I nodded.
“It goes beyond the physical,” he continued. “For a while there he had a habit of showing up like a downed fighter pilot behind enemy lines. I’ll never forget the night he arrived on horseback with a sword at his side and had me trace a missing compost heap for him.” He chuckled. “Now you come along with a story that makes me believe Pandora’s box has been opened again. Why couldn’t you just want a divorce like any sensible young man? Or a will written or a trust set up? A partnership agreement? Something like that? No, this sounds more like one of Carl’s problems. Even the other stuff I’ve done for Amber seems pretty sedate by comparison.”
“Other stuff? You mean the Concord—the time Random sent Fiona with a copy of the Patternfall Treaty with Swayvil, King of Chaos, for her to translate and you to look at for loopholes?”
“That, yes,” he said, “though I wound up studying your language myself before I was done. Then Flora wanted her library recovered—no easy job—and then an old flame traced—whether for reunion or revenge I never learned. Paid me in gold, though. Bought the place in Palm Beach with it. Then—Oh, hell. For a while there, I thought of adding `Counsel to the Court of Amber’ to my business card. But that sort of work was understandable. I do similar things on a mundane level all the time. Yours, though, has that black magic and sudden-death quality to it that seemed to follow your father about. It scares the hell out of me, and I wouldn’t even know how to go about advising you on it.”
“Well, the black magic and sudden-death parts are my area, I guess,” I observed. “In fact, they may color my thinking too much. You’re bound to look at things a lot differently than I do. A blind spot by definition is something you’re not aware of. What might I be missing?”
He took a sip of his beer, lit his pipe again.
“Okay,” he said. “Your friend Luke—where’s he from?”
“Somewhere in the Midwest, I believe he said: Nebraska, Iowa, Ohio—one of those places.”
“Mm-hm. What line of work is his old man in?”
“He never mentioned it.”
“Does he have any brothers or sisters?”
“I don’t know. He never said.”
“Doesn’t that strike you as somewhat odd—that he never mentioned his family or talked about his home town in the whole eight years you’ve known him?”
“No. After all, I never talked about mine either.”
“It’s not natural, Merle. You grew up in a strange place that you couldn’t talk about. You had every reason to change the subject, avoid the issues. He obviously did, too. And then, back when you came you weren’t even certain how most people here behaved. But didn’t you ever wonder about Luke?”
“Of course. But he respected my reticence. I could do no less for him. You might say that we had a sort of tacit agreement that such things were off limits.”
“How’d you meet him?”
“We were freshmen together, had a lot of the same classes.”
“And you were both strangers in town, no other friends. You hit it off from the beginning . . .”
“No. We barely talked to each other. I thought he was an arrogant bastard who felt he was ten times better than anybody he’d ever met. I didn’t like him, and he didn’t like me much either.”
“Why not?”
“He felt the same way about me.”
“So it was only gradually that you came to realize you were both wrong?”
“No. We were both right. We got to know each other by trying to show each other up. If I’d do something kind of outstanding—he’d try to top it. And vice versa. We got so we’d go out for the same sport, try to date the same girls, try to beat each other’s grades.”
“And . . . ?”
“Somewhere along the line I guess we started to respect each other. When we both made the Olympic finals something broke. We started slapping each other on the back and laughing, and we went out and had dinner and sat up all night talking and he said he didn’t give a shit about the Olympics and I said I didn’t either. He said he’d just wanted to show me he was a better man and now he didn’t care anymore. He’d decided we were both good enough, and he’d just as soon let the matter stand at that — I felt exactly the same way and told him so. That was when we got to be friends.”
“I can understand that,” Bill said. “It’s a specialized sort of friendship. You’re friends in certain places.”
I laughed and took a drink.
“Isn’t everyone?”
“At first, yes. Sometimes always. Nothing wrong with that. It’s just that yours seems a much more highly specialized friendship than most.”
I nodded slowly. “Maybe so.”
“So it still doesn’t make sense. Two guys as close as you got to be—with no pasts to show to each other.”
“I guess you’re right. What does it mean?”
“You’re not a normal human being.”
“No, I’ m not.”
“I’m not so sure Luke is either.”
“What, then?”
“That’s your department.”
I nodded.
“Apart from that issue,” Bill continued, “something else has been bothering me.”
“What?”
“This Martinez fellow. He followed you out to the boondocks, stopped when you did, stalked you, then opened fire. Who was he after? Both of you? Just Luke? Or just you?”
“I don’t know. I’m not sure which of us that first shot was aimed for. After that, he was firing at Luke—because by then Luke was attacking and he was defending himself.”
“Exactly. If he were S—or S’s agent—why would he even have bothered with that conversation with you in the bar?”
“I now have the impression that the whole thing was an elaborate buildup to that final question of his, as to whether Luke knew anything about Amber.”
“And your reaction, rather than your answer, led him to believe that he did.”
“Well, apparently Luke does—from the way he addressed me right there at the end. You think he was really gunning for someone from Amber?”
“Maybe. Luke is no Amberite, though?”
“I never heard of anyone like him in the time I spent there after the war. And I got plenty of lectures on genealogy. My relatives are like a sewing circle when it comes to keeping track of such matters—a lot less orderly about it than they are in Chaos—can’t even decide exactly who’s oldest, because some of them were born in different time streams—but they’re pretty thorough”
“Chaos! That’s right! You’re also lousy with relatives on that side! Could—?”
I shook my head. “No way. I have an even more extensive knowledge of the families there. I believe I’m acquainted with just about all of the ones who can manipulate Shadow, traverse it. Luke’s not one of them and—”
“Wait a minute! There are people in the Courts who can walk in Shadow, also?”
“Yes. Or stay in one place and bring things from Shadow to them. It’s a kind of reverse—”
“I thought you had to walk the Pattern to gain that power?”
“They have a sort of equivalent called the Logrus. It’s a kind of chaotic maze. Keeps shifting about. Very dangerous. Unbalances you mentally, too, for a time. No fun.”
“So you’ve done it?”
“Yes.”
“And you walked the Pattern as well?”
I licked my lips, remembering.
“Yes. Damn near killed me. Suhuy’d thought it would, but Fiona thought I could make it if she helped. I was—”
“Who’s Suhuy?”
“He’s Master of the Logrus. He’s an uncle of mine, too. He felt that the Pattern of Amber and the Logrus of Chaos were incompatible, that I could not bear the images of both within me. Random, Fiona, and Gerard had taken me down to show me the Pattern. I got in touch with Suhuy then and gave him a look at it. He said that they seemed antithetical, and that I would either be destroyed by the attempt or the Pattern wou
ld drive the image of the Logrus from me, probably the former. But Fiona said that the Pattern should be able to encompass anything, even the Logrus, and from what she understood of the Logrus it should be able to work its way around anything, even the Pattern. So they left it up to me, and I knew that I had to walk it. So I did. I made it, and I still bear the Logrus as well as the Pattern. Suhuy acknowledged that Fi had been right, and he speculated that it had to do with my mixed parentage. She disagreed, though—”
Bill raised his hand. “Wait a minute. I don’t understand how you got your uncle Suhuy down into the basement of Amber Castle on a moment’s notice.”
“Oh, I have a set of Chaos Trumps as well as a set of Amber Trumps, for my relatives back in the Courts.”
He shook his head. “All of this is fascinating, but we’re straying from the point. Is there anyone else who can walk in Shadow? Or are there other ways of doing it?”
“Yes, there are different ways it could be done. There are a number of magical beings, like the Unicorn, who can just wander wherever they want. And you can follow a Shadow walker or a magical being through Shadow for so long as you can keep track of it, no matter who you are. Kind of like Thomas Rhymer is the ballad. And one Shadow walker could lead an army through. And then there are the inhabitants of the various Shadow kingdoms nearest to Amber and to Chaos. Those at both ends breed mighty sorcerers, just because of their proximity to the two power centers. Some of the good ones can become fairly adept at it—but their images of the Pattern or the Logrus are imperfect, so they’re never quite as good as the real thing. But on either end they don’t even need an initiation to wander on in. The Shadow interfaces are thinnest there. We even have commerce with them, actually. And established routes become easier and easier to follow with time. Going outward is harder, though. But large attacking forces have been known to come through. That’s why we maintain patrols. Julian in Arden, Gerard at sea, and so forth.”
“Any other ways?”
“A Shadow-storm perhaps.”
“What’s that?”
“It’s a natural but not too well-understood phenomenon. The best comparison I can think of is a tropical storm. One theory as to their origin has to do with the beat frequencies of waves that pulse outward from Amber and from the Courts, shaping the nature of shadows. Whatever, when such a storm rises it can flow through a large number of shadows before it plays itself out. Sometimes they do a lot of damage, sometimes very little. But they often transport things in their progress.”
“Does that include people?”
“It’s been known to happen.”
He finished his beer. I did the same with mine.
“What about the Trumps?” he asked. “Could anybody learn to use them?”
“Yes.”
“How many sets are there kicking around?”
“I don’t know.”
“Who makes them?”
“There are a number of experts in the Courts. That’s where I learned. And there are Fiona and Bleys back in Amber—and I believe they were teaching Random”
“Those sorcerers you spoke of from the adjacent kingdoms . . . Could any of them do up a set of Trumps?”
“Yes, but theirs would be less than perfect. It is my understanding that you have to be an initiate of either the Pattern or the Logrus to do them properly. Some of them could do a sort of half-assed set, though, one you’d be taking your chances on using—maybe winding up dead or in some limbo, sometimes getting where you were headed.”
“And the set you found at Julia’s place . . . ?”
“They’re the real thing.”
“How do you account for them?”
“Someone who knew how to do it taught someone else who was able to learn it, and I never heard about it. That’s all.”
“I see.”
“I’m afraid none of this is too productive.”
“But I need it all to think with,” he replied. “How else can I come up with lines of inquiry? You ready for another beer?”
“Wait.” I closed my eyes and visualized an image of the Logrus shifting, ever shifting. I framed my desire and two of the swimming lines within the eidolon increased in brightness and thickness. I moved my arms, slowly, imitating their undulations, their jerkings. Finally, the lines and my arms seemed to be one, and I opened my hands and extended the lines outward, outward through Shadow.
Bill cleared his throat.
“Uh—what are you doing, Merle?”
“Looking for something,” I replied. “Just a minute.” The lines would keep extending through an infinitude of Shadow till they encountered the objects of my desire—or until I ran out of patience or concentration. Finally, I felt the jerks, like bites on a pair of fishing lines. “There they are,” I said, and I reeled them in quickly. An icy bottle of beer appeared in each of my hands. I grasped them as they did and passed one to Bill.
“That’s what I meant by the reverse of a Shadow walk,” I said, breathing deeply a few times. “I sent out to Shadow for a couple of beers. Saved you a trip to the kitchen.”
He regarded the orange label with the peculiar green script on it.
“I don’t recognize the brand,” he said, “let alone the language. You sure it’s safe?”
“Yes, I ordered real beer.”
“Uh—you didn’t happen to pick up an opener, too; did you?”
“Oops!” I said. “Sorry. I’ll—”
“That’s all right.”
He got up, walked out to the kitchen, and came back a little later with an opener. When he opened the first one it foamed a bit and he had to hold it over the wastebasket till it settled. The same with the other.
“Things can get a bit agitated when you pull them in fast the way I did,” I explained. “I don’t usually get my beer that way and I forgot—”
“That’s okay,” Bill said, wiping his hands on his handkerchief . . .
He tasted his beer then.
“At least it’s good beer;” he observed. “I wonder . . . Naw.”
“What?”
“Could you send out for a pizza?”
“What do you want on it?” I asked.
The next morning we took a long walk beside a wandering creek, which we met at the back of some farmland owned by a neighbor and client of his. We strolled slowly, Bill with a stick in his hand and a pipe in his mouth, and he continued the previous evening’s questioning.
“Something you said didn’t really register properly at the time,” he stated, "because I was more interested in other aspects of the situation. You say that you and Luke actually made it up to the finals for the Olympics and then dropped out?”
“Yes.”
“What area?”
“Several different track and field events. We were both runners and—”
“And his time was close to yours?”
“Damn close. And sometimes it was mine that was close to his.”
“Strange.”
“What?”
The bank grew steeper, and we crossed on some stepping stones to the other side where the way was several feet wider and relatively flat, with a well-trod path along it.
“It strikes me as more than a little coincidental,” he said, “that this guy should be about as good as you are in sports. From all I’ve heard, you Amberites are several times stronger than a normal human being, with a fancy metabolism giving you unusual stamina and recuperative and regenerative powers. How come Luke should be able to match you in high-level performances?”
“He’s a fine athlete and he keeps himself in good shape,” I answered.
“There are other people like that here—very strong and fast.”
He shook his head as we started out along the path. “I’m not arguing that,” he said. “It’s just that it seems like one coincidence too many. This guy hides his past the same way you do, and then it turns out that he really knows who you are anyhow. Tell me, is he really a big art buff?”
“Huh?”
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sp; “Art. He really cared enough about art to collect it?”
“Yes. We used to hit gallery openings and museum exhibits fairly regularly.”
He snorted, and swung his stick at a pebble, which splashed into the stream.
“Well,” he observed, “that weakens one point, but hardly destroys the pattern.”
“I don’t follow . . .”
“It seemed odd that he also knew that crazy occultist painter. Less odd, though, when you say that the guy was good and that Luke really did collect art.”
“He didn’t have to tell me that he knew Melman.”
“True. But all of this plus his physical abilities . . . I’m just building a circumstantial case, or course, but I feel that guy is very unusual.”
I nodded.
“I’ve been over it in my mind quite a few times since last night,” I said. "If he’s not really from here, I don’t know where the hell he’s from.”
“Then we may have exhausted this line of inquiry,” Bill said, leading me around a bend and pausing to watch some birds take flight from a marshy area across the water. He glanced back in the direction from which we had come, then, "Tell me—completely off the subject—what’s your, uh, rank?” he asked.
“What do you mean?”
“You’re the son of a Prince of Amber. What does that make you?”
“You mean titles? I’m Duke of the Western Marches and Earl of Kolvir.”
“What does that mean?”
“It means I’m not a Prince of Amber. Nobody has to worry about me scheming, no vendettas involving the succession” `
“Hm.”
“What do you mean, `Hm’?”
He shrugged. “I’ve read too much history. Nobody’s safe.”
I shrugged myself. “Last I heard, everything was peaceful on the home front.”
“Well, that’s good news, anyway.”
A few more turnings brought us to a wide area of pebbles and sand, rising gently for perhaps thirty feet to the place where it met an abrupt embankment seven or eight feet in height. I could see the high water line and a number of exposed roots from trees that grew along the top. Bill seated himself on a boulder back in their shade and relit his pipe. I rested on one nearby, to his left. The water splashed and rippled in a comfortable key, and we watched it sparkle for a time.
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