by Chuck Logan
"Now what the fuck is this?" Earl muttered as he looked up into Popeye's bloodshot eyes. Fearlessly ignorant of his situation, he taunted Broker, "Won't work, hiding behind Big Bird. Uh-uh."
Broker came up to look over the gate as Earl shifted his feet to take a swing at the hissing bird. He let go an indolent one-handed swat aimed at Popeye's head.
Like shoo.
The ostrich's right leg cocked and shot straight forward, the scaley big toe with its claw knuckled. Earl was lucky; because of his wide haymaker swing he was rotating and Popeye struck him a glancing blow in the chest, ripping buckles and buttons off the
leather trench coat. Even off target, the kick connected like an electric shock and sent Earl flying back against the tractor, and then rolling on the floor.
He scrambled to his feet, holding his ribs with one hand and reaching for the dropped bat with the other. "Son of a bitch," he gasped.
The bird stepped into the garage and Broker lowered himself eye-level with the top of the door. Popeye's ominous grace was an optical illusion. His long legs seemed to be moving in slow-motion when in fact they weren't. They were lining up on Earl again.
Less bellicose now, Earl's face was working overtime on the proposition that a mere bird could kill a man. He gripped the bat and assessed the distance to the open garage door. Instinctively, he tried to go around the high-stepping bird.
"No, no," Broker yelled, safe behind his thick gate. "Stay in front of him. They kick to the side."
Wide-eyed, shaken, Earl changed direction.
Dumb shit.
This time Popeye hit Earl squarely in the left upper arm. Earl screamed as he smashed against the concrete. The kick shredded the trench coat sleeve. Dots of blood stippled the floor. Earl's ragged shoulder flopped like a rag doll's.
Serves you right.
Then someone turned his name into a high-pitched, infuriated indictment: "BroKER!"
Amy stood in the doorway waving her arms to distract Popeye.
"Do something, he's gonna to get killed!" Amy hollered.
Popeye's tiny head rotated on his long neck, big-eyed and comic in contrast to his lethal feet, which shifted on the cement. Amy continued to wave her arms. Earl, his left arm useless, lay collapsed against the tractor tire like the statue of the Dying Gaul.
Broker would have liked to see Popeye get in a few more licks. But now, worried that Amy would get within Popeye's kicking radius, he scrambled from the shelter of his plywood gate and saw the long-handled bar shovel leaning against the wall of the pen.
"Please . . ." Earl moaned.
"Get behind that tractor," Broker shouted at Amy.
"What about . . . ?" she shouted back as she took cover.
Broker sprang for the shovel, grabbed it, and thrust it at the bird. J.T. had told him that male ostriches were territorial. No way Popeye would just walk away.
He shouted to Amy, "I'm going to distract him. You gotta come under the tractor and pull Earl out of range, get him outside, and close the door. Do it."
Amy darted under the big John Deere. "Crawl toward me," she shouted at Earl.
"Huh?" Earl shook his head, confused.
Broker advanced with the shovel extended. Popeye gauged this new intruder's approach, shifted his stance, and stepped back into a tangle of loose wire that lay on the floor.
The bird kicked to free his foot from the coils. Old tin cans threaded in the rusty wire made a racket when Popeye snarled his leg. Tangled in the rattle wire, Popeye's demeanor totally changed. Spooked, he bolted for the open door.
Broker watched the bird accelerate across the yard in bounds so powerful, they looked like special effects. Zero to forty in three seconds, J.T. had told him. Trailing tin cans, Popeye tore around a tree line and vanished.
Back in the barn, Amy was already stooped over Earl. "Get me a knife. Something to cut the coat with."
"First I want to talk to my buddy Earl, here," Broker said.
"Christ's sake, man," Earl grimaced in pain, hunching away.
"Broker," Amy ordered, "I have to see this arm. If it's compound and has bone sticking out we could sever an artery moving him."
"Move him?" Broker feigned laughter. "Fuck him, leave him where he's at." He tugged Amy to her feet, took a firm grip on her arm, walked her outside.
She pulled away, furious. "That guy . . ."
Broker cut her off. "He's not critical. He's got a broken arm. So I'm going to mess with him a little. He's the boyfriend, and he just tried to brain me with a bat and he brought some help."
Amy's eyes flashed, she licked her lips. "I saw the other one run." More eager than cautious, she asked, "Are there more of them?"
She was back in her element; she liked the action and she liked being in it with him. Broker got the powerful impression the ruckus cleared the decks between them.
"Why'd the other one take off?" she asked.
And the answer to that, Broker didn't know. He shrugged and said, "Because he came to break a leg and got a full, frontal view of a charging male ostrich."
"Why break your leg?"
Broker grinned. "To chase me away from Jolene."
Amy grinned with him.
Earl moaned in the barn, "Jesus Christ, will somebody call nine-one-one?"
"Hey, Earl, look out for the rats, there's these big barn rats in there. I think they got rabies," Broker yelled, then he turned back to Amy. "Okay, J.T. keeps a first-aid kit on the mud porch. Do not call nine-one-one. We'll run him over to Timberry Emergency after I have a little talk."
"You know what you're doing?"
"Sure, Earl and I are both doing the same thing: trying to scare each other off. He blew his shot. I won't."
"Okay," she squinted at him. "But no more rough stuff. That's a bad arm."
Broker held up his hands, palms out—an innocent. "Amy, I never touched the guy."
She evaluated the look in his eyes. "You would have let that bird kill him," she said evenly.
"Nah," Broker grinned. "Not kill him, maybe kick him a few more times, though."
She turned and jogged to the house. Broker went back in the barn, searched for a moment, and found the bat. To announce himself he swung the bat viscously against the tractor fender. Every time the bat landed, Earl cringed on the floor.
He extended the bat and poked Earl in the ribs. Earl moaned and gritted his teeth.
Broker shook his head. "For some reason, Jolene doesn't want you hurt too bad, so it can end right here. If we can understand each other."
"I need to go to a hospital," Earl said between clenched teeth.
"Listen carefully," Broker said. "I copied your hard drive. Jolene assures me there's enough on there to interest the feds. Credit unions are federal, Earl. You with me so far?"
"Okay, okay."
"Jolene's lawyer guarantees you'll get every cent she owes you— if you back off. You can be friends, but she gets a chance to live her life. That's the deal."
Earl's left cheek and eye were starting to puff black and blue. Shock turned his skin sticky gray. With a face full of blood and dirt, he didn't look so pretty anymore. "What about all this?" he said.
Broker smiled. "This was just testosterone gone awry."
"I mean, what are you going to tell them at the hospital?"
Broker shrugged. "I'm watching my buddy's farm for him, I know you, you wanted to see the birds, you came out and there was an accident."
Earl sighed in resignation. "Friends with Jolene."
"But no manipulation. No games," Broker said.
"Okay," Earl said. His eyes stayed fixed on the door. Amy came jogging back in with J.T.'s first-aid kit, a knife, and a bedsheet. He asked, "Who's the chick?"
"Friend of mine. Lucky for you, she's a nurse."
Amy quickly cut open Earl's jacket sleeve and assessed the lacerated shoulder. "Looks worse than it is, superficial muscle damage." She applied gauze pads to the bleeding and felt around. "The left humerus is snapped, at least once, but
it hasn't poked through the skin. He probably has some cracked ribs."
Amy decided to immobilize the arm against his chest with the sheet. Broker helped her sit Earl up and tie the makeshift restraint. Then she gave him some Tylenol. Once the arm was secured they hauled him to his feet and walked him to the Jeep.
As they got in, Amy scanned the empty fields and pastures.
"What about the bird?"
"Maybe they come home when they get hungry," Broker said.
Chapter Thirty-seven
After a solitary dinner in an overcrowded restaurant, Allen got away from people and drove toward his town house, deep in one of Timberry's meandering cul-de-sacs.
His efficient two-bedroom row house was somebody's idea of a New England design, clad in white clapboard and black trim. He had a garage, a basement, a deck, and a view. His association kept the outside tidy. He took care of the inside.
Untidy reminded him of his ex-wife, Sharon, who had remarried and moved to California. Like Annette Benning in American Beauty, Sharon sold real estate. Unlike Annette Benning, she had never cleaned a house in her life.
They had trudged dutifully together until the end of his residency at the Mayo Clinic.
At the clinic, residents were required to make rounds in starched white coats, suits, and a tie every day. The dress code bolstered Allen's innate fastidiousness, and the more pressed and creased he was at the clinic the more aware he became of Sharon's slovenly habits at home.
Thank God they never had kids.
But then, how could they? Buried alive in the heavy pleats of Sharon's lovemaking, Allen had imagined his spermatozoa suffocated. She had possessed a certain sluggish beauty, if you enjoyed watching heavy whipping cream pour from a spout.
They'd been high school sweethearts. He had been deceived by the household Sharon grew up in, by its snug, scrubbed security. Only when it was too late, after he'd married her, did he realize that the order in that house was the work of Sharon's mother, but none of the mother's precision had rubbed off on the daughter. And this didn't truly manifest until they had moved out of student housing into a town house in Rochester. One of his Mayo colleagues came over after a round of handball and spilled a beer on the scuffed kitchen linoleum. Immediately, he offered to clean it up. "I'll get it," he said to Sharon, "just show me where you keep the mop."
"I don't think we have one," Sharon had said, in effect.
Allen aimed the garage-door clicker, opened the door, drove in, shut off his car, and closed the door behind him.
Thank you, Minnesota, for no-fault divorce.
He unlocked his door and went inside. Jolene had never visited his place. The last two women he'd dated—a lawyer and an investment banker—had given him the impression that his living quarters were too small. He'd already forgotten the personal details of both of them. He did remember that they were compulsively skinny, and the main difference between them was that the lawyer took Zoloft and the banker took Prozac.
Allen could imagine Jolene getting drunk in her past life and fucking her whole high school football team. He could not imagine her taking Prozac.
His town house had originally been chosen for its convenient location, a mile from the hospital and clinic. When he'd moved in two years ago, his deck overlooked wetlands and a woods. Now a golf course provided a deeper shade of sizzling chemical green.
He cared about the environment. He was not a flashy person, he reminded himself, as he walked through the comfortable twobedroom unit. His furnishings were sparse and functional, well made but not extravagant.
He was not a bad person.
He was not shallow.
He'd made only one mistake in his life.
One.
And he was doing his best to learn from it.
He put a bag of popcorn in the microwave and set the timer. Cub Scout popcorn, sold door-to-door. Sure, here kid.
Not a bad person.
Not.
He left the kitchen, went into the bedroom, and selected a pair of freshly laundered blue scrubs from his dresser. Clothing kept turning up in his exercise bag and he kept forgetting to return it. When he was home alone and didn't expect guests, like now, he wore them as lounging pajamas.
He put on the soft shirt and loose trousers, went back to the kitchen, transferred the popcorn from the microwave to a bowl, and went into the living room. The movie Garf had given him lay on the coffee table. Allen shook out the tape, inserted it in the VCR, and tapped the play button. While the leader played out, he turned The Blue Angel jacket over and read the tag line on the back. "A middleaged professor is degraded and led to his destruction through his infatuation with a heartless café entertainer."
Hmmm. He'd give it a try, to see if there was a point to Garf's insolence. He settled back on the couch and began to eat his popcorn.
The movie was an early talky that creaked across the screen in seventy-year-old black and white. Dr. Immannuel Rath, a portly professor, fuddled his way through the pranks of his students and wound up following some of them to a seedy nightclub where Lola Lola, the Dietrich character, strutted her stuff.
Allen squirmed a little and licked the greasy popcorn residue from his fingers. Very funny. I'm supposed to be the socially maladroit academic being swallowed alive by the hot nightclub singer. Is that it, Garf?
But the character that stuck in his imagination was not the professor or the entertainer. As the doomed romance developed backstage in the nightclub, a clown wandered through the scenes with wistful eyebrows and a sad smile painted on his face. The clown's purpose was to underscore Professor Rath's folly. In fact, the professor, ruined by his love for the singer, joined the vagabond traveling troupe and wound up donning the clown costume himself.
The clown was the only character who knew what was going on.
The movie ended with a melodramatic death scene. Disgraced, Rath made his way back to the schoolhouse and collapsed on his old headmaster's desk.
As the film rewound, Allen considered Garf's intent; was it an ironic caution or a threat? Either way, it was a clue that more intel
ligence was cooking behind Garf's blue eyes than Allen had previously assumed.
Garf had to go, of course. Milt was leery about underwriting Jolene as long as Garf was living under her roof.
And now it appeared that Garf was suggesting that Allen had to go. Allen smiled a tight little smile, got up, and experimented with a six-part silver box tango step. Garf underestimated him, of course. As had Hank.
Allen slid the movie back in its jacket, took the popcorn bowl to the kitchen, washed it, and put it in the cupboard. Then he spent half an hour going over his notes on tomorrow's surgery schedule. Satisfied, he filed the notes back in his briefcase, brushed his teeth, flossed, washed his hands, and went to bed. As always, he fell immediately into a deep, dreamless sleep.
Allen woke punctually at 6:00 A.M., rolled out of bed, donned a wind suit and Nikes, stretched, drank a tall glass of water, and went on a five-mile run.
On his way back, at about mile four as he jogged past a long stand of fiery staghorn sumac, he had his revelation. It started with an awareness about the unself-conscious way his body was moving. For the first time in his life, outside of surgery, he felt fluid, as if his work brain had finally melted and now dripped warm and active down into the rest of his body.
The new perception was simple: the accidently-on-purposesnuffing of Hank Sommer had not so much liberated Jolene as it had freed him. He, not Jolene, was more alive. Almost as if he sucked Hank's ferocious life force out with a straw and digested it.
He'd finally made a mistake and the disaster had set him free. He didn't need to possess Jolene. He didn't need to do anything. He just simply had to be himself.
The red line had been erased.
Allen ran home, showered, and then, standing with a towel wrapped around his waist, razor held aloft, his lathered face centered in the steamy bathroom mirror—he thought, No. Let's let it grow and see how we
look in a beard.
On the damp tile bathroom floor Allen took a few stylized steps
and bent over an imaginary tango partner. He dressed, ate cereal in a warm blur, and drove to the hospital.
It was Friday, which was his favorite day because he spent all day in surgery. As he parked and entered the building he mentally put on his work cap to begin to focus on the day's procedures.