Love Me If You Must apam-1

by Nicole Young

  “Tish.” It was Officer Brad.

  What was he doing? Stalking me? He knew this was my night with David. How tacky could a guy get, tracking me down after my date with another man?

  I stopped on the sidewalk, hands on hips, and glared at him.

  Maybe he couldn’t see my expression in the pale streetlight, or maybe he chose to ignore it.

  “How was your night?” His voice carried on the wind.

  A blast of snow blew down the collar of my jacket. How rude could Brad get, asking how my date went? I tapped my foot, unwilling to answer.

  “Come on. I’m just curious. Did everything go okay?”

  Brad probably hoped to hear that I’d had a crummy night. Then he could forever hold over me that I’d turned down a hunky cop for a computer geek.

  “I had a wonderful time.” I stepped closer to his car. “In fact, I hated to leave. David has such a beautiful place.”

  Brad didn’t have to know that I’d never made it past the dining room.

  “Yeah, but does he have a personality?” He looked away, then back to me. “Sorry. That was uncalled for.”

  “Apology accepted.” I leaned against the car, my head practically in the window. “He’s got more than personality. He’s compassionate and loving and caring . . .” I thought of the blaze brought on by a kiss on the hand.

  “Caring enough to walk you home, I see.”

  I gritted my teeth. “You are way out of line. I wouldn’t have let him walk me home even if he’d offered. Which he did, by the way.” I threw in the white lie for good measure.

  I stepped away from the car and raised my voice proportionately. “Anyway, I don’t need anyone walking me home. And I don’t need you keeping an eye on me, or snooping, or whatever it is you’re doing here. Good night.”

  I pivoted. Snow piled into my pant leg. I walked up my frozen sidewalk to the front door.

  I closed it behind me and stood in the tiny entry, fuming. I kicked off my wet shoes. One hit the wall, marking up the fresh paint. Great. More work later. The stress of the evening threatened to engulf me.

  Things had been going great until Brad pulled up. Why couldn’t he mind his own business? Jack Fitch was doing a good enough job spying on me. I didn’t need Brad Walters trying to scoop me out from under David, just as he had done with Rebecca.

  I shivered in my damp socks. There was nothing worse than a big, old drafty Victorian. The house had seemed like a good idea last summer when it was ninety degrees outside. Boy, was I sorry now. I’d been keeping the thermostat at a balmy sixty-five degrees. But tonight it felt all of fifty-five. I wanted to jump in another shower just to get the chill out.

  I walked through the parlor toward the kitchen. Every step sent a shiver up my spine, and it wasn’t coming from my bad leg. By the time I got to the dining room, I realized the draft was more than just wind whipping through old windows and siding.

  I looked at the thermostat on the dining room wall.

  Fifty-seven degrees.

  Brrr.

  I tapped it, hoping the little pointer was just stuck.

  Nope.

  Something must be wrong with the furnace.

  Nice timing. The weatherman called for a three-day November squall, and I didn’t have heat. I pictured the mess I’d have on my hands if the pipes in my gravity system froze up.

  I twisted the controls and hoped to hear the sound of the furnace cycling on.

  Nothing.

  The problem could be basic, like giving the thing a good, swift kick. Or, it could be more of a nightmare, like needing a new boiler.

  Either way, I’d have to go down and take a look at it, just in case I had only to hit the reset button or flip a switch.

  I didn’t relish the idea of tackling the basement steps with my bum leg. Sure, I’d been hobbling around just fine all day, but now I was tired.

  I yawned. Too late for all that tonight.

  I would simply put on a few extra layers and curl up in my sleeping bag tonight. Tomorrow, there would be plenty of sunshine down in the basement so I could see what I was doing. And my leg would be rested up to handle the task. If I couldn’t figure out the problem in the morning, at least it would be business hours so I could call somebody.

  I slipped into my shorts-and-T-shirt pajamas and pulled sweats and a sweatshirt over top. I put on fat wool socks, as well, just in case the temperature dipped dramatically during the night. I climbed into my down-filled sleeping bag, snuggled into my pillow, and tried to drift off.

  What must have been only a few hours later, I jerked awake. The blast of a train sounded in the distance. The rumble must have woken me.

  I looked around the room, bathed in light from the street lamps.

  I could see my breath. The temperature in the house had dropped into the danger zone. I tucked my nose into the nylon covers, in hopes of avoiding the icy air.

  Then I remembered my dream.

  Grandma, again. She lay in bed, dying. In her hand was a red foil envelope. She turned it over and over.

  “Let it lie, Tish, let it lie,” she whispered.

  I remember a feeling of helpless rage washing over me in my dream as Grandma stopped breathing. Then she was sinking into the cistern. Her features turned to stone as she plunged into the concrete. I was kneeling next to her, clawing at the cement, trying to bring her back. But all I did was break off my artificial nails, one by one, until they looked like pale pink rose petals sprinkled on a grave.

  Safe on my cot, I almost laughed out loud at the image. That just went to show how foolish dreams could be. There was nothing pale about my fake nails. They were as neon as a color could get.

  I fanned out my fingers, just to confirm that my nail color was really as obnoxious as I’d remembered. The Flamingo Pink almost glowed in the dark.

  One of my fake nails was missing. I wondered if I’d lost it at the restaurant, David’s place, my house, or somewhere in between.

  I curled my hands into balls and tucked them back under the covers. A girl could get frostbite if she wasn’t careful.

  By now, I had launched into an uncontrollable shiver that started at my toes and worked its way up to the muscles in my neck. I lay shaking for a few minutes before admitting defeat. There was no way I would get back to sleep in this freezer. As much as I wanted to avoid it, I had to go check the furnace, if only to give it a good kick. I threw back the covers and put my stocking feet on the carpet.

  I put on my ski parka and shoes, then flicked on every light along the way to the kitchen to face the cellar door.

  I stopped on the linoleum in the alcove between the kitchen and the bathroom. I stared at the oak-paneled door in front of me, suddenly hot under my layers of clothes.

  I slid back the bolt.

  I reached for the doorknob and gripped it. The freezing metal burned against my skin. I half hoped I would be stuck there, my sweaty hand frozen to the knob like a tongue stuck to the monkey bars, rather than having to go downstairs.

  I listened.

  Just the steady hum of the refrigerator and howl of the wind outside.

  I turned the knob.

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  The door creaked open into the stairwell, then thumped and stopped against the wall.

  I looked down. The steps dissolved into blackness.

  The stove clock clicked and rotated. 4:00 a.m.

  Night was mostly over.

  Another five hours and it would be bright as day down there.

  I turned toward the kitchen sink. I could almost see pipes bulging, ready to burst from the ice inside them.

  Another five hours might be too late.

  I turned on the basement light.

  I took a deep breath to steady myself, then stepped down.

  My foot took forever to touch the wooden riser. I stepped again. An eternity passed.

  I listened as the stove clock made another rotation.

  No other sounds.

  I swallowed, gathering up the minusc
ule crumbs of courage scattered through my veins.

  Then I bounded down the steps. My bad leg hit the cement first, sending an extra oomph of pain shooting through my body from the memory of the last time I’d been down here. I squinted in the direction of the cistern.

  The semicircle of rocks looked pretty much the same as the last time I’d gotten a peek at it.

  Except tonight, the collage of colored stone seemed somewhat attractive. The light from the bare bulb hit one of the pinkish-toned rocks and brought out a shimmer like diamonds, and for a moment I could almost see the stone wall integrated into a classy entertainment center of some sort, complete with a mounted plasma TV.

  Hmm. Plan C.

  With Plan C in action, I could have my rec room and not mess with demolishing the cistern or walling it in.

  Not that I was worried there was a body behind those lovely stones, of course. Simply because Plan C made my life easier than if I decided to take on Martin Dietz and his board of Nazis. I could turn the original historic detail of the home into a major selling point.

  There. Dietz wasn’t such a bad guy after all.

  I bent to look at the furnace, no longer afraid to be alone in the basement on a cold, dark night. A couple wires, some dials, a few knobs. It all looked Greek to me. I tapped and twisted, hoping for a fiery resurrection.

  I knelt down and looked in the tiny glass window close to the floor.

  Yep. The pilot was still lit.

  I held my fingers close to the flickering flame, soaking up its precious warmth as I considered my next course of action.

  If I had any friends, I could call one of them and finish the night out at their place.

  I thought of the not-so-long list of people I’d met in Rawlings. The first name that came to mind was the too-hot-to-keep-my-hands-off computer geek, David. Calling David for help in the middle of the night was absolutely out of the question.

  Then there was the everything-by-the-book Officer Brad.

  I shook my head at the appalling thought. I’d have to be mostly dead before I accepted help from a man in blue.

  Dorothy Fitch across the street presented a decent possibility. But then I’d be under the same roof as Jack the Ripper. No, thank you.

  Tammy at the Beauty Boutique came to mind. I’d figured out she wasn’t hounding after David. That made Tammy, with her welcoming smile, the most logical choice of those to call. Sure, it was four in the morning. But she was a gracious, giving person. She wouldn’t mind a middle-of-the-night jingle from a desperate customer.

  I sighed, feeling all alone in the empty basement. I couldn’t call Tammy. She’d just lost Coffee Girl, which meant she was probably emotionally exhausted and didn’t need the extra stress right now.

  There had to be someone else.

  I thought of Verna, my old cellmate. She’d be there for me. Too bad she was still serving time.

  I stared into the tiny flame, remembering my first day with her.

  “So how’d you land yourself behind bars?” My new roomy was a large woman, with arms as big around as my thighs. She sat in the corner, slouched down, legs sprawling.

  “Um,” I said, “I’m kind of here by accident.”

  “Me too. I accidentally got caught.” She gave a throaty guffaw. “At least that lying, scheming, no-good man of mine is dead. That wasn’t no accident.” She laughed again.

  “You killed your husband?” My voice had a mousy squeak to it.

  “If you’d have been me, you’d have done it too. Don’t kid yourself. If you’re here, you have it in you.”

  I shook my head, horrified at the thought of this woman shooting or knifing or beating a man to death, and accusing me of being able to do the same. “No. It’s not in me.”

  Her features looked small in her rotund face. She leaned forward, squinting. “Deny it and it’ll poison your mind like a viper. You’ll end up in the loony wing.” She rocked her head back and forth and made a funny face. Her tongue slithered out like a snake’s.

  I stood at the cell gate and stared at the chunky cross-eyed convict. First I smiled. Then I laughed.

  “We’ll get along just fine,” she said. “You just tell me what you need. Verna will take care of you.”

  The pilot light on the furnace came back into focus. My hands were toasty, but my knees had frozen from crouching on the cold basement floor. I worked them back and forth, then attempted to stand up. I grabbed the edge of the furnace and made it to my feet.

  I dusted off my jeans and considered the problem at hand. It looked like the only way I would get any more z’s tonight would be in a hotel.

  I gave the furnace a final, frustrated kick. Unfortunately, I used my bad leg to do it. I crouched in pain and tried to catch my breath.

  A tear coursed down my cheek. I would not let this furnace thing get the best of me.

  I lifted my head with new resolve.

  Across the basement, the shimmery pink stone caught my eye. It looked so pretty from where I stood. Curiosity compelled me to take a closer look.

  I glanced around and checked out the far reaches of the cellar. No boogeymen in sight. I worked my way toward the basement wall on my left, then kept the hard rocks to my back as I sidestepped closer and closer to the cistern.

  I could feel something electric in the air. I heard a buzzing in my ears. But there was no turning back as I drew nearer and nearer to the glimmering stone.

  Ten feet to go.

  My breath quickened as I stared at the rock in front of me.

  Five feet.

  I stopped and leaned forward, peering at the shiny surface. A salty odor stood out from the usual musty scent.

  I squinted. This close up, the stone looked wet.

  I dared myself to touch it, to prove to myself that what I perceived as fresh blood was really just the stone’s natural gleam. Hadn’t my eyes tricked me when I looked inside the cistern the first time? There had been no body, just lumpy cement.

  And now, on the shiny pink surface of that rock, there was no blood. It was just the dim light hitting the century-old quartz at the right angle.

  I lifted my arm, shifting it ever closer to the stone. The buzzing in my ears grew louder.

  I ignored it.

  My finger reached out and touched the rock.

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  I rested my finger against the stone, a shock of cold raced to my heart.

  I drew my finger down the rippled surface. It slid easily in whatever slimy liquid covered the rock.

  Not blood. It couldn’t be blood.

  I flipped my finger over and checked the color.

  Blood.

  I gasped and pressed my back against the wall. Sharp stones poked into my spine.

  The sound of harsh breathing echoed through the basement.

  It was my own.

  I stood frozen against the wall, afraid to move a muscle, afraid to be noticed by whatever blood-loving creature had left this mess.

  I waited what must have been five minutes, just listening.

  Total silence.

  I prayed for the sound of the furnace to spur me into action. My fingers became numb in the cold. My breath puffed like fog around me.

  Stuck in the headlights. That’s what Grandma would have called it. She’d tell me that not making any move was still making a move. I was just more likely to get squashed by an oncoming truck if I just stood here.

  Move, Tish.

  I inched toward the staircase, keeping an eye on the cistern. My foot pushed off on the bottom step, and I kept going straight to the top. I pulled the door shut and locked it with the deadbolt. If the viper was still down there, it wouldn’t escape through the kitchen door.

  I rubbed my hands together and blew on them. The moist air fell short of warming my fingers.

  The clock on the stove clicked and I turned to look. 4:20. My instinct was to call the police. But after the mockery I’d received last time I’d asked for help, I felt like skipping it. Still, did I have a choice?<
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  “Central dispatch,” said a woman’s voice.

  “Hi.” I gulped, not sure what to say. “Um, there’s blood in my basement and I don’t know why. Can somebody come down and take a look?” I felt childish with my request.

  “Are you injured?”

  “No, I’m fine. I just don’t know why there’s blood down there.”

  “What’s your name, ma’am?”

  “Tish Amble.”

  There was a moment of silence at the other end.

  “Miss Amble, have you been drinking at all?”

  “No.”

  “Have you taken any drugs?”

  “Excuse me?”

  “Where did you see the blood, Miss Amble?”

  “In my basement. Over on the cistern wall.”

  “Please hold while I dispatch an officer to assist you.”

  The line went silent. I sat on my cot and waited.

  “Miss Amble?” The dispatcher was back on line. “Officer Walters will be arriving shortly.”

  I ended the call and cradled my forehead in my palms.

  It seemed Officer Brad was on duty 24/7.

  Within minutes, lights flashed against the bedroom wall, and I knew without turning that Brad had pulled in the drive. Living a mere two blocks from the cop shop had its rewards.

  I patted down my hair and opened the front door.

  Brad stepped in.

  “Going somewhere?” He looked my outerwear up and down.

  “Just to the basement to fix my furnace.” I turned and started walking toward the kitchen. “That’s when I saw the blood.”

  I could almost feel him rolling his eyes behind me. Another hallucination from the queen of paranoia, he must be thinking.

  Humph. I wasn’t hallucinating this time.

  I stopped at the top of the cellar steps and crossed my arms. “There you go.” I nodded toward the steps. “The blood is over on the cistern.”

  “Come down and show me.”

  “I am not going down there. Don’t you have a partner or something? What if the perpetrator is still in the basement?”

  “I’m a trained professional. I’ll make sure you don’t get hurt.”

  I patted my bad leg. “I got hurt last time I went down there with you. I’m not making the same mistake twice.”