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by Jeremy Reed


  I come from the sea, a little chip of granite off the Normandy French coast called Jersey CI, a 12x8 miles inter-UK offshore banking island, and I grew up watching rainbows, big hazy arcs that looked like makeup dusting grey piled-up slabs of cloud architecture. I used to sit on the beach and look out at the horizon like a plasma screen and watch ships go by and get so sad that I wrote poems like open letters to the universe. One reason to write is that you fill in time and space with words, and of course you retrieve everything that would otherwise go unnoticed. Do things know they’re being incorporated into the creative process, or are they dumb? I take sightings everywhere, and today, while I sat in a Pret A Manger on St Martin’s Lane, a cyber-blonde Chinese girl came in carrying a Camper shoes carrier, and the logo facing me read in a vertical column

  Cyan

  Yellow

  Brown

  Camper

  Grey

  Orange

  Silver

  Inspiring me immediately to write a poem called ‘Camper Carriers’, because nobody else has done or probably ever will do.

  My materials: Violet Pentel Sign Pen made in Japan

  A4 Side Wirokraft Notebook 5055133 made in Poland

  Silvine Student’s Notebook Red Code 141 made in UK

  Street Reading

  Four clowns appear like council mafia,

  top hats, red noses, black braces,

  they’re like hoodoo on Marshall Street

  at 3 p.m., backs to the wall

  opposite William Blake House—

  a grey concrete circularly lathed affair

  that could be art, and faces the high-rise

  15 floors of reflective steel and glass

  projected above Blake’s site

  on Broadwick/Marshall. I perform on the steps

  of this street auditorium,

  three orange roses bunched in a jam jar,

  Liza’s voice as accompaniment

  to bluesy figures worked off Niall’s guitar.

  We’re three pushing lyric into the face

  of the assembled, casual foot-traffic

  stopped off from curiosity

  to catch a phrase and stay with it or go.

  We work hard to maintain the crowd

  in edgy Soho, Sunday afternoon,

  most traffic dead, the precinct in rehab,

  a spillover from the John Snow

  picking up with us, rowdy in their beer,

  and those four mafia staring us down

  like survivors of a shoot-out

  turning their menace on this place in town.

  Elephants

  It rains so hard I think of elephants

  frisking the steamy London streets

  26,000 lbs of muscled hulk

  streaming in rain like the black ballistic steel

  of an armoured SWAT truck,

  two zoo escapees turned psycho—

  a Congo genome cooking in their blood.

  Bioterrorists work the ecosphere,

  ozone holes and the carbon foot

  smudged like a black rainbow over the earth.

  My lilies explode after thunder rain

  into shock-waves of reactive perfume

  effusive oriental stargazers

  erupting like black smoker volcanoes

  into an atomised scent plume,

  a smudgy vaporous mirage.

  The times I live through I swab like Bloodoff,

  a blue thixotropic gel

  cluing up intelligent bacteria.

  The rain’s sometimes like an aquarium

  through which I sight orange crocosmia

  like oscillating fish, and higher up

  a helicopter gunning through the slab

  chasing emergency.

  I keep imagining black elephants

  shucking torrential downpour off their backs

  in cataclysmic climate reversal

  and thundering like trucks to the attack.

  I keep with what I do, take off my shirt

  and wade into the shower for shock impact,

  the garden hissing and the rain so fast

  it feels like liquid bullets on my skin.

  Yauatcha

  A blue light box, deep sea ultramarine,

  an Yves Klein shot with toothpaste blue

  (Colgate Oxygen) faces out

  on Broadwick Street, a rainy Sunday fuzz

  pixellating beadily, a damp glow

  grainy Soho 4 p.m. 30/11 chill

  we take inside from the windows

  of Cowling & Wilcox opposite

  (I make adjustments for altered physicals

  in my sci-fi Soho novel The Grid)

  and find immersion in 150 teas

  and choose a Pau Dragon Orchid, the scent

  written into the name, a gold sauna

  poured in a cup, a steamy trick

  turned on the palette. It’s your green tea cake—

  three leaf-green suitcases pitted in mousse

  like baggage angled on a carousel—

  arrests my eye, an arty thing

  designed to tease the bite: the Cantonese

  next to us fork venison puffs

  and lobster dumplings, slow, incisively

  like surgery, a serious graft

  of separating textures, while I stare

  out at a 10 ft strip of afternoon

  leaked in with shop lights, frontage, drizzled smear,

  a Broadwick Street grey, different

  from any other Soho grey,

  and feel the transient suspense, the last

  shot-down blues bled out of the winter day.

  R.E.M.

  A retrofuturistic bleached cocktail

  of Beach Boys surfy harmonies

  and back porch evening

  under fadeout orange sun

  anomie—think dusty poppies

  rashed by airport perimeters,

  contrails cooling in blue sky,

  a jar of Flax Seed Oil capsules

  vigilant by the singer’s bed—

  a.k.a. Mr Moki.

  The songs are urban nomadic,

  their cryptograms Michael Stipe’s

  zoomy in-and-out-of-focus

  lyrics—his off-duty tone

  signatured with global long haul,

  alien as reading Baudrillard

  jetting into Osaka.

  The sugarcane, it’s lemonade,

  the sunburst motifs yellow pop

  done with busy unreconstructed riffs .

  It’s out there Genesis mission

  sampling solar wind, trapping

  neon, argon, iron,

  retrieving a little bit of the sun,

  10 or 20 micrograms

  for NASA.

  Reveal’s neither close nor far

  in contact, it points to a dialect

  of urban-wastelanded desert,

  hotels, sterilely accessorised jets,

  a lyric stringy in simplicity

  and touched by the full on sun,

  a flower as subtext, like a moment won

  in real time and reworked again

  clean as a red peppery nasturtium.

  Yellow Chrysanthemums

  Caroline’s gift of clenched yellow pompoms

  like guardsmen in dyed busbies

  tightly compacted extravagant

  moptops that look introverted

  stemmed in a vase with a snake twisting round

  in a U-turn bite at its tail.

  They smell like memories locked in a car,

  printer’s glue and green tomatoes,

  and come October to my flat

  perfectly placed as Marilyn Monroe’s mole

  for city-time quiet, an urban bunker

  rained on by blood-orange red London leaves.

  These are the Asian ogiku,

  irregularly fringed 20cm lemon suns,

  each with a planet’s industry

  sustaining cells. When I buy lotus
buns

  I make sweet chrysanthemum tea

  for taste-bud kicks, a tea-head chase

  at leafy biodiversity.

  Gastros do petals mixed with snake meat soup

  in Beijing towers. I’ll have these a week

  and sit with them nights reflectively,

  sighting associations in their glow,

  no dialogue, as I slice and dice time,

  the twinkly showery flash outside

  pinging like rice grains, as the night comes on

  like a black slab of local universe.

  Rock ’n’ Roll Suicides

  A 12-gauge shotgun and red dahlias,

  an explosively paranoid Joe Meek

  waits for the moment like take-off—

  a Boeing’s nose cone climbing out:

  bang, bang, he blows his landlady

  into free fall and follows her

  crashing backwards down the stairs

  in a vermilion double star.

  307 Holloway Road: his flat

  a sounds-lab—pop and Ouija and blue pills.

  They follow after him all the way down,

  the escalating suicides

  or death-inducers, Presley, Hendrix, Brian Jones,

  John Bonham, Keith Moon, Ronnie Lane,

  Sid Vicious, Kurt Cobain,

  excess bingers hallucinating in the drop

  into the roaring underground

  like hearing tubes brake at Kings Cross

  before their terminal shut down.

  Joe’s shot precipitated avalanche,

  the bodies slamming through down the decades,

  their lives obituarist memorabilia,

  left with an aura-halo like the glow

  of house lights sunk on Bishop’s Avenue,

  the Saudi billionaire owner

  weekending in Zurich, his lit mansion

  there like a liner in the Hampstead dark.

  What I’m Giving

  I live in permanently accelerated time: it’s the light-speed of my imagery, 186,000 miles per second, put through neuronal transmission that keeps me ahead of most British poets, and so futures-forward thinking that I’ve singularly invented a subject matter for the sort of poetry I do: cyber, sci-fi, glamour, makeup, pop, neuroscience, cryogenics, the NASA space programme, the look, fetish sequins, cakes, Elvis, cars, bad boys as gay, rock and gangster types, and most aspects of the underworld as it’s lived by those who don’t conform.

  I’ve been called by The Independent, ‘British poetry’s glam, spangly, shape-shifting answer to David Bowie’, in that my very particular look is integrated into my poetry, and also because my performances with the musician Itchy Ear, as the Ginger Light, pursue a visual dynamic, part poetry, part cabaret, informed by electronic beats, but always performed, that has us largely unparalleled in the intensely projectile genre we’ve created.

  I’m unagented, write for no advances, have little or nothing to do with the literary world of social networking, and live totally focused into imaginative creativity, the poetry, fiction and non-fiction books I write, all coming from the same fired-up inner resources, and texturally detailed by what I call colour moments, or the optimal hoopla of sighting the potential in someone or something to be transformed into its imaginative equivalent. This involves living totally in the present, as though you’re holding a handgun to rob the moment of its visual contents.

  I write everywhere, at home sitting on black painted wooden floorboards, on buses, in bookstores where I help out sometimes, in Soho cafes, London parks, in yards, in bed, on the street, but never at a desk or table. I have an antipathy to anything formally associated with writing: you can start a poem on the back of your hand, as I sometimes do, if need be, like a blotchy Pentel sign pen tattoo.

  I met Gerry McNee, a.k.a. Itchy Ear, when I was working at the counterculture bookshop Red Snapper, 22 Cecil Court, one typically grey-compressed West End afternoon—I was writing at the red glass counter—and the fortuitous accident of shared musical interests led weeks later to our making our first recordings in Gerry’s stripped-down minimalistic bedroom at Bruce House off Drury Lane; and from there to our first Sunday night performance downstairs, under lipstick-red and teal-blue lights at First Out café on St Giles High Street, where we still perform several times a year.

  I’m a multitasker. I work on three or four books and related projects in a single day—poetry, fiction and non-fiction and whatever else gets into the mix. Maximum energy for me comes from veganism: the chemical messengers in your body travel faster unobstructed by fats, and there’s generally more spatialised air miles in your blood if you’re thin. Speed to me means jumping out of today into tomorrow through the window the poem presents. I’m writing this under a moody no-colour sky looking out of First Out café at Centre Point Food Stores opposite, using its reflective frontage virtually as a surface off which to bounce the poem’s signals.

  Most good creativity is an attempt to reach escape velocity, organised by the 100 billion neurons and their complex interactions in the brain’s micro-circuitry. You want to reach somewhere you’ve never been before, and discover in the process things that were within you and never out. When the expression becomes physicalised you encounter the alien, the poem you’ve created that can’t now go back in and is there for others to read.

  Poetry’s my oxygen and has been ever since I started connecting bits of imagery like Lego when I was six or seven. I’m not only an image consultant, but an image thief. I live from stealing detail from everything I see. The theft’s legal because it’s virtual, and when I do it on people it involves the entire look, everything from your scent to nail transfers and eye colours. I’ll mentally scan and recreate it all in poetry and prose, sometimes right in front of your eyes, and, if you’re curious, give you what I’ve written about you on a bus, tearing the relevant page out of my notebook.

  What I’ve always tried to do, and increasingly so, is to make poetry out of subject matter not usually thought suitable to mainstream literature. The excitement for me is in engaging full on with the present, like a pop single, taking experience to the next level, because the contents of what I choose to write about can’t be rephrased or placed in a different time, but belong singularly to now. The process continually feeds my brain’s reward system with a hyperactive dopamine rush.

  Non-Mainstream

  A de-anthologised throw out,

  an aircraft grounded from long haul,

  an engine casing gone, a lead

  defective, and my signature

  invasively warping radar.

  Most of my life identified

  with cutting-edge weird, the outside

  frees me from tagging protocol.

  It’s lonely out there, but the needs

  I feed are individual.

  It’s kicks I want to share with friends,

  the poem tracking parallel

  to normal. I’m in the fast lane

  the hyperactive line searching

  an overtaking red Ferrari.

  No feedback, but the groove maintained

  and picked up by the underground.

  I find my own; they’re mostly gay

  or fine-tuned to an imagery

  kicking in like a chemical.

  London’s mapped in my arteries

  and forms the solar plexus grid

  to what I write; my afternoons

  hardwired into West End cafes

  writing to pop accompaniment.

  My role models are leftfield dudes,

  lyrics like Frank O’Hara’s cute

  eulogy to a pink sweater,

  Prynne’s civic zanies, off the wall

  Anne Sexton ketchup slashed confessionals.

  No place for me, I learn to keep

  familiar with my territory

  and make of exclusion a right

  of virtuoso dare, the way

  I sold sex at Piccadilly.

  Writing’s a means of killing time<
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  imaginatively. I persist

  in celebrating what’s around

  as odd, angularly singular

  and mostly for the first time found.

  Frank

  Stripy confection on his feet

  like a pink and black bumble bee,

  his socks like sweets on that September day,

  lysergic humbugs, shocking pink

  footwells to blue snakeskin loafers,

  that incongruously flash.

  I’d crossed the square with writing in my head—

  images paused in disconnect

  and saw him there, left profile, hair shorter,

  reconstructed look, skinny jeans

  grey Dior jacket? (I was right

  at distance), a thin white pinstripe

 

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