untouchable feeling. I see my opening and take it, firing the ball. A perfect spiral headed straight for the end zone. I watch it spin and land right into Duce’s hands. The crowd explodes. “TOUCHDOWN, Wolverines!” the announcer yells, “And new Alabama State Champions!”
I break out in goose bumps right before everything goes black.
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