by K. Makansi
“At least you didn’t get typhoid fever,” Osprey says brightly.
“What’s typhoid fever?” I ask. Osprey shakes her head. “You don’t want to know. ”
“No bad news today.” Soren holds up his cup. “Just tea. This is ten times better than anything Rhinehouse ever served us.”
“Forget tea. I keep telling General Onion here that I need something stronger,” Osprey scowls up at Bunqu. “I need a proper capital city cocktail after the trip we’ve had.”
“Tea first,” Bunqu says. “To calm the nerves. Then I’ll fetch a couple of bottles of sparkling wine worthy of a true welcome.”
“I recommend a Chateau Ile d’Orleáns. My grandfather’s vineyard has always produced a fine wine.”
I turn. There, standing in the doorway with a washcloth in his hand and a freshly-scrubbed face, is Vale. His black hair is a riot, and he looks exhausted, but he’s clearly tried to make himself presentable. He looks at me with those bright sea-green eyes that make me think of sun-lit water, and I wonder how it is that he makes me feel so known. My breath catches. I can’t move.
“I … what … how is this possible?” I stutter, unable to think, to react.
But then I don’t have to. Vale’s arms are around me, pulling my body into his, his breath warm against my forehead, and I don’t have to say anything at all.
“Remy Alexander,” he whispers, “may I—”
I don’t wait. I stand on tiptoes, skim my hand up to the back of his neck and bring him to me. There’s a moment where everything else disappears. It feels like lying on Granddad’s dock, feet dangling in the water, clouds drifting by overhead, like biting into spring’s first ripe strawberry, so perfect the juice drips down your chin. It’s probably only a couple of seconds but it carves out an expanding space in my chest that tells me this is what happiness is.
And then it’s over.
He pulls away, and conscious thought rushes back in like a tide. He reaches down to take my hand.
“Done yet?” Soren asks.
“Don’t be an ass,” Osprey says, pressing her fingertips playfully to his cheek, turning his face away from her in a mock-slap. “It’s not like you haven’t kissed me in public more than once. Matter of fact, that was pretty tame compared to what you—”
“Yeah, yeah, okay,” Soren interrupts with a laugh.
“Time to celebrate yet, General Onion? How ’bout that wine?” Osprey asks. Her characteristic bluntness is refreshing, and Bunqu is obviously taken with her.
“It is indeed time to celebrate,” he says, disappearing back inside.
I peel off my wet jacket and turn to Vale. “Tell me everything.”
“Long story.” He pulls out chairs for both of us.
“Might as well tell the whole sordid tale,” Bunqu calls from the kitchen.
“Sordid is right,” Vale begins, picking up my hand and staring at it. He rubs a thumb across my skin and I watch the simple movement as if transfixed by a magic trick. “It started at Windy Pines. I was supposed to go on a speaking tour of the factory towns with my father.” We listen without interruption as Vale tells the story. As he speaks, telling us how he fought Aulion and commandeered the airship, I am amazed by how much Vale has changed. From a willing servant of the Sector to a man who would risk his life and defy everyone on behalf of total strangers.
Bunqu returns with a tray of glasses and a bottle of sparkling wine from the old Orleán family vineyard. Bunqu pops the cork and pours with a practiced flourish. Clearly he is a man who has enjoyed the finer things in life.
Vale picks up the bottle and looks at the label.
“Sector Annum 79. This was a good vintage. My grandfather, Augustus, bought the land and planted the first vines there a few years before he died. A friend took care of it after that, until my father was old enough to take over. He never had much interest in farming, though, and I haven’t been to the vineyard since I was young.”
“Tell us about the vigil.” Soren takes a long drink. He looks at Osprey. “We want to be there.”
“What vigil?” Vale asks.
“Meera and I are planning a mourning vigil for the victims of the SRI massacre. Two days from now at dawn in the Grass Creek Arboretum.” Vale lifts my hand to his lips and kisses my palm.
“What can we do to help?” Osprey asks.
“Spread the word,” I respond. “We need someone to draft a courriel advertising the vigil to go out to the Olympia list-serv. I met a broadcast engineer at Olympia who helped Meera and me coordinate the Round Barn footage. He gave me the list of all the Olympia courriel subscribers.”
“Speaking of that,” Vale says, “how did you pull that one off?”
I tell them about Shia, and our adventure at the games.
“None of it would have been possible without him—or Meera’s fingerprint counterfeiting. I’ve been here two months and it still amazes me how thoroughly the Outsiders have infiltrated the city.”
“Even I don’t know how they do it.” Osprey drains her glass. “It’s a lot easier to be stealthy when there’s not another soul for fifty kilometers in any direction.”
“How is it possible that the Outsiders can move in and out so easily,” Soren asks, “and yet haven’t made a move against the Sector?”
“It’s not our place,” Osprey says. “It’s for citizens to demand that their leaders uphold their founding principles. We just want to be left alone to live in harmony—as much as possible, that is—with the environment. We claim the right to choose our own paths. No one should take that right away.”
Bunqu picks up the thread, twirling the stem of his glass between his fingers, and looking off into the distance.
“I was born a citizen of the Okarian Sector. I went to the Academy, and then to the military institute. For a long time I was the willing soldier. I took orders. Did what I was told. Always determined to be the best, the strongest, the fastest. I was undefeated in the sparring ring. Until one day, a young man stepped onto the mat and kicked my ass.” He sets his glass on the table. “A skinny, young thing. All sinew and muscle. All quiet intensity. Afterward, we shared a pot of tea and got to talking. I never looked back.”
We all look at each other and then Vale sucks in a breath. “Chan-Yu?”
Without even acknowledging Vale, Bunqu continues. “We fed off of each other’s successes and strengths, both intellectually and with regard to our climb through the ranks. We met early in our careers; I was a junior officer and Chan-Yu was a foot soldier with physical and mental strength that showed great promise. It was Chan-Yu who introduced me to the ways and ideas of the Outsiders. But it was years before he truly revealed himself to me.”
“He devoted fifteen years of his life to infiltrating the Sector’s highest levels of security.” Osprey sits back in her chair and crosses her arms over her chest. She glares at Soren, and then me and Vale, but I can tell her anger is more playacting than anything. “Bet he never knew he’d give it all up to save two scrawny brats from the Sector from another scrawny brat from the Sector.”
I squeeze Vale’s hand, remembering my terror and surprise on that winter evening as Chan-Yu showed up in our holding cell with two sets of clothes and little in the way of answers.
“As to the rest of your question, Remy,” Bunqu turns to me, “the Outsiders have neither the numbers to take down the current leadership, nor the desire. At least not until recently. Our focus has been on intelligence, misdirection, and evasion, rather than on coups or civil war. Only within the last few years has the Okarian leadership become deranged to the point that they warrant removal from power.”
“The turning point was when the SD210 blight spiraled out of control, and famine hit the Farms and towns hard,” Soren says. “When my mother was still chancellor, I overheard her and my father arguing with James about the Orleáns’ solution. Rhinehouse warned them not to go along with their plan, with the MealPak modifications Corine proposed. But when people started dying, the situatio
n grew desperate, and my mother was ousted.”
“What happened to your parents?” Vale asks. “I never knew. They just disappeared.”
Soren stares at the table for a long time before responding. Osprey, too, is uncharacteristically quiet.
“You see what happens to people who ask the wrong questions. That’s what Aulion said to me when he ‘escorted’ them home. They weren’t the same. Barely recognized me.”
I knew his parents had disappeared from the public eye, but I never knew the extent of it. I feel Soren’s anger and bitterness mirrored in my own. Now I know why he recoiled when Aulion walked into our cell. Aulion as good as killed his parents. Just like Corine killed my sister and my mother.
“Don’t worry,” Vale says quietly. “I left him for you.”
Osprey looks at Soren.
“It’s been a long time coming.”
I close the door behind me and lean against it. Vale lets the window blind drop back into place and turns, his shoulders casting a dim shadow on the wall. A towel is wrapped around his slim hips and he runs a hand through his still-damp hair.
“Figured I needed a shower,” he shrugs. “As you saw, I was filthy. Rode straight through.”
“You must be tired.”
A lopsided smile spreads across his face and he walks around the bed toward me. “Exhausted.”
My pulse begins to pound, a thudding in my ears that echoes down my spine, into my very center.
“Bunqu gave Soren and Osprey the room across the hall,” I manage, “but last I saw them they were crawling into the hammock on the veranda with a pile of blankets so thick, I wonder if they’ll smother.”
“And the general?”
“The general?” Now it’s my turn to smile. “He put your clothes in the wash and went to bed. On the first floor. At the other end of the house.”
I think back to all the moments that led to this. Our first kiss almost four years ago, before my sister and my mother were murdered. Him holding my hand as I left, trembling, to find out why I’d been summoned after the massacre at the SRI. The flowers he gave me before my family fled the Sector, when I slammed the door in his face, the last time I would see him for three years. Then that night outside the seed bank, the night I was captured, when I thought I wanted to kill him, and he extended his hand to me and said, I’m not going to hurt you. Finding out he’d sent Chan-Yu to get Soren and me out of Okaria, watching him try to protect my mother during the attack at Thermopylae. His expression as he handed my grandfather’s compass to me and offered his life in exchange for the ones I’d lost. Listening to him play the guitar at the Outsider’s camp. Knowing he was singing for me. And watching him on the ledge of that building, prepared to sacrifice his life for our safety.
He stands in front of me, a hairsbreadth away, and I put a fingertip at the base of his throat and let it drift down slowly. Goosebumps prickle his skin.
“Cold?” I ask, looking up at him.
“Hardly.”
He cups my face in his hands and leans down, his lips brushing mine. My fingers splay across his chest, mapping the muscles, moving around his back to pull him to me. With one hand he traces the curve of my neck and with the other, he peels the shirt from my shoulders as delicately as if unwrapping a gift, letting his lips follow his fingers. I arch into him, remembering how close we came to hating each other, killing each other, watching the other die.
“I always knew—always dreamed—it would be you. Us. Like this.” I close my eyes as his breath dances across my skin. “It wasn’t ever real until now,” I whisper.
“It’s always been real.”
I reach up and turn out the light.
12 - REMY
Spring 79, Sector Annum 106, 04h12
Gregorian Calendar: June 6
Vale and I were the first ones up, so I made a pot of tea while he made breakfast. I’m sitting out on the veranda in the cool morning, enjoying the smell of blooming lavender from the garden. It’s so early in the morning the sky is just beginning to turn the barest shade of blue. I run my hand over my close-cropped hair as Vale steps out with two plates in hand.
“I miss my curls,” I say, as he drops into the chair next to me. “I’m still not used to it. With the camouflage makeup and short hair, I don’t recognize myself.”
“I miss them, too. The new cut brings out your eyes, though.”
“Well, look who it is.” Soren shuffles in with Osprey close behind. She goes straight to the teapot as he slouches into the chair across from me. “You both look refreshed.”
“Another night of much needed rest.” Vale leans back in his chair, cradling his mug.
“Rest? I doubt it.” Osprey sets two cups on the table and folds herself onto Soren’s lap like some sort of exotic cat. I half expect her to start purring. “Without Onion to wake you up, you might have ‘slept’ right through.”
“You’re the ones running late,” I retort. “We’ve been up, showered, made breakfast, and are ready to get started. You both look like you’ve been run over.”
Osprey cocks a thumb at Soren. “I thought it’d be easier our second night on the veranda. I prefer sleeping outside, but Soren takes up the whole hammock. Last night was like a war zone.”
“I can only imagine.” Vale rolls his eyes.
I glance at the sky. Four in the morning. Soon, pale fingers of light will paint themselves across the horizon, figures will appear out of the morning mist, and at dawn the vigil will begin.
Meera had shown up yesterday morning, reporting that news of the vigil was spreading faster than we’d hoped. She was scrounging something to eat from Bunqu’s larder when Soren and Osprey appeared. Meera knew of Osprey, of course, but had never met her, so the two of them disappeared for a while to talk about whatever Outsiders talk about when the rest of us aren’t around. After a half hour, they reappeared in the kitchen and settled in at the table with Soren and me until Vale sauntered down the stairs with no socks, no shoes, no shirt, just a pair of Bunqu’s oversized lounging pants tied low on his hips. Meera’s eyes went wide. After I made the introductions and told her how Vale came to be at Bunqu’s, she insisted that I didn’t need to do anything more to plan for the vigil, that she and Snake had everything in hand. I could have protested, but for once, I didn’t. I wanted to spend every moment I could with Vale.
After Bunqu knocked this morning, we stayed in bed a few more minutes talking about the day to come. Then we showered and dressed. I stashed my knife in my boot, and stuck the small Bolt Bunqu gave me in a neat little holster at my hip. Vale is similarly prepared. We’re not planning on starting a fight today, but the Watchmen or the SDF could bring the fight to us. Today is about remembrance and renewal. About gathering in peace, not mobilizing for war.
As soon as Soren and Osprey are ready, we start on our disguises. For Vale, it’s red hair and for Soren, it’s dark brown. They can’t very well go around looking like themselves, even if they are going to be wearing mourning tattoos. They’re too recognizable.
Tattoos in Okaria are considered taboo, as are most forms of permanent body alterations. Since parents select traits during the genetic engineering phase of conception, there’s generally no need for cosmetic surgery except in cases where damage from an accident needs to be repaired. So people are who they are and tattoos and other body adornment are discouraged. But painted tattoos for funeral ceremonies and mourning vigils are different. A tradition that arose during the Religious Wars, the practice stuck and has grown even more elaborate over the years.
When it started, most people painted masks on their faces, of demons, ghosts, monsters, or other terrors. The idea, as my father told me, was to scare evil forces away from the dead before they’d been properly mourned or buried, at which point both the living and the dead were safe. When Okaria was incorporated on Jubilation Day, the founders outlawed this practice, condemning it as a vestige of the religions that had torn the world apart. But people kept doing it. A few years later, the
law was reversed, and since then the custom has evolved from evil-looking masks into designs and artwork of all forms.
On each of my cheeks, I draw a simplified version of the images I used to spread the word of the vigil: an upside-down skull with a tree growing out of it on one side and a raindrop morphing into a human form on the other. I paint puffy white clouds on my forehead, green vines around my eyes, and use blue paint to turn my lips into a creek. I pause for a moment to admire my work so far. I’ve created a landscape: the raindrop falling from the clouds, then flowing into the blue water on my lips, leading to the skulls on my cheek and the vines around my eyes.
“You’re always beautiful, Remy,” Vale says, making me jump as I turn to see him leaning against the door frame, “but this is something extraordinary.”
There’s a look of hunger in his eyes, in his mouth, slightly upturned at the corners. I want to satisfy that hunger, I think. But not now.
“Your turn,” I say. “What do you want?”
“You’re the artist. I trust you.”
He sits down on a stool and I stare at him for a moment, studying his face, thinking about who he is and why he’s here. Then it comes to me.
Working quickly, I paint a round, green caterpillar on one cheek, a chrysalis on his forehead, and a vivid butterfly on the other. Around his eyes, I paint green-tinted storm clouds with ominous black-grey roiling in the center of his face. Looking at him, it reads from left to right, telling the story of rebirth. The poster child for the Okarian Sector. The golden boy. The symbol of transformation.
Osprey’s just as talented a face-paint artist as I am, although her work tends to the more macabre. She’s done herself in a mess of brown, white, and green that doesn’t resemble anything so much as an overgrown tree trunk. Somehow, she’s still gorgeous, in her own bizarre way. She gets to work on Soren and soon he’s decked out in a black-and-white mask similar to the ones that were popular in the old days. With ghoulish eyes and scar patterns traced across his jawbone, forehead, and lips, he looks gruesome.