by Joanna Wylde
He stood and carried his plate into the kitchen, then passed by us again on his way to the living room. Painter leaned back in his own seat, looking me over.
“How are you doing?” he asked, and it sounded like he was actually interested in the answer. I shrugged.
“Good,” I said. “Although it’s a little weird . . . I don’t feel safe going home. Loni’s place is gone. I’m not quite sure what I’m still doing out here, but I don’t have anywhere else to go, either. I can’t even get to my job, because I don’t have a car. Loni and Reese are never here. It’s hard to wrap my head around what comes next, you know?”
Huh. That was a lot more than I’d planned on sharing. I stared down at my plate, wondering if I sounded like a whiny little girl. Painter didn’t respond, so I shot him a look under my lashes. He was studying me intently, although I couldn’t read his expression.
“Wish I had an answer for you,” he finally said. “It’s a fucked up situation and I got no idea what happens next.”
That caught me off guard, because it was so honest. Whenever I managed to corner Loni, she’d just tell me that everything would be okay, and that she’d take care of me. Reese said to calm down, that it would all work out.
Hearing the truth was scary, but refreshing, too.
“Thanks,” I blurted out.
“For what?” he asked.
“For being honest. Everyone is telling me that things are fine, but they aren’t. I’ve got no home, no family to help me, no transportation and if I don’t find a way to get to work soon, I’ll lose my job. Not that I’d even know if I got fired, because my phone blew up with the rest of the house. And I’ve probably got a bazillion dollars in medical bills, too. It is a fucked up situation, so why is everyone pretending it’s not?”
He seemed startled by my sudden burst of speech, which I could understand. I’d startled me, too.
“You know, the house probably wasn’t your fault,” he said slowly. I shook my head, wishing it were true.
“I think I left the gas burner turned on after I made my macaroni and cheese,” I admitted. “What else could’ve caused it?”
“Melanie, leaving on a burner for a couple hours doesn’t blow up a house,” he told me, the words gentle. “I mean, it’s not something you want to go around doing, but whatever happened, it was because of something bigger than you cooking macaroni. It’s not your fault. And Loni’s insurance will probably cover your medical bills, too.”
“I really hope that’s true about the house,” I said, although I knew in my gut it wasn’t. I’d caught a whiff of gas earlier that evening and had meant to investigate. Instead I’d gotten distracted thinking about my mom. “And I guess the medical bills don’t really matter anyway. Not like they can collect.”
He nodded, reaching for the beer he’d grabbed from the fridge earlier. Taking a long drink, he glanced toward the living room, where I could hear Puck rummaging around.
“You don’t have to watch a movie with us if you don’t want to,” he said quietly. “You can go upstairs and rest.”
“I’ll watch it,” I insisted, and not just because I wanted to spend more time with him. I’d had my fill of rest over the past two days. Just having another human being around to talk to was a relief—the fact that he was a super sexy human made it that much better. “Here, let me get your plate.”
“No, that’s all right, I’ll take it,” he said, so we carried the dishes into the kitchen together. He stood and watched while I loaded the dishwasher. Every time I passed him, I caught his scent. Leather and something strange . . . like paint thinner.
“Is Painter your real name?” I asked, avoiding his eyes.
“Nope, my real name is Levi Brooks,” he said. “But I like to paint, and most guys in the club use a road name, so there you have it.”
“Like, paint houses?”
He laughed. “No, pictures. I’m into art.”
That surprised me. I must’ve shown it on my face, because he gave another low chuckle. “Let me guess, you assumed bikers aren’t sophisticated enough to appreciate art?”
I coughed, looking away. I’d be damned if I’d answer.
“You’re cute when you blush,” he said, reaching over to catch a lock of my hair, tugging on it gently. He called me cute! My heart stopped for an instant, and it was hard to follow the rest of his words. “And yeah, I like art. I do a lot of the custom work down at the body shop. All the gold on my Harley is my own, too. Sometimes I do bigger projects. Usually painting on boards for customers who want portraits of their bikes, believe it or not.”
“Wow,” I said. God, he was so out of my league—hot and talented.
“What about you?” he asked. “What do you do?”
“Well, right now I’m waiting tables,” I told him, wishing I had a more interesting job. “But I’m starting school in the fall, at North Idaho College. And once I get all my prerequisites done, I’m going to study nursing. I like taking care of people.”
“Yeah, I can see that. You’re friends with Jessica, right? London’s niece?”
I nodded.
“You take care of her a lot?” I shrugged, because I took care of her all the time, but he didn’t need to know that. At least, I’d taken care of her until she’d run off to California to live with her mom. She’d been super pissed at London for dragging her out of a party at the Reapers clubhouse, which was my fault in a way.
I was the one who ratted her out.
I’d heard a lot of rumors about those parties, about how wild they were. How a girl could get into trouble. Looking at Painter, I believed those rumors, too—if he crooked his finger at me, I’d come running like a shot.
The thought caught me off guard, and I frowned. Since when did I come running for a guy?
“You okay?” Painter asked.
“Sure,” I said, although I was feeling more than a little off-balance. Not physically, but mentally, because in the past two days I’d gone from being afraid of bikers to really, really liking this particular one.
How many girls did he have waiting for him, back at that clubhouse of his?
I looked up to find him staring at me, his face thoughtful.
“Let’s go see what Puck found for movies,” he said. “And Mel?”
“Yeah?”
“Things aren’t okay, but they will be. You can get through this.”
“Thanks,” I whispered, and to my disgust I felt hot tears filling my eyes. I hated crying, hated the kind of girls who cried. Hated looking and feeling weak, but Painter just pulled me into his arms, holding me tight as sobs started shaking my body.
I missed my mom really bad, and I was scared.
He rubbed my back, whispering softly into my ear, although I had no idea what he was saying. All I knew was that for the first time in forever—maybe years—I felt safe.
• • •
An hour later, that whole “safe” thing had passed.
I was sitting in the living room, huddled in a blanket on the couch as I watched a scarred and twisted man carrying a chainsaw creep up behind an innocent young woman.
He was going to kill her.
I knew this because I’d already watched him kill at least ten other people with his horrible weapon, and the movie wasn’t even halfway over yet.
Why the hell hadn’t I gone upstairs when I had a chance?
Now I couldn’t, of course. Not alone in the darkness of the stairwell—not even if I turned on every light in the damned place. My mind could tell me there wasn’t anyone lying in wait to kill me all it wanted, but my gut knew better—the instant I stuck my feet outside the blanket, they’d get cut off.
This sucked, because I really had to pee.
“You okay?” Painter murmured, leaning down close to me. I jumped, startled, and then he was wrapping his arm around my shoulders, pulling me closer to him. The saw roared through the sound system, and I closed my eyes tight as the girl started screaming and screaming. Painter’s hand rubbed
my shoulder, and he gave me a squeeze. “You want us to turn it off?”
Shaking my head, I burrowed into the warmth of his body.
The saw roared again and I moaned.
“Seriously, we can turn it off,” he whispered, close enough to the side of my face that I could feel the heat of his breath, and smell the faintest hint of beer.
“I’m fine,” I insisted, wondering if I’d ever sleep again. I hated horror movies. Hated them. Jessica made fun of me for it all the time, but I’d be damned if I’d admit how scared I was. Not to Painter.
“Okay, then,” he said, and I felt something brush my hair. His hand?
“Good news,” Puck announced, sounding almost cheerful. He was sitting in a chair across the room, watching us with something like humor in his eyes. “This is a whole series. We can do a marathon.”
I moaned again, wondering if I could just roll up into a ball and die, right here.
It would be better than spending the night watching blood spurt.
Would it ever end?
• • •
I woke up in bed, fully clothed under the bedding.
Staring at the ceiling, I blinked, trying to figure out how I’d gotten here. There had been the never-ending, hateful movie marathon. Painter holding me, which was significantly less hateful. London coming home, talking to him in the kitchen and then locking herself in the bedroom.
Had I fallen asleep next to Painter on the couch?
Maybe he carried me upstairs, tucked me in. God, how sexy was that?
Not as sexy as him crawling into bed next to you . . .
A wave of heat spread through me. What would it feel like to sleep with him? Or maybe we wouldn’t sleep at all, just spend the night—
Stop it, I told myself firmly. Stop it right now. If he wanted to make a move, he could’ve. He didn’t. Get over yourself, already.
• • •
“Mel, how much longer until I can put you on the schedule again?” asked Kirstie, sounding impatient. She was my manager at the restaurant and I was talking to her on my new phone. She’d been horrified to hear about the explosion and so far hadn’t complained about all the time off, but that wouldn’t last forever. Either I needed to move somewhere I could walk to work, or I needed a car.
At least I could make calls again.
The phone was a gift from Reese. He’d tossed it casually across the table at me over breakfast on Sunday morning, not long after I’d dragged my chainsaw-traumatized ass downstairs. Puck was sitting at the breakfast table, and I looked around, hoping to see Painter.
No such luck.
After we finished eating, I tried to pin Loni down again, but she didn’t want to talk. Neither did Reese. Everyone just seemed to think I should sit quietly in the corner and stay out of their way—but how was I supposed to rebuild my life stuck in a corner?
There was a reality disconnect here, and it felt like I was the only person who could see it.
I spent Sunday sulking, and by Monday—yet another day alone in the house—I was on the edge of losing it. London came home in the late afternoon and started fixing dinner, even more distracted and out of focus than she’d been before. I tried to help her, but I just kept getting in her way so eventually I went upstairs.
By myself.
Again.
I was lying on the bed, reading an old science fiction book I’d found in the closet. It wasn’t really my thing, but seeing as this was my fourth straight day of doing jack shit, I’d decided to expand my horizons.
A crisp knock came at the door.
“It’s open,” I called, and looked up, expecting to see Loni. Instead I found Painter. He gave me that super sexy smile of his, walking toward the bed with long, loose strides. Then he sat down next to me, and I swear to God, my heartbeat doubled.
“Hey, Mel,” he said, reaching over to slowly pull the book out of my hands. “You want to go out for a while tonight?”
“Like, on a date?” I gasped, then could’ve smacked myself, because how desperate was that? Painter didn’t seem bothered, though.
“Yeah, a date,” he said, sounding bemused. “I thought we’d get dinner, maybe go see a movie.”
That sounded amazing, unreal . . . except for the movie part. I couldn’t do it again, I realized. Not even with his arms around me.
“No horror,” I said, hoping it wasn’t a deal breaker. Painter grinned.
“How about this, I’ll let you pick,” he replied. “I want you to have fun. You ready?”
I thought about my hair, which hadn’t been combed all day. Maybe my clothes weren’t great and I didn’t have any makeup, but I still wanted to primp a little before we left. Hell, what I really needed was a moment alone to catch my breath.
Levi “Painter” Brooks was taking me on a date!
“Give me five minutes,” I told him. “Then I’ll be ready to go.”
“Sounds great,” he said, standing up again. He reached down, offering me his hand. I took it, and he pulled me up and into him. We stood there—touching—for an instant, before he stepped back.
“Sorry about that,” he said, but he didn’t really sound sorry. I tried to keep it casual as he turned away, leaving me alone to get ready. It was almost impossible. I wanted to jump and dance and scream like a little girl. That’s how excited I was.
Instead I splashed some cold water on my face and brushed my hair, wishing I could do more to pretty myself up. Unfortunately, the options were limited.
It would have to be good enough.
• • •
He took me to a bar and grill in midtown, and to my surprise they didn’t bother carding me when he ordered a beer for each of us. I guess when your date is a six-foot-plus biker who’s simultaneously badass and beautiful, the average waitress isn’t paying attention to anyone’s age.
The first sip was bitter, nothing like the Bud Light kegs at our high school parties. I sucked it down, though, and by the time our pizza arrived I had a nice buzz going. Obviously it was a lot stronger than Bud Light, too.
“I really need to find a place in town, so I can walk to work,” I told him, trying not to gross him out while I ate. The pizza here was good. Really good. They’d brought it hot from the oven, and there was melted cheese running all over the place. It tasted amazing, but it didn’t lend itself to delicate eating.
“Either that or a car,” he said, nodding his head. “I’ll talk to the prez—maybe he has something you can borrow.”
“Do you have any idea what their plan is?” I asked him. “Loni and Reese, I mean. They’re still not talking to me, but I’m done sitting around like a potted plant. Tomorrow I’m going to work even if I have to walk.”
A strange look crossed Painter’s face, and he sighed. “You can borrow my car.”
I sat back, stunned.
“I wasn’t trying to beg,” I told him, suddenly uncomfortable.
“Look, I’m not using it much anyway,” he replied. “It’s summer—I’d rather ride my bike. I’m heading out of town for a couple days, but I’ll have one of the prospects bring it over, drop it off for you. That way you can start working again, get back on your feet.”
I didn’t know what to say.
“That might be the nicest thing anyone’s ever done for me,” I whispered. Painter’s smile grew strained, and something dark flickered through his eyes.
“Don’t thank me too much,” he said. He looked away, waving toward the waitress. She hustled her ass right over, and I couldn’t blame her. I’d be hustling too, if he was sitting at one of my tables. “Can I get the check?”
“Sure,” she cooed at him. I watched as she leaned over, flashing her cleavage. He wasn’t looking at her, though.
He was looking at me.
“I’m sorry,” he said quietly.
“Sorry for what?”
The waitress came back, handing over our check. Painter pulled out his wallet and grabbed several bills, stuffing them in the little black folder. Then h
e was on his feet and it was time to go.
He never told me what he was sorry for.
• • •
I picked an action movie.
There was a romantic comedy that looked good, but after he offered to loan me his car that just seemed cruel. He bought the tickets and we started toward the theater. We were almost inside when he paused to check his phone. Then his face turned grim.
“What’s up?” I asked.
“Nothing,” he said shortly. That was a lie if I’d ever heard one.
“No, something’s wrong. Do you need to go?”
He hesitated, and I knew he did.
“We should go,” I said firmly. “You can take me home, and then deal with whatever that was.” I nodded toward the phone.
“Yeah, we might want to do that,” he admitted. “I’m sorry—I didn’t mean to cut things short.”
“It’s fine. I’ve had a great time. I’m just sorry the tickets are wasted.”
“No worries,” he replied. “C’mon.”
The ride back was different. I’d lost the sense of breathless expectation that’d filled me earlier in the evening. Painter’s body was tense. Whatever message he’d gotten, it wasn’t good. We pulled up to Reese’s house to find it dark. I stepped off the bike and looked around, startled to see that Reese’s motorcycle was gone, along with London’s van.
“Where is everyone?”
“Let’s go inside,” Painter said, dodging my question. I followed him in, then turned, looking at him expectantly for an explanation. Something was up, this was obvious. He knew what it was, too.
“Well?” I asked when he didn’t answer my question.
“Reese and Loni are leaving town,” he said. “Most of the club is going with them. We’ve got some business to deal with in Portland. You can just stay here for now, okay? I’ll have the prospects bring my car over for you in the morning.”
He reached down and pulled out his wallet, opening it and counting out a stack of cash. “You can use this to get a place if . . . Well, if things don’t work out here.”
I stared at the money blankly—those were hundred dollar bills.
“I can’t take that.”
He reached for his phone, checked it again. “I don’t have time to argue with you. Take the fucking money.”