In the darkness I sensed her, and her lips, but an inch from my own.
She had not deigned to move.
To my horror, timidly, fearing and hesitant, I felt my lips lift then to those of my beautiful mistress, and, in the darkness, touch them.
"Slave," said she, with contempt.
I put my head back to the woven rence that formed the floor of the hut.
"Yes," I said, "I am a slave."
"Whose?" she queried.
"Telima's," I said.
"I am your slave," I said.
She laughed. "Tomorrow," she said, "I will put you up at stake, to be a prize for girls."
I said nothing.
"Say, I am pleased," she said.
"Please!" I said.
"Say it," she said.
"I am pleased," I said.
"Say now," said she, "I am a pretty slave."
My wrists and ankles fought the marsh vine.
She laughed. "Do not struggle," she said. "Also," she added, "there is no point. Telima ties well."
It was true.
"Say it," said she.
"I cannot," I begged.
"Say it," said she.
"I—I am a pretty slave," I said.
I threw back my head and cried out with misery.
I heard her soft laugh. In the darkness I could see the outline of her head, could feel her hair on my shoulder. Her lips, still, were but an inch from mine.
"I will now teach you the fate of a pretty slave," she said.
Suddenly, her hands in my hair, she thrust her lips savagely down on mine and, to my horror, my lips met hers, but could not withstand them and I felt her head forcing mine down and I felt her teeth cut into my lips and I tasted blood, my own, in my mouth, and then, insolently, her tongue thrust into my mouth, possessively, forcing mine, as it would, from its path, and then, after some Ehn, withdrawing her tongue, she bit me, as I cried out in pain, diagonally across the mouth and lips, that, on the morrow, when I stood at stake in festival, the marks of my mistress's teeth, evidence of her conquest of me, would be visible in my body.
I was shattered.
I had been given the kiss of the Mistress to the male slave.
"You will move as I direct," she said.
In the darkness, shattered, bound, mouth swollen, I heard her with horror.
Then she mounted me, and used me for her pleasure.
5
Festival
"I think I shall win you," said a lithe, dark-haired girl, holding my chin and pushing up my head, that she might better see my face. She was dark-eyed, and slender, and vital. Her legs were marvelous, accentuated by the incredibly brief tunic of the rence girl.
"I shall win him," said another girl, a tall, blond girl, gray-eyed, who carried a coil of marsh vine in her right hand.
Another girl, dark-haired, carrying a folded net over her left shoulder, said, "No, he will be mine."
"No, mine!" said yet another.
"Mine!" cried yet another, and another.
They gathered about me, examining me, walking about me, regarding me as one might an animal, or slave.
"Teeth," said the first girl, the lithe, dark-haired girl.
I opened my mouth that she might examine my teeth. Others looked as well.
Then she felt of my muscles, and thighs, and slapped my side two or three times.
"Sturdy," said one of the girls.
"But much used," said another.
She laughed, with others. They referred to my mouth. On the right side it was black, and cut, and swollen. Diagonally it wore the marks of the teeth of Telima.
"Yes," said the first girl, laughing, "much used."
"But good for all that!" laughed another.
"Yes," said the first girl, "good for all that." She stepped back and regarded me. "Yes," she said to the others, "all things considered, this is a good slave, a quite good slave."
They laughed.
Then the lithe girl stepped close to me.
I stood with an oar pole at my back, bound to it for their inspection. The pole, thrust deep in the rence of the island, stood in a clearing near the shore of the island. My wrists were bound behind the pole with marsh vine. My ankles were also fastened to the pole. Two other coils of marsh vine bound my stomach and neck to the pole. On my head my Mistress, Telima, had placed a woven garland of rence flowers.
The lithe, dark-haired girl, standing close to me, traced a pattern on my left shoulder, idly.
It was the brand of a male silk slave, a male pleasure slave, one whose purpose in life is to serve, and give exquisite, lengthy, intimate pleasures, upon demand, to women.
She looked up at me. "Would you like to be my slave?" she asked. "Would you like to serve me?"
I said nothing.
"Fully?" she asked.
Her finger was on my shoulder, delicately.
I said nothing.
"I might even be kind to you," she said.
I said nothing.
"I see that you find me of interest," she said.
I looked away.
I dreaded that she might touch me, bound as I was.
She laughed.
Then the other girls, too, came close to me, each to taunt me, with whether or not I would not rather serve them.
Then the lithe, dark-haired girl was on her knees before me, her hands on my thighs. I struggled. I tried to draw back.
"Clear away there," called a man's voice. It was that of Ho-Hak.
The dark-haired girl rose to her feet, laughing, and she, and the others, backed away.
"It is the time for contests," called another voice, which I recognized as that of Telima, my mistress. She wore the golden armlet, and the purple fillet tying back her hair. She wore the brief tunic of the rence girl. She was exceedingly well pleased with herself today, and was stunning in her beauty. She walked, head back, as though she might own the earth. In her hand she carried a throwing stick.
"Come, come away," said Ho-Hak, gesturing for the girls to go down to the shore of the rence island.
I wanted Ho-Hak to look at me, to meet my eyes. I respected him, I wanted him to look upon me, to deign to recognize that I might exist.
But he did not look upon me, nor notice me in any way, and, followed by Telima, and the other girls, made his way to the shore of the rence island.
I was left alone, tied at the pole.
* * * *
I had been aroused at dawn by Telima, and unbound, that I might help in the preparations for festival.
In the early morning the other rence islands, four of them, which had been tethered close by, were poled to the one on which I was kept, and now, joined by flat rence rafts, acting as bridges, they had been tied to one another, now forming, for most practical purposes, a large single island.
I had been used in the fastening of the bridges, and in the drawing up and tying of rence craft on the shore, as other rencers, from distant islands, arrived for festival. I had also been used to carry heavy kettles of rence beer from the various islands to the place of feasting, as well as strings of water gourds, poles of fish, plucked gants, slaughtered tarsks, and baskets of the pith of rence.
Then, about the eighth Gorean hour, Telima had ordered me to the pole, where she bound me and placed on my head the garland of rence flowers.
I had stood at the pole the long morning, subject to the examination, the stares, and the blows and abuse of those who passed by.
Around the tenth Gorean hour, the Gorean noon, the rencers ate small rence cakes, dotted with seeds, drank water, and nibbled on scraps of fish. The great feast would be in the evening.
Around this time a small boy had come to stare at me, a half-eaten rence cake in his hand.
"Are you hungry?" he had asked.
"Yes," I had told him.
He had held the rence cake up to me and I bit at it, eating it.
"Thank you," I had said to him.
But he had just stood there, staring up at m
e. Then his mother ran to him and struck him across the side of the head, scolding him, dragging him away.
The morning was spent variously by the rencers. The men had sat in council with Ho-Hak, and there had been much discussion, much argument, even shouting. The women who had men were busied with the preparation of the feast. The younger men and women formed opposite lines, shouting and jeering at one another delightedly. And sometimes one or the other boy, or girl, would rush to the opposite line to strike at someone, laughing, and run back to the other line. Objects were thrown at the opposite line, as well as jocose abuse. The smaller children played together, the boys playing games with small nets and reed marsh spears, the girls with rence dolls, or some of the older ones sporting with throwing sticks, competing against one another.
After the council had broken up, one of the men who had been seated there came to regard me. It was he who wore the headband of the pearls of Vosk sorp about his forehead, who had been unable to bend the bow.
Strangely, to my mind, he carried over his left shoulder a large, white, silken scarf.
He did not speak to me, but he laughed, and passed on. I looked away, burning with shame.
* * * *
It was now about the twelfth Gorean hour, well past noon.
I had been examined earlier by the girls who would compete for me.
Ho-Hak, with Telima, had summoned them away for the contests.
Most of these took place in the marsh. From where I was bound, over the low rence huts and between them, I could see something of what went on. There was much laughter and shouting, and cheering and crying out. There were races, poling rence craft, and skill contests maneuvering the small light craft, and contests with net and throwing stick. It was indeed festival.
At last, after an Ahn or so, the group, the girls, the men watching, the judges, turned their several rence craft toward the island, beaching them and fastening them on the woven-mat shore.
Then the entire group came to my pole, with the exception of Ho-Hak, who went rather to speak with some men carving rence root and talking, on the other side of the island.
The girls, perhaps more than forty or fifty of them, stood about me, laughing, looking from one to the other, giggling.
I looked at them, with agony.
"You have been won," said Telima.
The girls looked at one another, saying nothing, but laughing and poking one another.
I pulled at the marsh vine, helpless.
"Who has won you?" asked Telima.
The girls giggled.
Then the lithe, dark-haired girl, slender-legged and provocative, stepped quite close to me.
"Perhaps," she whispered, "you are my slave."
"Am I your slave?" I asked.
"Perhaps you are mine," whispered the tall, blond girl, gray-eyed, in my ear. She pressed a coil of marsh vine against my left arm.
"Whose slave am I?" I cried.
The girls gathered about, each one to touch me, to caress me as might a mistress, to whisper in my ear that it might be she to whom I belonged, she whom I must now serve as slave.
"Whose slave am I?" I cried, in agony.
"You will find out," said Telima, "at the feast, then, at the height of festival."
The girls laughed, and the men behind them.
I stood numb at the pole, while Telima unbound me. "Do not remove the garland of rence flowers," said she.
Then I stood free at the pole, save that I wore the collar of marsh vine she had fastened on my neck, and a garland of rence flowers.
"What am I to do?" I asked.
"Go, help the women prepare the feast," said she.
All laughed as I turned away.
"Wait!" called she.
I stopped.
"At feast," she said, "you will, of course, serve us." She laughed. "And since you do not know which of us is your mistress, you will serve each, every one of us, as slave. And you will serve well. If she who is your mistress is not well satisfied, doubtless you will be severely punished."
There was much laughter.
"Now go," said she, "and help the women with the food."
I turned to face the girl. "Who," I begged, "is my mistress?"
"You will find out at feast," she said angrily, "at the height of festival! Now go and help the women to prepare the feast—Slave!"
I turned away, and, as they laughed, went to help the women in their work, preparing food for festival.
* * * *
It was now late on the night of festival, and most of the feast had been consumed.
Torches, oiled coils of marsh vine wound about the prongs of marsh spears, thrust butt down in the rence of the island, burned in the marsh night.
The men sat cross-legged in the outer circles, and, in the inner circles, in the fashion of Gorean women, the women knelt. There were children about the periphery of the circles but many of them were already asleep on the rence. There had been much talking and singing. I gathered it was seldom the rencers, save for those on a given island, met one another. Festival was important to them.
Before the feast I had helped the women, cleaning fish and dressing marsh gants, and then, later, turning spits for the roasted tarsks, roasted over rence-root fires kept on metal pans, elevated above the rence of the island by metal racks, themselves resting on larger pans.
During most of the feast I had been used in the serving, particularly the serving of the girls who had competed for me, one of whom had won me, which one I did not know.
I had carried about bowls of cut, fried fish, and wooden trays of roasted tarsk meat, and roasted gants, threaded on sticks, and rence cakes and porridges, and gourd flagons, many times replenished, of rence beer.
Then, the rencers clapping their hands and singing, Telima approached me.
"To the pole," she said.
I had seen the pole. It was not unlike the one to which I had been bound earlier in the day. There was a circular clearing amidst the feasters, of some forty feet in diameter, about which their circles formed. The pole, barkless, narrow, upright, thrust deep in the rence of the island, stood at the very center of the clearing, surrounded by the circles of the feasting rencers.
I went to the pole, and stood by it.
She took my hands and, with marsh vine, lashed them behind it. Then, as she had in the morning, she fastened my ankles to the pole, and then, again as she had in the morning, she bound me to it as well by the stomach and neck. Then, throwing away the garland of rence flowers I had worn, she replaced it with a fresh garland.
While she was doing this the rencers were clapping their hands in time and singing.
She stood back, laughing.
I saw, in the crowd, Ho-Hak, clapping his hands and singing, and the others, and he who had worn the headband formed of the pearls of the Vosk sorp, who had been unable to bend the bow.
Then, suddenly, the crowd stopped clapping and singing.
There was silence.
Then there came a drumming sound, growing louder and louder, a man pounding on a hollowed drum of rence root with two sticks, and then, as suddenly as the singing and clapping, the drum, too, stopped.
And then to my astonishment the rence girls, squealing and laughing, some protesting and being pushed and shoved, rose to their feet and entered the clearing in the circle.
The young men shouted with pleasure.
One or two of the girls, giggling, tried to slip away, fleeing, but young men, laughing, caught them, and hurled them into the clearing of the circle.
Then the rence girls, vital, eyes shining, breathing deeply, barefoot, bare-armed, many with beads worn for festival, and hammered copper bracelets and armlets, stood all within the circle.
The young men shouted and clapped their hands.
I saw that more than one fellow, handsome, strong-faced, could not take his eyes from Telima.
She was, I noted, the only girl in the circle who wore an armlet of gold.
She paid the young men, if
she noticed them, no attention.
The rence communities tend to be isolated. Young people seldom see one another, saving those from the same tiny community. I remembered the two lines, one of young men, the other of girls, jeering and laughing, and crying out at one another in the morning.
Then the man with the drum of hollow rence root began to drum, and I heard some others join in with reed flutes, and one fellow had bits of metal, strung on a circular wire, and another a notched stick, played by scraping it with a flat spoon of rence root.
It was Telima who began first to pound the woven rence mat that was the surface of the island with her right heel, lifting her hands, arms bent, over her head, her eyes closed.
Then the other girls, too, began to join her, and at last even the shiest among them moved pounding, and stamping and turning about the circle. The dances of rence girls are, as far as I know, unique on Gor. There is some savagery in them, but, too, they have sometimes, perhaps paradoxically, stately aspects, stylized aspects, movements reminiscent of casting nets or poling, of weaving rence or hunting gants. But, as I watched, and the young men shouted, the dances became less stylized, and became more universal to woman, whether she be a drunken housewife in a suburb of a city of Earth or a jeweled slave in Port Kar, dances that spoke of them as women who want men, and will have them. To my astonishment, as the dances continued, even the shiest of the rence girls, those who had to have been forced to the circle, even those who had tried to flee, began to writhe in ecstasy, their hands lifted to the three moons of Gor.
It is often lonely on the rence islands, and festival comes but once a year.
The bantering of the young people in the morning, and the display of the girls in the evening, for in effect in the movements of the dance every woman is nude, have both, I expect, institutional roles to play in the life of the rence growers, significant roles analogous to the roles of dating, display and courtship in the more civilized environments of my native world, Earth.
It marks the end of a childhood when a girl is first sent to the circle.
Suddenly, before me, hands over her head, swaying to the music, I saw the dark-haired, lithe girl, she with such marvelous, slender legs in the brief rence skirt; her ankles were so close together that they might have been chained; and then she put her wrists together back to back over her head, palms out, as though she wore slave bracelets.
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