It only took forty seconds with the card to pop the slider bolt out of its slot. Rudker turned the knob and entered the kitchen. The scent of chili powder and cantaloupe filled the air. He moved quickly through the galley-style room and turned left into the living area. Moonlight filtered through the curtains and he could see the furnishings were minimal: a couch, a TV, an end table, and a few plants. Sula either hadn’t lived here long or was as minimalist as a Buddhist monk.
Moving rapidly, Rudker went left again down a short hallway and opened the first door. Even without illumination, he knew it was a bathroom. The air felt wet and reeked of jasmine scented shampoo. Rudker moved on to the next door. He flipped on the light to see a small bedroom that was completely empty except for a few boxes in one corner. Stranger still, he thought. He shut the light off and turned to the door opposite.
The overhead fixture in this larger bedroom gave out a dim glow, which suited him fine. Rudker headed straight for the computer desk. Only a small notepad and pen sat next to the monitor. Otherwise the desk was devoid of clutter. He pulled open the top drawer: nothing but pens and paper clips and assorted office supplies. The next drawer revealed a stack of crumpled, folded-in-half papers. Rudker examined them closely with his pen light. They contained observations of Nexapra’s Phase I clinical trials patients.
Sula had been in Warner’s office. The nosy bitch. Spending one night in jail was not enough punishment. He had warned her, but she’d foolishly underestimated him. She would beat the theft charge, of course. He could live with that—as long as he rounded up and destroyed all the files relating to the Puerto Rico patients and their DNA.
He folded the papers in half, stuffed them into a back pocket, and continued to search. The girl may have taken more than what he saw in her hands, and as long as he was here, he would be thorough.
Rudker failed to find any more incriminating paperwork, but he did find a shoebox in the bottom desk drawer that contained an assortment of CDs. He rifled through them, only to discover they were all set-up disks: Windows, Photoshop, and such.
Seeing the disks made him think Sula might have copied files from Warner’s computer and hidden the CD somewhere in her home. He did a quick search of her night stand, dresser, and closet. Nothing except a lot of black, pink, and beige clothes in soft fabrics. Rummaging through her bras and panties gave him a little thrill. Rudker would have liked to linger, but he heard a siren in the distance and it made him nervous.
The voice in his head was suddenly there, telling him the police were on their way and he had to get out. Rudker tried to ignore it. Sula was in jail and he doubted if any one had seen him enter the house. He really wanted to boot up her computer to see what she had downloaded last.
He walked over and stared at her monitor for a moment trying to decide if it was worth the risk. He noticed the CD sitting on top of the computer tower. He picked it up. At first, the case appeared to be unlabeled, then he saw the letters PRS in small print along the spine. Puerto Rico suicides?
Rudker clicked on the machine. After twenty seconds, he grew irritated waiting for Windows to load. Get out, idiot, the voice nagged. Finally, icons appeared on the screen. He loaded the disk, accessed the CD drive, and a window displayed the contents. Four file names were listed: Miguel Rios, Luis Rios, mr DNA, lr DNA. A sharp pain flashed through his chest. Jesus! The girl had everything she needed to shut down Nexapra and ruin his career.
The traitor! The bitch!
Rudker popped the CD out of the drive, put it back in its case, and crammed it into his other back pocket. He clicked off the computer, picked up his penlight, and left the room.
He left the same way he’d come in, out through the garage and the side yard onto 26th. Rudker found himself whistling as he hurried to his vehicle. He was in control of his company and career again. Yet he couldn’t stop thinking about Sula. If she were trying to destroy someone besides himself, he might have admired her audacity.
Chapter 17
Saturday, April 17, 10:43 a.m.
Bruised, exhausted, and in desperate need of a shower, Sula walked out of the jail. She had barely slept. In the middle of the night, a deputy had herded everyone out of the holding area and into a smaller room so the larger area could be cleaned. Then an hour later, they were roused and moved back. The activity seemed bizarre and surreal, almost intended to deprive the inmates of sleep. Earlier this morning, she’d pleaded not guilty in the little makeshift courtroom inside the jail and been given a court date of May 11.
Her truck was still in the parking lot at Prolabs, so she walked eight blocks to the downtown station in a light drizzle, waited forty-five minutes to board a bus, then rode out to Willow Creek. She walked the last mile to Prolabs campus. It had stopped raining, but she was wet and cold and her feet had never hurt so much. She wished she had gone straight home and changed into sneakers before retrieving her truck, but that would have added an hour to her travel time.
She could have called her friend Paul to help her out, but she wasn’t prepared to talk about her ordeal yet. Or even to admit to anyone that she had been fired and arrested on the same day. She had to form a plan first, to feel more in control. She couldn’t let anyone see her this vulnerable.
It was Saturday, so the company’s parking lot was nearly empty. She was glad not to run into anybody. As soon as Sula climbed in her truck, tears of relief pooled behind her eyes but did not spill over. She drove home in a state of numb exhaustion, peeled off yesterday’s clothes, and lay down to sleep.
When Sula woke late that afternoon, she was disoriented for a minute. The bright sky made her think it was noon and that she’d slept late. Then it all came rushing back, the humiliating arrest and sleepless, bone-bruising night on the jail bench. She shook it off and crawled out of bed, determined to move forward.
As she showered, her stomach growled and she realized she was ravenously hungry. She hadn’t eaten since her breakfast of scrambled eggs and cantaloupe the day before. She really wanted Chinese food, Mongolian Beef, in particular, but now that she no longer had a job, she couldn’t justify spending the money. She dressed in comfy black sports wear, then made a turkey sandwich and heated a can of vegetable beef soup.
Reading through the want ads as she wolfed down the sandwich, Sula found two jobs to apply for. A public relations position with the county and a technical writing position offered by Microprobes, just down the road from Prolabs. The possibilities perked her up a bit.
Halfway through the soup, she got full and pushed it aside. She grabbed a notepad and pen from her purse and started a list of things to do: 1) Write a letter to the FDA explaining what was on the disk and where it came from. 2) Make a copy of the disk. She needed a computer with a big hard drive and CD burner. Paul could help her with that.
Sula continued her list: 3) Mail the letter and a copy of the CD to her public relations contact at FDA. 4) Send out letters and resumes for both jobs. 5) Apply for unemployment. 6) Call Barbara, her custody lawyer, and let her know about her new situation.
Sula felt better already. Except for the vile taste in her mouth. On her way back to her computer desk, she stopped in the bathroom and brushed her teeth, which felt fuzzy with neglect. Dark circles showed under her eyes and she thought she looked older than she had yesterday morning.
While waiting for her computer to boot up, she jotted down some ideas for her FDA letter. When Windows was up and running, she decided to check her e-mail. She deleted a promotion from Apple without opening it, then scanned through Paul’s note, in which he complained about his boyfriend and invited her to go see Three Dog Night at the McDonald Theater.
Sula hit reply, then wrote Paul a quick note saying she would have to pass on the concert for lack of funds and asked him about burning a CD of some large files. She clicked Send, then glanced up at the top of her computer case.
The disk was gone.
Sula’s chest tightened in a painful squeeze. Someone had come into her home and taken it. Her
breath went shallow and she fought for air. Be calm, she told herself. The disk had to be here somewhere. The idea that Rudker had broken into her home with the purpose of stealing the disk seemed…crazy.
What else? She was not the type to misplace things. Yet, maybe she had put it away somewhere. Sula searched frantically through her desk drawers. Not finding it, she took two deep breaths and started again, this time making herself move slowly. Piece by piece, she removed every item from her top drawer: the scissors, the bottle of white out, scraps of paper with phone numbers, little cases with paper clips. Each went on the floor until the drawer was empty. The clear, unlabeled CD case was not there.
Sula repeated the same process with the other two drawers. She also inserted all the disks she did find into the drive to look at their contents on screen. As she went through the motions, she knew it was pointless. She had left the disk on top of her hard drive. Now it was gone. She had no roommates, dogs, or ghosts who could have moved it.
Anger and frustration burst from her in a wordless wail.
Halfheartedly, she rummaged through her dresser drawers, night stand, and closet shelves, then flopped back on the bed and stared at the dingy ceiling. She had lost her job and risked her custody hearing for nothing. She had underestimated Rudker and he had beaten her. How had the bastard gotten in? Sula jumped up and rushed to the kitchen to check the door that opened into the garage. It was unlocked. She never left it unlocked. Never. It was a ritual to check that door in the mornings before she left the house.
She crossed through the garage and checked the door leading into the side yard. It was also unlocked. She couldn’t guarantee she hadn’t left it that way. So he had come in through the garage and had jimmied the interior lock somehow. She knew it wasn’t difficult. Any teenager with a student body card could get past a cheap lock. She had never worried much about it because she had nothing worth stealing, and that would be obvious to any thief observing the size and value of her rental.
Had he hired someone? It was hard to imagine Rudker breaking into her house, standing here in her kitchen. Had he handled her personal things? Her lingerie? Sula fought the urge to gather up all her clothes and run them through the washer.
She had to sit down. Her body and brain were both exhausted. She told herself to let it go, that it was over, she had done all she could do. She had to stop thinking about Nexapra and focus on finding a job. Focus on her custody hearing and her chance to get her sweet little boy back into her life. Once she was past that she would move, so Rudker wouldn’t know where she lived. She crumpled the list of things to do and tossed it in the trash.
If only Calix were here, she thought, sitting on the other side of the table, leaning forward eagerly to hear the rest of this sorry tale. Her sister would laugh in the right places without making Sula feel stupid. She would tell her she had done the right thing and everything would work out fine with Tate. Sula knew she would never have another friend like her big sister. It seemed she was destined to spend her life alone, talking to herself, and making lists of things to do. She felt the cold fingers of the abyss latch on, ready to pull her in.
Time for a distraction.
She tried to read her book about freelancing, then remembered she hadn’t taken her Celexa this morning because she’d been in jail. Sula went to the kitchen and swallowed one of her tablets, then went back to her computer and logged onto CompuServe. The New Mail icon was lit up in bright yellow. She clicked it and her Inbox appeared. Paul had responded to her e-mail about opening and copying a big file. It was unusual for him to be home on a Saturday night, but if he was home, it was not unusual for him to be online. His draft was brief: No problem. Bring it to EFN Monday afternoon.–P
Sula decided to tell him everything. She couldn’t keep it to herself any longer. Paul was a good friend and would not judge her. They had met at the University of Oregon four years earlier in an economics class. They had been lone liberal voices in a sea of young Republicans and had shared an opposition to the trickle down theory of economics. They later bonded over coffee and their mutual orphan status. Paul had graduated with a political science degree the same term she finished with a BA in Journalism. In Eugene, his degree was about as worthless as an art history education, so he worked part time as a waiter and part time as a computer tech for Rent a Nerd.
Sula hit reply and began to type: Hi Paul. I no longer have the disk. It’s a long and bizarre story, but here’s the short version. I overheard Diane Warner (a scientist at Prolabs) tell Rudker (the CEO) that a drug they’re testing makes some people kill themselves. She said she could develop a screening test to prevent it. He told her to shut up and forget about it. Then he came out and saw me standing there, so he knew I heard.
Then Warner disappeared and eventually turned up dead (more on that later). I got worried that her discovery would disappear too and the drug would get approved and a lot of depressed people would kill themselves. (You know how I feel about that.) So I searched her office and found a hidden disk with the DNA data. Then Rudker saw me outside her office and had me fired and arrested (more on that later).
This is the creepy part. While I was in jail, Rudker (or someone he hired) broke into my house and took the disk. So now I’m unemployed, facing criminal charges, likely to lose my custody hearing (which could send me over the edge), and have no way to help the people who will eventually take the drug.
I keep telling myself to forget about the drug, but I can’t. People will die. And Rudker doesn’t care. He just wants to make more money. It infuriates me, but I don’t know what to do now. Sorry to lay this on you, but it’s been a wild week, and I had to tell someone. Thanks for listening.–Sula.
She pressed Send, then used Google to search for the state’s employment website. She hoped to dig up more job opportunities and find out what she could about filing for unemployment.
There weren’t many jobs and none involved reporting, writing, or communications of any kind. Except one TV producer position, which, in the Salary section, said “guarantees minimum wage.” Great. She clicked through the site looking for filing info. Her cell phone rang, startling her. Timidly, Sula picked it up, half expecting it to be Rudker. “Hello.”
Paul’s voice shrieked at her. “Why didn’t you call me? This is the wildest story I’ve ever heard. It’s so unlike you and yet, so like you. I want details. Start at the beginning. Where did you hear the first conversation?”
Sula recounted the events of the past six days, with a dozen interruptions from Paul, who kept repeating in a stunned voice what she had just told him.
“You went to the morgue and looked at a dead body?”
“You ran from your boss and he chased you?”
“You spent a night in jail?”
Paul’s hysteria made her downplay her reaction to it all, but she had, in fact, taken more Xanax in the past week than in the past six months.
“Unless he has the judge in his pocket, those charges will be dismissed.” Paul sounded sure of himself, even over the phone.
“I hope so. Fortunately, my court date is a week after my custody hearing.”
“Does your lawyer know about any of this?”
“Not yet. I plan to tell her though.”
“Sula, you did the right thing. Don’t doubt that. I wish I had your courage.” Paul sounded a little choked up, and it made her feel self-conscious.
“Hey, don’t get gushy on me. Bravery and stupidity are sometimes hard to tell apart. If I lose Tate over this, I’ll never forgive myself.”
“Sula, I know you don’t want to hear this, but I don’t think you should get your hopes up about the hearing.”
She knew Paul felt that way, so she rarely discussed it with him, but now she felt defensive. “You don’t think anything I do now will make a difference?” She popped up and began to pace.
“I didn’t say that. But–”
She cut him off. “What do you think I should do about Prolabs?”
“You
have to expose them. By the way, what was on the disk?”
“Patient records of the two guys in Puerto Rico who killed themselves and two other files I couldn’t open but that are labeled DNA.”
“Would those files still be in the company’s computer system?”
“I don’t know. Rudker probably destroyed everything he could find. Why do you ask?”
“I could get into the database.”
Chapter 18
She had forgotten Paul was a reformed hacker. If there was such a thing. Being a hacker was a lot like being a gambler. People might stop doing it, but they never really got it out of their system.
“I can’t let you do that.” She chewed on her lower lip. “It’s too risky.”
“Not really. Hacking into the Defense Department’s system is risky. Prolabs’ IT people will never know I was there.”
“Really?” She felt a little surge of hope. “It would be worth a look.”
“Why don’t you come over and keep me company while I look at their system.”
“Sure. When?”
“Right now. It’ll be fun. I haven’t done any snooping in a long time.” Paul laughed. “Hey, before I got your e-mail, I was playing online chess with a smartass from Singapore. How boring is that for a Saturday night?”
“You’re one up on me. I’ll be over in twenty minutes.”
Still groggy from two sleepless nights in a row, she stopped for a diet Pepsi. She would need the caffeine to keep up with Paul’s energy. She crossed Ferry Street Bridge and drove out Martin Luther King Boulevard to a large apartment complex.
She shut off the truck and checked her watch: 9:33. A few years back, she’d gone through a phase of hating the habit but hadn’t been able to break it. Now it didn’t bother her. She took the stairs up to his unit two at a time. Paul greeted her with his usual big hug. Sometimes his affection made her uncomfortable; tonight it made her feel less alone in the world. She hugged him back with a good squeeze.
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