"What if one of us wants to invite friends more than the other one wants a noisy cabin?" I asked.
"Communicate and go with the more conservative decision after that?"
"All right. That works."
"For a falling out, we would either need to share it half and half," she said. "Or one of us buys the other out. We would have to go half and half until one of us could afford to buy it."
"Whoever is buying out should make payments, but it belongs to both of us until payments are complete. How do we price it? If we had a fight this year, we could just do it based on what we've put into it, but if it's five years from now, it might be worth more."
"How about we each submit a buy out bid to the other one, and whoever's bid is biggest wins?"
I offered an example. "So I could say I'd give you forty thousand for your share, and you could tell me forty-five, so you'd keep it?" She nodded.
"What else?" she asked.
"How do we decide when to spend money on what?"
"Mutual decision. Maintenance issues always get resolved. Improvements require mutual approval or we don't do them."
We stared at each other, grinning. "We could do this," I said.
"So we just need to resolve what's going on between us."
"And you need to talk to your brother." I paused. "I don't care if Marcy hates us, but you might. I won't do this if your brother won't support us though. It won't be fun. And our entire plan is assuming your brother and my father will help us with the work we want to do."
She moved a little bit closer so we were lightly touching. I smiled. She shifted further so she was on her side facing me and began tracing patterns in my skin. I shivered and closed my eyes.
"Is this what you want?" she asked me huskily.
"Go slow."
"Are you going to make me stop?"
"No, but go slow."
She caressed my face.
"I'm not ready to announce to the whole world what we're doing," I told her.
"I'll be subtle for now. I want to stay in the sun for a while, but I want to touch you."
Her touch was electric, and I felt my heart rate increasing the more she caressed me. I was so confused about what I wanted, but she was fascinating and sexy.
And suddenly I couldn't stop thinking about the silk around my wrists.
"Are you going to use the scarves?"
"Do you want me to?"
"Yes."
She'd been keeping her hands above my waist, but she began caressing my bottom.
"Jessica-"
"No one is close. No one is looking at us. If I hear any boats, I'll stop."
What she was doing felt nice, and I didn't want her to stop. I wanted more, a lot more. I opened my eyes and looked at her.
"Close them."
"This isn't enough."
"You said go slow. Close your eyes or I'll stop."
I closed my eyes.
"Jade," she said. "I am the dominant one in this relationship. Is that a problem?"
"I still don't know what that means."
"It means if I tell you to close your eyes, you close your eyes."
"If I have concerns, I am going to voice them. If I tell you to stop, I expect you to stop."
Her hand continued to caress my bottom. She didn't say anything. I opened my eyes again.
"Close them, Jade."
"I need you to respond to what I just told you." I continued to look at her. "I need to know you will treat me the way I want to be treated."
"Close your eyes and let me think."
"This isn't rocket science."
"Do you want me to stop what I am doing right now?"
"No. I want more."
"Close your eyes. You'll get your answers."
I closed my eyes and she continued to rub my bottom.
"I am not playing when I say I am the dominant one," she told me.
"And I told you I don't understand what that means."
She slipped her fingers inside my bikini bottom and lightly caressed my tailbone. I almost jumped three feet in the air with the intensity of the stimulation. "Oh wow."
"Do you like this?"
"Yes." I began squirming.
"Am I treating you the way you want?"
"Yes."
"Before I started this, did you know it was what you wanted?"
"No." I squirmed some more. "Oh, you can't keep doing that here."
"Oh yes, I can," she said. I could hear the smile in her voice. "You agreed I could touch you however I wanted until nine PM tonight, and this is how I want to touch you."
She continued to tease me without answering my original concerns.
"You haven't answered me," I said, but I gasped twice while saying it.
"Tell me to stop."
"I don't want you to stop."
"I know. Tell me to stop."
"Jessica, stop."
"Are you sure that's what you want?" She did something with her fingers, and it was twice as intense as what she'd been doing. "I should stop?"
"No!"
"I should stop. You told me to."
I couldn't even think straight, and she was barely touching me.
"More!"
"Not yet. You told me to go slowly, and I love going slowly."
"Oh god."
"If you ever tell me to stop, and I think you are serious, I will stop."
And then she pulled her hand out of my swimsuit and stopped touching me. My eyes snapped open. "No. Please," I told her.
"You're as worked up as I want you," she said, smiling. "If you behave though, I'll do it some more in a little bit. Or maybe find something else you like."
"Oh god," I said again.
"Jade, if you have concerns, of course I want to know about them. But stopping, well, you don't want me to stop."
"What if you were doing something I didn't like?"
"Do you trust me?"
I thought about it. It wasn't the sort of question that should have an automatic response. "I think so," I said finally. "But I don't understand you, so I don't know how you're going to behave."
"Do you think I have poor judgment?"
"No."
"Do you think I want to hurt you?"
"No."
"Do you trust me?"
I laughed. "Yes."
"If I do something you don't like, you'll tell me. But I might not stop."
"But-"
"What if I'm tickling you?"
"That doesn't count."
"Why not?"
I couldn't answer her.
"What if we're playing a game, and you cheat?"
"I wouldn't cheat," I told her.
"You snooped through my things yesterday. That was cheating." She was right, and I didn't respond. "If we were already in the sort of relationship that allowed it, I would have made you wear the plug around the cabin, even though it's not something you would have volunteered to do. I'd be doing something to you that you didn't want me to do, even if you want a relationship with me. Is that a problem?"
I thought about it. "I don't understand, but no, it's not."
"So for now, trust me. We'll talk more as we go, but this is the nature of the relationship I want. If you don't, then we should stop now, because this isn't something I will compromise on. I know you don't understand, but trust me that I will make this more fun for you than you've ever had."
I didn't respond.
"You told me you wanted me to use the scarves. This is part of that."
"I'll trust you."
"Close your eyes."
I closed my eyes, and it took her about two minutes to have me squirming under her fingers.
First Time
I drove the boat back to the dock. When we got close, I got nervous. "Please take over," I asked.
"You need to learn," Jessica said.
"I know, but I need to see it done a few more times. It's windy now."
She nodded and we switched places. She brought us to
the dock with nary a bump, but she made me tie the boat up, checking my knots when I was done. We collected all our things and walked up to the cabin.
As soon as we were inside and set our things down, she grabbed my arm and pulled me to her. She kissed me deeply, pushing me backwards until I was pressed against the wall next to the front door, her body pressed against mine.
Her tongue demanded entrance, which I joyously granted.
My heart began pounding again, and I was soon lost in the kiss, my brain shutting down completely. I wrapped my arms around her, and even one leg, holding onto her as the kiss went on and on forever.
She broke the kiss, pulling her lips just inches from mine before growling, "Mine." Her lips enveloped mine again, pulling the breath from me and tying my emotions in knots.
I felt my heart pounding, and I knew the dampness of my bathing suit was not all lake water. I would have let her do anything she wanted to me, right then and there.
She pulled away, but I felt her breath against me, her mouth inches from mine. I fluttered my eyes open, staring into hers.
"Mine," she said again.
"Yes."
At that word, something changed in her expression, and she pulled me more tightly to her, burying her face in my neck and clutching me tightly. She kissed my neck, setting my skin on fire.
"Mine," she repeated.
"Yes, yours."
She pulled away a little and searched my face. "Do you even know what that means?"
"It means whatever you decide it means," I told her.
Her smile grew, then it grew playful. She began stroking my sides with her fingers, her fingers teasing my bare skin. It tickled, but it felt wonderful at the same time. With one hand she reached around and unlatched my leg from behind her, moving me back onto two feet, then pulled me away from the wall, her hands slipping around me to clasp my bottom. One hand slipped back inside the back of my bikini and began teasing my tailbone again.
I immediately began squirming.
"You can't resist my touch," she said quietly.
"No."
I squirmed, pressing myself against her.
"Imagine what it's going to feel like when I grow more intimate."
"Oh god!" I clutched at her.
She shifted a hand, sliding it up my back until she came to the laces of my bikini.
"Please, Jessica, not in front of the windows. Anything you want, but not to an audience."
"Anything I want?"
"Anything, but in private." But her fingers continued their teasing, and I knew whatever resistance I had from her wasn't going to last long.
She did too. "I bet I can convince you otherwise," she said.
"I know, but tomorrow. I'll be upset tomorrow." I squirmed. "I don't want to be upset tomorrow."
She continued to tease me, but she hadn't untied my bikini top. "I will give you the weekend to get used to the idea, but by next weekend, I expect you to act like my girlfriend in public."
I gasped at what she was doing to me.
"Like what?"
"Holding hands."
"All right," I told her. "Yes."
She kissed me deeply, and I moaned and squirmed. Then, slowly, her fingers withdrew from my bikini. I whined and opened my eyes.
"More."
"You said not in front of the windows."
I laughed. "Bedroom."
"Demanding. You don't get to demand." But she took my hand and pulled me to the bathroom. She closed the door behind me and was immediately kissing me again. Her fingers strayed to my bikini top, and this time I didn't stop her when she untied it.
"Anything?" she asked, pulling away.
"Yes," I said.
She pushed me against the door. "Stay there, do not move, keep your eyes closed," she ordered.
I nodded.
"If you tell me what to do again, I will punish you for it."
I opened my eyes in shock.
"Close your eyes!"
I did, but I protested punishment.
"I thought you said 'anything'," she said. "I thought you said you trusted me."
"I don't want to be punished."
"Then don't tell me what to do."
She let me think about it, not touching me. "Jessica, I don't understand. How would you punish me?"
"I wouldn't touch you for an hour. That's for a first offense."
"What about a second offense?"
"Maybe I'd tie you in an uncomfortable position and leave you that way for a while."
"Please may I look at you?"
"Yes."
I opened my eyes and searched her face. "You wouldn't hurt me."
"I might spank you. When I do, you'll beg for more."
"I'll beg for a spanking?"
"Uh huh." Her expression softened, becoming less predatory. "Do you want me to leave you here to shower yourself? I told you, I am not compromising on this. If you can't handle it, we should stop now."
"What if I don't like it?"
"Have you liked it so far?"
"Yes."
"Perhaps you should remember you promised to trust me."
I closed my eyes. "Please don't leave, but you have to take this part slow or I'm going to freak."
"I know," she said gently. "Are you sure you want me?"
"Yes, I am sure I want you."
"Are you sure you want me to touch you?"
"Yes."
She kissed me very gently. Her fingers slid up my sides and stripped my bikini top laces from my shoulders and down my arms. She took it from me, and I didn't know what she was doing with it, but I felt myself blush as I stood topless in front of her.
"Stop?"
"No. Slow though."
"Slow." She said. "I like slow." She stepped closer and then I felt her hand touching me, sliding along my side, coming to rest on my breast, her thumb beginning to tease the nipple. It was already erect but became even more firm to her touch.
"Ohhh," I said. Just one hand, she was touching me with one hand, and I was melting to her touch.
I felt her crouch down, and then I felt her lips settle on the other nipple, pulling me into her mouth. I arched my back and moaned. I reached for her, and she pulled away.
"No..." I said.
"Shhh," she replied. "You know where this is going. Enjoy it; don't rush it. Will you let us shower together?"
"Yes."
"Keep your eyes closed, Jade," she said. "Do not open them again until it's your turn to help me wash. That will be some time."
"Yes, Jessica."
She put her hands on my hips. My bikini bottom had laces tied at the sides, and she undid both laces. Normally I just slid them off, which she probably knew, but by untying them, they fell from my hips and landed on the floor.
"You are amazingly lovely, Jade," she said. "I am going to enjoy having you."
"Jessica-"
"Shhh," she said, placing her fingers against my lips. "Are you okay?"
I nodded.
She took her fingers away and kissed me briefly, just a fleeting kiss. I wanted more. I reached for her, but she pushed my hands away.
"No," she said. "Hands by your sides for now."
In frustration, I lowered my hands to my sides.
"Good girl," she said, and I could hear the smile in her voice. "It's hard, isn't it?"
"Yes."
"You want me to stop fooling around and get to it, don't you?"
"Yes."
"You know, I'm not going to. I am going to spend hours driving you wild."
"Oh Jess-"
"Jessica. Never Jess."
"I'm sorry."
"You didn't know," she said. "Say my name."
"Jessica."
"Good girl." She kissed me again, briefly, her hands on my hips, her thumbs tracing a pattern on the front of my pelvis. I knew she was hinting where her hands would be later.
She stepped away. I whined. She laughed. "I need to get my suit off, Love." She was away from me for jus
t a moment, then she stepped closer and took my right hand. She pulled it towards her, and then I felt her breast under my hand.
"Do mine feel different from yours?"
"I don't know," I said breathlessly.
"Keep your eyes closed and tell me, how is that one different from yours?"
"I don't know," I said again.
"Tell me or this ends."
"Jessica-"
"Keep your eyes closed. You can use both hands if you need to. Be honest."
I brought my second hand up and cradled her breast.
"Jessica, I don't know."
"Whose are bigger?"
"Yours."
"Say it like you mean it."
"Yours. But mine are pert." I brushed a finger across her nipple. She gasped lightly.
"What else?"
I teased her nipple with my fingers and felt it become engorged and firm. I continued to play with it, eliciting a few more gasps from her. "Your nipple is firmer than mine gets."
"Do you like touching me?" she asked.
"Yes."
"Take it in your mouth. Do to me what you like done to you."
I lowered my lips to her breast, using my hands to get it to me. She gasped immediately. I sucked on her nipple, and it became even more engorged. Her hands were on my hips, and I felt her waver a little. I nipped very gently and she gasped again.
"Oh, that's nice," she said.
I used my fingers to find her other breast, teasing the nipple, then I moved my mouth to that side. It took a few moments and that side was engorged as much as the first side.
She tasted like lake water and something else, something distinctly Jessica. I stepped closer, taking her more deeply into my mouth, wrapping my arms around her and pulling her closer to me. I nipped and she gasped. "Yes," she said. "So nice."
I flushed at the praise.
"Kiss me," she said. I released her nipple and raised my lips, and her mouth was on mine, devouring me rapaciously. I moaned.
We had barely begun, and I was ready to do anything she asked.
She broke the kiss then turned us around.
"Jade, remember, keep your eyes closed. I will be upset if you open them. Even if I surprise you, keep them closed."
"Yes, Jessica."
She began pushing me backwards until I was backed up against the tub. She rotated me again, and I felt her lean into the tub. She turned the water on. She let the water flow, adjusting the temperature, then switched it to the showerhead.
"Reach in and tell me if that's okay for you."
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