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by Sarah Kate


  “That’s good—let me make you feel good, girl,” he whispered as he kept poking and rubbing her. She was horrified when she felt a flutter in her tummy. She didn’t know what was happening. She closed her eyes, crying silently as her body tensed before she trembled and came with a whimper.

  He loomed over her face. “Did you just come?”

  She turned her face aside, sobbing uncontrollably. She hated that her body had reacted that way. She tried to turn from him, curling into a ball, but he held her, smothering her with kisses. She grew frantic for breath. He grabbed her face. “Hey, look at me, look at me,” he said. “Was that good? Did you like that?”

  She shook her head, still crying.

  “How can I fucking make you come, if you don’t like it, lying bitch!” He smacked the side of her head. She raised her hands too late, with a queer clawing movement to cover her eyes and face, and sobbed even harder.

  “Shut up! shut up!” He slapped her again, and she went silent, but choking and catching her breath. His eyes were fixed on her. She felt now that nothing would prevent him from beating her to death. She couldn’t prevent him any more. She was at his mercy.

  He suddenly got up and slipped on his jeans, without his underwear. She sat up dazedly. She glanced around quickly, looking for something, a weapon, anything, a way to escape. She was about to make a dash, but he kneeled on the mattress again. She looked up at him. She couldn’t read his face. “Please . . . ”

  “What’s going to happen if I let you go?” he asked.

  “Nothing.”

  “Are the police going to be around here, knocking at my door? Is that what’s going to happen?”

  “No. I swear. I won’t say anything.”

  “Not even to your boyfriend?”

  She shook her head. “I swear. Please.”

  She didn’t take her eyes off his, waiting to see what he would do. “I don’t believe you,” he said.

  “No! no! no!” she screamed as he dragged her off the mattress. He got behind her holding her wrists for better physical control, and forced her over to a thick wooden beam. She saw then that an old rusty chain was wrapped at the base of it. He grabbed the chain, and soon got it around one of her wrists. He used a padlock to secure her. He stepped back and let her thrash violently against the chain. She couldn’t quite stand at full height, because the length of it was too short.

  “I have to go get your car,” he said calmly, wiping the sweat from his mouth.

  She watched him go into another room, which looked like a kitchen. He came out again with a metal bowl. Then he went to the corner and pushed the mattress with his foot all the way over to her. He place the bowl next to it. “If you need to piss or shit.”

  “Oh, my God!” She covered her face in her hands, then covered her mouth, watching him.

  He put his shirt and boots back on, then grabbed his keys. The room was dull and dark in the late afternoon, but he didn’t switch on any lights before going out. She stood motionless, numb and bewildered, then glanced around for something. Nothing was in reach. The room was empty, except for some filthy furniture and an old television. She tried to take in her surroundings. She seemed lost in a haze, yet she was hyper-aware of everything. She started tugging at the chain again, but all it was achieving was to hurt her wrists.

  “Somebody help me!” she cried. Overcome by the situation she sank onto the thick mattress, burying her face in her trembling hands. She couldn’t believe this was happening. She couldn’t believe this was happening to her, that someone could do this. He could do whatever he wanted with her. Struck again with panic, she began pulling and tugging at the chain, making violent efforts to disengage herself. “Fuck!” she screamed. “Somebody! Please! Help me!”

  She stopped yelling after a few minutes. The silences in between were worse than if she stayed silent. She curled on the smelly mattress. Her mouth had puffed up and was numb where he had hit her. She shivered in a cold sweat, feeling vulnerable in her nakedness. She was so exhausted, she was almost going unconscious.

  Chapter 3

  She didn’t know she’d fallen asleep, until she heard a door close. She was alert in an instant. The room was newly dark, and she could just see the outlines of things. The lounge door opened and he came in. She lay absolutely still. He switched on a lamp, and sat down on the couch, as if he might have forgotten her. He was holding her handbag. He emptied all its contents on the floor between his boots. He bent forward as he went through it, lifting and dropping things uninterestedly.

  He collected a few bits of her make up, and went to her. She huddled away from him. “Do you want to put some on?” he said, as if it was some kind of peace offering. When she made no movement, he dropped it all on the floor in front of her. He went away into the kitchen. After a minute, he came back with a can of beer.

  “You can’t do this,” she said, brokenly.

  He took off his boots and his clothes. He sat on the mattress with her.

  “I’m not going to hurt you. You don’t have to cry,” he said. “I’m going to tell you something, Nicole. I was raped in prison.” He took a swing of beer and offered it to her, but she wouldn’t take it. “So I know what a woman feels when she’s raped. I know the feeling of helplessness, the shame, self-doubt, self-blame, the fear. It was a very sick, twisted, brutal thing. I kept getting kicked in the face and punched for no fucking reason.

  “It’s pretty routine in jail. Young guys are sodomized and forced to suck dick while being nearly beaten to death. Once a guy gets owned he’s property, man. He can be rented out, sold or auctioned, told how to dress and talk, given a woman’s name. Half the guys end up dead, either by the cocksuckers forcing them, or it’s self inflicted. I almost became a statistic, several times over.

  “I never tried to participate in any of it. I’m just not a mean, or hurtful person. But I got really violent after the prison experiences. It’s been ten years, and it’s still hard for me to confront. It’s rough in there, so fuck the people who will never understand what it takes to survive.

  “When I told my wife she left me. Since then I haven’t gone looking for any counselling or help, which was pretty stupid of me, because all I’ve done is channel the pain and hurt in to rage. But I’m in a good place now. It’s very healing to talk about it.”

  Nicole was silent, hugging her knees to her chest. She was afraid to look him in the eye, fearing what they might reveal.

  “I was only twenty-two when I went in. Your age! But I was six-foot-tall and weighed about a hundred and ninety pounds. I figured I could pretty well take care of myself. My first night I was approached by three guys. They asked who I was and what I was in for. I told them and then one of them asked if I had ever been fucked.

  “I said nope and I’m not planning on it, and he told me I was going to give them all head. I can tell you, I was filled with fear like I had never felt before. I couldn’t imagine sucking another man’s cock! I got my fist into him, but his partners knocked me to the floor and slammed my face into the concrete. Two of them sat on my legs and the other guy lay on my back. He was beating into me and said, I want you to feel this, bitch.

  “Needless to say with Vaseline he fucked my ass. It hurt real bad. It seemed to go on forever. The way they were holding me, I knew they had done it before. They took turns, and all three raped me. After it was over, I was held in a headlock while they decided if they should kill me or not. I really thought I was gonna die. They said they would kill me if I said anything to anyone.

  “I was still in shock the next day. I was numb and didn’t know what to do. My options were so limited. I had no one to talk too, or to help me. I wasn’t brought up to snitch. My father was a former penitentiary captain. He ran our household like he ran the prison. Growing up, he would knock me around, and told me if ever I ended up in prison I’d be fucked to death.

  “The second night those same guys came back to my bunk, and tried their shit again. They told me it would do no good to fig
ht, because they’d just take me down and hurt me worse than before. I did everything they wanted me to like a robot. Going along was better then getting beat or killed. So I got on my knees, and my head was forced down to the first guys cock. I did everything he instructed me to do. It was fucking disgusting. He grabbed me by the hair and forced his cock down my throat when he let go of his load. I thought he was going to gag me to death and I vomited on the floor after he let go. Then I was forced to do the other two.

  “They kept coming to me. I didn’t know what to do. I even thought about killing myself. One of the guys always wanted my ass. Once I stopped fighting, it was a lot easier. He fucked me like he would probably fuck a woman and it wasn’t near as bad as the other times. After a while I started to kind of enjoy it. But I’m not gay. I’m not a homosexual. You do what you have to do to survive.

  “You know, about half of the guys become willing participants. They start to like it. But only once they accept it. It’s weird that over time you start to develop feelings for the person beatin’ on you.

  “I never initiated sex with anybody, but there were two guys I enjoyed having sex with. One would have everyone leave the room. He would bend me over the table and run his hands up and down my ass and legs as he grinded me just as if I was a woman. When I got hard he’d reach around and jack me off. We’d both usually come at the same time. The other guy would wake me up real late. He liked me on my back. I’d cover my balls with my hand to keep them from being smashed, and he’d keep his eyes closed pretending I was his wife. He’d call me baby and tell me he loved me.

  “It was all so messed up. Rape is so fucked up, but we can make it pretty good. Hey?” He touched her thigh and made it twitch. “Some cruel pricks probably like to beat and force a screaming woman into submission, but I want you compliant, all right? I don’t want to torture you. There are some sick fucks out there who might enjoy mutilating you. I’m not like that. And I’m definitely not gay. I love your body,” he said, rubbing his hands up and down her thighs and over her arms. She was hugging her knees to her chest in a frozen sort of despair.

  “Why do you have this chain here?” she asked. “Have you done this before, to other girls?”

  “I have,” he said.

  She bit her lip, looking at him tensely. “What happened to them?”

  “I let them go. But first I taught them a few things. I haven’t met a woman yet I couldn’t help to become orgasmic. My favorite position is girl on top, or sixty-nine. Do you want to sit on me?” He moved closer and put his arm around her waist. She shivered violently and tried to move a little away from him.

  “You know the other girls at the end of it liked it,” he said. “They said they loved me. If they didn’t mean it, why didn’t they call the cops after I let them go? I’ll let you go, too, when I’ve shown you a few things.”

  “How long did you keep them here?” she asked, hardly able to keep her voice steady.

  “Till they knew they liked it. You can’t fake it. I know when a girl’s faking.”

  “What did you do with my car?”

  “I’m sorry. It had to go.”

  She clenched her jaw. All her beautiful luggage was gone, and the gift she had bought for Cameron was gone with it.

  “You’re pissed off now, huh?” he said. “You can hit me, if you want. Go on. Hit me. Hit me!” He grabbed her arm, and she put her hands up expecting him to hit her but nothing happened.

  “You have to let me go,” she said. “I know you’re not a bad person, I can tell by the way you kiss me.”

  “Don’t fucking patronize me!” He shoved her away and got up. He looked down at the floor a moment. He scratched his ear. “What do you like to eat? I’ll get you anything you want. I’m not a completely mean bastard, despite what you might be thinking right now. What do want?”

  She was too distraught to think or answer. He went into the kitchen, and left her alone. She was busting to pee. She looked at the bowl he had put there for her, then bowed her head to her knees in misery. She could hear him clunking around in the kitchen. She glanced at the bowl again. She thought maybe she should quickly go before he came back, but she couldn’t bring herself to do it.

  She had her head on her knees, rocking herself, when he came back. He put a plate of canned stew and buttered toast in front of her. “You don’t tell me what you want—you get that.”

  He sat on the couch to eat his dinner. She watched him a moment. “Can I use your bathroom?” she asked, pleadingly. He pointed to the bowl. “Don’t be a cruel fuck!”

  He kept eating, chewing slowly. “I love your Australian accent. Say it again.”

  She clenched her jaw and looked away.

  “I’m coming over there to fuck your mouth after I finish this, so you better use that thing quick. I promise I won’t look.”

  She started rocking herself again. She was in hell. He stuffed some toast into his mouth, then put his plate down. He went over to her and kissed her face, touching her wet cheeks gently. He tried to kiss her wounded mouth, but she strained away. He fondled her breasts a little and quietly studied her. “I’ve had lots of women,” he said, “but I’ve only brought a few out here—the best ones.”

  She was really desperate to pee now and not at all sure how much longer she could hold on. He was caressing her tummy and breasts, up and down, irritatingly slow.

  “Don’t touch me!” She pushed his hand away. He corked her thigh with his fist, and she clutched her leg painfully. He turned her toward him, and opened her legs. He half kneeled and half lay on the mattress and eased his fingers into her. She winced at the slightly painful sensation. Her whole interior was wounded and the urge to go was getting painful.

  “I have to pee,” she complained.

  “Don’t worry, if it happens, it happens. Spread your legs for me.” He put his mouth to her pussy. His tongue slipped in between her lips, touching her in ways that cramped her stomach and made her dig her fingernails into the mattress. Her legs quivered slightly. She groaned, wanting to push his mouth away. He sucked on her clit and slowly sawed his fingers in and out of her. Her pussy was gripping his fingers in an involuntary way. She had to pee. She put her palms on his forehead to try shove him away.

  “Let it go, baby,” he said huskily.

  She kept pushing him. “Get off!”

  He licked her clit again, just once, then pulled his head away. She started to stand up, she had to go whether he was there or not, but he grabbed her arm.

  “Just a second,” he said. He lay her back down and got on top. “You can have some of this first,” he said, probing the tip of his penis around her vagina, working it up and down the slit. He slowly pushed it inside her, with a burning sensation. He pumped her gently at first, then moved up on his knees and elbows, and started thrusting into her with short, very fast strokes, like a piston. She held her breath, becoming tense. His face was right next to hers, but he didn’t look at her.

  Then he made her turn over onto all fours, so that he could enter her from behind. She held her breath again, flushing painfully. He grinded and bumped against her rapidly, giving her an intense, uncomfortable feeling.

  “You’re hurting me!” she pleaded, but he pushed on the back of her head to keep her down. It felt like he was bruising her bladder. She placed a hand between her legs and squeezed herself. It helped. She kept her hand there until he pulled out.

  He let her go over to the bowl, and she squatted down. He was watching, but she didn’t care any more. She turned her attention to her full bladder, which she found was suddenly and painfully locked up. She waited patiently, but every time she tried she could feel the constriction, preventing the pee from coming out. “Come on, baby,” she heard him say.

  “I can’t!” She suddenly panicked, thinking he had broken her. “I can’t fucking go!”

  “What? Just relax.”

  “Nothing’s happening! I can’t go!” She was becoming hysterical. He took the chain off her, and took her i
nto the bathroom. He parked her on the toilet seat and crouched in front of her. She pressed her face into her hands. “I can’t go,” she said, brokenly.

  “You just need to calm down,” he said.

  She was looking at him petrified. “I can’t go,” she said. “Can you get out!”

  “Just relax.” He was kneeling between her legs, his hands on her thighs, massaging them. His fingers made their way from her inner thighs to her slit, brushing the hair with his knuckles. His hand turned over to touch her pussy. She noticed his fingers were trembling. He took a shuddering breath. “I want to see it. Please. I’ve always enjoyed watching a woman piss. It’s so intimate. Even more intimate than fucking, actually. It turns me on.”

  She ignored him and concentrated on zoning out. She felt her back start to relax.

  “Let it go, baby,” he whispered. One finger brushed her clit, teasing it gently.

  A little bit came out. His fingers slid over her pussy, rubbing the wet, swollen flesh. He stared intently at her. He tickled her clit again and she felt the muscles start to relax. Instead of tightening against them, she pushed with them, opening them up. The little escaping drips became a stronger dribble.

  “That’s so sexy, baby, so sexy,” he crooned, rubbing her clit again. She could feel her hot pee dribbling over his hand. She closed her eyes staying relaxed, while her steady stream of pee died down. She felt relief. Everything was burning and tight, but she felt okay.

  She opened her eyes, and looked at him. He was staring at her intently. She burst into tears. She really had thought she was broken. She thought maybe something had collapsed and she was blocked, or that something inside was torn and leaking. She had all sorts of insanely bad thoughts.

 

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