by J. L. Beck
What the hell is that? I pondered and then it hit me. A pregnancy test? Suddenly I was wide-awake, waiting on her every word.
“Okay, why do you have a pregnancy test in your hand?” Jessica seemed more confused than ever, as she looked between the two of us still having not pieced the entire puzzle together.
Maddie swallowed, her lips trembling as she spoke. I realized then that she had to be pregnant. The woman I fucking loved was pregnant with my fucking baby. Elation, fear, and proudness made its way through my body.
If she thought I was going to leave her she was wrong. I wasn’t.
“Someone tell me what the hell is going on!!” Jessica’s voice rose with every word she said, fear taking over the confusion she had been showing.
“Your dad and I…” Maddie's voice wobbled as tears formed in her eyes. “ I don’t want this to ruin our friendship, Jessica. I love you. You’re my best friend, but you can’t help who, you love and you can’t help who you start a family with either.”
Oh, fuck! The words had been spoken. There was no taking them back now. I waited for the shit to hit the fan as Jessica’s eyes skirted over both of us and then to the pregnancy test. Her small form shooting up off the couch.
“Are you…” Her hands went into her hair as she pushed back her bangs from her eyes. “Are you kidding me right now? This is a joke right?” She huffed out an anxiety-induced laugh. When neither of us said anything she shook her head moving closer to the door.
“We didn’t want to tell you like this Jess.” Maddie started but I cut her off.
“I love her Jessica. I love her, and I’m sorry that she happens to be your best friend but I can’t change my feelings. I can’t shut something off that comes with no way to do so.” I walked over to her, trying to wrap her in my arms. I couldn’t have her hating me, not when she mattered to me just as much as Maddie did.
“Don’t touch me.” She squirmed, backing away from me like a trapped cat.
“Please Jess. Please understand.” Maddie pleaded, tears falling from her eyes.
“Understand?” Jess turned on Maddie grabbing her bag that was still sitting by the door. “You’re sleeping with my father Maddie. My dad. My fucking dad.” She was livid and her anger was understandable. I hated that I couldn’t help either of them. That I couldn’t make things better for them. Guilt gripped me because my feelings for Maddie had caused this rift between them.
“I tried to hide how I felt… I tried…” Maddie walked over to her stopping when she was a mere two feet away. “But then you left and your father and I got closer and…”
“Oh, and it was easier to fuck each other when I wasn’t here as a reminder that you needed to keep it together?” Venom saturated Jessica’s words, and I had to step in before something worse was said, something that would be impossible to take back.
“Enough Jessica!” I yelled, walking over to Maddie and wrapping an arm around her. I felt her calm under my touch, and relief washed over me.
Jessica narrowed her eyes at both of us as anger, sadness, and betrayal marred her features.
“I will not stay here with you two, while you play house and fuck each other all over the place. I won’t. I love you both but coming home to find out my best friend and my father are sleeping together and now apparently having a baby is way too much for me.” Tears formed in her eyes, and I reached for her wanting to soothe her and make things better again. She shook her head no, at me, pulling away and in the direction of the front door.
“We never meant for this to happen, honey, please trust me. I never wanted this. I tried to hide how I felt but things can’t remain hidden forever.” Her bottom lip wobbled and my heart cracked down the middle. I never expected for this to end so badly. I knew she would be angry but I didn’t think she would be this angry.
“I have to go. I can’t do this right now.” She grabbed her bag and opened the front door, tears swimming in her beautiful blue eyes. Was I losing my daughter now? Was Maddie losing her best friend, and all at the cost of love?
I squeezed Maddie tighter against my side. “Please tell me you’ll come back when you’re ready?” I pleaded.
Jessica stopped right in the threshold, her face turned away from mine. “I love you both so yes I’ll be back, but right now I can’t be here. I need to digest this all, and I can’t do it properly being here with both of you.” The fact that she didn’t say she hated either of us was a good sign so I let her go. The front door closing echoed through the house. Maddie sobbed against my side, the pregnancy test still firmly in her grasp.
“Today didn’t go as I planned but this…” I plucked the test from her fingers. “This is the future for us, Maddie, everything’s going to be okay baby, I won’t go anywhere. I promise you that. Jessica will come around. She will see the good in all of this.” I placed a kiss on her head, letting her cry into my shirt. I would make us all whole again, not today, or tomorrow but eventually it would happen.
I moved us to the couch, my mind drifting to the fact that I was going to be a father again. All the times I shot my release in Maddie I thought she was on birth control or something, but now, now I was glad that she wasn’t.
“You aren’t mad?” She asked sniffling. I stared down at her; her green eyes shimmering with unshed tears. I never thought I would love someone again, or that I would have more children but life had a way of bringing good into your life. Maddie had been right there all along, waiting, watching, and more than ready to be mine. The time just needed to be perfect for us and it finally was.
“Mad? Are you crazy baby? I’m not mad. I’m fucking excited. Jessica will come around. You heard her, she loves both of us and love conquers all. We just need to give her the space that she needs and eventually we will be able to get this all worked out.” I hated that Maddie was so torn up about all of this. I didn’t want to lose my daughter for sleeping with Maddie but I couldn’t take back the things that I had already done, nor did I want too.
“Do you really think she’s going to be okay with this? I don’t know how to be a mother Kase. I barely take care of myself right.” She was worried about everything right now when all she needed to do was calm down and focus on the present.
“You’ll be a great mom baby, don’t fret over something that hasn’t even happened yet. You have nine months to prepare yourself and I’ll be here with you every step of the way.” I ran my fingers through her blonde hair, it reminded me of sunshine. She seemed to melt further into my touch, her sobs subsiding, and she breathes evening out.
“I love you, Kase…” She whispered her hand right over my racing heart. It was the most, simplest of gestures but it was the only thing I needed to hear right now. That the woman I had sacrificed everything for loved me, through and through. She was mine to keep and I wouldn’t be giving her up for anything.
Chapter Ten
Maddie
Morning sickness hit me hard. I was up every morning, my belly a churning mess as I cradled the toilet like it was my new best friend. Jessica hadn’t called, texted, or even stopped by since we revealed we were together and now pregnant. Kase had been great, massaging my back, taking care of me at every turn, and reminding me that Jessica would still be my best friend when she returned.
I, on the other hand, was an emotional wreck. The need to make things right with Jessica was consuming my every thought. I felt horrible with the way things ended and needed to make it all better. I released the toilet and brushed my teeth crawling right back into Kase's bed. My phone chimed signaling an incoming text that was probably from Mr. Alpha himself–Kase. Except it wasn’t from him, but instead Jessica.
Meet me at Starbucks at noon.
The text was straight, forward and I wasn’t even sure it was real. It had been four days since we last heard from her, why had she asked to meet with me and not with her father and I both? Truthfully I wasn’t going to question her because I was just glad she wanted to meet up. I texted back right away, an okay, and stared a
t my phone wondering if she was going to respond back. After five minutes of waiting, I placed the phone on the nightstand knowing she wasn’t going too.
I spent the next three hours tidying up the house, washing the bed sheets, and taking a long hot bath. I needed to get my stress under control or I was going to put myself in the hospital. Twenty minute’s before noon I left the house, going to the Starbucks right across town. The entire way there my belly ached with anxiety. Would she forgive Kase and me? Would she come back home? I knew she was upset but I couldn’t lose her.
Smoothing my hands over my shorts, and t-shirt I got out of the car and headed inside. The smell of coffee being brewed and the sound of keys being clicked filled the air. I smiled as my eyes scanned the sitting area for Jessica. My heart sank when I didn’t see her.
“Over here…” Then I heard her, my eyes landing on her short stature. Her red hair was in a bun on top of her head and she had bags underneath her eyes. Looks like I wasn’t the only one stressed. Without thought I ran over to her, wrapping both my arms around her. I had wanted to hug her like that since the day she came home. I was just to shocked to get my arms to move.
“I missed you so much even if you don’t believe me.” I could feel the tears stinging my eyes.
“I do believe you Mad.” Jessica’s voice cracked and I released her from my arms. Looking down at the table she had gotten us she already ordered our drinks. A smile pulled at my lips. Everything was going to be okay. I knew that now.
“I was so worried about you,” I confessed taking a seat in the cushioned chair. Jessica did the same her eye boring into mine.
“I know you were. I just had to leave. I don’t hate you. I don’t hate my Dad. I know shit happens.” Jessica’s face fell. “It was just a shock is all. You’re my best friend Maddie. It’s always been you and me and we’ve never kept secrets from each other no matter how big there were.”
“I know! I was going to tell you. I swear.” I pleaded with her to believe me.
“Seeing you guys together and then the pregnancy test it felt like you guys had your happy little family and I was just intruding.” She continued. I shook my head, biting my lip to stifle the tears that threatened to fall. I was a fucking mess.
“Oh, God. Never Jess. Your Dad loves you! You’re my best friend and nothing will ever change that. I didn’t want to hide your father and I from you. I really didn’t.” The look on her face said she believed me.
“I want you guys to be happy so you have my blessing… I came home because I missed ya’ll so much, and then discovering what I did it was just way too much to take in.” I grabbed her hand in mine, holding it tightly.
“I’m sorry Jess. I’m sorry you found out when you did, and how you did.” Kase would be happy that things with Jess had started to come together again.
We both smiled at each other, tears slipping from her beautiful blue eyes. “ I can’t believe you’re having a baby…” She sniffled. “My dad’s baby…” Her eyes grew wide as her smile met her eyes. Hearing it said that way was kind of weird but then again some of the things in this world were way worse.
“I can’t either. It was a huge shock.” I admitted taking a slurp from the Frappuccino that she got me. The cold, creamy caramel beverage slipping down my throat, and cooling my anxious body.
“Well from here on out I want things to be an open book, if you guys have something that you want to tell me, just please tell me. Don’t hide things from me. I don’t want to feel left out.” I nodded my head yes.
“I’ll always be honest from this moment on. You’re my best friend, and even if I fell for your Dad. I still care about you, at the end of the day you’re still important to me.” We drank our drinks together, talking about her trip, and looking at the pictures on her phone. The anxious feeling and guilt seemed to evaporate into the air. Jessica wasn’t completely healed from what happened but she was dealing with the emotions and working through them.
I’m sure I would feel the same way if she ever fell in love with my Dad. I was just glad that she wanted to make amends and still be close.
When I left the Starbucks I called Kase right away letting him know that Jessica was coming over for dinner and that everything was moving in the right direction.
The day passed in a flurry as I lounged around the house waiting for Kase and Jessica to show up. Kase had given me the day off from the office to relax and now that things were better it seemed to have helped a lot.
“Are you sure she’s okay?” Kase questioned as he walked in the door, his lips finding mine without thought.
“Mmmhmmm…” I moaned into his mouth, my hands moving up over his chest, and circling around his neck.
“Don’t be getting my all hard right now. If she’s coming over I won’t have the time to thoroughly fuck you and I’m not giving you a quickie. You deserve only the best.” His words pierced my heart. I had never felt so loved in my life.
“I’m sorry Mr. Jones…” I bit my bottom lip seductively pulling away from him. There was a wicked glint in his eyes that said I would pay for the, move later tonight and honestly I would enjoy it every single slap on my ass.
Seconds later a knock sounded on the door, and Kase went to it, adjusting his cock before opening it. I laughed under my breath as he did so.
I loved that Kase’s face lit up when she walked in. “Hi, honey!” He hugged her wrapping his arms tightly around her small frame. I waved smiling at her as she smiled back from over his shoulder.
“Okay, you can let me go now, Dad!” She ordered. I waited; watching for the moment when she would tell him everything was okay.
“Thank you for coming over. You know you’re always welcome here. You never have to knock. I love you as much as I love Maddie.” He stared down at her. “Please tell me you see that.” He begged.
“I do Daddy! I really do. I was just so upset, so hurt, and I felt left out. Like you had your family and didn’t need me anymore. I hated that you kept it from me because you worried what I would think.”
“We just didn’t want to hurt you.” Kase’s eyes shot to mine.
“She knows that now.” I smiled. I was thrilled that I finally had Kase, and that Jessica would remain my best friend through it all.
“That I do. So let’s move on and go forward from here.” Kase seemed shocked but he didn’t Jessica the way I did. That she didn’t hold grudges and that she tried to give everyone the benefit of the doubt.
I had doubted her ability to remain my friend through all of this when in reality she was still here; she just wanted to know what was taking place.
“Alright then, let’s order food, and get this movie night going.” Kase clapped his hands together and we all made our way into the living room.
Prologue
Ten Months Later
Kase
Things had never been better for Maddie and I. Jessica was settling into her own place well, and Maddie and I had just welcomed our little boy Hudson into the world. I rocked the little man in my arms for hours, cradling him, and signing to him at least to the best of my ability.
“He’s sleeping, and you know what that means right?” I spoke softly as I placed him in his bassinet. Maddie was lying on the bed, her eyes half open. Hudson had his days and nights mixed up making it really hard for either of us to get a good -nights sleep.
“What?” She answered groggily a smile still pulling at her lips even though I knew she was exhausted.
“It means massage time, and hopefully a few hours of shut eye.” I snickered wanting to fuck her but knowing that I couldn’t. I would have to settle for giving her a back massage because sticking my dick in her was off limits or so the doctor said. I rubbed her shoulders gently, massaging the tension right out of them. She moaned, her moan sending shock waves straight to my dick.
“The moment the doctors says that I can fuck you I’m going too, so you better be ready because I’m counting down the days baby…” I whispered into her ear not wantin
g to wake the baby.
Things were different now, so different but also perfect. The life I had envisioned I would be living and the one I was living were nothing alike. Falling in love with Maddie my daughter’s best friend had been one of my most guilty pleasures, and all the same the best choice I ever made. I had plans to marry her, and I would as soon as we were ready. I didn’t want to rush things, between us.
“I’ll be waiting for you Mr. Jones, as I’ve been craving your cock since delivering your son.” She mumbled into the pillow, and I laughed quietly to myself. She always had a good appetite for my cock.
“Good because he’s been craving you're for a very long ass time.” I pressed a kiss to her shoulder blade. We might not have done things perfectly or even right but we had each other and we had all the love in the world. Jessica accepting us being together was nothing but icing on the cake because we didn’t have to hide our love story. We could be together without guilt.
“Can you believe you fell for your daughters best friend?” She questioned. I leaned into her face examining her.
“Hell yes, I can. Your beautiful, smart, sexy, and independent. Falling for anyone else would’ve been the stupidest thing ever.” And that was the truth. Falling for Maddie was the hardest thing I had ever done. Giving into desires that I knew I shouldn’t.
That was the thing about love, though, sometimes the most off-limits things were the ones you wanted the most and I was always taught when you want something you work harder to get it.
I got Maddie now and I’m never letting her go.
The End
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