Shocked, I just told my own husband that I don’t know if I want to be with him anymore, made my stomach turn into knots. I headed into the living room and just stood by the front door, I needed to get out of here.
“Ryleigh, please don’t leave. I really want to make this work. I have loved you for so long and I can’t just let you walk out that fast. I know I messed up, butI just need you.” He begged as he came up behind me and grabbed me around my waist.
“Liam, I don’t know. How would we even be able to work through this? You have hurt me more than you can ever imagine. Not only that, but you betrayed my trust! What am I supposed to do, Liam? Am I supposed to forget everything and move on and continue to play this ‘good wife’?” I removed his hands from me and turned to face him. His face looked like he had aged so much in just the last night.
“I know.” He sighed and suddenly dropped to his knees. “I don’t know how I could allow myself to screw up so bad, but things between us will get better. I can only promise my love to you and to work at being a better husband. Can you please give me another chance?” He grabbed my waist and began to squeeze.
Was he serious? He was down on his knees begging for me to forgive him.
“I need to be alone right now. I am going to go for a drive, just so I can clear my head. I will be back in a little bit.” I removed his arms from me and grabbed my keys, phone and wallet. “Alright. I will be here, I am going to go grab a shower and I need to get my stuff together and pack. I will make us a nice dinner and stay in.” He said as he rose off his knees. “You promise that you are going to come back though?” He asked.
“Okay and yeah.” Was all I could manage to say to him as I walked out the door. I got into the car and began to drive.
I picked up my phone out of my cup holder and dialed up Courtney.
“Hey girl, what are you up to?” Courtney answered as she was stuffing something crunchy into her mouth.
“Are you eating again?” I laughed; I was going to get punched for that one. “Sorry, that wasn’t nice. So, I have some gossip that you are going to have to sit down for. Are you ready?” I asked anxiously.
“Already sitting down, spill!” She sounded a little too excited, like she was thriving off of my drama filled life.
“So… Liam managed to get caught by Caleb with another woman, got into a bar fight, arrested and begged for forgiveness all in the matter of 12 hours!” I quickly blurted out.
“WHAT?!” She screamed into the phone. “After all of that he still managed to beg for forgiveness? Are you fucking kidding me? Wow! Was Caleb involved in the fight?” “No, but his friend was. Caleb tried to stay out of sight by him. He just met him at the restaurant a few hours prior, so he didn’t want to be seen by him. Caleb said he was in complete shock that he was there with another girl just right after dinner. The sad thing, Court, I don’t have a fucking clue on what I’m going to do!” I began to sob into the phone.
“Come over. Jason is getting ready to hit up the gym now and so he’ll be gone for at least an hour. We can have the place to ourselves! Since I can’t drink, I have some wine that you can have.”
“Courtney it’s not even noon yet!” I laughed.
“It’s five o’clock somewhere. Come over!” She insisted.
“Alright. No, you know what. I am going to go for a drive. I need to be alone. I love ya Court, thanks for the invite though.” I said as I headed towards downtown. I pulled up to the Four Seasons and I felt as if Iwere running to Caleb. I rode up the elevator with anticipation and excitement. I practically ran towards his door and quickly knocked on it. He answered the door in his jeans without a shirt on.
“Hey, what are you doing back here?” He asked curiously.
“I really wanted that moment that we talked about, the one where you just hold me all day…I want that to happen.” I said reaching up around his neck. “I think we can make that happen.” He closed the door behind me and pulled me closer into the room. I looked up at him and found that he was intensely looking at me. “Ryleigh, I’m sorry, but I am going to kiss you right now.”
I didn’t know how to respond, all I could do was nod at him as he cupped my face. He pulled my face to meet his as our lips locked. His lips felt so soft against mine, his kiss was so passionate but so sweet all in one. His hands slowly explored my body as I ran my hands up and down his back.
He pushed me up against one of the walls as we came up for air. He began to kiss down my jaw, ear and neck. Each of kiss was as passionate as the next one. He pinned my hands above my head as he kissed down my arms, I felt the goose bumps rush down my entire body.
“Ryleigh? Are you sure you want to do this?” He whispered in my ear.
“More than anything, Caleb.” I whispered back. With that he picked me up and carried to the bed. He carefully laid me down on the mattress. He crashed into me and began kissing my lips once again, this time hungry to taste my lips, which was fine by me; I needed to feel his lips all over me.
I felt his hands slide underneath my shirt, and slide up to caress my breast. I pushed him up off of me for only for a moment to quickly remove my shirt. He must have been thinking the same thing, but he wanted to remove it for me. Slowly. He loved to watch my shirt glide over my head and my hair fall back down over my shoulders and down my back. His gaze over me was so intense; I loved the feeling of him watching me.
“You are so beautiful, Ryleigh.” He said passionately as he leaned in to softly kiss my lips. We both leaned back onto the bed, both exploring each other with our hands and our mouths. He tasted so amazingly good, so masculine but not a musky taste, but that of soap and a hint of cologne. I craved his taste now and I don’t think I would everget enough.
I felt his lips begin to trail down my chest, kissing my nipple through my bra. I even felt a little nip of his teeth through the material. His tongue then made its way down my abdomen past my navel and stop at the top of my pants. The goose bumps had reappeared.
He gently slipped his hands into my pants, sliding them down around my ankles. He slid them to the floor and came back to my lacey panties. He stopped for a moment, as if he were drinking me in. “Is everything okay?” I asked. “I’d love to look at you every day, just like this. I’ve thought about this moment for a very long time.” He said lovingly.
I could feel some tears being to sting my lids, but not because I was sad but the fact that he had really meant every word that he said. The way he said it, made me feel so loved. I grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him into another kiss. His hand worked around my back and with a flick of the fingers he unhooked my bra and pulled it off of my arms. His mouth made its way onto my nipples. He teased them with his tongue and teeth, he was driving me crazy. My nails found their way into his arms; he let out a little groan as I squeezed a bit tighter as he bit down a little more.
He then trailed his tongue back down my belly, leaving little kisses along the trail. He softly guided my panties off of me and tossed them aside. My breath hitched as his tongue began to lightly flick at my clit. I quickly arched my back in pleasure. I thought I might come undone as I felt him slowly guide a finger inside of me. I moaned out, loudly, in pleasure. He guided in back and forth as his tongue continued to tease me.
“Oh my god! Caleb…” I moaned out.
“Ryleigh…I really want to be inside you.” He said quietly.
“I want to feel you!” I screamed out. He quickly slid his jeans and boxers down to the floor and climbed up on top of me. He slowly positioned himself and slid into me. I let out a loud moan as I felt him push into me, he was definitely bigger than I was used to having.
He slowly pushed himself in and out of me. My legs wrapped around his hips, he then pulled my arms above my head. He leaned in and kissed my arms before ravishing my lips. Are hips moved in sync, we fit each other perfectly.
Our bodies were glistened in sweat as we sped our movements up. Caleb began to push harder and faster into me and thankfully he released my
arms, I wanted to hold on to him tighter. He moved his hands underneath me to pull me into him.
“Ryleigh, baby, you feel so incredible!” He groaned out.
“Caleb! Fuck! Oh My god!” I screamed out.
We both grabbed a hold of each other as we both reached our climax. Screaming out in pleasure, trying to catch our breath. He looked down at me and gaveme a long adoring kiss.
“Ryleigh.” He paused. “I love you so much.”
I felt my heart stop. I never knew that three little words could mean so much more. “Caleb…I…” I wanted so bad to tell him I loved himtoo. “I don’t expect you to say it back, but I wanted to tell you. I really mean it.” He said kissing me once more. He rolled over onto the bed and I laid there just staring at him, smiling. He really made me feel so good all over.
Caleb began to play with my hair, giving me soft kisses all over. I laid there for a minute longer to just stare at him. His green eyes were so intense on mine I loved the way he could give me butterflies with just a smile.
I finally rolled up off the bed and quickly got dressed and walked into the bathroom to clean up. When I came out, he was waiting by the door for me, fully dressed ready to go.
“Do you want to go grab that beer? He asked with a smile.
“Yeah that would be great.” I answered with a laugh.
The thought of what just happened made me want him all over again. As I walked towards the door, he reached to open the door and I quickly stopped him and reached up to give him a kiss.
I pulled his arm away from the door and we began to kiss harder and faster.
“You smell so delicious; I can’t control myself when I’m so close to you.” He breathed into my neck. “Are we actually doing this again?” He laughed. I quickly nodded as I grabbed onto his neck while he grabbed my ass and picked me up and carried me to the bed. We stripped off all of our clothes, we only moments ago put on, and threw ourselves onto the bed.
We were so passionate the first time, but this seemed to be pure fucking. It was hard, it was fast and I was enjoying every second of it. He pushed hard into me, grabbing my hair as I propped myself on my elbows.
“Ryleigh, I hope you are fucking close!” He grunted out. “Oh god, I wanna see your eyes looking into mine!” He demanded
“Yes! Oh fuck! I am right there!” I moaned out as I opened my eyes to see his eyes looking at me intensely. I was so turned on looking into them; they were so dark and sexy.
We both reached our climax and fell back onto the bed. We laid there trying to catch our breath when he looked over at me.
“You are going to kill me!” He laughed.
“Me? Aren’t you all sorts of in shape?” I laughed back as I pushed myself up from the bed. “I am, but I don’t know if any workout has preparedme for you.” He smacked my ass. I screamed out as I headed into the bathroom to clean up. This time we definitely had to get out of here or I was going to have to ravish him again. I then looked down at the floor. “Caleb, I really should go back home. I know I totally owe you a beer. I just have been gone for so long and I was only going to go for a drive.” I said regretfully.
“No, that’s fine. I do want to see you again though.” He leaned and placed a kiss on forehead and then my softly on my lips.
“I know. I want to see you too.” I smiled. We headed back towards the door and he opened it up for me. He grabbed my arm before I could leave and kissed me once more. I didn’t want to leave and go back home, but I knew that I couldn’t stay here all day.
“I love you, Ry.” He whispered in my ear.
“I love you too.” I sniffed.
I turned and headed down the hallway. Once I got to my car I quickly called up Courtney.
“Hey! How are ya?” She asked a little too happily.
“Court….” I paused.
“Oh no! What happened?” She anxiously asked.
“So…I…” I paused not even knowing where to begin.
“Spill!” She demanded.
“I just left Caleb’s place. I just slept with him!” I said quietly.
“What?!” She screamed out. “How was it?” She asked eagerly.
“Wait, what? You aren’t going to lecture me that I am doing the same thing that my husband is doing?” “Ryleigh, what he’s doing is for conquests. He’s doing it just to do it. YOU on the other hand, you are doing it cause your heart is telling you who you are meant to be with. Caleb seems like your soul mate and you can’t mess with fate.” She laughed. Courtney always believed that everything happened for a reason, fate and definitely karma.
“Court.” I sighed. “I can’t believe I just did it, but in all honesty…” I paused with a massive smile on my face. “It was pretty amazing.”
“I want details!” She demanded.
“No!” I laughed.
“Aw come on! Never mind, I don’t want your juicy sex scene ANYWAY!” She pouted. “So what are you doing now?”
“I am headed home.” I said grimly.
“Why?” She asked and I at first she meant it as a joke, but she meant it seriously.
“Cause I still live there and I am still married to him.” I said firmly.
“Umm… Okay, I guess there is no arguing with you on this one. Well, I am proud of you.” She laughed. “If you do need anything, call me okay. I love ya!”
“I love you too, Court. I will call ya later.” I said as I hung up with her.
The rest of my drive home may have been quiet in the car but the thoughts made it seem like the volume of the radio was on full blast. I pulled back into my driveway. I really needed tocall Caleb and talk to him, but figured I was going to see him tomorrow. He could wait. The tow truck hadobviously had come by, I saw the car left in the driveway.
I trudged up to the door and saw Liam asleep in his chair. I walked over to him and gave him a light shake. “Hey, you.” He said sleepily. “I didn’t mean to panic and call your phone so many times, I just thought you would be home sooner and when you hadn’t called or came home, I worried.” I hadn’t even realized how many missed calls I had.
“I should have called to let you know that I was going to Court’s house. I just needed to have some girl time with her and clear my head.” I lied.
“Since neither one of us ate much for breakfast, are you hungry? I could go and get us something fast or we could have an early dinner?” He asked. “That would be nice. Let’s just grab something. We can do a nice dinner when you get home; I will grab some steaks at the store and grill them up. Right now I want something greasy and very unhealthy.” I laughed.
“Alright, I’ll get up and go grab some food for us. Something greasy and very unhealthy coming up.” He tried to push me up but I pushed him back into the chair. He stood up and pulled me into him I saw him lean in for a kiss.
“Liam. I…I can’t. It is so soon and we need to really…”
He stopped and he had looked like he had seen a ghost. “Ry, are you serious?” He was obviously upset at mestopping him, but he nodded. “I guess, I understand. I really did fuck up and we really should talk. We didn’t really talk much earlier. Let me go grab us some food and have a nice talk.”
“Alright, that sounds good.” I said trying not to look at him, but as soon as I looked up I could see the disappointment ooze from his eyes.
As I saw his car drive off, I quickly grabbed my phone. I dialed up Caleb. “This is going to sound absolutely ridiculous, but I had to call so I could hear your voice. Things have been, well just fucked up and I don’t know what I am doing saying all this, but … yeah.” I was insane for saying that to him, but I did have to hear his voice.
“Wow. That is nice to hear, I love hearing yours.” I could tell that he was grinning.
“Tell me something amazing. Please.” “Ryleigh, YOU are amazing. I think about you all day long and look at my phone every minute to see if I could possibly have missed a text or call from you. I look like a damn teenager checking my phone all the time. I miss seeing yo
ur smiles every minute. I miss tasting your lips. Every second that I have to go without talking to you, is one that I want to make up. Times ten.” He paused. “How is that?”
“Wow. Where do you come up with this stuff? You always have some of the most amazing things to say to me!” I was grinning like an idiot. “I come up with this stuff; because it is what I feel towards you, what I think about all day, what I want to have happen all day. Every day.” He said with such passion in his voice. “I can’t wait to meet you tomorrow. I want to spend the evening just holding you.”
“It sounds all too good to be true.” I sighed into the phone.
“You okay?” He asked.
“Yeah, just still trying to figure everything out and I think my mind is exhausted. I am excited to see you tomorrow as well. I better go, but I will text you in the morning when I get into work.”
“Ryleigh, if you need anything… just let me know okay?” “Thanks, Caleb. Talk to you later.” I hung up my phone and placed it back in my purse and it perfect timing too. I saw Liam’s car pull in. I jumped up to open the door for him and saw he had 3 bags full of food.
“When I said greasy and very unhealthy, I didn’t mean you had to clean them out!” I laughed. “Well, I didn’t get a chance to ask you what you wanted to eat. I just figured I’d get one of almost everything. Value menu is awesome for that.” Liam leaned in and gave me a kiss and handed me a drink and a bag. I followed him inside and set stuff down at the table.
We both were starving at this point so everything got dumped out onto the table and we began to pick and choose which burgers we were claiming and chowing down on fries.
“Liam, will you tell me something amazing?” I was truly amazed by what Caleb had to say, I was hoping that Liam would say something to me. I hated the fact I had to ask him to.
“Something amazing? Let me think.” He paused to take a bite of his burger. “There are about 800 calories in this burger, to burn this off; the average person would have to have sex around eight times!”
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