Morgan's Run

by Colleen McCullough

  “The King was very ill in 1788 and certain elements tried to have the Prince of Wales installed as regent, but the King recovered and Georgy-Porgy failed to lift himself out of his mire of debt. He still refuses to marry suitably, and Roman Catholic Mrs. Maria Fitzherbert is still his great love.”

  “Religion and religious differences,” Stephen said with a sigh, “are the greatest curses of mankind. Why cannot we live and let live? Look at Johnson. Insisted the convicts marry each other but gave them no opportunity to get to know each other first because fornicating is a part of knowing. Pah!” He suppressed the flash of temper and changed the subject. “What of England?”

  “Mr. Pitt reigns supreme. Taxation has absolutely soared. There is even a tax on news sheets, gazettes and magazines, and those who advertise in them must pay a tax of two-and-sixpence irrespective of the size of the advertisement. Jem says that is forcing small shops and businesses out of advertising their wares, leaving the field to the big fellows.”

  “Does Jem have anything to add to the fact that the first mate and some of the crew of Bounty mutinied and put Lieutenant Bligh in a longboat? ’Tis the mutiny on Bounty everybody is talking about, not the French Revolution,” Stephen asked.

  “Oh, I think interest in Bounty arises from the fact that the crew preferred luscious Otaheitian maidens to breadfruit.”

  “Undoubtedly. But what does Jem say? ’Tis a huge scandal and controvery in England, apparently. Bligh, they say, is not blameless by any means.”

  “His best snippet concerns the genesis of the expedition to Otaheite to bring back the breadfruit, which I gather was intended as cheap food for the West Indian negro slaves,” said Richard, hunting through pages again. “Here we are. . . . Jem’s style is inimitable, so ’tis best to hear it direct from him. ‘A naval lieutenant named William Bligh is married to a Manxwoman whose uncle happens to be Duncan Campbell, proprietor of the prison hulks. The convolutions are tortuous, but probably through Mr. Campbell, Bligh was introduced to Sir Joseph Banks, very occupied with the mooted breadfruit pilgrimage to Otaheite.

  “ ‘What fascinated me was the incestuous nature of the final outcome of the expeditionary marriage between the Royal Navy and the Royal Society. Campbell sold one of his own ships, Bethea, to the Navy. The Navy changed her name to Bounty and appointed Campbell’s niece’s husband, Bligh, commander and purser of Bounty. With Bligh sailed one Fletcher Christian of a Manx family related by blood to Bligh’s wife and Campbell’s niece. Christian was the second-in-command but had no naval commission. He and Bligh had sailed together previously, and were as close as a couple of Miss Mollies.’ Say no more, Jem, say no more!”

  “That,” said Stephen when he could for laughing, “just about sums England up! Nepotism reigns, even including incest.”

  “What is incest?” asked Kitty, well aware of Miss Mollies.

  “Sexual congress between people very closely related by blood,” said Richard. “Usually parents and children, brothers and sisters, uncles or aunts and nieces or nephews.”

  “Ugh!” Kitty exclaimed, shuddering. “But I do not exactly see how the Bounty mutiny fits in.”

  “’Tis a literary device called irony, Kitty,” said Stephen. “What else does Jem write?”

  “Ye can have the letter to read at your leisure,” Richard said, “though there is another thought in it worth airing ahead of that. Jem thinks that Mr. Pitt and the Parliament are very afraid that an English revolution might follow the American and French ones, and now deem a Botany Bay place a necessity for the preservation of the realm. There is huge trouble brewing in Ireland, and both the Welsh and the Scotch are discontented. So Pitt may add rebels and demagogues to his transportation list.”

  He did not discuss Mr. Thistlethwaite’s personal news, which was excellent. The purveyor of three-volume novels to literate ladies had become so adept at the art that he could produce two a year, and money flowed into his coffers so copiously that he had bought a big house in Wimpole Street, had twelve servants, a carriage drawn by four matched horses, and a duchess for a mistress.

  After Stephen left carrying Mr. Thistlethwaite’s letter and the dishes were washed up, Kitty ventured another remark; to do so no longer terrified her, for Richard tried very hard to restrain his God the Father tendencies.

  “Jem must be very grand,” she said.

  “Jem? Grand?” Richard laughed at the idea, remembering that burly, bulky figure with the red-tinged, pale blue eyes and the horse pistols protruding from his greatcoat pockets. “Nay, Kitty, Jem is very down-to-earth. A bit of a bibber—he was one of my father’s most faithful customers in his Bristol days. Now he lives in London and has made a fortune for himself. While I was aboard Ceres hulk he enabled me to safeguard both my health and my reason. I will love him for it all of my life.”

  “Then I will too. If it were not for you, Richard, I would be far worse off than I am,” she said, thinking to please him.

  His face twisted. “Can ye not love me at all?”

  The eyes turned up to his were very earnest; they no longer seemed the image of William Henry’s eyes, but rather had become her own, and equally—nay, more—loved.

  “Can ye not love me at all, Kitty?” he repeated.

  “I do love you, Richard. I always have. But it is not what I believe is true love.”

  “You mean I am not the be-all and end-all of your existence.”

  “You are, such as my existence is.” Her eloquence was a thing of gesture, expression, look—her words, alas, fell down badly; she had not the knack of finding the right ones to explain what was going on in her brain. “That sounds ungrateful, I know, but I am not ungrateful, truly I am not. It is just that sometimes I wonder what might have happened to me had I not been convicted and sent to this—this place so far from home. And I wonder if there was not someone for me in England, someone I will never have the chance to meet now. Someone who is my true love.” Seeing his face, she hurried on in a fluster. “I am very happy, and I like working in the garden and around the house. It is a great joy to be with child. But. . . . Oh, I wish I knew what I have missed!”

  How to answer that? “Ye do not pine for Stephen anymore?”

  “No.” It came out confidently. “He was right, it was a girlish passion. I look at him now and marvel at myself.”

  “What d’ye see when ye look at me?”

  Her body hunched and she squirmed like a small, guilty child; he knew the signs and wished he had not asked, provoked her into being obliged to lie. As if he could see into it, he knew that her mind was racing in circles to find an answer that would satisfy him yet not compromise herself, and he waited, feeling a twinge of amusement, to hear what would emerge. That of course was true love. To understand that the beloved was flawed, imperfect, yet still to love completely. Her idea of true love was a phantom, a knight in shining armor who would ride off with her across his saddle bow. Would she ever attain the kind of maturity that saw love for what it was? He doubted it, then decided it was better that she did not. Two hoary-headed sages in a family were one too many. He had enough love for both of them.

  Her answer was honest: she was learning. “I truly do not know, Richard. You are not a bit like my father, so it is not in—incest. . . . I like to see you, always. . . . That I am carrying your child thrills me, for you will be a wonderful father.”

  Suddenly he realized that there was one question he had never asked her. “D’ye want a girl or a boy?”

  “A boy,” she said without hesitation. “No woman wants a girl.”

  “What if it should be a girl?”

  “I will love her very much, but not with hope for her.”

  “Ye mean that the world belongs to men.”

  “I think so, yes.”

  “Ye’ll not be too disappointed if it is a girl?”

  “No! We will have others, and some will be boys.”

  “I can tell you a secret,” he whispered.

  She leaned into him. “What?”<
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  “ ’Tis better if the first child is a girl. Girls grow up much faster than boys, so when the first little man comes along, he will have at least two mothers—one close enough to his own age to grab him by an ear, take him to a quiet place, and drub the daylights out of him. His real mother will not be so ruthless.”

  She giggled. “That sounds like experience.”

  “It is. I have two elder sisters.” He stretched like a cat, elongating every fiber. “I am very glad that they are all well in Bristol, though my cousin James’s sight is a grief. Like Jem Thistlethwaite, he was the saving of me. I never suffered the illnesses most convicts do, especially in a gaol or on board a transport. That is why, at three-and-forty, I can labor like a much younger man. And make love to you like a much younger man. I have kept my health and vigor.”

  “But you went as hungry as the rest, surely.”

  “Aye, but hunger does no harm until it chews away a man’s muscles beyond repair, and my muscles I suppose had more substance than most. Besides, the hunger never lasted quite long enough. There were oranges and fresh meat in Rio—meals on a Thames dredge—an occasional bowl of fish-chowder—a man named Stephen Donovan who fed me fresh buttered rolls stuffed with Captain Hunter’s cress. That is luck, Kitty,” Richard said, smiling, his eyes half-closed. Today seemed to be a day for memories.

  “I cannot agree,” she said. “I would rather call it some quality many men do not possess, but you do. So does Stephen. And I always fancied Major Ross had it too, from listening to you and Stephen talk. Nat and Olivia Lucas both have it. I do not. That is why I am glad ’tis you is the father of my children. They have a chance of inheriting more than I am.”

  He picked up her hand and kissed it. “That is a very pretty compliment, wife. Perhaps ye do love me just a little.”

  She huffed a sound of exasperation and turned to look at the tables and chairs, strewn with books. One chair held the hat box. “When will you deliver Lizzie’s hat?” she asked.

  “I think you should deliver it and heal the breach.”

  “I could not!”

  “I will not.”

  The question of the hat was still undecided when they went to bed, Kitty so tired that she fell asleep before she could make overtures of love.

  Richard dozed for two hours, his half-dreams a parade of old faces transformed and distorted by the years between. Then he woke and slid out of the bed, donned trowsers and stepped outside softly. Tibby had been joined by Fatima and Charlotte by Flora; the two pups and two kittens stirred until Richard hushed them. They were curled together inside a piece of hollow pine Richard had thought an ideal kennel; more dogs and cats having the run of the house would discourage them from ratting. MacTavish was a law unto himself, too late to change his habits now. And he was still the sole male, ruler of the roost.

  The moon was full and rising into the eastern sky, snuffing out the blazing stars as its cold pale brilliance poured upward; one could read by it easily when it was overhead. Not a cloud in the sky and the only sounds the gurgle and gush of the spring, water pelting away downhill, a great murmur from pines, the skreek-skreek-skreek of a pair of white fairy terns in black silhouette against the silvered heavens. He lifted his head and inhaled the night, the clean purity of it, the comfort in its loneliness, the distance, the utter peace.

  On Sunday after divine service he would write to his father, to the Cousins James and Jem Thistlethwaite to tell them that he had managed to make a home for himself in this southern immensity. He had hewn a niche, helped by a little gold, for which he had to thank them. But gold or no gold, he had hewn it with his own hands and his own will. Norfolk Island was home now.

  In the meantime there was a box to examine before Kitty and Joey Long took it into their heads to chop it up for kindling or use it to hold mulch for the garden. Rather than walk up the cleft, he walked down it; Joey’s tiny house was just inside the Queensborough road boundary of Morgan’s Run along the edge of the track down to the main house. Joey and MacGregor were his sentinels, his first line of defense in case of predators. Not that he expected any yet. But who knew how many and what kind of convicts His Excellency would send here as his task over there in New South Wales grew ever harder?

  Having found a cleared patch in the moonlight he began to attack the box with a chisel and a small hammer, tapping quietly; sure enough, once the heavy border was removed, the space between inside and outside skins sprang into sight as white lint wadding. Not many minutes later the box was in pieces and he had amassed £100 in gold. Removing his trowsers, he piled the coins into their middle, gathered up the fragments of wood, put the trowsers on top of the pile, and walked back to his house. Kitty had said it was not luck. For himself, he was never sure whether he had luck or the grace of God. Though was there any difference?

  When building his house he had thought of this eventuality; around the back and against the western slope he had randomly chosen one stone pier and constructed it with a hollow center. No one knew, and no one would know. Retaining twenty of the coins, he put the other eighty into his hiding place, then padded silently inside and into bed. Kitty murmured, purred; MacTavish’s tail thumped against the blanket. Richard patted the dog and folded Kitty’s back into his front, stroked her flank and closed his eyes.

  The hat box was still on the chair when Richard went to work in the morning; it sat reproaching Kitty as she moved about the room, dusting, washing, tidying books, preparing the ingredients for a cold lunch; too hot to eat the main meal in the heat of the day, and perhaps if she took Joey and walked into Sydney Town she could find Stephen, persuade him to join them for a hot supper.

  Oh, how thoughtful Richard was! The remains of the box were stacked in the kindling heap to one side of the front door, chopped to precisely the right size to start the stove fire—too hot to light it now, she would wait until mid afternoon, then bake bread. This typical kindness from him gave her pause; already outside, she turned back to look into the room and at the hat box. Sighing, she went back to pick it up and started the walk to the Queensborough road. Joey was chopping pines; Richard was determined that he would clear enough of Morgan’s Run to plant several acres of wheat and Indian corn next June, and though Joey could not saw, he could fell timber competently. MacGregor warned him of her advent—no danger of dropping a tree in the wrong place with MacGregor on duty!

  “Joey, do you mind walking me to Sydney Town?”

  Puffing, the simple soul looked at her with adoration and mutely shook his head. He snatched his shirt off a nearby branch and donned it eagerly, then the pair of them set off toward Mount George, MacGregor and MacTavish frisking around them.

  “My own errand is to Government House,” she said, “and while I do that, Joey, find Mr. Donovan and ask him to come to supper this evening. I will meet you here. Do not dawdle!”

  Government House was in the throes of huge alterations and additions. Men were crawling all over it, Nat Lucas was barking instructions and the others were very quick to obey. It was a stupid convict took his time over work for the Commandant himself, and surprisingly few convicts were stupid. These renovations were of a temporary nature; Commander King had still not made up his mind whether Government House should remain on its present knoll or move to the other knoll where Richard said the original gardens had been. Never having been to Government House, Kitty did not know whether as a convict she ought to find a back door, or whether all traffic went to the front door, facing the sea.

  “Who are ye looking for, Kit-kat?” Nat Lucas asked.

  “Mrs. Richard Morgan.”

  “In the kitchen house. Around there,” he said, pointing and giving her a wink.

  She walked along the side of the main house to the separate building which housed the kitchen.

  “Mrs. Morgan?”

  The stiff, dark-clad figure hovering over the stove turned, the black eyes widened; a young convict girl peeling potatoes at the work table laid down her knife and stared with mouth adeno
idally agape. Staggering a little, which seemed peculiar to Kitty, Lizzie walked to the table and gave the girl a thump. “Take that outside and do it!” she snapped. Then, to Kitty, “What d’ye want, madam?”

  “I have brought you a hat.”

  “A hat?”

  “Yes. Would you not like to see? It is very splendid.”

  Kitty looked absolutely blooming, belly protruding a little, fair skin shaded by a wide sun hat made of a local strappy grass (the convict transports had contained far more milliners than farmers), fair hair straggling in fetching wisps from beneath its brim, fair lashes and brows giving her face a slightly bald look that somehow managed not to be a disfigurement. Plain she was, but plain she definitely was not. Gossip had told Lizzie that Kitty Clark was beautifully shaped these days, was far from the thin scrawn she had been when Mrs. Richard Morgan had marched up the garden path. Well, now she could see for herself, which was no comfort. Nor was that bulging belly. Waves of sorrow and disappointment swept over her—where was that bottle of medicine?

  “Sit down,” Lizzie said curtly, then gulped furtively from a medicine bottle, its contents catching her breath.

  Kitty held out the hat box, smiling gravely. “Please take it.”

  Taking it, Lizzie sat on a chair, untied the tapes, lifted the lid. “Ohhhh!” she sighed, exactly as Kitty had. “Ohhhh!” Out it came to be examined, held, gazed at raptly. Then, so unexpectedly that Kitty jumped, Lizzie Lock burst into noisy tears.

  Calming her took some time; in an odd way she reminded Kitty of Betty Riley, the tough older servant girl who had led all four of them to disaster. “It is all right, Lizzie, it is all right,” she crooned as she stroked and patted.

  There was a small spouted kettle on the hob and an old china teapot on the table. Tea. That was what Lizzie needed, tea. A search unearthed a jar of tea and a jar containing a huge rock of sugar together with a sugar hammer; Kitty made the tea, let it steep, chopped off some sugar, then poured the steaming liquid into a china cup and saucer—how well equipped Government House was! China cups and saucers in the kitchen! Kitty had not seen a cup and saucer since she had been arrested, now here were two cups and two saucers—matching!—in a mere kitchen. What sort of treasures did Government House itself contain? How many servants were there to wait on Mr. and Mrs. King? Was there tea on demand without fear of its running out, were there china bowls and plates and soup tureens? Pictures on the walls? Chamber pots?