by Paula Guran
While the partner radioed in, the rent-a-cop told his version: that he had been making his rounds and heard a couple arguing poolside. He was watching from the window when the man backhanded the woman, and then took off through the casino. The woman didn’t get up, and the cop decided to check on her instead of chasing the guy. Kincaid had shown up a minute or two later from his room in the hotel.
The plain clothes man turned his flat gaze on Kincaid. Kincaid flashed his LAPD badge, then told the plain clothes man that the killer’s name was Luther Hardy, that he’d killed her because her anger was the last straw in a day that had seen him lose most of their $10,000 savings on the Mirage’s roulette table. Even as the men spoke, Hardy was sitting at the only open craps table in Circus Circus, betting $25 chips on the come line.
Then Kincaid waited for the disbelief, but the plain clothes man nodded, thanked him, rounded up the female partner and headed toward Circus Circus, leaving Kincaid, not the rent-acop, to guard the scene. Kincaid rubbed his nose with his thumb and forefinger, trying to stop a building headache, feeling the rent-a-cop’s scrutiny. Kincaid could always pick them, the ones who had seen everything, the ones who had learned through hard experience and crazy knocks to check any lead that came their way. Like Davis. Only Kincaid was new to this plain clothes man, so there would be a hundred questions when they returned.
Questions Kincaid was too tired to answer.
He told the rent-a-cop his room number, then staggered back, picked up his things and checked out, figuring he would be halfway to Phoenix before they discovered he was gone for good. They would call LAPD, and Davis would realize that Kincaid had finally left, and would probably light a candle for him later that evening because he would know that Kincaid’s singular talent was still controlling his life.
Like a hick tourist, Kincaid stopped on the Hoover Dam. At 8 a.m., he stood on the miraculous concrete structure, staring at the raging blue of the Colorado below. An angel fluttered past him, then wrapped its wings around its torso and dove like a gull after prey. It disappeared in the glare of the sunlight against the water, and he strained, hoping and fearing he’d catch a glimpse as the angel rose, dripping from the water.
The glimpses had haunted him since he was thirteen. He’d been in St Patrick’s Cathedral with his mother, and one of the stained glass angels left her window, floated through the air, and kissed him before alighting on the pulpit to tickle the visiting priest during Mass. The priest hadn’t noticed the feathers brush his face and neck, but he had died the next day in a mugging outside the subway station at 63rd and Lexington.
Kincaid hadn’t seen the mugging, but his train had arrived only a few seconds after the priest died.
Years later, Kincaid finally thought to wonder why he hadn’t died from the angel’s kiss. And, although he still didn’t have the answer, he knew that his second sight came from that morning. All he needed to do was look at a body to know who had driven the spirit from it, and why. The snapshots remained in his mind in all their horror, surrounded by faces frozen in agony, each shot a sharp moment of pain that pierced a hole in his increasingly fragile soul.
As a young man, he believed he could stop the pain, that he had been given the gift so that he could end the horrors. He would ride out, like St George, and defeat the dragon that had terrified the village. But these terrors were as old as time itself, and instead of stopping them, Kincaid could only observe them, and report what his inner eye had seen. He had thought, as he grew older, that using his skills to imprison the perpetrators would help, but the deaths continued, more each year, and the little girl in the Burger Joint had provided the final straw.
Make him better.
Kincaid didn’t have that kind of magic.
The angel flew out of the wide crevice, past the canyon walls, its tail feathers dripping just as Kincaid had feared. Somewhere within a two hundred mile radius, someone would die violently because an angel had brushed the earth. Kincaid hunched himself against the bright morning, then turned and walked along the rock-strewn highway to his car. When he got inside, he kept the radio off so that the news of the atrocity would not hit him when it happened.
But the silence wouldn’t keep him ignorant forever. He would turn on the TV in a hotel, or pass a row of newspapers outside a restaurant, and the information would present itself to him, as clearly and brightly as it always had, as if it were his responsibility, subject to his control.
The car led him into Phoenix. From the freeway, the city was a row of concrete lanes, marred by machine-painted lines. From the side streets, it had well-manicured lawns and tidy houses, too many strip restaurants and the ubiquitous mall. He was having a chimichanga in a neighborhood Garcia’s when he watched the local news and realized that he might not hear of an atrocity after all. He finished the meat and left before the national news aired.
He was still in Phoenix at midnight, and had not yet found a hotel. He didn’t want to sleep, didn’t want to be led to the next place where someone would die. He was sitting alone at a small table in a high-class strip joint, sipping bourbon that actually had a smooth bite instead of the cheap stuff he normally got. The strippers were legion, all young, with tits high and firm and asses to match. Some had long lean legs and others were all torso. But none approached him, as if a sign were flashing above him warning the women away. He drank until he could feel it – he didn’t know how many drinks that was anymore – and was startled that no one noticed him getting tight.
Even drunk, he couldn’t relax, couldn’t laugh. Enjoyment had leached out of him, decades ago.
When the angel appeared in front of him, he thought it was another stripper, taller than most, wrapped in gossamer wings. Then it unfolded the wings and extended them, gently, as if it were doing a slow-motion fan dance, and he realized that its face had no features, and its body was fat and nippleless like a butterfly.
He raised his glass to it. “You gonna kiss me again?” His thoughts had seemed clear, but the words came out slurred.
The angel said nothing – it probably couldn’t speak since it had no mouth. It merely took the drink from him, and set the glass on the table. Then it grabbed his hand, pulled him to his feet, and led him from the room like a recalcitrant child. He vaguely wondered how he looked, stumbling alone through the maze of people, his right arm outstretched.
When the fresh air hit him, the bourbon backed up in his throat like bile. He staggered away from the beefy valets behind the potted cactus, and threw up, the angel standing beside him, still as a statue. After a moment, he stood up and wiped his mouth with the crumpled handkerchief he kept folded in his back pocket. He still felt drunk, but not as bloated.
Then the angel scooped him in its arms. Its body was soft and cold as if it contained no life at all. It cradled him like a baby, and they flew up until the city became a blaze of lights.
The wind ruffled his hair and woke him even more. He felt strangely calm, and he attributed that to the alcohol. Just as he was getting used to the oddness, the angel wrapped its wings around them and plummeted toward the ground.
They were moving so fast, he could feel the force of the air like a slap in his face. He was screaming – he could feel it, ripping at his throat – but he could hear nothing. They hurtled over the interstate. The cars were the size of ants before the angel extended its wings to ease their landing.
The angel tilted them upright, and they touched down in an empty glass-strewn parking lot that led to an insurance office whose door was surrounded by yellow police tape. He recognized the site from the local newscast he had caught in Garcia’s: ever since eight that morning, the insurance office had been the location of a hostage situation. A husband had decided to terrorize his wife who worked inside and, although shots had been fired, no one had been injured.
He stared at the building, felt the terror radiate from its walls as if it were a furnace. The insurance company was an old one: the gold lettering on the hand-painted window was chipped, and inside
, he could barely make out the shape of an overturned chair. He turned to ask the angel why it had brought him there, when he realized it was gone.
Kincaid stood in the parking lot for a moment, one hand wrapped around his stomach, the other holding his throbbing head. They had flown for miles. He still had his wallet, but had no idea where he was or how he would find a payphone.
And he didn’t know what the angel had wanted from him.
He sighed and walked across the parking lot. The broken glass crunched beneath his shoes. His mouth was dry. The police tape looked too yellow in the glare of the street light. He stood on the stoop and peered inside, half hearing the voices from earlier in the day, the shouts from the police bullhorn, the low tense voice of the wife, the terse clipped tones of her husband. About noon the husband had gone outside to smoke a cigarette – his wife hated smoke – and had shot a stray dog to warn off the policeman who had been sneaking up behind him.
Kincaid could smell the death. He followed his nose to the side of the building. There, among the gravel and the spindly flowerless rose bushes, lay the dog on its side. It was scrawny and its coat was mottled. Its tongue protruded just a bit from its open mouth. Its glassy eyes seemed to follow Kincaid, and he wondered how the news had missed this, the sympathy story amidst all the horror.
The stations in LA would have covered it.
Poor dog. A stray in life, unremembered in death. Just standing over it, he could see the last moments – the enticing smell of food from the police cars suddenly mingled with the scent of human fear, the glittery eyes of the male human and then pain, sharp, deep and complete.
Kincaid crouched beside it. In all his years, he had never touched a dead thing, never felt the cold lifeless body, never totally understood how a body could live and then not live within the same instant. In the past he had left the dead for someone else to clean up, but here no one would. The dog would rot in this site of trauma and near-human tragedy, and no one would take the care to bury the dead.
Perhaps that was why the angel brought him, to show him that there had been carnage after all.
He didn’t know how to bury it. All he had were his hands. But he touched the soft soil of the rose garden, his wrist brushing the dog’s tail as he did so. The dog coughed and struggled to sit up.
Kincaid backed away so quickly he nearly fell. The dog choked, then coughed again, spraying blood all over the bushes, the gravel and the concrete. It looked at him with a mixture of fear and pain.
“Jesus,” Kincaid muttered.
He pushed himself forward, then grabbed the dog’s shoulders. Its labored breathing eased and its tail thumped slightly against the ground. Something clattered against the pavement, and he saw the bullet, rolling away. The dog stood, whimpered, licked his hand, and then trotted off to fill its empty stomach.
Kincaid sat down in the glass and gravel, staring at his blood-covered hands.
Phoenix.
A creature of myth that rose from its own ashes to live again.
He had been such a fool.
All those years. All those lives.
Such a fool.
He looked up at the star-filled desert sky. The angel that had brought him hovered over him like a teacher waiting to see if the student understood the lecture. He couldn’t relive his life, but maybe, just maybe, he could help one little girl who had spoken with the voice of angels.
Make him better.
“Take me back to Los Angeles,” he said to the angel. “To the people who died yesterday.”
And in a heartbeat, he was back in the Burger Joint. The killer, an overweight acne-scarred man with empty eyes, was tied to a chair near the window, a group of men milling nervously around him, the gun leaning against the wall behind them. All the children were crying, their parents pressing the tiny faces against shoulders, trying to block the sight. The air smelled of burgers and fresh blood.
A little girl, no more than three, grabbed Kincaid’s sleeve and pointed at one of the bodies, long slender male and young wearing a ’49ers T-shirt, ripped jeans and Adidas, face a bloody mass of tissue, and said, “Make him better,” in a whisper that broke Kincaid’s heart.
Kincaid crouched, hands shaking, wishing desperately for a cigarette, and grabbed the body by the arm. Air whistled from the lungs, and the blood bubbled in the remains of the face. As Kincaid watched, the face returned, the blood disappeared and a young man was staring at him with fear-filled eyes.
“You all right, friend?” Kincaid asked.
The man nodded – and the little girl flung herself in his arms.
“Jesus,” someone said behind him.
Kincaid shook his head. “It’s amazing how bad injuries can look when someone’s covered with blood.”
He didn’t wait for the response, just went to the next body and the next, his need for a cigarette decreasing with touch, the blood drying as if it had never been. When he got behind the counter, he gently pushed aside the pimply faced boy sobbing over the dead co-worker, and then he paused.
If he reversed this one, they would have nothing to indict the killer on.
The boy’s breath hitched as he watched Kincaid. Kincaid turned and looked over his shoulder at the killer tied to the chair near the entrance. Holes the size of fists marred the drywall and made one perfect circle in the center of the cardboard model for a bacon-double cheeseburger. It would be enough.
He grabbed the body’s shoulders, feeling the grease of the uniform beneath his fingers. The spirit slid back in as if it had never left, and the wounds sealed themselves as they would on a videotape run backwards.
All those years. All those wasted years.
“How did you do that?” the pimply faced boy asked, his face shiny with tears.
“He was only stunned,” Kincaid said.
When he was done, he went outside to find the backup team interviewing witnesses, the ambulances just arriving, five minutes too late.
“All yours,” he said, before taking off into the sun-drenched crowded streets.
Now he had to keep moving. No jobs with police departments, no comfortable apartments. He had to stay one step ahead of a victim’s shock, one step ahead of the press who would someday catch wind of his ability. He couldn’t let them corner him, because the power was not his to control.
He was still trapped.
He stopped outside the Roosevelt, lit a cigarette, and peered into the plate glass. His own tennis shoes were stained red, and a long brown streak of drying blood marked his Levi’s. The cigarette had burned to a coal between his nicotine-stained fingers before he had a chance to take a drag, and he tossed it, stamping it out on the star of a celebrity whose name he didn’t recognize.
All those years and he never knew. The kiss made some kind of cosmic sense. Even Satan, the head of the fallen angels, was once beloved of God. Even Satan must have felt remorse at the pain he caused. He would never be accepted back into the fold, but he might use his powers to repair some of the pain he caused. Only he wouldn’t be able to alone, for each time he touched the earth, he would cause another death. What better to do, then, but to give healing power to a child, who would learn and grow into the role.
Kincaid’s hands were still shaking. The blood had crusted beneath his fingernails.
“I never asked for this!” he shouted, and people didn’t even turn as they passed on the street. Shouting crazies were common in Hollywood. He held his hands to the sky. “I never asked for this!”
Above him, angels flew like eagles, soaring and dipping and diving, never coming close enough to endanger the Earth. Their featureless faces radiated a kind of joy. And, although he would never admit it, he felt that joy too.
Although he would not slay the dragon, he wouldn’t have to live with its carnage either. Finally, at last, he could make some kind of difference. He let his hands fall to his side, and wondered if the Roosevelt would shirk at letting him wash the blood off inside. He was about to ask when a stray dog pushed its muzzle
against his thigh.
“Ah, hell,” he said, looking down and recognizing the mottled fur, the wary yet trusting eyes. He glanced up, saw one angel hovering. A gift then, for finally understanding. He touched the dog on the back of its neck, and led it to the Olds. The dog jumped inside as if it knew the car. Kincaid sat for a moment, resting his shaking hands against the steering column.
A hooker knocked on the window. He thought he could smell the sweat and perfume through the rolled-up glass. Her cleavage was mottled, her cheap elastic top revealing the top edge of brown nipple.
He shook his head, then turned the ignition and grabbed the gearshift on the column to take the car out of park. The dog barked once, and he grinned at it, before driving home to get his things. This time he wouldn’t try Big Bear. This time he would go wherever the spirit led him.
Demons, Your Body, and You
Genevieve Valentine
Modern paranormal romance and urban fantasy often depict love and sexual activity with demons or angels. In these alternate fictional worlds, supernatural creatures and powers are part of a world that, otherwise, closely resembles our own. The romantic beings with whom humans get involved have little resemblance to traditional asexual angels or sexual (if not endearing) demons, but are fun twists on past lore and convention. Genevieve Valentine, however, takes a different look at the consequences of a teenage romance with a hot (pun intended) demon. Her story and its young protagonists entertain while introducing some very real social issues and commentary. Unlike many provocative novels of paranormal desire, this story provokes thought.
Between sophomore and junior years was the summer my parents sent me to the urban day camp, and Katie got impregnated by the demon.
My parents told me the day I came home, so that I would know why she might not be coming back to school.