He reattached the strings while he teetered on the brink of full-scale panic, outwardly calm but in reality skittering along a razor’s edge of delirium. In a blinding instant, he’d gone from being the luckiest man in the world to one of the damned, burdened with knowledge that was impossible…and yet which had to be true.
Jeffrey tried to slow his thoughts. Mechanically he tuned the guitar, mainly to occupy his hands so he wouldn’t run screaming from the room. He strummed a series of chords and then put the guitar back on the stand, the message’s implications still slamming into him as he tried to cope.
If he assumed it was actually true, he was screwed. Worse than screwed. His brother’s death was all the proof of that conclusion he needed. If they, whoever they specifically were, had been willing to kill Keith and the rest of the innocents, why would they stop at killing him too? Why hadn’t they already killed him, just to be safe?
The answer popped into his head with a certitude that rocked him. Because he didn’t know anything, and they didn’t want to arouse any more suspicion. Or alternatively, because they thought he might know something, but had no idea how much, or who else he might have told.
His brother’s words seemed like a taunt. Trust no one. Everything is bugged.
Which was insane. A lunatic’s conspiracy theory seeped in paranoia and delusion.
Except for the plane.
And…Becky?
Someone seemingly unconnected to anything, but who was the most intimately connected in Keith’s life. The most likely to know something, to have been told something.
Also dead within days of the crash.
Coincidence?
The news of the hit-and-run was suddenly more ominous than a simple accident, one of countless that occurred around the country every week.
Had she been killed to silence her? To end any trail?
If that was even possibly true, then it had likely been Jeffrey’s own distance from Keith, his lack of communication with him, that had spared his life so far. He was the brother out on the coast, who barely talked to Keith once every six months, and then invariably by email, the minimum contact possible for two very busy young men.
Jeffrey’s rational mind grappled with the possibilities the note had raised. A part of him calmed down and looked at things logically. His brother had been acting increasingly erratically. His behavior had changed, and he’d been obsessing over dead cows.
A far more likely explanation than one where the government was blowing up planes was that his brother had been losing his mind. As unpleasant as it was to contemplate, that made more sense. Maybe he’d been doing drugs. Jeffrey knew so little about Keith’s life in the past few years, anything was possible.
And that note had been written by someone extremely paranoid. The big question was whether the paranoia was justified, or was that of a mind slowly coming apart, slipping into delusion.
It was obvious that Jeffrey had only two choices: to reject the notions and assume it was the disturbed ramblings of a man losing touch with reality, or to assume that it was the truth, and be suddenly plunged into a world that he didn’t want to believe existed. One where a ruthless, shadowy government killed at will, butchering as many as it took, and then contrived explanations and railroaded their captive experts and the compliant media into parroting whatever party line it contrived, no matter how implausible.
He’d never been much for conspiracies. He’d ignored the ongoing speculation about damning questions from prior disasters, attributing it to the disturbed inventions of unbalanced minds. Years ago, when Pan Am flight 103, en route from London to New York, blew up over Lockerbie, Scotland, killing all 259 people aboard as well as people on the ground, he vaguely remembered some chatter about a group of CIA agents returning to the U.S. on the flight with evidence of a drug trafficking ring in the agency. And hadn’t there been numerous reports when that plane went down out of New York of something that resembled a missile streaking towards it? The crash investigators themselves had claimed a cover-up, although they’d waited until retirement to say anything. And how about Building Seven of the World Trade Center collapsing at the speed of gravity even though it had never been hit by anything?
Could there really be that big a disconnect between what he wanted to believe because it was in the papers, and what had actually happened? Was he really so blind and apathetic that he’d ignore data he didn’t like because it hinted at a reality he didn’t want to think possible?
If so, one thing was becoming evident by the second. He couldn’t go back. He couldn’t un-see the note, or pretend the words his dead brother had written didn’t exist. He’d have to treat it as genuine, even if he had doubts about his brother’s sanity. The only prudent course was to behave as though he was being watched, and find time to track down the professor and see what he had to say. There was surely no harm in that – play it safe, but not go off the deep end and buy into his brother’s delusion hook, line, and sinker.
Yes, that was the best course – trust, but verify. Don’t jump to conclusions, but also don’t ignore a message from the dead. Because there was still the plane crash to contend with in the alternative theory Jeffrey was forming: one where his brother had been losing his grip. But the plane crash couldn’t be easily dismissed. That was a major sticking point in the “Keith was a loon” hypothesis.
One thing was clear: If Keith really had been involved in something worth killing over, he clearly hadn’t envisioned how extreme the danger was. Would he have ever gotten onto the plane to Rome if he’d suspected it would be the end of his life? Obviously not. Which meant that he’d misjudged his adversaries. A mistake that had cost him everything.
As his thoughts turned increasingly dark, Jeffrey had a sudden impulse to move, to get out of the condo, to run away and never look back.
Except that given what his brother had warned about, that wouldn’t do any good. You couldn’t outrun what you didn’t understand. As Keith had ultimately learned.
Fine. I’ll play along. So think. What can you do? What are the first steps?
If everything was bugged, he was hosed. It would be impossible to do anything.
No. That wasn’t correct. It would be harder, but nothing was impossible.
A sudden ugly idea popped into Jeffrey’s consciousness as he paced in front of the couch. His brother had assumed he was still in San Francisco. And so he had been – until the job offer had come.
The job that had seemed too good to be true. The one that had resulted in him cutting off all his personal contacts back home and moving abruptly to the same city Keith had lived in. Where, presumably, it would be easier to keep an eye on him.
Was that what all this had been about?
Viewed in the light cast by the note, the offer suddenly seemed implausible. Why pay a small fortune for him to move? To offer advice any of hundreds of other experts could have at a fraction of the price? And he’d followed along unquestioningly. Believed the transparent flattery, that he was special and different. They’d played to his vanity and he’d bought it.
He shook his head as if to clear it. Was he going down roads of his own invention now, connecting something that was innocent and unrelated? Becoming paranoid about things that didn’t warrant a nefarious explanation? Following his brother down a rabbit hole where the walls had ears and everyone was out to get him?
Maybe so. Or maybe he was just beginning to see the outline of the truth. Maybe that sinking, anxious feeling in the pit of his stomach was the recognition of veracity.
Whatever the case, he had a problem. The first practical hurdle was that if the warning was accurate, his phone and computer were compromised, as was his car. And if it was the government that Keith had gone up against, Jeffrey could assume that his credit cards and passport were also being used to track him.
The only good news was that up until a few minutes ago, he hadn’t known anything, so he couldn’t slip up or do anything that would alert them.
T
hem.
The bad guys.
But now he knew. And the only defense he had was to act exactly as he had before. Any deviation, any hint of subterfuge, would alert them, and then he could expect the same fate that had awaited his brother.
So what was he going to do? If his every movement was being monitored?
The answer came to him as he put on his coat and walked through his front door to have another beer – liquid courage to calm his frazzled nerves and help him think.
He would have to hide in plain sight.
Because it would be the last thing that anyone would expect.
NINETEEN
A Feint
The following day, Jeffrey went to work and slogged through his morning, meeting with his staff, responding to emails. At lunchtime he deliberately forgot his phone at the office – he would begin establishing a pattern of being forgetful, starting now. He left his car in the garage and walked to get lunch, trying to detect any surveillance without success. Perhaps after weeks of nothing, he was only being passively watched. After all, he couldn’t have displayed any awareness or suspicion so far, and they were probably convinced that he was exactly what he seemed – Keith’s clueless younger brother, self-involved and self-important, strutting like an ignorant peacock, inflated by his recent success and overblown sense of self-worth.
He bought a sandwich at one of the packed delis a few blocks from the office and quickly ate it, then ducked into an office supply store that had internet access and paid for half an hour of time. His first errand was to do a search on the mysterious professor. It didn’t take long to find mentions of him, but it was more involved to find a physical address or phone number. Eventually he got lucky, and he committed the information to memory before going back to the articles the man had authored decades before.
The professor was principally associated with cattle mutilations from the seventies – a very odd period when thousands of animals had turned up drained of blood, many with their organs missing, and with surgically precise incisions that had been lavishly documented. They’d caused a furor, with public speculation about UFO experimentation and the FBI investigating the possible involvement of Satanic cults. Like most mass hysteria media events, the story had died over time and eventually faded from the public consciousness.
He thought back to the discussion with Becky, about Keith researching the cattle mutilations and becoming obsessed. He’d left the professor’s name, and that was the man’s only claim to fame, so whatever it was that he’d been involved in must have been related. Jeffrey did a quick internet search on relevant sites and found himself swimming in crazyland – every possible variation of conspiracy theory on the planet seemed to have found a home for a while in the savaging of livestock.
Jeffrey browsed through a few, and then navigated to the FBI’s site and read the documents that had been archived, which were exclusively newspaper articles from the period, and of no help other than historical perspective. The investigation had gone nowhere and been quietly closed in the early eighties, when the unusual rash of mutilations ended just as abruptly as it had begun. Apparently the little green men with enough sophistication to build intergalactic spacecraft grew tired of dissecting cows and sheep after a decade, and presumably moved on to abducting trailer park residents.
Try as he might, he couldn’t see any smoking gun, but he was out of time for the day – he didn’t want to raise any eyebrows by deviating from his normal behavior. He stopped at a pay phone on his way back to the office and called the professor’s number, unsure what he was going to say when the man answered, but found himself listening to a message announcing that the number he’d dialed was no longer in service. A part of him wondered whether the professor had also been killed, but he put it aside. It was unlikely that the government was killing retired academics with an interest in cattle. Then again, he mused as he returned to the office, it was also unlikely that it was shooting planes out of the sky and covering it up.
Was that what was happening with Keith’s flight? A cover-up? It certainly seemed so. Already the machine was in gear, spinning theories that the mid-air disappearance was a mechanical failure of some sort, a freak accident whose cause might never be known.
His footsteps pounded on the sidewalk as he approached the office, and he realized that he would have to visit the professor in person if he was going to get any answers. But he would need to do it without leaving any traces, which meant no cell and no car. Hopefully the man was still alive and could bring some clarity to a murky situation.
And he would have to get to Zurich, sooner rather than later, and see what was in the box. Without triggering any alarms, which meant that the trip needed to appear to be for plausible, innocent reasons – for Jeffrey, who had only been to Europe once, seven years before, for a week following his graduation.
Back behind his desk, he searched online for an hour and then saw exactly what he needed: a two-day symposium on the changing tax and reporting rules for the European Union, taking place the following Thursday and Friday in Zurich. It would be well within his job description to put in a request to attend it, and with nothing on his plate now other than tying up a few loose ends for the conglomerate’s attorneys, he certainly had abundant free time.
He drafted a memo requesting permission to sign up for the conference and book travel, and sent it to his immediate superior – Eric Fairbanks, one of the partners. Other than a welcoming handshake on his first day, he hadn’t had any interaction with Garfield, and he’d been relegated to Fairbanks’ pool; he was the one who handled the financial end of things, leaving the others to attend to the lobbying and class action support business.
Twenty minutes later his internal line rang, and Fairbanks asked to see him. Jeffrey suited up and walked down the long hall to the partner offices and nodded to the receptionist, who waved him through.
“Jeffrey. Have a seat. What’s this all about a conference in Zurich? Are you tired of working here already?” Fairbanks asked.
“Hardly. The situation in the EU is changing literally week to week, and as we saw on the first deal I handled here, our clients are global entities who need cutting-edge counsel. Informed advice. If you looked at the link I sent you, the speakers are heavy hitters in Euro Zone banking and taxation. I normally don’t go in for attending conferences, but this is a worthwhile exception. I think we’d get a hundred times the value of the travel and attendance costs. It would take weeks or months of research to get everything they’re covering in the two days. Besides which, since I closed the deal last week I’ve got nothing on the board at the moment, so it comes at an opportune time.”
“We’re not in the habit of sending our staff on paid European vacations, young man,” Fairbanks countered sternly.
“Sir, with all due respect, I wouldn’t call sitting in sessions from eight to five for two days a vacation. One of the reasons I try to avoid these is because they’re typically like having un-anesthetized oral surgery. But with the fluid situation in the EU, I’m willing to make an exception. I wouldn’t have suggested it if I didn’t think it was a good use of my time. And if anything comes up between now and then, I can take files with me and work on them on the plane and in the evenings, so my effective usefulness wouldn’t be affected in my absence, nor would my ability to bill.” Jeffrey figured he would mention the magic words – ‘billable hours.’ “And of course, the whole thing’s a write off…”
“And you really believe this is an essential conference?”
“I wouldn’t have suggested it otherwise. I’ll only lose two days of office time – I can take a red-eye over the night before. I think it would be a mistake not to go. My understanding is that every major player in the field is sending personnel there.”
“I see,” Fairbanks said, studying him over the rims of his reading glasses. He took a few seconds to think and then leaned forward. “Let me take it up with Garfield and confirm that he doesn’t have anything pressing he intends to assign
you. I’ll get back to you as soon as I hear from him,” he said, bringing the matter to a close and lowering his eyes back to the paperwork he’d been working on. Jeffrey got the hint and returned to his office, confident that he’d be allowed to take the time off.
Two hours later he got a terse email from Fairbanks okaying the trip.
He went to the men’s room and splashed water on his face, then dried it and looked at his reflection in the mirror. At least that part of his plan had gone off without a hitch. The symposium had been a brilliant feint, a completely reasonable distraction for anyone watching his movements. He could slip out and get to the bank in the late afternoon, and then would have the weekend there if he needed it. And all under the guise of work-related travel.
In a little over a week, he’d know what his brother had paid his life to discover.
From there, he had absolutely no idea what he would do.
But it was a start.
In the meantime, he wanted to spend some time researching cattle mutilations, and figure out how to get to rural Virginia to see about tracking down the professor. All without raising any red flags.
A tall order, but now that he was committed, there was no way he would turn back.
TWENTY
Suspicions
“Europe! Take me with you!” said Monica, as she pushed her Chinese dinner around her plate at Jeffrey’s dining room table.
“I wish I could. It’s not like that. It’s a conference. I’m going to be in meetings all day, and knowing how these go, probably side meetings after. It’s work, not pleasure, unfortunately.”
“That’s what they all say,” she pouted.
“Except this time it’s true. With what happened in Cyprus, the rules are changing really fast, and I need to be up on what the current thinking is. It’s what I do. My job. Besides which, I’m just getting on a plane, landing and going to the meeting, spending the night, and then flying back after the conference on Friday night. It’s actually sort of hellish.”
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