by Cairo
“Well, there’ll be a bunch of us down there then, ’cause I ain’t the fuckin’ one. I mean, on some real shit, I really didn’t wanna haveta shoot my moms, or Rosa. But if push came to shove, they’d both get bodied. And I make no apologies for that. I was here mindin’ my own fuckin’ business. Them bitches came here—uninvited, mind you—tryna disrupt my groove. And my moms already knows Rosa’s MO. She wanted to see that bitch bring it to me since her ass is still all broke up ’n shit. So, they both woulda caught a bullet.”
“Humph. That shit is crazy, for real.”
“Girl, trust, this shit was way over the top for even me. I mean, really. What the fuck made them think I was gonna let ’em up in here with open arms?”
“Your guess is as good as mine,” she said, snappin’ her fingas. “Oh, shit, girl, you not gonna believe this. Guess whose dumb ass done got arrested for stealin’ prescription pads from her job?”
“I bet it was Tameka’s porch-monkey ass,” I said.
“Yep,” she said, laughin’. “They came and snatched that ass up the other day. Now she’s sittin’ on Rikers, stressin’ the fuck out ’cause ain’t nobody tryna bail her ass out.”
“That’s what that baldheaded bitch gets for runnin’ her fuckin’ mouth. I’ma still see her ass, though.”
“Well, you might have a long wait. ’Cause this mess with her stealin’ prescription pads and shit has been goin’ on for a minute. They were writin’ all types of prescriptions, then sellin’ them shits and whatnot. That ho may be goin’ up the river. These two other chicks were down with her, and they done put the shit all on her ass.”
I laughed. “And that’s exactly why I do my dirt solo.”
“I hear you, girl. So, what’s good for tonight?” she asked, changin’ the subject. “You feel like rollin’ out somewhere? There’s this party at Mars 2112 tonight. And it should be packed with a lotta shakers ’n movers and big-dick ballers.”
I rolled my eyes and sucked my teeth, glancin’ at the clock. It was almost nine o’clock. I really didn’t feel like goin’ out, but it had been a minute since we dropped ’n popped. “What time ya ho ass wanna roll?”
“I’m ready when you are. All I gotta do is slip on my wears. I showered already, but you need to hurry up and scoop me before Divine comes up in here tryna get some pussy ’cause you know the nigga don’t like me leavin’ up outta here without him wettin’ his dick up first.”
“Awww, poor thing,” I said, laughin’. “I’ll be there to save you and your pussy in forty minutes.”
“Please hurry,” she said, laughin’ with me. “The nigga done already texted me, talkin’ ’bout he’s gonna be home in like an hour. So make sure you get ya ass here before then.”
“Aiight, trick. I’ll see you shortly.”
By the time me and Chanel got to Times Square, found parkin’, and walked up to the line to get into the club, it was already eleven-thirty. We had smoked a blunt apiece on the ride over and we were both feelin’ right. Chanel was lookin’ all chic and whatnot in a fly-ass white-and-black print jersey dress that hung off the shoulders, and she rocked a pair of six-inch black strappy sandals with an oversized white Chanel bag. And I kept it cute—of course—in a black, red, and pink abstract dress with a draped front and bubble hem with a twisted cut-out racerback. And of course I had to serve them hoes my Jimmy Choo patent leather Riki Ring bag, and a bangin’-ass pair of Versace Mirror stilettos.
Chanel knew damn well I wasn’t for standin’ in no long-ass lines, and before I could open my mouth to say somethin’ to her, my cell started ringin’. I looked at the number and flipped the phone open. “Hey,” I said, followin’ behind Chanel.
“What’s good, baby?”
“You,” I said.
“That’s what it is. What you gettin’ into tonight?”
“Me and Chanel are in the city gettin’ ready to go up into this club.”
“Oh word, which one?”
“Mars 2112.”
“Oh, shit. That’s where me and my mans are on our way to.”
I laughed. “Yeah right, nigga.”
“Nah, baby, real talk. Matter of fact, I’m rollin’ through midtown now.” He started laughin’. “Yeah, I bet you thought you was gonna be bouncin’ that ass up on them niggas tonight. Well, baby, big daddy’s comin’ through and I’m ’bout to shut shit down.”
“Oh, puhleeeze,” I said, grinnin’. “Ya ass tryna stalk me ’n shit.”
“Yeah, aiight, if you say so. You make sure you got ya pretty ass somewhere where I can get at you.”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah,” I said, laughin’.
I spotted Chanel walkin’ toward me. “Bitch, will you come on,” she said, wavin’ me forward. She apparently knew someone who got us in without havin’ to play that long-ass line.
I sighed. “I gotta go,” I said, followin’ behind Chanel, “so hit me up when you get in.”
“You already know,” he said. “I’ll get at you in a minute.” And that’s exactly what he did. We were up in the VIP section all night poppin’ bottles and gettin’ our throats wet lovely. Grant let me do me, but outta respect, I kept it cute. I let the nigga hug and kiss up on me, and I only danced with a few cats, but mostly danced with him. By the end of the night, I was lit and ready to go home and roll up on top of a hard dick. But of course, Grant had to take his mans back to wherever he had to be, and Chanel was gonna crash at my spot so that cancelled that out.
I had my arms folded ’cross my chest and my lip poked out like I was poutin’ as we were walkin’ outta the club. It was goin’ on three-thirty in the mornin’. Grant and I stood outside waitin’ for his peoples and Chanel’s dick-hungry ass.
“Yo,” he said, grabbin’ me by the waist and pullin’ me into him, “cut that shit out. You know what it is. I’ma see you later today. You make sure you take ya ass straight home.”
I rolled my eyes, grinnin’. “Whatever, nigga.”
He kissed me on the lips. “Yo, you know you got my dick hard, right?”
Chanel called me on my cell. “Bitch, where the fuck you at?” I asked, lookin’ around for her.
“I’m on my way out now. I couldn’t get to the bathroom without some nigga tryna get all up in my ear.”
I sucked my teeth. “Bring ya ass on.” I hung up when I spotted her comin’ outta the door.
“So, I’ma see ya tomorrow, aiight,” Grant said as Chanel was approachin’ us.
“Yeah,” I said.
Chanel walked up and spoke to him. “Hey, Grant.”
“What’s good, Chanel?”
“Not a thing,” she said, smilin.’ She looked over at me. “So, Grant…tell me. When you gonna bag this chick here?” she asked, flickin’ her thumb over at me. “I told you her wild ass needs a nigga like you to tame her.”
He laughed. “I don’t know. You gotta ask her that. She act like she all scared ’n shit.”
“Oh, please,” I said. “Scared of what? And don’t ya’ll be talkin’ like I ain’t standin’ here.”
He smiled, lookin’ down at his crotch. “You know what it is.”
“Oh, whatever,” I said, laughin’. “Don’t gas ya’self.”
Chanel chimed in, “You know she likes to get beat, right?”
“Oh, word?”
“Nigga, believe that shit if you want. Chanel’s drunk ass’ll have you catchin’ a bullet.”
“Oh, shit, you’d really shoot me, huh?” he asked, laughin’.
“Yep,” I said. “Right after I finished wettin’ ya dick up.” Chanel and Grant started laughin’ like they thought that was the funniest shit they heard all night. Humph. Little did they know, I was laughin’ with ’em, but I was dead-ass.
“Yo, baby,” he said, pullin’ me into him. “You funny as hell.” He kissed me again. “You ain’t ever gotta worry ’bout me puttin’ my hands on you; I ain’t with that shit.” He leaned into my ear, and whispered, “But I will spank that ass with this dick.”
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��Yeah, we’ll see,” I said, laughin’. “Chanel, let’s get outta here.”
He peeped his boy talkin’ to some chick. “Yo, nigga, will you come on.”
“Hold up, give me a minute,” dude said, flippin’ open his cell and handin’ it to the chick so she could put her number in. I ain’t gonna front, the nigga was fine; not as fine as Grant, but he could still get it.
Grant shook his head. “This nigga. Check it, meet me at the ride. I’ma walk my peoples to her ride.” Dude nodded his head. Grant wrapped his arm ’round me while Chanel walked a few steps in back of us. Her cell rang.
“Hello?” we heard her say. “Nigga, where the hell you think I’m at?” I grinned, knowin’ it was Divine. “I told you I was goin’ out with Kat…Yes, I did…Whatever…No, I’m stayin’ the night…Yes…No, Divine…I’ma be home sometime in the afternoon…Whatever, Divine…okay, aiight. I heard you…” She hung up. “Ugh, that nigga makes me sick.”
I craned my neck, glancin’ at her over my shoulder. “Yeah, right,” I said. “You love that nigga.”
“Whatever,” she said, suckin’ her teeth. “You worry ’bout gettin’ some love in your life.”
“Yo,” Grant said, smilin’. “I’ma take care of that.”
“Please do,” Chanel said.
When we got to the parkin’ garage, I unlocked the door for Chanel. Grant waited for her to get in, then pulled me into him, squeezin’ my ass and kissin’ me.
“Yo, make sure you take ya ass straight home,” he said, kissin’ me again. “I don’t wanna haveta fuck nobody up.”
“Whatever,” I said. “You make sure you take ya ass home.”
“You got that,” he said, kissin’ me again. He opened the car door for me and waited for me to get behind the wheel. He looked over at Chanel and was gettin’ ready to speak, but her ass was already knocked out. “Get home safe.”
“You, too,” I said, startin’ the engine, then backin’ out. I tapped the horn as I drove by, then made my way back to Jersey with thoughts of Grant comin’ through later on in the day. Yeah, this nigga was tryna have a bitch fall for ’im. I just hoped he was ready, ’cause I was tryna play for keeps. I took a deep breath, turned on the CD player, and listened to Aretha Franklin sing “The Tree of Life.” And for some reason, after hearin’ the verse It’s too late to cry…There ain’t gonna be no next time… I felt my chest tighten and an achin’ in my heart. I clutched my chest and choked back tears as I headed toward the Holland Tunnel.
Erykah Badu’s “Bag Lady” was playin’ in the background and Grant and I had just finished blazin’ our third blunt. He had come through earlier in the afternoon, like he said he would. And after diggin’ my back out lovely, we were loungin’ ’round chillin’. I couldn’t front, things between us were really startin’ to feel right ’n shit. But I didn’t wanna jinx shit by gettin’ all excited too quick. I was tryna play it cool and keep shit cute. I was really diggin’ his ass. But the nigga wasn’t my man, and I wasn’t sure if that’s what I really wanted. A part of me did, but then there was that part of me that was scared. Not of him, but of what I’d do if he turned out to be another nigga tryna play me. I really think a bitch would go postal for real. The nigga’s dick game was so damn tight that I knew, without a doubt, that I could really get caught in him. And that shit had a bitch on edge; almost nervous. I’m not sure if it was my heart, my head, or my pussy talkin’, but whichever it was, I knew if I gave in to the feelin’s that were slowly startin’ to stir inside of me and the nigga turned out to be on some other shit, it wouldn’t be a pretty sight. My gut told me he was a good man, but what I couldn’t figure out was if the nigga was a cheatin’ man.
Anyway, as long as we kept shit the way it was, there was no stress and no pressure. I played my position, and allowed him to play his. If the nigga was fuckin’ someone else, then so be it. He wasn’t my man. So he could slay whoever he wanted. I wasn’t beat ’cause I didn’t see or hear ’bout it. He claimed he was just servin’ me the dick, but I had heard that shit before so it didn’t really hold much weight with me. Although I didn’t have a reason not to trust him, I still kept my eyes and ears open for any signs of him tryna get slick. So far, there were none. But I was gonna give it more time. Most niggas showed they asses within the first three to six months. So I was gonna see how shit played out. But on some real shit, who was I to feel some kinda way ’bout him slayin’ another bitch’s pussy when I was still waxin’ the muhfuckas I was murkin’. I ain’t gonna front, I was really startin’ to fall for the nigga, and I could tell the nigga was diggin’ me, too. But like I said, I didn’t really wanna rush into nothin’. I was cool with how things were flowin’ with us, and I didn’t really wanna complicate shit; not yet anyway.
“So you still not lookin’ for a man?” he asked, leanin’ over and kissin’ me lightly on the lips.
“Not today,” I said, grinnin’. “Check back tomorrow.”
“Yeah, aiight.” He grinned back, pullin’ me into his arms. He slid his tongue in my mouth. Damn, the nigga’s tongue game was right. My pussy started gettin’ wet. “Keep playin’ with me.” He kissed me a few more times, then pulled away. “Dig, one of my mans is gettin’ married at the end of the month and I want you on my arm.”
I smiled. “So you ready to show me off to ya peeps now, hunh?”
“No doubt,” he said, leanin’ over and peckin’ me on the lips again. “You my baby; fuck all that shit you be talkin’ ’bout you ain’t ready for a man ’n shit.”
“I wanna take it slow.”
“I hear you,” he said, rubbin’ the side of my face. “There’s no rush, baby. Big daddy got all the time ya pretty ass needs.”
I smiled. “You sure ’bout that?”
“No doubt, baby.”
“Well, I’d be honored to be on ya arm to let them hoes know what a real dime looks like.”
He laughed. “That’s what it is. His bachelor’s party is this weekend so I’ma be outta town with my boys.”
“Hmmm. When you leavin’?”
“Tomorrow.”
“Oh, okay. You make sure you don’t be lettin’ none of them stripper hoes wet ya dick,” I said, actin’ like I was really pressed.
“Nah, baby. The only one I want wettin’ this dick is you, real talk. You make sure you keep these niggas out here outta ya grill while I’m gone.”
“Oh, please. I ain’t thinkin’ ’bout none of them whack-ass niggas.”
“Yeah, aiight. Don’t have me hurtin’ nobody.”
“It’s all good,” I said, shiftin’ my body to face him. “I gotta go outta town overnight anyway.”
“Damn,” he said, eyein’ me. “You do a lotta dippin’. On some real shit, you need to let me know now what’s really good with you.”
I raised my brow. “What ya mean?”
“I’m sayin’. If you fuckin’ some other nigga, you need to let me know so I can fall back.” Oh my God, I thought, this nigga got the nerve to be soundin’ all jealous.
“Nigga, please. I ain’t fuckin’ with no one else,” I lied, rollin’ my eyes. Well, technically, I wasn’t fuckin’ with any other muhfuckas, so I wasn’t really lyin’, right? Besides a dead nigga really didn’t count; well, that’s what I kept tellin’ myself.
He pulled me into him, then slid his tongue into my mouth. We kissed long and slow for a few minutes. He ran his hands along my back, over my hips, then grabbed my ass, starin’ into my eyes. The way he was lookin’ at me, I could tell he had somethin’ on his mind.
“Why you lookin’ at me like that?” I asked.
He shook his head.
“What?”
“Nah, it’s nothin’.”
Now, I started to leave it alone. And if someone asked me why I even pushed the shit, I couldn’t tell you. I guess ’cause I dug the nigga and I really did wanna know what he was thinkin’. So I pushed the issue.
“’C’mon, don’t try ’n play me for slow,” I said, grabbin’ at his dick. Mmmph.
His dick was nice ’n thick, and slowly growin’. “I can tell you got somethin’ on ya mind, so share.” I held my breath, already knowin’ where this was gonna go.
“I’m tryna figure you out,” he stated, “that’s all.”
“And what are you tryna figure out?” I asked, bracin’ myself.
“I’ve asked you several times how you made ya paper, and I still haven’t gotten a real answer…any answer, for that matter.” He sighed, sittin’ up on his forearm, lookin’ up. Now, in my head, I’m thinkin’, You need to curse this nigga out real quick for tryna clock ya flow. You don’t ask him how he’s collectin’ his dough so he don’t need to be askin’ you shit ’bout how you movin’. I had to bite down on my tongue to keep from comin’ at him real slick. He pulled me into his arms. “Listen…I’m diggin’ you. And I’m tryna make shit happen with you, but I need to know what’s really good with you. You say you ain’t fuckin’ any other muhfuckas, but you always jettin’ off somewhere. Please tell me you ain’t pushin’ weight for some nigga or somethin’.”
I twisted my lips up. “Are you fuckin’ serious? A bitch like me would never play herself and be some nigga’s mule. I ain’t that bitch.”
“Okay, so how you livin’, then? You stay dipped ’n shit in all the ill flavors, you pushin’ hot whips, and ya spot is tight. Not that I’m tryna get in ya pockets or anything. I’m just tryna see where ya head is at; how you gettin’ ya hustle on.”
“I’m a consultant,” I told him, hopin’ that would keep him satisfied. The lie rolled off my tongue and outta my mouth so quick, I didn’t have a chance to think it all the way through. A consultant! What the fuck?! I thought to myself, regrettin’ I even said that shit. I decided to add a little extra. “And my moms came into some money and laced me ’bout two years ago so I was able to make some things happen.”
“Hmm,” he said, eyein’ me. I could tell the nigga wasn’t buyin’ it. But he let it go—for the moment, anyway. “When you leavin’?”
“Tomorrow,” I said.
“And when you comin’ back?”
I didn’t know what the fuck was up with all the damn questions, but I answered anyway. “Late tomorrow night.”