by Naomi Niles
“Right,” Mia nodded. “Well, you better get going. Would you mind handing me my robe, please? It’s on the chair in the corner.”
I pulled on my pants, fastened them quickly, and then handed her the dressing gown she had pointed out to me. She slipped it on and got out of bed, adjusting her hair as she did so.
I could sense a slight awkwardness between us. The comfort of last night had dissipated slightly and I wondered if the alcohol had more to do with the magic I had sensed between us than anything else.
Mia went to her bedroom door, opened it, and peeked outside. “Vanessa’s still sleeping,” she told me. “And Renni is, too.”
I nodded, realizing that she didn’t want me to be seen as I made my way out of her house. I pulled on my t-shirt and headed out the door. She followed me quietly and opened the front door to let me out.
“Thanks for taking care of me last night,” Mia said at the threshold.
“It was my pleasure.” I smiled at her formally. “I guess I’ll see you around…”
She hesitated for a moment. “Sure,” she said uncertainly.
I wasn’t sure if she was happy to be rid of me or annoyed with the fact that I had been trying to sneak out while she had been asleep. I was aware that this was the first time ever I actually felt like a jerk for doing so.
I got into my truck and headed straight for Peter’s house. It was early, but I knew Peter and Madison would both be up.
Peter liked his cooking time in the morning and Madison usually woke up a little earlier than usual just to keep him company. That was true love, in my opinion – when you actually sacrificed sleep to be with your significant other. I found them both in the kitchen.
“Hi, guys,” I said, taking a seat at the table. “I’ve got troubles.”
Madison and Peter exchanged an amused glance. “Well, good morning to you, too,” Peter said, rolling his eyes.
“Yeah, yeah,” I nodded, reaching for the homemade muffins on the table. “Chocolate chip?” I asked, directing my question at Madison.
“Chocolate chip and banana,” she nodded. “I helped make them.”
I took a bite. “Damn, these are good.”
“So?” she asked curiously. “What’s your problem?”
“I had sex last night.”
Peter sat down between Madison and me and sipped his coffee. “I knew you didn’t have a problem,” he said. “You’re just here to brag.”
I shot him a dirty look. “You don’t know the whole story.”
“Okay,” he said. “Shock me.”
“Her name is Mia,” I explained. “And, I spent the night with her.”
He raised his eyebrows. “Hmm…intentionally?”
“Well, she asked me to stay with her,” I admitted.
“And, you actually listened?”
“We had a good night,” I shrugged. “And… I… I don’t know… We seemed to have a connection.”
It appeared I really had succeeded in shocking Peter because he gave Madison a curious look before turning back to me. “What was this connection based on?”
“She was in a car accident about a week ago,” Sam said. “I was one of the fire fighters on the ground.”
“You hit on a woman who’d just been in a car accident?” Madison asked.
“It wasn’t like that,” I said, trying to defend myself.
“It wasn’t?”
“Okay, maybe it was a little like that.”
“You are a piece of work,” Peter said, shaking his head at me.
“Hey, she seemed to like me, too,” I said. “Her kid certainly did.”
“She has a kid?” Madison asked.
“Yeah,” I nodded. “Did I not mention that part?”
“You conveniently left that part out,” Peter said.
“She has a daughter named Renni,” I said. “She’s five and smart as a whip.”
“So you’ve…spent time with her daughter?” Madison asked.
“Yeah.”
“Isn’t that sort of a big step?” she asked cautiously.
“It’s not what it sounds like,” I rushed to clarify. “I was the one who pulled Renni out of the backseat of the car. I was with her until Mia was finished being examined. The kid was scared and upset, so I was just…distracting her. It wasn’t like Mia and I were dating and she introduced me to her daughter.”
“Hmm,” Madison nodded, but she didn’t sound totally convinced.
“It’s complicated,” I said.
“It seems that way,” Peter nodded. “Let me ask you a question.”
“Okay?”
“What happened last night exactly?” he asked. “What made you stay with her?”
“It was a combination of things,” I admitted. “She was slightly drunk and had a headache coming on. I drove her back home and walked her to her room. She just needed someone to…look out for her.”
“And you stepped up,” Madison smiled.
“Well, yeah,” I nodded. “There was no one else.”
“Where was her kid?” Peter asked.
“Sleeping,” I said. “Mia has a really close friend who looks after Renni when she’s at work.”
“And, this friend was at the house, too?” Peter asked.
“What are you getting at?”
“Why didn’t you just wake the friend up and have her take care of Mia?” he asked slyly.
I sighed and leaned back in my seat. “That would have been a dick move.”
“Isn’t that your only move?” Peter asked. “Especially after sleeping with a woman?”
I sighed. “I think I’m losing my touch.”
“I for one think that’s something you should be proud of,” Madison said, patting me on the back. “Come on, Sam, did you really think you were going to be able to do this forever?”
“What do you mean?”
“This casual sex thing you’ve got going,” she explained. “At some point, some girl was bound to make an impression on you. And it seems you’ve finally met your match.”
“Are you saying I have feelings for her?” I was appalled.
“It certainly sounds that way,” she nodded with a smile.
“I barely know her,” I said defensively.
“I barely knew Madison,” Peter pointed out. “That didn’t stop me falling.”
“Whoa,” I said, holding up my hands as though to shield myself from the two of them. “Hold up. I’m not ‘falling’ here.”
“Oh, okay,” he nodded, as though he believed me. “I guess that means you aren’t going to see Mia again, huh?”
His phrasing had the desired effect. My face crumpled slightly, and I could feel the disappointment etched there. “Umm…”
“Umm what?” Peter asked calmly.
I sighed. “I do want to see her again,” I admitted.
Madison clapped her hands together excitedly. “I knew it! I knew this was bound to happen sooner or later.”
“Personally, I was hoping for much, much later,” I sighed.
“Please,” Peter rolled his eyes at me. “You were hoping for never.”
“Or that,” I agreed.
“You act as though this is a bad thing,” Madison said reproachfully.
I shook my head. “I’m getting ahead of myself. This is not serious. I’m not in love with this woman. She’s just…a little different from the women I usually sleep with. That’s the reason she’s made more of an impression.”
Madison and Peter exchanged a glance. “If you say so,” Peter said. Then he pushed the plate of muffins towards me. “Another muffin?” he offered.
I took another muffin from the plate and took a big mouthful. I didn’t stop thinking about our conversation the entire way to Jackson’s Bar. Peter and Madison’s words kept echoing in my ears and it was starting to make me a little nervous. The bar was silent when I walked in, but Jackson’s car was parked outsidem so I knew he was around somewhere.
I heard movement in the back, so I follow
ed the sound. The door was slightly ajar, and I pushed it open and walked in to see Jackson shoving a stack of cash into a safe that had been recessed into the wall. He gave a startled jump when he noticed my presence.
“Fuck, man!” he gasped. “You scared me.”
I forced a smile on my face and tried not to look too closely at the safe behind him. He seemed in a hurry to cover it up and change the subject, and I didn’t want to push him into explaining himself. This was his business, after all, and if there were any mistakes to be made, they were his to make.
“Sorry,” I said. “Thought I’d drop by and see how things looked the morning after.”
“You’re a good man.” Jackson smiled, as he led me out of the room. “How did things go last night between you and the hot MILF?”
“Pretty great,” I nodded.
“Does that mean you got laid?”
I gave him a telltale smile, and he clapped me on the back. “That’s my boy,” he crowed. “How good was she?”
“She was fucking phenomenal,” I said.
“Was she a screamer?” Jackson asked. “Please tell me she was a screamer.”
This was the way all our conversations went after a conquest, it had always been part of our banter, but somehow I was suddenly aware of how crass and vulgar we both sounded. I was also starting to realize that I didn’t really enjoy talking about Mia in that way. Somehow, I felt as though she deserved privacy, along with my discretion.
“Sam?”
“Yeah?” I said, meeting Jackson’s gaze.
“Well?” Jackson asked impatiently. “Was she a screamer?”
“Umm…no,” I said, shaking my head. “No, she wasn’t.”
“Well, you can tick off hot MILF from your list now,” Jackson said, giving me a crude wink.
I smiled and laughed, trying to capture the flow of our old conversations. But even as Jackson goaded me into more details and fuller explanations, I was starting to see that I was putting on an act for his benefit. I was saying the typical things I usually did because that’s what Jackson expected to hear. I was not being honest, nor was I enjoying myself.
I was saying the things I knew I would have said a week ago. But even as I repeated the same vulgar rhetoric, I saw through my weak charade and the alien feelings that were budding just beneath the surface.
Chapter Sixteen
Mia
I felt the sting of my hangover, and I sighed as I closed my front door. I went into the living room where Vanessa was still sleeping soundly. I decided not to wake her and instead snuck back into my room and shut the door.
Then I removed my robe and headed to the bathroom for a nice, long shower. My ten-minute shower ended up being twenty minutes. I leaned against the cool tile and enjoyed the heat of the water splashing against my body. I was aware of a steady throbbing between my legs, but the feeling was not unpleasant. It was a comfortable soreness I knew would ebb after a few hours.
My thoughts kept drifting to Sam every few minutes, and I sighed at myself. I shouldn’t be encouraging this. I should have resisted him last night. But the more I thought back to the previous night, I realized Sam had barely initiated a thing. He had bought me drinks, asked me to dance, and challenged me to a game of pool. But apart from that, I had been the one making all the moves.
I’m the one who had practically jumped on him and initiated sex. I’m the one who had asked him for a ride home. And, I was the one who had asked him to stay with me last night.
I cringed as I thought about that moment. I should have just let him leave, but it had been so nice to feel him lying next to me. It had been nice to fall asleep with a man by my side. I hadn’t realized how much I’d missed it.
When the tips of my fingers were good and wrinkled, I got out of the shower, wiped myself dry, and slipped on a comfortable pair of jeans and a thin blue sweater. I combed out my hair and tied it back into a knot at the back of my head. I glanced myself at the mirror. My face was slightly pale, and I looked as though I had dark circles under my eyes. I had forgotten how ravaging the effects of alcohol could be sometimes. It had been quite a while since I’d gotten drunk, too.
When I walked out of my room, I heard voices coming from the kitchen. It seemed that both Vanessa and Renni were awake and getting breakfast ready. I walked to the kitchen to find Renni standing on a chair over the stove. She was making eggs while Vanessa was supervising over her shoulder.
“Morning, girlies,” I greeted.
“Mommy!” Renni said delightedly, as though she hadn’t seen me in weeks. I cringed a little as her shrill voice struck at my head.
“Well, good morning to you,” Vanessa greeted. Her voice was unnecessarily loud, too.
“Can we use our quiet voices today?” I asked gently as I took a seat at the table.
“Why, Mommy?”
“Umm… Mommy has a headache, angel,” I replied. “And loud sounds aren’t helping.”
She looked concerned. “We’ll be quiet, then, won’t we, Aunt Vanessa?”
“We sure will,” Vanessa nodded, but she was smiling slyly at me. “That’s a good job you’re doing with the eggs, kiddo. Now let’s put them 0n a plate.”
Vanessa held out a plate and Renni spilled the eggs onto it. Then she set the frying pan down, and Vanessa propped her back onto the ground. Renni headed straight towards me for a morning hug. I kissed the top of her head.
“Slept well, darling?” I asked.
“Uh huh,” she nodded. “I dreamt I was flying last night.”
“Really?” I asked, with raised eyebrows. “Funny… I think I had the same dream.”
“Mommy?” Renni said, eyeing her eggs. “Can I watch television while I eat breakfast?”
I usually didn’t allow that, but I wanted to talk to Vanessa without Renni over hearing, so I nodded. “Just this once, okay?” I said.
“Thank you,” she said eagerly. “I won’t turn the volume up too loud.”
I smiled. “That’s my thoughtful girl,” I said, giving her a little wink. “Would you like some toast with your eggs?”
“No thank you,” she replied, gathering up her plate and headed for the television.
Vanessa sat down opposite me and pushed a steaming cup towards me. I reached for it and almost immediately, the scent of strong black coffee hit me.
“Bless you,” I sighedtaking a sip.
“Looks like you had a productive night,” she said with a knowing smile.
“I wouldn’t quite describe it that way.” I smirked, taking another sip of coffee.
“How would you describe it, then?” Vanessa asked.
I smiled. “It was…an interesting night.”
Vanessa glanced over at where Renni sat. She was engrossed in her cartoon and didn’t seem to be paying us the slightest bit of attention. “Come on,” Vanessa prompted. “Spill. I want to know everything.”
“I didn’t expect to run into him last night.”
“You’re sure he isn’t stalking you?”
I laughed – and then instantly regretted the action. “I’m sure,” I said. “His friend owns the bar we decided to visit. And, he’s a silent partner in it apparently.”
“Really?” she asked with interest.
“I ended up staying till the whole bar had cleared out at the end of the night,” I told her. “It was just the two of us.”
“No way. Please tell me you had sex right there in the middle of the bar?”
I smiled coyly.
“Damn girl! Check you out.”
I smiled.
“Did you do it on top of the bar?”
“Actually…it happened on top of the pool table,” I admitted.
Vanessa let out a scream, and I put my hands on my temples. “Whoa,” I said. “I’m nursing a hangover here, remember?”
“Right,” she said, lowering her voice. “Sorry. I was just…impressed.”
“Come on,” I said, rolling my eyes. “You’re acting like I’m some sort of prude
.”
“Not a prude,” Vanessa clarified. “You’re just cautious… I’m glad you stepped outside of your comfort zone.”
I sighed. “He drove me home,” I told her. “And…”
“And?”
“He spent the night,” I admitted.
Her eyes went wide. “Seriously?”
“You were sleeping,” I said, knowing her next question. “We managed to sneak past you…in and out.”
“Oh my gosh, do I really sleep that soundly?”
“Evidently.”
Vanessa shook her head. “So, he spent the night,” she said. “How did that feel?”
“It felt…surprisingly good,” I said. “At least, it did last night when I was lying next to him.”
“And, this morning?”
“Well, I woke up to him putting on his pants.”
“Ah,” Vanessa nodded. “Trying to make a run for it?”
“To be honest, I don’t know,” I said. “He might have been. But it wasn’t like I gave him enough time to wake me up or leave a note or something. He is a fire fighter and said he had an early shift.”
“Plausible excuse.”
I nodded. “I just…felt so many different things this morning.”
“Like what?”
“I wanted him out of here as fast as possible,” I admitted. “I didn’t want Renni to see him, and I was nervous of what it might mean. But at the same time…a part of me was sad to see him leave.”
Vanessa smiled. “This is a really good thing, Mia.”
“You think so?”
“Of course,” she nodded vigorously. “You’ve been alone for too long. It’s about time you found someone.”
“That’s just it,” I said. “What if I’m still not ready to find someone?”
“You don’t have to marry this guy,” she pointed out. “In fact, you don’t even have to see him again if you don’t want to. The point is that you’ve at least opened yourself up to the possibility of meeting new men. At least you know now that you could be open to a relationship in the future.”
“That’s true,” I said reluctantly. “It’s just daunting to think of starting the dating process all over again.”
“You’ve got to start somewhere, kid,” Vanessa said gently. “If not with this guy, then with someone else.”