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by TJ Klune




  Heartsong

  TJ Klune

  BOATK Books

  Copyright © 2019 by TJ Klune

  Cover art by Reese Dante

  ISBN: 978-1-7323999-9-0

  All rights reserved.

  No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means, including information storage and retrieval systems, without written permission from the author, except for the use of brief quotations in a book review.

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

  About Heartsong

  All Robbie Fontaine ever wanted was a place to belong. After the death of his mother, he bounces around from pack to pack, forming temporary bonds to keep from turning feral. It’s enough—until he receives a summons from the wolf stronghold in Caswell, Maine.

  Life as the trusted second to Michelle Hughes—the Alpha of all—and the cherished friend of a gentle old witch teaches Robbie what it means to be pack, to have a home.

  But when a mission from Michelle sends Robbie into the field, he finds himself questioning where he belongs and everything he’s been told. Whispers of traitorous wolves and wild magic abound—but who are the traitors and who the betrayed?

  More than anything, Robbie hungers for answers, because one of those alleged traitors is Kelly Bennett—the wolf who may be his mate.

  The truth has a way of coming out. And when it does, everything will shatter.

  For those who are trying to find their way home.

  “Yes, I have tricks in my pocket, I have things up my sleeve. But I am the opposite of a stage magician. He gives you illusion that has the appearance of truth. I give you truth in the pleasant disguise of illusion.”

  Tennessee Williams, The Glass Menagerie

  Contents

  motes of dust/something more

  it was enough/quiet as a mouse

  outright defiance/little wolf

  protect me/trust you

  violet

  dreamed in such sharpness/kill us all

  gunmetal sky/never forget

  it was human/you are wolf

  a void/my insanity

  pack

  like an echo/a door

  green creek/on sundays

  werewolf jesus/my father

  high school girls/see you again

  fix you/enigmatic dicks

  it’s tradition/can’t forgive

  house in order/pack divided

  not this again/you loved me

  fireflies

  not fair/forgive myself

  save him/life teeming wildly

  blood

  brother

  we survived/never again

  until the end/sharp sting

  chaos

  beast

  heartsong

  break

  eleven months later

  promise

  Brothersong

  About TJ Klune

  Also by TJ Klune

  motes of dust/something more

  When I dreamed, these pinpricks of light filtered through the trees of an old forest. It was safe there. I didn’t know how I knew that. I just did.

  I wanted to run as fast as I could. The maddening itch to shift crawled underneath my skin, and I needed to give in.

  I didn’t.

  Leaves crunched underneath my feet.

  I ran my hand along the bark of an old elm. It was rough. And then it was wet from a trickle of sap. I rubbed it between my fingers, sticky and warm.

  The trees whispered.

  They said here here here.

  They said here is where you belong.

  They said here is where you are meant to be.

  They said this is PACK and LIFE and SONGS in the air SONGS that are sung because this is home home home.

  I closed my eyes and breathed.

  The light seemed brighter in the darkness.

  Little motes of dust swirled.

  I brought the pitch on my fingers to my tongue.

  It tasted old.

  And strong.

  And—

  A low growl off to my right.

  I opened my eyes.

  A white wolf stood a ways off in the trees. It had a smattering of black on the chest, legs, and back.

  I didn’t know it

  (him)

  but I thought it

  (him)

  familiar somehow, like it was right there on the tip of my tongue, mixed in with elm sap and—

  Its eyes began to burn with red fire.

  An Alpha.

  I wasn’t scared.

  It—he—wasn’t there to hurt me.

  I didn’t know how I knew that. Maybe it was the trees. Maybe it was this place. Maybe it was the sap coating my throat.

  I said, “Hello.”

  The Alpha snorted, shaking his head.

  I said, “I don’t know where I am. I think I’m lost.”

  He pawed at the ground, carving jagged lines in the dirt and grass.

  I said, “Do you know where I am?”

  And he said, you are far away.

  He sounded like the voice of the trees.

  He was the voice of the trees.

  The Alpha said, you don’t belong to me you aren’t mine you aren’t MINE but you could be you could be because of who you are.

  “I don’t know who I am,” I admitted, and it was a terrible thing to say aloud, but after the words were out, I felt… lighter.

  Almost free.

  The Alpha took a step toward me. i know i know child but you will i promise you will you are important you are special you are—

  Lightning flashed, and I saw I was surrounded. Dozens of wolves were prowling among the trees. Their eyes were red and orange and violet—

  The trees snapped from side to side in the harsh wind.

  I thought I was going to get blown away, carried into the black sky above and lost in the storm.

  The wolves stopped.

  They tilted their heads back in unison.

  And howled.

  It tore through me, and it was breaking me, it was crushing my bones into powder. I couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe, couldn’t find a way to stop it, and I didn’t want to. That was what hit me hardest, that I didn’t want it to stop. I wanted to be consumed, to feel my flesh tear and bleed onto the earth beneath my feet, to sacrifice myself so that I would know I mattered, would know that I meant something to someone.

  The Alpha said, no you can’t that’s not what this is this is DIFFERENT this is MORE because you are MORE and—

  Hands settled on my shoulders.

  A voice whispered in my ear.

  It said, “Robbie. Robbie, can you hear me? Hear my voice. Listen. You’re safe. I’ve got you. Would you hear me, dear? Please.”

  The hands tightened against my shoulders, fingers digging into my skin, and I was jerked backward, flying through the trees. The wolves were screaming, screaming, screaming their songs of fury and horror, and as the world began to crack around me, as it shattered into pieces like so much glass, one wolf stepped out of the shadows.

  It was dark gray with flecks of black and white on its face and between its ears.

  And in its mouth, it carried—

  I gasped as I sat up, chest heaving. For a moment I didn’t know where I was. There were wolves and trees, and they were breaking, and I had to put them back together. I had to find all the ways to make the pieces fit, to make them whole again so I could—

  “You’re all right,” a kind voice said.
“Robbie. You’re okay. It was just a dream. You’re safe.”

  I blinked rapidly, trying to catch my breath.

  The man next to my bed looked worried, the deep lines on his craggy face pronounced. He was wearing his nightclothes. His feet were bare, thin and bony. His hair was long gone, liver spots on his scalp and the backs of his hands. He was hunched over, more so with advanced age than concern. But his eyes were clear and kind, and he was real.

  Ezra.

  I immediately calmed.

  I knew where I was.

  I was in my room.

  I was in the house I shared with him.

  I was home.

  “Jesus Christ,” I muttered, looking down at the tangle of blankets around my waist and legs. I was sweating, and my heart thundered in my chest. I rubbed a hand over my face, trying to get rid of the afterimages dancing behind my eyes.

  Ezra shook his head. “The dreams again?”

  I flopped back in the bed, putting my arm over my eyes. “Yeah. Again. I thought I was getting past this.”

  The bed dipped as he sat down next to me. Even though I was overwarm, the air in my bedroom was cool. Spring was late this year, and there were still patches of snow on the ground at the beginning of May, though it was mostly dirty slush. The moon was nearly new, still tugging like a hook in the back of my mind.

  Ezra gently pushed my arm away from my face before pressing the back of his hand against my forehead. I could hear the frown in his voice when he said, “You can’t force it, Robbie. The more you try, the worse off you’ll be.” He hesitated. Then, “Did something happen today? You were quiet at dinner. I would hear you, dear, if you’d like to speak on it.”

  I sighed as he pulled his hand back. I opened my eyes, staring up at the ceiling. My heartbeat was slowing and the dream was fading. I felt… calmer, somehow. Able to think. I thought it was because of the man beside me. He grounded me. He was the closest thing I’d ever had to a father, and just having him near was enough to bring me back to reality.

  I turned my head to look at him. He was troubled. I reached out and took his hand in mine, feeling the old bones under paper-thin skin. “It’s nothing.”

  He snorted. “I find that hard to believe. You may be able to fool all the others, but I’m not like them. And you know it. Try again.”

  Yeah. I did know that. I searched for the right words. “It’s….” I shook my head. “Do you ever think that there’s something else out there? Something more?”

  “Than what?”

  “Than this.” I couldn’t find another way to put my muddled thoughts into coherent words.

  He nodded slowly. “You’re young yet. It’s not uncommon to think such things.” He looked down at our joined hands. “In fact, I expect it’s quite normal. I was the same when I was your age.”

  I felt a little better. “All those centuries ago?”

  He chuckled, rusty and dry. It was a sound I didn’t hear as often as I’d like. “Cheeky,” he said. “I’m not that old. At least not yet.” His laughter faded. “I worry about you. And I know you’re going to tell me not to, but that won’t stop me. I’m not going to be around forever, Robbie, and I—”

  I groaned. “Not this again. You’re not going anywhere anytime soon. I won’t let you.”

  “I don’t know if you’ll have much say in the matter.”

  “Yeah? Try me.” I was uncomfortable with the idea. He was so fragile. So breakable. Humans generally were, and I couldn’t stand the idea of something happening to him. He was a witch, sure, but magic could only do so much. I’d asked him once what would happen if he took the bite. I told him we could run together when the moon was full, and he’d hugged me close, rubbing my back while he told me that witches could never be wolves. Their magic would never allow it. If he was ever bitten by an Alpha, he said, the wolf magic and witch magic would tear him apart. I never asked him about it again.

  He squeezed my hand. “I know you would do much for me—”

  “Anything,” I corrected. “I would do anything.”

  “—but you need to prepare. You can’t become stagnant, Robbie. And that means you need to start thinking about what lies ahead. It’s that something more you just spoke of. And as much as I wish I could be with you forever, it won’t always be this way.”

  “But not anytime soon, right?” I asked quickly.

  He rolled his eyes, and I loved him for it. “I’m fine. I’ve still got a few tricks up my sleeve. It’s nothing you need to worry about.”

  “That’s funny, coming from you.”

  He frowned. “Don’t think I don’t see how you’ve turned this conversation around on me.”

  “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

  “I really hope you don’t expect me to believe that. What was the dream about this time?”

  I turned my head away from him. I couldn’t look at him when we talked about this. It felt strangely like betrayal. “It was the same one.”

  “Ah. The wolves in the trees.”

  “Yeah.” I swallowed thickly. “Them.”

  “The white Alpha?”

  “Yeah.”

  “What do you think it means?”

  I shrugged. “I don’t know.” It could mean anything. Or nothing at all.

  “Did you recognize it?”

  I shook my head.

  “And there were others.”

  “A lot of them.”

  “And they were howling.”

  Singing, I almost said, but caught it at the last second. “It’s like they were calling me.”

  “I see. Was there anything else? Anything different?”

  Yes. The gray wolf with black stripes on its face, carrying a stone in its jaws. I’d never seen it before. I pulled my hand away from him and rubbed the juncture between my neck and shoulders. “No,” I said. “Nothing else.”

  I thought he believed me. And why wouldn’t he? I was always honest with him. He would have no reason to think otherwise. He said, “You’ve always struggled with finding your place. It could be just as simple as a manifestation of wanting somewhere to belong.”

  “I belong here. With you.” The words tasted like they burned. Smoke and ash.

  “I know. But you’re a wolf, Robbie. You need more than what I can provide. These bonds you’ve made with the pack… they’re temporary. To keep you from turning Omega. It’s a strain on you. I can see that, even if you can’t.”

  I smiled tightly as I turned back toward him. “It’s enough for now.”

  He patted my knee through the blankets. “If you’re sure.” He didn’t sound convinced.

  “I am. I didn’t mean to wake you.”

  He laughed again. “Sleep is an elusive thing for me these days. It happens when you get older. You’ll learn that one day. It’s late. Or depending on how you look at it, early. Try to get some rest, dear. You need it.”

  He stood with a grunt, his knees popping. The sleeves of his nightclothes pulled back on his arms, revealing old tattoos that seemed dull and faded.

  He was at the door when he stopped and glanced back over his shoulder. “You know you can talk to me about anything, right? Whatever you tell me, it would stay between us.”

  “I know.”

  He nodded. I thought he was going to say something more, but he didn’t. He closed the door behind him, and the floor creaked as he walked down the hallway of our small home toward his bedroom.

  I listened for his heartbeat.

  It was slow and loud.

  I turned over on my side, arms underneath my pillow, my chin resting against my wrist. My bedroom’s only window opened on a lonely stretch of woods.

  The dream was already fading. Where once it felt vibrant and alive, it was now mostly translucent. I could barely remember the taste of sap on my tongue.

  I listened to Ezra’s heartbeat as I closed my eyes.

  I didn’t dream again that night.

  it was enough/quiet as a mouse

  Near
the Canadian border and at the edge of the Aroostook National Wildlife Refuge—a mixture of an old- and new-growth forest that never seemed to dry out—was a town forgotten by the human world.

  And it was better that way.

  From the outside, Caswell, Maine, was nothing. There was no major highway for miles. The only way one would know Caswell had a name at all was an old sign along a two-lane road. The sign was faded red, held up by two posts with chipped black paint. Gold letters said WELCOME TO, and white against black said CASWELL. Below these words was EST. 1879. At the bottom was a small painting of a tree with a farmhouse and silo set in the distance behind it.

  Anyone who found their way to Caswell (usually by accident) would see old farmhouses and streets without a single traffic signal. There was a small grocery store, a diner with a blinking neon sign that said WELCOME, a gas station, and an ancient movie theater that showed films from days gone by, mainly grainy black-and-white monster movies.

  That was it.

  Except it was a lie.

  No one lived in the old farmhouses.

  People worked in the store and the diner and the gas station. Even the movie theater.

  But none of them stayed in Caswell.

  Because just outside of the nothing town was Butterfield Lake.

  Large walls surrounded it on all sides, the stone at least four feet thick and reinforced with rebar.

  Inside those walls was a compound.

  And it was here that the most powerful pack in North America—and possibly the world—resided.

  I didn’t live in the compound. It made my skin feel electrified. I didn’t like it.

 

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