by Lisa Kleypas
Logan shuddered, and his hard mouth found hers in a bruising kiss that seemed to last forever. “You'll stay?” he asked.
“Yes, yes…” Her lips sought his, clinging sweetly, and he groaned with aching desire.
He would take the risk of loving her. It wasn't as if he had a choice, anyway. Carrying her to the bed, he undressed them both and made love to her with wild tenderness, trembling with the effort to be gentle.
Afterward, Madeline lay replete in his arms, too weary to move as she felt Logan rise on his elbow to look down at her. He bent and pressed his mouth to her stomach, a gesture of hard-won hope that made her eyes sting with the piercing joy she felt. “It will be all right,” Madeline whispered, pulling his head to hers. “Trust me.” And she kissed him while her heart brimmed with love.
Epilogue
The labor had lasted ten hours so far. Having been banished from the bedroom where Madeline was giving birth to their child, Logan sat in the private family parlor nearby, gripping his skull more tightly with each indistinct sound that came through the door. He took some comfort in the fact that Julia was in there with Madeline, lending encouragement and friendship, as well as being available to assist the doctor and midwife. But nothing pierced the haze of worry that surrounded him.
He had stayed with Madeline for the first few hours, the sight of her pain unnerving him unbearably, until Dr. Brooke had ordered him from the room. “I suggest that you find a bottle of brandy,” Brooke had told him with a reassuring smile. “This may take several hours yet.”
Logan had downed half a bottle so far, and there was no relief from the gnawing fear inside him. He couldn't stand the memory of his wife in pain, the way she gripped a knotted rag during each contraction, the way she had bitten her lips until they were bruised—
“Good God, Jimmy.” Andrew walked into the parlor and sat beside him, smiling quizzically. “You're not holding up very well, are you?”
Logan sent him a wretched glare.
“How strange,” Andrew commented lightly, “that for once I'm the sober one, while you're half-seas under.” During the past few months Andrew had curtailed his drinking to an occasional glass of wine. The alcoholic ruddiness had left his cheeks, and he had dropped a great deal of weight, looking fit and lean for the first time since his teenaged years. He had also given up gambling and had arranged to pay back his debts, with interest. It even seemed that he had managed to build a new, closer relationship with Rochester, who had softened a bit since the scare of his son's “death.”
“I'm not drunk enough yet,” Logan muttered, flinching as he heard a smothered cry from within the room.
Andrew looked uncomfortably at the door. “You're wound as tight as a watch,” he said. “Cheer up, Jimmy. Women survive this sort of thing every day. Why don't you come downstairs with me? I don't mind telling you that I'm tired of trying to make small talk with your in-laws, respectable souls that they are. You should distract yourself by playing host for a little while.”
“I'd rather crawl through an acre of broken glass.”
A wry, wondering smile crossed Andrew's face. “The great Logan Scott, wearing his heart on his sleeve. That's a sight I never expected to see.”
Logan was too miserable to reply. He lifted his gaze to the portrait on the wall, the Orsini painting of Madeline that had earned adulation and rapturous reviews from every notable critic in London. The artist had portrayed her seated before a window, an elbow resting lightly on a walnut table as she stared dreamily into the distance. The white gown she wore was circumspect, except for a sleeve that dipped coyly to reveal the curve of one pale shoulder.
By painting Madeline in profile, Orsini had revealed the delicate purity of her features, yet he had given the bare length of her throat, arms, and shoulder a lush quality that made the viewer aware of the velvety texture of her skin. The portrait was a disturbing study in contrasts: innocent yet sensuous, her face serene and her eye touched with a mischievous glint…Madeline as a fallen angel.
“Lovely,” Andrew remarked, following Logan's gaze. “One would never suspect from looking at this painting that she can be as stubborn as a goat.” He smiled at Logan. “She'll pull through this in good form, Jimmy. If I were still a betting man, I'd put all my chips on it.”
Logan nodded slightly, his gaze locked on the painting. The past few months had been filled with the most intense happiness he had ever known. Madeline had become everything to him, filling every empty space in his life, banishing all the bitterness and pain and replacing them with joy. As much as he had loved her before, it was nothing compared to now. He would have walked through hell to spare her one moment's suffering. The knowledge that she had to endure the agony of childbirth alone, that he could do nothing for her, was driving him mad.
All at once he heard a baby crying. The shrill noise caused Logan to shoot to his feet. Chalk-white, he waited for what seemed like an hour, though in reality less than a minute passed.
The door opened, and Julia stood there wearing an expression of weary happiness. “Both mother and child are doing splendidly. Come in, Papa, and have a look at your beautiful daughter.”
Logan stared at her uncomprehendingly. “Is Maddy…” He stopped and tried to moisten his lips; his mouth was too dry.
Julia smiled and gently touched his cheek. “She did very well, Logan. She's fine.”
“Congratulations, brother,” Andrew said, taking the brandy bottle from Logan's nerveless grip. “Give that to me. You don't need it anymore.”
Scarcely aware of what was happening, Logan strode into the room.
Wistfully Andrew stared at the half-empty brandy bottle in his hand and gave it to Julia. “Here,” he muttered. “I don't trust myself with it. Thank God I still have plenty of other vices to indulge in.”
Barely aware of the hearty congratulations of the doctor and midwife, Logan went to the bed and sat beside Madeline. Her eyes half-opened, and she smiled at him.
“Maddy,” he said, his voice cracking. He took her free hand and brought it to his mouth, fervently pressing his lips into her palm.
Reading the anguished relief on his face, Madeline murmured soothingly and pulled him down to her. He pressed his face to her breasts and made an inarticulate sound.
“I'm all right,” she murmured, stroking his hair. “It wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be.”
His lips found hers, and as he tasted her familiar sweet warmth, his panic faded. “I've been as scared as hell,” he said when their lips parted. “I don't ever want to go through this again.”
“I'm afraid you'll have to, darling. You'll want her to have a brother someday.”
Logan stared at the tiny form held in the crook of Madeline's arm. The baby was wrapped in linen and cotton, her small pink face wearing a perplexed pucker. There was a patch of downy chestnut hair on her head. Logan touched the silken strands wonderingly. “Hello,” he whispered, brushing his lips over the baby's forehead.
“She's beautiful, isn't she?” Madeline asked.
“Exquisite,” he said, staring at the miraculous creation, and his gaze returned to Madeline. “But she doesn't eclipse her mother.”
In spite of her discomfort and exhaustion, Madeline managed a chuckle. “Silly man. No woman looks beautiful immediately after childbirth.”
“I could stare at you for hours…weeks…months…and never get tired.”
“You'll have to do it while I'm sleeping,” she said with a yawn, blinking like a small owl.
“Rest,” Logan said. “Both of you.” His caressing gaze moved over his wife and infant daughter. “I'll watch over you.”
“Love me?” Madeline asked with a faint smile, and yawned again.
“It used to be love.” He brushed his lips over her closed eyelids. “Now there's no word for it.”
“You once told me that you thought love was a weakness.”
“I was wrong,” he whispered, kissing the corners of her mouth. “I've discovered it's
my only strength.”
Madeline fell asleep with a smile still on her lips, her hand curled around his.
Hearing a quiet tap at the door, Logan went to answer it and found Mrs. Florence at the threshold. Of late she had been a frequent visitor to the household, ostensibly to call on Madeline, but she and Logan had both found unexpected enjoyment in their time together. They had a great deal in common, after all. They had shared many long, entertaining conversations about the theater…and sometimes they discussed his mother, Elizabeth. There was still much Logan wanted to know about her, as well as the man who had sired her. Piece by piece Mrs. Florence was providing the truth about his past, giving him a sense of wholeness he had never expected to find.
His grandmother was dressed as if for a grand occasion, her throat and wrists adorned with pearls, her faded red hair stylishly arranged.
“They're sleeping,” Logan said, protective of his wife and child's need for rest.
Imperiously Mrs. Florence pointed her silver cane at him. “Don't even think of turning me away after I ascended all those confounded stairs. I'll only stay a moment—I must have a look at my great-grandchild.”
“Very well,” he muttered, allowing her to pass. “Apparently there's no stopping you.”
As Mrs. Florence approached the bedside, she appeared enchanted by the sight of the infant in Madeline's arms. “My great-granddaughter,” she remarked softly, glancing back at Logan. “A gorgeous creature, and no less than I expected. Have you decided on a name?”
“Elizabeth,” Logan replied.
The elderly woman contemplated him with eyes that had grown suspiciously moist. She gestured for him to lean down to her and kissed him on the cheek. “Your mother would have liked that, dear boy. She would have liked it very much.”
About the Author
Lisa Kleypas is the author of nineteen historical romance novels that have been published in twelve languages. In 1985, she was named Miss Massachusetts and competed in the Miss America pageant in Atlantic City. After graduating from Wellesley College with a political science degree, she published her first novel at age twenty-one. Her books have appeared on bestseller lists such as the New York Times, USA Today, Publishers Weekly, and WaldenBooks. Lisa is married and has two children.
Please visit her at www. lisakleypas.com.
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By Lisa Kleypas
Secrets of a Summer Night Again The Magic • Worth Any Price Lady Sophia�s Lover • Only in Your Arms Only With Your Love • When Strangers Marry Suddenly You • Where Dreams Begin Someone to Watch Over Me Stranger in My Arms • Because You�re Mine Somewhere I�ll Find You Prince of Dreams • Midnight Angel Dreaming of You • Then Came You
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