Dallah has disappeared with Julian, which we all knew they would, as Julian is going crazy with worry for Dallah, and Dallah will be the only person to calm him.
Sallack, Theo, Dom, and Mickey walk out on the balcony to sit down, while Ruk and Den stand before me with shady expressions.
“Shall we go with them?” I ask them with a smile.
“You look stunning,” They both say in perfect sync, and finish with small growls to one another.
“Thank you, so do you both. Den can I speak with Ruk a sec?”
“No,” He replies simply, but just to wind Ruk up, “Ok, but I need to speak with you before we go,” He tells me with a frown.
“Ok,” I smile back at him, and watch him leave the room to join the Brothers’ outside.
“Ruk, I wanted to thank you, for being here for me, for making these last few days unforgettable. I couldn’t have coped without you; you really have made me happy.”
He takes me in his strong arms and leans down to me so that our noses nearly touch.
“I’m in love with you Zara,” He tells me with his full of emotion.
“I... You're... what...?” I ask, holding my head, before it explodes.
Inside, my hearts is beating to a new rhythm, and my body is begging me to fall into Ruk’s arms, but I can’t. How can I accept his love in my heart, because when we get back home and this romance has ended, I will be the one that will hold his words with me for the rest of my life. I have to keep hold of what is left of me to succeed tonight.
“You don’t feel the same,” He tells me but not as a question, but more of a statement of fact.
“Please Ruk, we need to think of Dallah,” I tell him in a whisper as I hold back the tears that threaten to fall, and the pain in my chest from sucking me into an abyss.
“No its fine. Maybe you should talk to Den, I think you will love what he has to say,” He tells me almost angrily as he walks away from me.
“Ruk, don’t walk away, let me explain?”
“Den, I was wrong,” He tells Den as he walks onto the balcony and away from the woman that wants him more than life itself, but is too scared and too pathetic to let him in, to see how I really feel.
Sitting at the edge of the bed, I hang my head in shame while my nails bite into my legs so hard that I pierce my skin.
“Take me away with you, I need to speak to you alone babe,” Den asks with raw emotion.
“I can’t, I can’t do this Den, not now.” I tell him, but don’t look him in the eye.
“I’ll do it here then,” He tells me as he gets down on his knees before me and takes my now fisted hands.
“Shits about to go down!” I hear Mickey whisper to the Brothers’ in a panicked tone.
“Look at me babe,” He lifts my chin to look him in the eye, “Do you remember when we first met? When we started school? When I took you bowling? When we moved in together? When it was just you and me back in England?”
“I do, I remember,” I tell him with a sigh.
“But you don’t remember the times I cuddled you in bed, told you that you were mine, that we belong together?”
“Of course I remember the things you said to me, it’s why I fell in love with you back then Den.”
I take my hands away from him and massage my forehead, not wanting him to see the pain showing in my eyes.
I will never forget the things he said to me, the way he was with me. Moreover, the way I slept alone crying of a broken heart, when I realised he would never want me how I wanted him.
“Do you remember that time you tried to kiss me?”
“No! Stop it Den! Don’t you fucking dare! I won’t have you do this to me! Why are you doing this?” I scream at him in frustration as I stand to my feet to face him.
“I didn’t kiss you back because you were 16 Zara, I was 19 years old. Every day of my life I have regretted that moment, every fucking day. I didn’t mean to hurt you, I just wanted you to be ready, you were so young! I lost what I wanted in life after that fucked up night, so I took my heart to any girl that would have me, but none of them compared to you. I never looked at them for them, all I could see was you! I’m in love with you Zara; I have been since I knew was!”
The whole world stops around me, no movement, no noise, no beat to my heart, just my whole world crashing on top of my empty shell. The room starts to spin as I fall back to earth with a bang, as does my heart as I feel the beat come back to it. Lifting my head to Den, I look at him through my tears with anger in my heart.
“How could you do this! How could you tell me this now!” I ask him through my gritted teeth.
“I wanted you to know, I don’t want you to be with Ruk, and not know that I am here. Here to love you more than he ever could, or has,” He tells me with a growl.
“Oh, and you think I will run into your arms. The man of my dreams who I have loved for so many years! You are doing this now because Ruk has taken an interest in me! Why could you not have told me before we came here? Or even a year ago! 2, 3, years ago?” I ask still in shock.
“I was scared that I’d lose you, scare you away. I didn’t know that you loved me. If I had of known, I would have been the happiest man alive, to be loved by someone as perfect as you. Please baby, do you love me, please say you’re still in love with me?”
“Stop!” Eric shouts as he walks into the room out of thin air and steps up to us.
This is when the Brothers’ rush into the room growling at Eric, thinking that I am in danger.
“Get out!” Den growls at him angrily, as the Brothers’ crowd around me.
“He is a friend! Get off me!” I tell the Brothers’ harshly as I fight my way to stand before Eric, as they surround me in protection.
“He could be the one child, can you not see it?” He asks me, while watching me for my reaction, which he gets in the form of a laugh, but not a happy laugh, but one that hides every emotion boiling uncontrollably inside of me.
“Zara, what happened?” Dallah asks as she appears at my side and puts her arm around my waist.
“Oh, not much. Ruk is in love with me, as is Den, and Eric here was just telling me that Den could be my chosen!” I tell her sarcastically before my eyes land on Eric.
“Who are you Eric? Why are you always popping up and drooping these bombs on me?” I ask him with a raised voice.
“He is here because he is your meddling father, and because he wants you to be with Den,” My Mother tells me, suddenly appearing in the midst of this fiasco, now staring Eric down with pure hate.
“Antha, how are you, it’s been a long time,” Eric tells her with a gracious nod of his head and a smirk, angering my mother further.
“What the Fuck! You’re my father?” I ask in complete shock.
“You are my child,” He tells me with a proud smile.
“Our child!” my mother shouts at him.
“Calm yourself Antha. I am here to help our daughter see what is before her. Do you not want her to be happy?”
“HOW DARE YOU! She must follow her own destiny, not have it told to her with a version of your own!” She tells him with disgust before she steps up to me with a sorrowful smile, “My beautiful daughter, I’m so sorry that you have to take this all on. Den could be the one, as could Ruk, but there are also two others. Your father lied to you about Ruk because he thinks that Den is a better choice, but that is not his decision, nor is it to be true,” She tells me then looks back at Eric with rage.
“How could you do that to me? You made me feel confused! You have caused so much angst and heartache!” I tell him with a fresh wave of pain shivers through my heart, “Wait if Ruk could be the one, why did I first choose Sallack? Fall in love with Parrise?” I ask in confusion.
“I’m sorry child, I was trying to help you,” He tells me shamefully.
“Sorry for what!” I ask in a scream, waiting for the final blow.
“I shadowed Ruk’s heart from connecting to yours when you first met; I thou
ght you needed more time to find the love with Den. I didn’t know Sallack would hurt you in that way child, I thought the romance would run its course and just fade.”
Seeing red, loosing every ambition I have held on to, I pounce at my father, ready to beat my hands on him, but Dallah is quicker than I am; her arms come out and hold me in place firmly. How could my own father do that to me, all because he wanted me to be with someone he destined a better man for me. What gives him the right to do so? Why the hell would he not want me with Ruk?
I could have avoided all of this, if I had seen the truth in Ruk. I will never forgive my father for this, never will I trust him.
“Eric I am warning you, go now, let her be! You are a selfish man, you will never be the man, the Warrior you were!” My mother tells him.
“I think I like what he’s got to say actually,” Den tells us, grinning.
“Really Den, then I have a few words for Ruk,” She steps up to Ruk from where he stands watching in complete rage, “Ruk, do not let Eric’s words interfere with your heart. You are a fierce Warrior, you can keep my daughter safe, I trust you with her heart, but the choice is not mine,” She tells him with regret.
Pushing everyone out of my way, I make it to the bed as I sit on the edge and breathe heavily through the near panic attack. Catching Ruk watching me, I bow my head down away from the sadness in his eyes.
“Dallah,” I take her hand and pull her down to sit beside me.
“I can’t do this, I can’t breathe, I have never been so scared in my whole life,” I tell her telepathically, as I want this to be a private conversation.
“Shall we transport away from it all,” She asks me with tears in her eyes. I wish I were strong enough to cry, but I can’t, I feel empty.
“No I am not weak.”
“That isn’t weak sweetie.”
“I need to concentrate on tonight, how could they do this now?!”
“Den saw how close you were to Ruk and panicked.”
“Did you know that Den has been in love with me?”
“Yes,” she tells me with a sigh.
“Damn it, why the fuck is this happening!”
“Who do you want Zara?”
“Ruk, I want Ruk.” I tell her looking her in the eye, and this is when I let my heart feel the words.
“But you love Den, you don’t want to hurt him,” she says exactly what I am thinking.
“Will you do me a favor?”
“Anything?” She tells me meaning it wholly.
“Help me through this, I need you.”
“Always,” She tells me with a beautiful smile.
The Brothers’, my mother, and my father has not said one word; instead, they watch Delilah and me talk telepathically.
Dallah and I stand up at the same time, and I look at them all in the eye, keeping my head held high.
“I have to be alone, to go through the words of the spell. I can’t deal with this right now, as I have to concentrate fully on the Bonding tonight.” I tell them, with as much strength as I can manage going into my words.
“I need to know if you are in love with me Zara, don’t leave me like this babe?” Den asks as a single tear runs down his cheek.
“I have never stopped loving you Den, but it’s not enough anymore. I can’t give you what you want any longer,” I tell him sadly.
Turning to see Ruk, he has his head to the side as if he cannot stand to hear me speak to Den, as if waiting for me to tell him that I am in love with him.
“Ruk?” I ask gently.
“Baby, it’s ok,” He tells me, even though I see the heartache through his eyes, which breaks my heart.
I know what he means; he thinks that I am going to tell him that I cannot be in love with him because I am in love with Den.
I am so angry and hurt that the choice to fall in love with him without help from others was taken from me, from us, by my fucking FATHER!
“I’m in love with you Ruk, so in love with you,” I tell him through our connection.
“Yeah?” He asks back, with a sigh of happiness.
“Yeah,” I tell him with a smile.
Turning to my mother, I take her hands in mine.
“Thank you for being here for me, but I know what I need to do, I have what I need,” I tell her sincerely, nodding my head to her.
“I’m so proud of you, we are proud of you. Go save your sister and follow your heart.”
“I didn’t mean to hurt you child, I wanted what I thought was best for you. Nothing is easy, especially the life of a Charmer and her Warriors. Remember, that every choice has a consequence,” Eric tells me, full of sadness and regret.
“You may not have meant to, but you did hurt me. I will choose who I want to spend my life with! I know better than you think, I know about the consequences. You don’t know Ruk, if you did, you wouldn’t have pushed him away from me! You maybe my father, but I will never see you as my dad. How could you do that to us? Don’t answer that, I can’t listen to this shit right now!” I tell him harshly, and look away from the hurt in his eyes, he has no right to be hurt, not after the lies he has put on Ruk and me.
He vanishes from the room, without another word.
Looking to my mother, she cries a single tear before kissing my cheeks goodbye.
“Nothing is forever, but love like it is,” My mother tells me before she vanishes also.
“Babe, you will be mine, I have told you it for years, it’s about time you listened,” Den tells me with belief, and in doing so, making Ruk sound feral with his growling.
Den leaves the room and slams the door on the way out, leaving us speechless.
“Please, can we go down stairs?” I ask Dallah, as I need to get out of this room and mingle with the monsters so that I can think about something else rather than mother fucking destiny! And how fucked up my life is!
“Yeah, were already late,” She tells me with a smile to brighten the mood, not that it works.
“So, your dad seems a bit of a bad ass, what is he?” Mickey asks with a frown, still trying to work it out.
“Werewolf, Vampire, and Warlock,” I tell him and wait for his reaction.
“No shit! Damn girl, you got some strong ass genes. I wonder what your babies would be,” He asks to himself as we all watch his mind work over time.
I smile at him, even through it all; Mickey will put a smile on everyone’s face. Moreover, he has asked a very important question which I have never thought of, what would my baby be?
As we all walk down to the ballroom where everyone waits to see the bride, I see Angus at the bottom of the stairs in his tuxedo, looking as handsome as ever. Running down the steps I throw myself into his arms, and hold him so tightly, needing to feel him.
“I’m different?” He asks with a whisper.
“We will be back in a moment,” I tell Dallah and the Brothers’ before looking around to see if anybody is lingering, so that I can transport the two of us somewhere private.
Standing at the beach, that the Brothers’, Dallah, and me were earlier, I hold Angus in my arms while placing my hand over his heart.
“Put your hand on my heart Angus,” I tell him gently.
He does so with a frown in place not understanding what I am doing.
Only a second later we rise from the sand, two feet in the air.
“This is us joining as family, you will day walk now Angus, as will Parrise.”
His handsome face changes to a look of shock and amazement.
“This is real?” He asks in disbelieve.
“It’s real Angus. I’m so happy for you, so happy,” I tell him with a cry, from seeing the love in his eyes for me.
“I will feel the sun on my skin,” He tells me in a gasp.
“Yeah, you will.”
Putting my head to his chest, I hug him with everything I have. The last hour has been erased by the blissful beat of his heart, I can feel how content he is in himself, how he has the one thing he has waited n
early a thousand years for.
“Thank you Zara, you have done so much for me, I don’t deserve you, but I will treasure you sweet.”
“You have no idea what you do for me, I haven’t shown you or let you feel, but Angus, you are amazing and you deserve to have anything in life that you want. Listen, we need to go back, when this night is up we will get back to normal, well sort of. I will enjoy going to the beach with you,” I tell him with a giant smile.
“Oh sweet, to be a part of your chosen family, is more than I could have thought possible, but for you to really care for me, my dreams, that is what makes you so special. Let’s go then sweet,” He tells me with a kiss to my forehead.
Transporting Angus and I back to Dallah’s room, we walk out and down the elegant staircase to find and met with Dallah and the Brothers’. I’m not sure what Sallack and Theo will do about their feud, but right now, they are sticking together like true brother’s, bad ass brother’s.
Walking up to them all, with Angus at my side, the Brothers’ wearing knowing smiles. Sallack being the Alpha is the first to step forward.
“Brother,” Sallack tells him with his hand held out, making my pride for him soar.
“Brother’s,” Angus tells them all back, with his hand in his as they shake hands, as he does with all the Brothers’, and they all look so pleased to have him here, as their brother.
“Who would have thought it, the Brothers’ excepting a Vampire, and their archenemy Alpha as Brothers’,” Dallah tells me through our connection.
“I know, I want this feeling to last forever,” I tell her back while watching the Brothers’ stand as strong Warriors, who have what they want in life.
We all stand and chat amongst ourselves, when I notice Dallah tense up and hold her head high, while losing her smile.
Following her gaze, I land on a woman who looks to be in her late thirty’s, she’s quite beautiful, with long chocolate brown hair and wearing a tight form fitting emerald green gown and the most amazing diamond jewelry I have ever seen. We all watch as she walks up to Dallah, raising a brow as she scrutinizes Dallah’s dress.
“Dallah, you had nothing better to wear? You are a Princess; you should be wearing something befitting your station child! ” She tells Dallah with a saccharine sweet smile.
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