“Where were you last night?” Pandora hunches over the counter, wiggling her ass and grinning. “Tried texting you. Not like you to pass up a chance with the boss’s daughter.”
My gaze snaps toward Rod in his office, who’s completely oblivious. Fucking the boss’s daughter isn’t my proudest accomplishment, but damn if she doesn’t remind me of a white trash version of my only weakness.
Sometimes, in his most desperate hours, a man has to settle.
“Come on,” she says. “I know it turns you on just as much as it turns me on.”
Pandora Patterson is Demi Rosewood’s cheap alter-ego. Raven hair. Full lips. Big tits. Curves for days. Round, blue eyes. Pandora’s just a little edgier. Less refined. Sleeves of tats. Garish red lips. A throaty laugh. A perpetual perfume of stale cigarettes and spilled drinks. She’s sure as fuck no substitute for the real thing, but I’m a man with limited options, and Pandora never once judged my situation.
“Told you,” I say. “We can’t do that anymore.”
She pouts and drags a pointed fingernail down her cheek like she’s crying. Slinking over to me, she slips her arm around my shoulders.
“God, Royal, you’re such a fucking tease.” Pandora rubs her breasts against my chest and leans into my ear. “I thought about you last night. Nothing else makes me cum harder than when I think about all those naughty things you do to me in the back of the shop after Daddy leaves . . .”
Pandora’s a kinky little slut. She gets off on the thrill of almost getting caught, and she loves fucking the kind of men her daddy would chase with a shotgun. Even grizzly Rod Patterson has standards for his wayward daughter.
She runs her fingers through my hair, helping herself to a handful and jerking my mouth toward hers. Her cigarette breath fills my lungs when she laughs through her nose.
“You’re so tortured,” she says. “You know that? I think that’s why I can’t get you out of my head. I just want to fix you.”
“Don’t need fixing.”
“Everyone needs fixing.”
“Doesn’t mean they want to be.”
“Ugh. You’re so stubborn.” She smacks my chest. “And damaged and guarded.”
Her palm then slides to the front of my pants before she cups my junk. I suppose this would be considered sexual harassment, but it doesn’t bother me. I’ve been through worse shit than a big-titted sex-addict feeling on me. Pandora gives my cock a gentle squeeze and stares into my eyes. The sound of her dad tapping his booted foot along to CCR’s Fortunate Son in his office just fifteen feet away sends a quick sweat down my back.
I can’t afford to lose this job.
“And I fucking love it.” She releases me from her clutches and returns to the reception desk to answer a ringing phone. “Patterson Auto Body.”
Pandora slips a nail between her lips and winks my way.
“Didn’t want to talk to you either.” She slams the phone down, shrugging. When her shoulders move inward, her cleavage spills out of her top. It’s intentional, no question. “No one there.”
A rusting, bumper-less Lincoln pulls up outside. Guessing they need an estimate. I head to the desk to grab a pen and clipboard. Pandora wears a mischievous grin when I stride her way.
“No,” I say.
“What, are you a homo now?” She says it loud enough that her dad could hear if his wasn’t so busy humming along to Sweet Home Alabama. Her hand hooks the curve above her left hip. “Stop pretending you don’t want this anymore.”
We had this talk weeks ago. Why she’s all over me now is beyond me.
“You trying to get me in trouble?” My tone is low yet sharp. I shake my head. Don’t have time for this shit. “Don’t, Pandora.”
I really need a new fucking job.
Chapter Ten
Royal
It’s a thirty-minute drive from Patterson Auto Body to my apartment in Glidden, and it just so happens that Rixton Falls is the halfway point.
I take a detour toward Demi’s neighborhood and rest at a stop sign a minute too long. It’s just past dusk. She could still be at the hospital for all I know, but she knows my car now. No more drive-bys. No more watching like some fucking loser creep.
It’s probably all for the best anyway.
I need to move on. Clearly she did.
The honk of a horn behind me prompts my foot to gun the gas, and I charge straight ahead, down Demi’s Better Homes and Gardens street.
Her porch lights shine, and her car is parked in the driveway, taillights glowing red then fading to dark.
Fuck.
I stop down the street and wait as she exits her Subaru and heads inside. Forecast is calling for more snow tonight. It’s a shame she can’t park in the garage. Last I knew, it was full of all Brooks’s “toys.”
Part of me wants to leave and come back another time. Give her more space. I shouldn’t have shown up last night out of the blue, but I couldn’t stand back and watch her suffer.
Not again.
Things were tolerable when I thought she was happy. She smiled a lot, at least from what I could tell. I’d check her social media sites from time to time. She seemed to love him enough. I stayed away, figuring she’d moved on long ago.
And then I learned what kind of fucking asshole Brooks Abbott truly is.
Demi deserves better.
I had to intervene.
I just didn’t know Brooks would be paying for his mistakes with his life.
I punch the steering wheel, drag my hands through my hair, and pull up to her house. By the time I’m knocking on her door, everything’s a blur and I can’t breathe.
“I figured you’d stop by again,” she says when she answers the door. I catch my breath when I see her face and those calming blue eyes of hers. “Didn’t know it’d be so soon.”
I stand at her front door in gray work pants, greasy boots, and a plain white t-shirt. I smell like oil and paint thinner. I look like shit.
“Can I come in?” I ask.
Demi’s cheek presses against the door, and her shoulders rise and fall.
“Yeah.” She swings the door wide. “But only because I want some answers.”
“Expectations can be dangerous.”
“Not as dangerous as letting you back into my life, Royal.”
I smirk. I deserved that.
Removing my shoes, I glance into her pristine living room. No way in hell I’m stepping foot in there in my work clothes.
“You bring Brooks’s pants back?” She lifts a brow.
“Nope. Threw ‘em away.”
Her jaw falls. “W-why would you do that?”
“Have my reasons.”
Demi’s arms fold, her hips angled as we stand across from one another in her foyer.
“We can go to the kitchen, I guess.” She shuffles toward the table in the breakfast nook, the one piece of furniture in that entire room not covered in white. “I don’t know if it’s a territorial thing or what, but you can’t just throw people’s things away.”
“Territorial? What am I, a junkyard dog?”
“I didn’t mean it like that.”
We sit across from each other, separated by some frilly little centerpiece filled with fresh flowers in bright shades that contrast everything around us. I move them aside so I can see her face unobstructed.
“Okay.” Demi sighs. “You have my attention. Now tell me, Royal. Why the hell did you walk out seven years ago and never come back?”
I’ve replayed the events of that weekend a thousand times, each time asking myself how I’d do it differently.
I thought I was doing the right thing at the time.
I thought I was helping someone who desperately needed my help.
I never expected it all to blow up in my face, to create some kind of butterfly effect, to completely change the trajectory of our futures.
“We would’ve been married by now,” I muse, raking my nails across the wood tabletop.
“Excuse me?”
“I bet we would’ve been married by now,” I say.
Demi rolls her eyes. “Yeah, well. You left. You decided not to be with me, so—”
I shake my head.
“Not at all, Demi. I always wanted to be with you.”
Still do.
Her eyes glass over. She looks over my shoulder, refusing to give me eye contact.
“Yeah, well, that’s not going to work on me,” she says. “Woulda, coulda, shoulda. Your word is shit.”
“I don’t expect you to forgive me.”
“Then why are you here?”
“It’s not that simple.”
Demi’s fist pounds the table. “Yes, it is. It is that simple. God damn it, Royal.”
“You sure don’t talk like a kindergarten teacher.”
Her gaze narrows. “I never told you what I did for a living.”
“Not hard to find out around here.”
“What else do you know about me, huh?”
I could tell her I know how she goes to the Overlook sometimes, stargazing by herself, like we used to do. I could tell her I see her pull through the drive-up of the Highland coffee shop and order a caramel macchiato with extra whipped cream every Saturday morning. I could tell her I’ve seen her drive aimlessly around Rixton Falls, down the very same streets that remind me of us. And I could name them in order: Freeman Avenue, Ellery Drive, Hayes Boulevard, First Street, Violet Road . . .
“Not much,” I say.
“How long have you been watching me?”
“Not long,” I lie.
Demi rises.
“Where are you going?” I ask.
“I’m done here,” she says. “If you’re not going to be honest, I’m not going to let you waste my time.”
She walks away.
Just like that.
I follow, reaching for her hand and taking her by the wrist. She gulps a lungful of air when I take her by surprise and pull her toward me.
“I want to tell you, Demi. I want to tell you so fucking bad. I want to tell you everything.” I stare into her crystal baby blues, missing the way she used to look at me back when we were happy. Before everything turned to shit. When we were just a couple of kids with our whole lives ahead of us.
“Then tell me.” Her chest rises and falls. She smells like a hospital room, a sobering reminder that she spent her day by his side.
“I need more time.”
Her jaw hangs, and then she scoffs. “More time? Are you kidding me, Royal? Seven years wasn’t enough?” Demi yanks her wrist from my hand. “Please go. We’re done here.”
Chapter Eleven
Demi
I have to bite the inside of my lip to keep from lashing out at him. All I want to do is scream at him for wasting my time, for squandering away the last seven years, for showing up like some valiant knight with shitty timing.
He lingers by the door, stepping into his grubby work boots. He smells like a garage, and his nail beds are black. Once upon a time, he was supposed to go to college with Derek, finish with law school, and then work at my father’s practice.
“I don’t expect you to forgive me,” he says.
I can’t look at him.
“Not yet, anyway,” he adds. “I’m just asking you to let me at least try to make some of this up to you.”
“You can’t.”
“Demi.” He moves closer. I turn away. It’s juvenile, I know. “You can’t even begin to imagine how many nights I laid awake thinking about you. About us. About old times.”
I focus on a salt fleck on the floor of the foyer. It must’ve been tracked in from outside, when I sprinkled ice melt on the steps earlier.
“If I could go back,” he says. “I’d make different choices. I never would’ve left that night. I just thought I was doing the right thing.”
“Was there someone else?” I ask the heaviest question of them all, the one that’s lingered over me like a dark cloud. It’s the only plausible answer to this ridiculous question. My broken, teenage heart could only ever accept the explanation that he left because he loved someone more than he loved me.
“God, no.” Royal cups my face with his stained hands, turning it to face him. “Never.”
Our eyes meet.
“I don’t understand.” I pull his hands from my face. “Why can’t you just tell me?”
Royal gives me a nervous smirk, a dimple popping up on his right cheek—the one I used to kiss when we were younger.
“Maybe I’m scared,” he says, puffing his chest out like I needed any kind of reminder that he’s all man now.
“Scared of what?”
“Scared you might look at me differently. Think of me differently.”
“I loved you more than you could’ve possibly known,” I say. “There wasn’t anything you could’ve done back then to change that. I was stupid in love with you.”
His lips tighten, and he offers a pained smile.
“I want to tell you, Demi. You deserve to know. I owe you that much.” His words come rushed, and he licks his lower lip. “But I’m not ready, and neither are you.”
I offer a sarcastic “ha,” step away, and slap my hand against my side.
“Fine, then,” I say. “If this is all the closure I’m ever going to get, so be it. Can’t force you to tell me anything, so I won’t waste my time trying.”
“Closure?” He lifts a single eyebrow. “Closure means we’re done forever. Means we’re never going to see each other again.”
“Exactly.”
I didn’t wait seven damn years for him to stand in my home and refuse to give me the answer I deserve. All those years, I’d painted him as some kind of idyllic fantasy. He represented youth, and carefree summers, and can’t-sleep-love. Happily-ever-afters and everything little girls dream of. He was a cool breeze on a hot day. Electric kisses and mischievous firsts. An addiction I couldn’t get out of my system.
And I still can’t.
“I want to see you again,” he says.
My gaze snaps to his, fitting perfectly. The thundering heartbeats in my chest threaten to knock me over with each boom. I hate that his six little words so easily command my attention.
“Maybe I don’t deserve it,” he says, “but it doesn’t change the fact that I still want it.”
I fold my arms. “Entitled much?”
“I’ll tell you what happened, Demi. I promise. But not yet. Let’s get to know each other again. Let me take care of you,” he proposes. “And when the time is right, I’ll tell you everything you want to know.”
I exhale. “How can I believe you? How can I trust you?”
“You can’t.”
My breathing halts.
His expression hardens. “But I’m asking you to try.”
I walk backward until I bump into the bottom of the stairs. Perching on the second to last step, I rest my head in my hands.
“I don’t know. I have a lot on my plate right now.” My gaze is fixed on his worn boots. In my heart of hearts, I know he’s had a rough seven years, and my chest burns when I think about all the ways his life could’ve turned out better. “I don’t think I have the energy for . . . this . . . right now.”
“Yeah, that’s not a good enough reason for me to walk away.” He takes a step toward me, dropping to my level and pulling me up. “I’ll be here in the morning to shovel your driveway before I go to work. I won’t bother you. Don’t worry.”
His hand reaches behind me and helps itself to the back of my jeans, where he retrieves my phone and keys in his number.
“There.” He slides it back in my pocket, his fingertips brushing my hips and sending a hitch to my breath. “You can reach me anytime. Anything you need. And I’ll drop off some dinner for you tomorrow night. Just text me and tell me what you want.”
“Why are you doing this?”
He shrugs, as if to imply it doesn’t matter. But it does. It matters. So much.
“No, really. Why?”
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�Making up for lost time, I guess,” he says. “Making up for a lot of things.”
“I hate to inform you, but it’s going to take a lot more than shoveling snow . . .”
I’m smiling.
What the fuck?
No.
No, no, no.
I’m supposed to yell at him.
Stomp my feet.
Curse his name.
Beat my fists against his chest and then kick him to the curb.
And here I am, grinning like some love struck teenager, letting the high school quarterback charm his way back into her life.
I wipe the smile, and any traces of it, clean off my face.
“It’s probably not a good idea,” I say.
“What are you talking about?” His expression hardens. He’s displeased with my refusal of his kindness, but what did he expect?
“With Brooks in the hospital, I can’t be spending my free time with an ex-boyfriend. Do you know how bad that looks? And if my parents found out—or Derek . . . no one would understand. Hell, I wouldn’t even understand.”
I shake my head.
“It’s too much. I can’t. I appreciate it, but I can’t accept your help right now.” I rise and walk to the door, the polite, Rosewood way of asking someone to leave. “Thanks, but no thanks.”
“He was cheating on you.”
Royal’s words suck all the oxygen from the air.
My knees wobble and my face numbs. I step back, losing my grip on the doorknob.
“Brooks had been seeing someone on the side.” He speaks slowly. “For quite a while. Well over a year.”
“No.”
Royal nods. “I confronted him last week. He had no clue who I was, but I told him I was an old friend of yours. Told him if he didn’t make a decision, I’d tell you everything. Said I’d make damn sure he’d live to regret ever hurting you.”
He rakes the back of his hand along his five o’clock shadow, his head cocked and eyes wincing.
“The night of his accident,” Royal says, “he was headed north on highway nine. Crashed a couple of miles outside Glidden, not far from her house. He was going to her, Demi.”
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