And this time, when she reached for him, he didn’t stop her.
“Alyssa,” he breathed as her hand closed around him.
Oh, yes …
“I need you,” she told him, and kissed him.
His surrender couldn’t have been more obvious if he’d pulled out a pen and paper and signed it right in front of her.
He kissed her as feverishly as he touched her, all of her, skimming his hands down and across her body, then kissing and licking and, oh, yes …
He made a sound that made her laugh because it expressed so exactly all that she was feeling.
“Please tell me you have a condom,” she lifted her head to gasp.
“God,” he said, “I don’t.”
“I do,” she said. “In my fanny pack.” She carried them with her. Smart women did these days. “In my room.”
Not that she’d had the opportunity in the past few years to actually use one …
Sam picked her up, throwing her over his shoulder in a fireman’s hold. “Oh, my God,” Alyssa laughed. “Sam!”
He grabbed her jeans from the floor—that was where she’d stashed both her room key and her cell phone—and his room key from the top of the TV.
“Wait!” she shouted, but he just went on out the door.
They were both completely naked.
No, Sam was more than naked. He was extra-specially naked, considering his body was standing at full, proud attention.
“Whoops, ’scuse me, ma’am,” she heard him say, and she squeaked and closed her eyes. Oh, no.
But as he opened the door to her room and went inside, she opened her eyes to look back and to apologize, but there was no one there. She smacked him, hard, on the butt. “Sam, you nearly gave me a heart attack—”
He was laughing as he tossed her down on her bed. “No one saw us. Besides, I used a special ninja technique to make myself invisible.”
“You maybe,” she said. “But not me.” She scrambled for her fanny pack sitting on the bedside table. It was jammed full of all kinds of stuff, so she took it and dumped its contents on the floor.
“You have to work very hard to be invisible,” he agreed. “You’re too beautiful. Although you did a great job of it back in the Wal-Mart, you know.”
She looked up from her search, feeling almost ridiculously glad at his compliment. “You think?”
“Yeah,” he said, coming over to help. “I didn’t know it was you, so you caught me. You won.”
“I like to win,” she said.
He smiled at her. “I noticed.”
And there they were. Two little red packages, attached to each other by a perforated connection that hadn’t yet been torn.
She tore them apart and turned to Sam, who had a funny look on his face.
Oh, no. No, no. She was not going to let him put the brakes on. Not now.
“Are those—” He stopped. Shook his head. “Never mind. I’m just paranoid, I guess, when it comes to condoms.” He held out his hand, and she gave the package to him. “You still sure you want to do this?” he asked as he covered himself.
“What do you think?” she said, purposely lying back on the bed in an extremely provocative pose.
Sam laughed as he looked at her, as he took his time looking at her.
She’d always loved the way he looked at her.
And she loved looking at him, too. His body was sculpted by hard work and the SEALs’ constant training. He’d put on muscle since she’d last seen him without his clothes. Every time she saw him naked, he was more filled out, more of a full grown man.
It seemed impossible that he could be more gorgeous, but somehow he managed to pull it off.
And the haircut really worked with that body. Dear Lord, he was an amazing-looking man.
“I think,” he said slowly, as he sat down on the edge of the bed, far enough away so that he couldn’t touch her and she couldn’t touch him, “that if I try to negotiate with you right now, I won’t stand a chance. But I know that I’ve sold myself way short in the past when it comes to me and you, so I’m going to give it a try. Okay?”
He was serious.
She was here on the bed, dying for him, and he wanted to talk? Alyssa laughed.
“At least nod your head yes,” he told her.
He wanted yes? She’d give him a yes.
Alyssa ran her hand from her breasts to her stomach, and then lower. She caught her lower lip in her teeth as she looked up at him.
Heat sparked in his eyes, as he laughed, too.
But to her total surprise, he still kept his distance. “Well, okay then. I’ll take that as an affirmative.” He cleared his throat, but when he spoke again, his voice was still hoarse. “Here’s the deal, Lys. If you want me, you need to promise, right now, that you’ll have dinner with me when this mess is over. You don’t promise—I turn around, right now, and go back to my room.” He laughed again. “Yeah, we both know there’s only one place I’m going, but I said it like I really meant it, didn’t I?” He closed his eyes. “I hate myself. I’m so fucking weak.”
He wasn’t completely kidding.
Oh, Sam … “Come here,” she told him, holding out her arms for him.
He came, crawling across the bed to her, all blue eyes and tanned skin and hard, male muscles in motion, and she kissed him.
“I didn’t mean to make light of what you’re saying,” she told him, unable to keep from touching him now that he was close enough to touch. “I appreciate your being honest with me, I really do. I think that I probably need to be honest with you, too, because you don’t seem to realize what a major event this is—my being here with you like this.”
“Yeah, actually, I do,” he said.
She touched his face. He had such a beautiful face, with those beautiful, beautiful eyes. “No, you don’t. I know you think I’ve spent the past few years with Max, and I have to confess that I purposely let you think that, even to the point of giving you—” She cleared her throat. “—misinformation about it when you asked me directly. But the fact is, I went out with him only a handful of times. And I never slept with him. Not even once.”
“But I went to your hotel room and Max was there,” he said. “In San Diego. It was that night Jules was shot—”
“And Carla Ramirez died?” she asked.
“Yeah.”
“I think he sat in my room all night. I was a mess after—” Alyssa shook her head. “But we didn’t sleep together. Sam, I haven’t been with anyone since I was with you.”
There was wonder in his eyes now. “Holy shit, Alyssa …”
She caught herself. “To be completely honest, I probably would have hooked up with Max, but he didn’t want to.… No, that’s not completely true either. He wanted to, but he wouldn’t. Not while I was working for him.”
“He’s insane. He’s got to be completely—”
“He’s principled,” she corrected him. “He’s amazing. He really is a good man, Sam. I think if you didn’t spend so much energy hating him, you might actually like him.”
The wonder was replaced by worry. “Do you, um … Shit, I know I’ve asked you this before, but he makes me so jealous.… Do you love him?”
Alyssa looked at him. “Yes, Roger,” she said. “I love him. That’s why I took off your clothes. That’s why I’m dying to make love to you.”
He kissed her then, and kissed her and kissed her, pushing her back on the bed, his weight heavy between her legs. He kissed his way down her throat, licking her breasts, drawing her into his mouth.
“Oh, God!” She arched against him, searching for him, needing him inside of her, but he’d shifted back.
“Hey, Lys?” he said, and as she looked up at him, she saw that his eyes were luminous. “Could you maybe say that to me again?”
She knew what he meant, what he wanted to hear. Make love. Not sex. Love. The idea that hearing her say those words could mean so much to him took her breath away. She almost couldn’t say it. She had
to whisper. “I’m dying to make love to you, Sam.”
He held her gaze as he shifted his position and …
Oh, it felt so good.
“Sam,” she breathed, realizing that she hadn’t told him what she’d wanted to tell him, and needing him to know. “I know a really great restaurant, not far from my apartment in D.C. They don’t chase you out after you finish dinner. You can just sit there and talk all night if you want.”
If you really, honestly wanted to get to know someone.
He understood what she was saying. She could see it in his eyes.
He kissed her then, the sweetest, deepest, most perfect kiss of her entire life.
He remembered exactly how to touch her, how to move to make her crazy. Slowly. So slowly.
Oh, the things he was doing to her …
It was too good. Nothing could possibly be this good, but it was, because it was Sam, and it scared her to death that she was back here, right here again, like this, with him.
He was breathing her name. “Alyssa …”
It might’ve been a question. He seemed to want an answer. She gave him one, although it wasn’t quite a word.
“Tell me what you want,” he breathed in her ear.
“Please,” she managed.
“Tell me …”
“You,” she gasped. “I want you.”
And, oh, that got the right response, the response she’d hoped for. He knew damn well that she liked sex—making love—hard and fast, that she loved driving him crazy.
This would do it.
Oh, yes. Oh, yes …
“Lys …”
She heard the tension in his voice and she opened her eyes to look up at him, and she saw it in his face, in the corded muscles of his shoulders and arms. She watched his eyes as he fought his release, as she fought hers, too. This was too good to end, too good, too—
“Come on!” He half growled, half laughed his frustration, because he somehow knew what she was doing, knew she was holding back. Sam knew her, knew her …
He knew her.
Alyssa exploded.
There was no other way to describe it. One moment she was looking into his eyes, and the next she was shattering.
He was right with her, all the way, shouting something she couldn’t hear because she didn’t have ears anymore.
And then she was in little fragments, floating around him, settling back down so that her arms that were holding him so tightly were once again attached to her shoulders.
“It’s good to know,” Sam murmured into her re-formed ear, “that we’re finally both on the same page.”
Max watched Gina as she ran away from that young detective.
Enrique Alvarado. Born here in Sarasota. Father originally from Cuba, mother a Valdez, as in Valdez Imports of Miami.
After seeing Gina with him, Max had come back to his car to make a few quick investigative phone calls.
Detective Ric Alvarado had attended Dartmouth College, graduating at the top of his class. Went on to Harvard Law School but left after less than a year to focus on law enforcement. He’d apparently wanted to help put the scumbags of the world behind bars rather than get them out. And he’d done just that. His record with the Sarasota Police Department was beyond exemplary.
And Max had been wrong—how often did that happen?—about both his age and his status as a brand-new detective.
Alvarado had been a detective for seven long years. The man was thirty-one years old.
Either he was like Jules Cassidy and had a baby face, or as Max got older, anyone under thirty-five was starting to look like a child.
Max had watched as Gina and Ric came out into the parking lot.
He’d watched them talk, watched Gina smile and laugh, watched Alvarado kiss her.
He should have left. He should have driven away right then.
Instead, he sat there. Torturing himself. Hating the idea of her taking Alvarado home with her.
That wasn’t what she needed—casual sex with some near stranger.
Except, as he sat there, watching Gina, he had to face the honest truth.
Max really hated the idea of her taking Alvarado home not because it wasn’t what she needed, but because it wasn’t what he wanted.
He could pretend that he’d come here tonight—a night when he should have been flying to San Diego—to protect Gina from herself. To make sure she didn’t put herself into any real danger.
But that wasn’t the only reason he was here.
Out on the sidewalk, Alvarado had his arms around Gina, and damn it, now she pushed him away and started running, this time in earnest.
Alvarado gave chase, but Gina just ran faster.
All right, this bullshit wasn’t going any farther. Max switched on his headlights and pulled out of the shadows, driving swiftly toward them.
Alvarado caught Gina’s arm, and she pulled hard to get away, only, son of a bitch, he tripped and they both went down onto somebody’s lawn.
Max screeched to a stop with his front tires on the sidewalk and jumped out of the car.
Gina was scrambling away from Alvarado. It was to his credit that he didn’t try to stop her, didn’t try to hang on to her or pin her down.
“That’s enough,” Max said. “Gina, get in the car.” He looked at Alvarado. “Thanks for your help. I’ll take it from here.”
The detective pulled himself to his feet. “I wasn’t trying to—”
“Note that you’re still alive,” Max said. “If I thought your intention was to hurt her, that wouldn’t be the case. Go home, Detective.”
Alvarado looked past him to Gina, who was standing now, breathing hard, one arm wrapped around herself as she wiped tears from her face with the heel of her other hand.
“Are you going to be all right with him?” he asked her, refusing to be bullied, gaining another point or two in Max’s scorebook.
Gina nodded. “I’m so sorry, Ric.”
He nodded, too, as he brushed off his pants, giving its torn knee barely a glance. “She needs some serious help, man,” he told Max in a low voice as he walked back toward the parking lot.
Max looked at Gina. She was watching him, her eyes huge, her pale face eerily lit by the streetlight. “I think he’s probably right,” he said.
She didn’t say anything. She just looked at him.
“Get in the car,” he said again, adding, “Please.”
Gina did. Her eyes still on him, she moved around to the passenger’s side and opened the door. And climbed in.
Max got behind the wheel, extremely aware that she was still watching him, extremely aware of the hope that was in her eyes.
Oh, no, Gina, that was not why he was here.
“Did you like the music tonight?” she asked.
It didn’t seem worth the effort to lie and say he wasn’t there. He’d seen her looking in the corner where he’d stood. “It was … Well, I’ve never paid much attention to jazz, but it was … interesting.”
“That good, huh?”
“It’s not my thing,” he admitted. “It’s so chaotic and out there.”
“You know, it’s not that different from Hendrix,” she said.
She remembered that he’d once told her that Jimi Hendrix was one of his guilty pleasures.
“I think there’s actually more chaos in Hendrix’s music,” Gina continued. “I mean, he’s always on the verge of a meltdown. There’s such wildness and, I don’t know, a desperation to his guitar playing. The big difference is that, for you, it’s familiar desperation.”
“Yeah, maybe.” God damn it. Wildness and desperation. No wonder he loved Hendrix. He could relate so completely. He put the car into gear. “Where are you staying?”
“It’s not far,” she said. “You can drop me at the corner.”
Max just looked at her.
“So even though jazz isn’t your thing, didn’t you think I was good?” she asked.
She was sitting there with her nose red, with
her makeup smudged and smeared around eyes that still looked as if she might start crying again any second, looking impossibly beautiful. She was wearing some kind of sports top, in a style that Alyssa had once told him was called a racerback. It had really showed off her incredible body as she’d played.
There was something about a healthy woman playing the drums that was a total turn-on. The few times she’d really cut loose, hair and arms flying, legs working, breasts moving, he’d had a definite physical reaction.
Except Yeah, you gave me a real hard-on, was probably not the response she was looking for.
Max smiled despite himself. Although, knowing Gina, she would probably laugh. And then she would be all over him. His smile faded. All over him.
“What were you thinking just then?” she asked softly.
“I was thinking that you’re as talented as you are beautiful, and that I wish I’d never had to meet you.”
She understood what he meant. “Well, you did,” she said. “And here we are. Sitting in your car again, in the middle of the night.” She laughed, but it was only to cover up the fact that she had tears back in her eyes. “If I tell you where I’m staying, will you come in for a little while?”
He started to protest, but Gina cut him off.
“Just to talk,” she said. “Please, Max. You don’t know how much I miss talking to you.”
Oh yes, he did. It was probably just about as much as he missed talking to her. Sometimes it manifested itself in a physical ache in his chest or his throat.
“I’m at the Siesta Beach House,” she told him. “Take a right at the stop sign, fourth driveway on the left. My room is down by the water. Number 21.”
It was close.
It was so close, Max hadn’t yet figured out what the hell he was going to do before he was there and putting the car into park.
He couldn’t go into her room with her. That would be a huge mistake.
“Please come in,” she whispered.
“I can’t,” he said just as quietly.
“Just to talk.”
“Really.” He looked at her.
“Yes.” She was lying. If he went in there, he wasn’t coming out until morning.
Some of his frustration escaped. “Are you going to tell me what happened tonight? Why you ended up running down the street, with some stranger you picked up in a bar chasing you?”
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