“No, I don’t. But I haven’t laid a finger on your man.”
“That’s why I’m giving him to you.”
“But I don’t want him . . .”
The young woman suddenly begins to sob so energetically her breasts bounce up and down as though she’s riding a bicycle down a bumpy street.
“You drove him crazy.”
The two women look at each other in silence.
“What if I tell you it’s you I’m interested in,” says Tanya, calmly.
“What?”
“Don’t worry,” Tanya adds reassuringly. “All I meant was that you touch me, deeply.”
“Thanks,” says the young woman, lowering her eyes modestly.
“Tanya. And you?”
“I’m Florence.”
“Florence, I’m going to make you a proposal,” Tanya says brightly.
The young woman looks up quickly.
“What kind of proposal?”
“How about you and I leave him sitting there, high and dry. We’ll go get a drink somewhere else . . . Don’t worry, you never lose a man by dumping him.”
A pause. Then the young woman smiles. Tanya smiles, too.
“Okay. Let’s leave him there . . . Let’s go somewhere else.”
“Come on,” Tanya says. “That way. I know another way out.”
“Where are we going?”
“We’ll go to the Hippopotamus. But first I have to stop at my place. It won’t take long.”
“Is it far?”
“No, it’s just across the way . . . Whenever I get bored I come here to chat up the bartender. He’s very nice.”
“Is he your boyfriend?” Florence asks, naïvely.
“My boyfriends are never nice . . . The nice ones are only my friends.”
“Too bad for you . . .”
Tanya smiles.
“I like it that way. What about you?”
“Me?” says Florence, a little off balance. “I don’t know . . . I don’t know . . .”
“Still trying to find yourself ?”
“I guess so,” says Florence with a dry laugh.
“Well, we’ll have a drink, and your little fit of depression will just disappear. You’ll see.”
“DARLING!” TANYA CALLS as she walks into the house. “Are you here?”
No reply.
“Where are you, darling?”
“In the bedroom.”
Tanya turns to Florence, who is standing by the door.
“Have a seat for a moment. I’ll be right back . . .”
She hurries into the bedroom.
“What are you doing, my dearest? Still sleeping?”
“Get off my back, Tanya.”
“I went out for a drink, darling, while you were sleeping, and you’ll never guess what I’ve brought you.”
“Not another bottle of bloody perfume, I hope. I didn’t even know they sold that shit in the bars around here . . .”
“Don’t make fun of me, my love. Tell me this: who, in your opinion, is tall, svelte, has lots of hair and the biggest pair of tits you ever saw?”
Fanfan sits up immediately.
“She’s here?”
“And she’s all yours, if you play your cards right.”
“Where did you reel her in?”
“Her name is Florence, and she is very nice. She cries a lot, and she’s not quite sure what kind of man is right for her at the moment. But that’s just how you like them . . .”
“I asked you where you found her.”
“Right across the street. In the bar.”
“You didn’t have to go far, did you?”
“First she and I are going to the Hippopotamus for a drink. You can have her when we get back, if you’re still here.”
“Where else would I be? Why can’t I have her now?”
“You have to wait a while, my dear . . . I promised to bring her to the Hippopotamus first. When we come back . . .”
“All right, I’ll be here.”
“Don’t be mad at me, Fanfan, dearest. This is the only way I can keep you here for more than two days.”
“Okay, get out of here.”
The Club
IT HAS BEEN months since Madame Saint-Pierre set foot in the Bellevue Circle. She is there now to meet Christina, who is sitting at the back, almost hidden behind a pair of large Japanese screens. It may seem odd that these two women, one French and the other American, should even have met. According to Madame Saint-Pierre, it was at a soirée at the American Embassy, organized by Harry, Christina’s husband. They were entertaining an anthropologist, a tall, black woman with a sad but gentle face, a disciple of Margaret Mead; she’d been working for the past dozen years on the mysterious rapport that African people and their American descendents have with death. It hadn’t been a very enticing subject, and only a handful of people had shown up in the huge reception hall to welcome this world-renowned specialist in death. One of them was Dr. Louis Mars, who had given a talk—too long, according to some, but nonetheless fascinating—about the role of death in Haitian voodoo. What could have been a somewhat macabre, if not deadly boring, evening turned out to have been a charming event. Christina never laughed so much, and it was largely on account of Madame Saint-Pierre. After that they became good friends, phoning each other every week and, at least once a month, getting together at a restaurant (usually Chez Gérard, rarely the Bellevue Circle) to keep in touch, or in other words to confide in one another relatively intimately about their personal lives and to share information that each of them, separately, managed to gather about their mutual acquaintances.
“Sorry I’m late,” Madame Saint-Pierre says, “but I had to go to my dressmaker’s and it took longer than I thought it would . . .”
“Françoise, I hardly recognized you! I saw you come in and I said to myself, ‘Now I wonder who that could be . . .’”
“Good!”
“You seem so different from the last time we met. Two totally different women. I’ve never seen anyone change so quickly . . .”
“All I did was have my hair cut, Christina . . .”
“No, it’s more than that . . . There’s . . . I don’t know what it is . . . A new kind of vibe coming from you . . .”
Madame Saint-Pierre gives a juvenile burst of laughter.
“What’s going on, Françoise?”
Madame Saint-Pierre smiles. Christina sits back. The waiter comes.
“Just a Perrier for me,” says Madame Saint-Pierre.
“You don’t even want a sandwich?” Christina asks.
“I’m not hungry.”
“You’ve already eaten?”
“No.”
“Are you in love, then?”
Madame Saint-Pierre turns violently red.
“Who with?”
“You don’t know him.”
Christina’s voice takes on the high-pitched tone of pubescence, even though she’s closer to the age of menopause.
“Tell me all!”
“I can’t, Christina . . .”
“Oh, I see . . . He’s married.”
“No . . . Worse than that.”
“What can be worse than a married man?”
Christina’s bright, perceptive eye seems to capture something from the air.
“One of Duvalier’s henchmen . . .”
“Christina! I don’t hang out with the secret police . . .”
“Well, then it’s someone from the club. Is it that dentist you hate so much . . . ?”
“No-oo . . .”
“What was his name, anyway?”
“I said no, it’s not him . . . You’re not even warm.”
“So tell me . . . I hate guessing games.”
“I can’t tell you who he is . . . I’m too embarrassed, Tina . . .”
“Oh, come on, Françoise. You’re not seventeen anymore.”
“No, but he is.”
“What? Françoise!”
“What I’m saying is, I’ve s
educed a seventeen-year-old boy . . .”
The waiter comes back with the Perrier and a slice of lemon. Madame Saint-Pierre puts the lemon in the bottle’s mouth and guzzles the entire contents in a single go, a feat that impresses Christina very much.
“That’s the kind of thing I’ve been doing for the past two weeks . . . I can’t do anything the way I used to . . . Even drinking a glass of water, I have to find a new way to do it . . . You have no idea, Christina, I think I’m going crazy . . .”
“It’s just that you’ve finally woken up, my dear . . . Before you were asleep . . .”
“How do you know that?”
“I don’t know anything . . . You’ve just told me . . . You used to do everything mechanically. Now you have a sense of purpose . . .”
“That’s right, but it’s a terrible thing . . . He’s seventeen . . . He could be my son . . . He’s my dressmaker’s son . . .”
“Is that who you were with just now, before coming here?”
A pause.
“Yes . . . I hadn’t seen him in two days . . . I couldn’t breathe . . . I drove past the café and he was there. I couldn’t help myself . . . He came out to join me in the car and we drove around a bit. He told me when to turn. I didn’t even know where I was. It’s a miracle I didn’t run over someone . . . But an unbelievable thing happened to me . . . I felt like a child who was lost in the forest, and I absolutely had no wish to find the path out . . . I was reduced to the simplest terms possible, Tina . . . Nothing mattered but this thing that never gives me a moment of respite. I would feel totally ecstatic one minute, and then the next feel as though I were falling into a bottomless black pit. It’s like a clock, you know, that never stops, not even when I’m sleeping . . . I talk and talk and never say anything . . . Please, Tina, please don’t judge me . . . Say something, Christina, scold me if you must, but say something . . .”
“But I’m completely jealous of you, Françoise . . .”
“Why would you be jealous of something that stops me from living . . . And I have no idea how it’s going to end . . .”
“Well, until then it’s made a new woman of you . . . You look irresistible . . . Haven’t you seen how all the men at the other tables are looking at you?”
“No, they don’t interest me in the slightest. I don’t even see them. In fact, I don’t see anything. Everything is fuzzy except him. What’s happening to me? Why have I never felt like this before, not even when I was younger? I sweat and sweat and it scares me. Can’t you smell it, this scent of a woman in her fifties?”
“What are you talking about. The only thing I smell is your Nina Ricci, Françoise.”
“You don’t understand, how could you! We have the same smell. Oh, his smell . . . He smells . . . vegetal, somehow. That’s not a perfume, it’s his scent . . . Why has this happened to me in the middle of my menopause? Anyway, so how is June? I saw her playing tennis when I came in; she has a great smash. She’s got a good head on her shoulders, that one, Christina . . . But what about her heart? Has she got a boyfriend?”
“No, there’s no one special at the moment, but I’m not getting desperate yet . . . But you and this boy, have you slept together?”
Madame Saint-Pierre recoils slightly.
“Why do you ask?”
“Oh, no reason . . .”
“I know you better than that, Christina; you don’t say things for no reason . . . All right, yes, we’ve . . . been together twice, so far . . .”
“And did you come?”
Madame Saint-Pierre’s embarrassed laugh. Christina’s serious expression.
“The second he touches me . . .”
“Do you mind if I ask you something?”
“Not at all . . . But you’re beginning to make me nervous. I don’t know whether you approve or disapprove.”
“Are you passive or active?”
“Active . . . I’m the one who initiates things, but as soon as I get too close to him everything in me goes haywire . . . I’m like a mechanical doll that’s run amok, I have no control over what I do . . .”
“Do you have the feeling that even when he’s lying passively on his back, he’s still the one who’s in control?”
Long silence.
“Yes . . .”
“That’s all I wanted to know.”
“Why did you want to know that?”
“I can’t tell you that because it’s not my secret to tell . . . There’s someone else involved in this story . . .”
“It’s your daughter, isn’t it? You found her with a boy? Isn’t that what you wanted? Ever since she . . .”
“No, it isn’t that! I found her straddling a boy on our verandah . . . Oh, good Lord, I shouldn’t have told you that. I haven’t even had the courage to talk to her about it. I don’t know what to do about it at all . . .”
“We should talk about this again when we have more time . . . I have an appointment I have to go to . . . What are you doing Saturday?”
“Riding with June in the morning . . . What about lunch at Chez Gérard?”
“It’s a date. Unless . . .”
“I’ll understand, Françoise.”
HARRY IS FINISHING a game when his wife and Madame Saint-Pierre come out. He’s winning hands down. Whenever he’s ahead of an adversary, it isn’t in him to take it easy. He is a lean, mean, killing machine. Madame Saint-Pierre claps her hands. Christina remains silent, a light smile floating on her lips, a sure sign that she is still in love with her husband. Harry comes over to where the women are standing and takes off his T-shirt. He’s as red as a boiled lobster. His naked, sweating torso emits an undeniable vitality. An animal vitality. He casts a quick look towards the Bellevue Circle’s high green wall. It doesn’t last a quarter of a second, but Christina catches it, and when she follows it she sees the young woman who’s been waiting for Harry by the gate. They don’t usually come here, she thinks. She feels as though she’s been slapped in the face. She looks again at the girl before turning her back on her. She’s seen her before. Small, compact, tight bum, smooth thighs, very black, just the way Harry likes them. She feels a sexual charge surge through her. The girl isn’t hard to look at, she tells herself.
“Damn,” says Madame Saint-Pierre . . . “I left my scarf at the table.”
Harry offers to go in and fetch it for her.
“Have a shower while you’re in there,” Christina tells him.
“I think I will,” Harry replies. “Anyway, I’m not going home just yet.”
“Oh?” says Christina.
“I have to drop by the office to sign some papers.”
“On Saturday?”
“Yes, they need them first thing Monday morning . . .”
Harry moves off with an easy grace towards the Circle.
Now it’s Françoise’s turn.
“Excuse me, Christina, Harry will never find my scarf; I left it at Jacqueline’s table.”
“Jacqueline Widmaier? I didn’t see her in there . . .
“She was hiding. She’s with someone . . .”
“Who?”
“A young musician she’s interested in launching, it seems . . .”
“She’ll never retire, will she . . .”
“Let me go in after Harry. He’ll be making a fool of himself by now. You know how impatient he is . . .”
It’s the kind of remark that should never be made to the wife of a man you’ve had an affair with. A veil descends over Christina’s face. The man Harry was playing tennis with, the dentist they’d talked about earlier, says hello to Christina as he passes. Madame Saint-Pierre takes advantage of the distraction to slip into the Circle. She feels ashamed of herself. Christina is left standing alone on the lawn.
“May I speak with you for a minute, madame . . . I won’t take up too much of your time . . .”
Christina turns, slightly taken aback.
“Of course . . .”
“My name is Tanya . . . Let me get straight to the point: I
’m Harry’s mistress . . . It’s my house he stays at when he doesn’t come home.”
“And why are you telling me this, Tanya?”
“This isn’t the first time I’ve seen you.”
“So?”
Christina feels some of her spirit returning.
“You deserve better.”
She gives the girl a closer look.
“You want my husband for yourself, is that it?”
Tanya laughs.
“Not at all,” she says. “He’s not my type . . .”
Once again, Christina is nonplussed. This girl moves fast. Christina chews her lip, telling herself she could never keep up with her.
“Then what is it you want?”
“Sometimes Harry gives me money.”
“No doubt you earn it.”
“If you give me the same amount, I’ll leave him all to you . . .”
“How dare you talk to me like this! . . . Harry can pork every little Negress on the island as far as I care, it has nothing to do with me . . . People like you, I wouldn’t even hire you as a servant . . .”
“Don’t get yourself all worked up. I only came to make you an offer . . . If you change your mind, let me know . . . Don’t worry, I know where to find you . . .”
She leaves, moving like a cat. Christina watches her with a certain admiration. What nerve! Suddenly, she feels tears coming on. She squeezes her eyes shut until they hurt to prevent herself from crying. And then Madame Saint-Pierre comes out, smiling.
“Christina, I found out everything . . . I ran into Jacqueline Widmaier putting on her face in the women’s. She always acts like a little tart whenever there’s a new man in her life. And each one younger than the last, too. Maybe she can help me with my new relationship . . . She gets more sharklike all the time. She doesn’t bother hiding her teeth anymore. Okay, enough about me. He’s a very young musician, as I told you, who has just put out an album that’s all the rage these days. You can hear it day and night on the radio, or so I’m told. He’s simply brimming with talent, but he’s insecure, too, typically male. She told me she practically had to stalk him down, day and night, for a week. It’s only been the last few days she’s been able to shout his name from the rooftops. Since then he’s been sleeping in a little shack Jacqueline owns in Kenscoff. She laughed and told me, ‘He’s absolutely insatiable, and I’m no spring chicken.’ But I noticed her eyes were as bright as buttons. Ah, what a time this is! . . . But what’s up with you? What did that girl want?”
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