The Collected Poems of Ted Berrigan

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  Poem

  The Nature of the Commonwealth

  the whole body of the People

  flexed her toes and

  breathed in pine.

  I’m the one that’s so

  radical, ’cause all I do is pine. Oh I just

  can’t think of anything—

  No politics. No music. Nobody. Nothing but sweet

  Romance. Per se. De gustibus non disputandum est.

  Flutters eyelashes. Francis, my house is falling down.

  Repair it. Merry Christmas.

  A Certain Slant of Sunlight: Out-takes

  Bardolino

  Allen & Peter, heads close together, Allen

  weeps magically during “Reds”:

  later, drinking pepsi in my living room

  they discuss with Robert Lowell Dr. Williams’

  Communist wheelbarrow—but

  Peter says his own

  Wheelbarrow is blue.

  Postcard 12/2/82

  Feb. 11, 1982. Last night reading Permanent War

  Economy by Sennyor Melman for 30 pages

  & toward the end of the book in the

  appendix Says 1F-16 Super fighter plain costing

  6 or 10 million could provide Houses for 240

  families—Peter Orlovsky

  (“Reading this note, and thinking about Thomas Wolfe:

  12 Feb 82

  —Ted Berrigan”).

  New Poets of England & America

  “the taste is pleasant, and the insane

  perfection, mild . . . .”

  Get Away from Me You Little Fool

  “I have always been emotional beyond belief, so

  there simply must be plenty money in my life: it’s

  not that I like money, I just need not to

  not have enough, ever! So, if I had to be

  a leaf, why ever so many kinds would do—

  they all tremble, don’t they? I know that my

  Redeemer liveth; there is a Lord will provide,

  somewhere, for specialists! I’m not cold meat loaf,

  after all, damp & wooly, dontcha know?”

  “You lack charm.”

  4 Metaphysical Poems

  “Get a job at the railroad”

  “Loan me a few bucks”

  “I gotta buy some pills”

  “So I can understand John Ashbery.”

  Who Was Sylvia?

  Queen name

  ice sign

  was all that remained

  of her suicide note.

  Anselm

  it is a well-lit afternoon

  across the incredible static of time-space-language

  reading a book

  “to be born again”

  between bouts

  through two layers of glass

  I call your name.

  In the mirror

  Anselm’s dreams

  the dimensions of the world

  the performance of the world

  my beauties

  smoke

  writing

  Wednesday Evening Services

  Blindfold shores leaving sad

  an audience of dancers

  Frank O’Hara’s dead & we are not

  The General Returns

  From One Place

  To Another

  the program was dedicated to him

  but I couldn’t make it

  Head Lice

  I have no brain.

  My body is covered with vermin (a few).

  People are calling me names.

  I deserve these names.

  My body is being transformed into glass,

  with a few vermin on it.

  So be it.

  Little Travelogue

  When seeking sky you’re left with sky, then

  “we kill ourselves to propagate our kinde”—We sleep

  and these guys come in with hypodermics & spray us

  with ice water—

  Monkeys press switches & little babies freak out & cry,

  “pick me!” “pick me!”—Oh, Daddy, I was a flower, &

  When I listened to George Shearing, they told me, I broke

  the World’s Record for rapid eye movement! Then, I don’t know

  What I did then, but it was green, & then red, & then

  blue & yellow!

  Sleeping Alone

  It’s a previous carnation, where?

  I think it lived in the shiny lapel

  of my rust colored dinner jacket

  slung over the closet doorknob

  the night of the senior prom

  at St. Xavier’s High, when I was

  Babe Harrington’s date and she

  was selected queen of the prom

  & we danced the first dance alone

  just the two of us, to her own

  personal request “Embraceable You.”

  The closet was in the blue room

  far away upstairs. Babe married

  Joe Fogerty and gained four pounds.

  “Another has

  come to the

  sky mirror . . .”

  (He in the peeling silver eats my drugs)

  The Pope’s Nose

  FOR ANNE WALDMAN

  a nose, heavy, square, & massive;

  large, flesh irrigated with blood;

  a light grave voice; his face

  a long rectangle; pink; poetry

  pours out of it like kool-aid

  at unofficial noon it is crumpled

  like a kleenex:

  here, blow.

  The LADY, JUST WHEN I THINK I KNOW

  YOU, YOU TAKE CAPRICIOUS FORM Travelling

  Circus & Road Show (or, IN THE LABYRINTH)

  Geranium’s

  another word

  for

  “my heart is on my

  sleeve”

  . . . coming from the corner,

  heading for the stairs.

  NOW APPEARING IN:

  MANHATTAN

  TODAY THRU _______

  Treason of the Clerks

  They set you up. Took yr stuff. Gave

  it to me.

  I made a Little Monster with it.

  He’s the enemy of a Wookie.

  He turns grass black and puts it

  on him so

  You can’t see certain parts of his body.

  (The Bad parts.) I can’t talk to you.

  All A-Glower Went My Love Riding

  Hitch on here

  My little timeless

  Teeth & gums, you tiny

  Particles of mid-Victorian Bakery

  Furniture, that Dickens, Tennyson, &

  Bob Creeley saw, where fingertip & moon

  Remain infinitely separate, the way

  Specific chemical hatred & twizzlers

  Do, or one-inch foot in Nature’s

  Chrysler Building, blue and gold, sí,

  That is what they, we, are. And

  Why not? You take a hike? I’ll be

  Your legazine, oh buss! &

  we’ll leave their golden worlds

  while the band plays on, we drive us.

  Climbed by Grandma We Stand on Morning’s Hill

  Now she guards her chalice in a temple

  of fear; once

  a Hardy Boy, a philosopher, a

  blue Christmas light:

  Boils secretly Biotherm . . .

  . . . the time you . . . when you . . .

  In praise of %*@!!! *?@! and

  in class shouting “Dig it!”

  (I told them you were left-handed).

  With Eileen in Locarno

  We commemorated a joyous (if

  unrequited) love—because

  it was in another country—

  because we were each other people

  —because the love that we

  celebrated, did that in commemoration

  of, had been neither ours,

  nor, most certainly, unrequited. We<
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  were both so sad, we laughed & then

  we cried in Locarno. We wished

  our ashes to be mingled together

  forever & forever & forever. Next

  year, in Cho-fu-sa.

  St. Mark’s By-the-Pacific

  Light, informal, & human

  Are your seasons, danger

  Waters coming, pass us by,

  bye-bye—lightly warm &

  humid are your tropics, high

  above the footpath past the sty.

  The pigs grunt no more beneath

  the window, I’m glad we ate them

  The goats are gone, so no one else

  can get them—& the clouds’ reflections

  look like a pride of lions

  in your eyes. This disease isn’t terminal,

  so it’s restful; we fuck & think over wine

  here, there are eggs & cream in the fridge,

  it’s so divine to be here!

  Three Lost Years

  FOR PEGGY DECOURSEY

  For a brief time Acting Chief

  Didn’t harmonize actively with an easy

  View of life—pinball machines being played

  By preposterous kid-wits on the backs

  of Flat-bed Pick-up trucks—by

  Land’s End in glad—or else sad-ness—But

  Why should I care? Grace falls

  On anyone who can walk out of Ballroom A;

  And out off into the Sky-Vista! Sure. &

  So does Peggy.

  Butchie’s Tune

  FOR ALEX & ADA

  What’s the number I request.

  When the band began to play?

  a fragrant flowered shrub blush

  and one cannot go back, except in time

  This mushroom walks in.

  “Hi, Mom! Hi, Dad!”

  He is not really thinking.

  Yet I take him purely as treasure.

  This morning we were footprints in the

  snow. And The Band Played On.

  Listening to the words from the morning bush

  all the day,

  We sleep & dream our lives away. & so, a

  tendency to get surprised rarely is absent,

  this perfect day.

  La Bohème

  I’m not difficult but there are just certain things

  that this here that are not this here, & no

  matter what you say, No! (no) I don’t ever do that . . .

  But when you think about it, it seems that

  this here doing nothing could use a head if anyone

  nice has one they aren’t using, no?

  Turkeys

  FOR TOM CAREY

  They have bent.

  They cling.

  They attack & capture.

  It is a treat, a nightmare, a punch in the face.

  He wanders by himself.

  He lingers. He idles

  In his little house.

  He absorbs, and is absorbed.

  He begins to bear down on what he sees:

  Young faces, puzzling argot, meat, or “the postulant”:

  You nod and scrunch up your face and chuckle.

  Let me out of here you silently shriek.

  “I’ve got to hang up now, a man is yelling at me.”

  A pill always seems to be about something.

  To a Young Painter*

  “Ah Fitz but we are profound

  chaps—we word lads.”

  “We ride in our round paper boats

  From Ireland and Israel & Iceland without

  coats. We feed our slaves

  Locusts, our kids Moths & oats; and we starve

  our cave-painters because they are sloths!” Love,

  Mr. P. F. C. Hemingstein

  Upside Down

  You don’t have to be Marie Curie

  or even Simone de Beauvoir already

  to write your memoirs, you know? after

  all, we all have a polymorphous perverse

  first person singular, don’t we? . . . .

  If you don’t want to see & hear, don’t feel

  like it, say . . . maybe wd rather worry, or

  sulk. . . . Still you do have to remember, there’s

  no way to put blinders on one’s insides, you

  know . . . or do you? Sure you can.

  Der Asra

  Every day back & forth

  The exquisite daughter of the Sultan walked

  At evening by the fountain,

  Where the white water splashes.

  Every day the young slave

  Stood at evening by the fountain,

  Where the white water splashes;

  Every day he grew pale, and paler.

  Then, one evening, the Princess, turning

  Came up to him with these words:

  Thy name will I know! thy

  Country! thy Kin!

  And the slave spoke: I am called

  Mohamet. I am from Yemen.

  And my people are the Asra

  who die, when they love.

  HEINRICH HEINE

  (RANS. TED BERRIGAN & GORDON BROTHERSTON)

  Fern

  I had this dream

  I was supposed

  to get married

  to a sensitive prince, &

  together

  we wd score for hash

  from our maid-of-honor, Sancho Panza—

  A choir of Windmills in their cassocks & surplices

  were going to surround us in song for

  the rest of our lives,

  beautiful boy sopranos, singing with aching purity, the

  only song they know: THE LITTLE DRUMMER BOY.

  my whole life? I hid myself beside a burning

  bush,

  My verdant response

  to monogamy

  in Spring. And

  The sea was tumbling in harness

  As I sailed out to die.

  San Francisco

  You took me

  for everything

  I have

  I had it

  Thanks

  for that

  You

  O, Sexual Reserve

  Why don’t we

  call up

  David

  Hockney &

  ask him for

  a thousand?

  One Day in the Afternoon of the World

  FOR ERJE AYDEN

  I never said I was right, or wrong.

  I said I was lucky. I waved a leg

  in the air. First, I’m going to eat this,

  Then I’m going to eat you! Just two

  High livers, stretched-out on the Elephant grass,

  mouths dripping with blood, & wheezing like fire-sirens,

  We passed our long love’s morn:

  So ends my song, like a pair of she-lions.

  Two Serious Ladies

  That’s all

  one life needs—

  Two serious ladies.

  Down Moon River

  Talking

  To Charlie on the stoop

  Wearing asbestos suit

  I see the really horrible fly

  On top of the yellow rose—I

  Can’t believe it, it’s so ugly

  I just don’t have much conversation

  to give, these days, now I’ve sung my ABC’s:

  (next time won’t you sing with me?): She

  sang beside herself, beyond

  The genius of the Sea.

  At 80 Langton Street (S.F.)

  FOR BILL BERKSON

  I stand at the dock in judgement

  literally already condemned

  but also am here to be informed,

  as my illustrious colleagues Anselm Hollo,

  Lorenzo Thomas, and Kathy Acker

  have done before me.

  I am pleased and flattered

  to be joined in such Noble

  Company, & only wish that I too might spark

  giant &
seething controversies & provoke angry

  exchanges & bloody fistfights; but, like Anselm Hollo

  I am merely a National Treasure, so, what I am

  going to do is talk, which is what I do, plus read my poems.

  Bill Berkson will take care of the rest, the doing what must

  be done part.

  So, let us begin. I’m about to do so, I will offer you this

  one word of advice, in front.

  Duck.

  * “(He had a way of wearing very casual clothes.)”

  Last Poems

  Robert (Lowell)

  Like the philosopher Thales

  who thought all things water

  and fell into a well . . . trying to

  find a car key . . . (“it can’t be here . . .”)

  We rest from all discussion,

  drinking, smoking, pills . . .

  want nothing

  but to be old, do nothing, type & think. . . .

  But in new December’s air

  I could not sleep, I could not write my name—

  Luck, we’ve had it; our character’s gone public—

  We could have done worse. I hope we did.

  Today in New York City

  FOR BERNADETTE & LEWIS

  Gay doormen face a severe shortage of cocaine

  The White House announced today.

  The crisis

  Which could blow the lid off

  Of Boys Town

  is a result of Latest Great Depression

  Brought on by

  Savage game of “Go Fish”

  In Congress

  On the street where you live.

  Citizens are being asked

  To tie up their children

  And to walk their clones

  In groups of five

  At 55 mph

  Police said today.

  2.

  The President said

  When Mars squares Saturn

 

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