A COLLAPSE OF HORSES
Also by Brian Evenson
Altmann’s Tongue
Contagion
Dark Property
The Din of Celestial Birds
Father of Lies
Fugue State
Immobility
Last Days
The Open Curtain
The Wavering Knife
Windeye
Copyright © 2016 by Brian Evenson
Cover illustration and design by Sarah Evenson
Book design by Ann Sudmeier
Author photograph © Valerie Evenson
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LIBRARY OF CONGRESS CATALOGING-IN-PUBLICATION DATA
Evenson, Brian, 1966–
[Short stories. Selections]
A collapse of horses : stories / by Brian Evenson.
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ISBN 978-1-56689-414-2 (eBook)
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for Kristen, with love
CONTENTS
Acknowledgments
Black Bark
A Report
The Punish
A Collapse of Horses
Three Indignities
Cult
Seaside Town
The Dust
BearHeart™
Scour
Torpor
Past Reno
Any Corpse
The Moans
The Window
Click
The Blood Drip
Acknowledgments
The stories in this collection previously appeared in the following magazines and journals:
The American Reader: “A Collapse of Horses”
Black Clock: “The Moans”
Caketrain: “Black Bark”
Conjunctions: “Cult” and “Torpor”
Dark Discoveries: “BearHeart™”
Granta: “The Blood Drip”
Green Mountains Review: “A Report”
McSweeney’s: “The Dust”
Monkey / Monkey Business: “The Punish”
Nightmare: “Cult”
Unsaid: “Scour” and “Three Indignities”
And in the following anthologies:
Jesse Bullington, Ed., Letters to Lovecraft: “Past Reno”
Ellen Datlow, Ed., Best Horror of the Year, Volume 7, “Past Reno”
Ellen Datlow, Ed., Fearful Symmetries: “The Window”
Richard Gavin, Patricia Cram, and Daniel A. Schulke, Eds., Penumbrae: “Any Corpse”
Paula Guran, Ed., The Year’s Best Dark Fantasy and Horror, 2014: “A Collapse of Horses”
Simon Stranzas, Ed., Aickman’s Heirs: “Seaside Town”
“Black Bark” would not have been written without Laird Hunt’s Kind One. “Any Corpse” would not have been possible without William Godwin’s Lives of the Necromancers (1834). Jesse Ball’s “Pieter Emily” is the source for the quoted text in “The Moans.” “The Window” came about when Michael Stewart shared the particulars of an attempted break-in with me. I’d also like to extend a heartfelt thanks to a number of magazine and anthology editors who have supported my writing for many years and who seem often to understand my work better than I do myself: many, many thanks, to Bradford Morrow, Steve Erickson, Ben Marcus, David McLendon, Ellen Datlow, Paula Guran, and John Joseph Adams. Thanks are due too to Jeff Vandermeer and Peter Straub, without whom I’d be less of a writer. And to Claro and Motoyuki Shibata, for their fine care with my work in France and Japan, and for catching my typos in English. And finally, my sincere gratitude to Coffee House Press and Chris Fischbach, without whom none of this would be possible.
A COLLAPSE OF HORSES
—for Laird Hunt
Black Bark
They’d been riding two days straight now, climbing farther and farther up into the mountains in a bitter wind, searching for the cabin Sugg claimed was supposed to be there. Things had not gone smooth. Sugg had taken one in the leg, the thigh, and the blood had dripped down inside his pant leg and into his boot. Now, Rawley saw, the boot was overfull, and Sugg was leaving a drizzle of blood along the trail behind them. The side of Sugg’s stolen tovero too was slicked with it, and the slick had taken on a vaguely human shape, as if Sugg’s leg jostling back and forth against the horse had been trying to draw someone with his blood.
“We got to stop,” said Rawley. “You need to rest.”
For a long time Sugg didn’t answer. Then he said, in a voice just above a whisper, “It’s around here somewhere. Bound to come across it any moment.”
“Where?” asked Rawley. There’d been nothing for miles. When Sugg didn’t answer, he said, “It’s going to be dark soon.”
But Sugg just kept on. Or didn’t rein his horse in, anyway. Maybe the horse was just following its own path.
They were following a trail that flirted with the fast-moving creek, curving toward it and then away again. At first Sugg hadn’t been sure it was the right creek. Now he claimed to be sure, but Rawley guessed he didn’t know for certain. He’d been saying for hours the cabin was just around the next curve, around the next bend, but no cabin ever was.
“Going to be dark soon,” Rawley repeated. “We should stop, make camp.”
Again it took a long time for Sugg to answer, but when he did, his voice sounded a little stronger. “They still following?” he asked.
Rawley shook his head, spat. “Haven’t been for hours,” he said. “We shook them.”
“Maybe they just want us thinking so,” said Sugg. “Maybe they’re trying to take us off guard.”
Rawley shook his head again. “Naw,” he said. “It’s just us.”
Sugg was swaying a little in the saddle. For a moment Rawley eased back on his reins and watched him.
“Sugg,” he said. “Sugg, you got to stop.”
Sugg didn’t say anything, just kept riding.
“Sugg,” he called after him. “I’m stopping here. I mean it.”
But Sugg didn’t look back. He just kept going, still swaying, keeping to his slow, leisurely pace as it took him around a bend in the path and he disappeared from Rawley’s view.
Cursing under his breath, Rawley spurred his horse and followed.
He hadn’t been far behind, but when Rawley came around the bend, Sugg and the tovero were nowhere. He reined up and took a closer look at the tovero’s track, but it just ended, abruptly. He backtracked and looked for a break off the trail they might have taken, but there was nothing he could see. He cursed, louder this time.
“Sugg!” he shouted, and when there was no answer, he took out his pistol and shot it once in the air. He waited the echo out, then listened, but didn’t hear any response. He nudged his own stolen horse along with his spurs until it was loping. He followed the trail around the next bend, but Sugg wasn’t there either.
He followed the trail up a half mile or so, looking for some sign of Sugg’s cabin, but there was still no sign of habitation anywhere. As he climbed, the leaves of the aspens were suddenly already yellowing. The path bucked closer to the creek, and the water’s rumble grew louder. He watched the sunlight slide up the side
of the slope and disappear, leaving the air suddenly chill, the papery bark of the trees slowly graying in the fading light.
Across the river, he spotted the mouth of a cave, unless maybe it was an old mineshaft. He found a place to ford and splashed his horse across. On the other side he dismounted, tied the reins to a tree, and climbed the bare shale slope, slipping, up to the entrance.
Not a mineshaft. Just an ordinary cave. It was dry inside, with a fairly level floor, and smelled of dust. He couldn’t tell how far back it went. Somebody had arranged a circle of worn, ash-smeared stones near one of the walls. A fire pit. Not a cabin, but it was shelter. It’d do.
He started down to gather some wood. There were enough dead and dry branches scattered around that it took just a minute or two to gather a decent stack. Though the sun had slid behind the peak, there was still light left. He tried to gauge how long it would last, but found it impossible to tell without the sun. Could last another five minutes or another twenty. No moon yet, but he didn’t know if that meant it was yet to appear or it wasn’t coming. He sighed and dropped the branches near his horse, then untied the reins and went back to see if he couldn’t find Sugg after all.
He spurred the horse at first and then just settled back to let it take its own way. It galloped for a bit, then loped, then slowed until he spurred it again, rubbing his hand along its neck as he did so, trying to stay friends. Five minutes of decent riding and the light had all but dwindled. A minute later and he could hardly see.
He was readying to rein up and return to the cave when he saw a dim shape athwart the trail. He went close and squinted, finally got down and bent over it. Only by touching it did he become sure it was a man.
“Sugg?” he said. “Where’s your horse?”
“Gone,” said Sugg. The man was limp, hardly moving, and he smelled of oil and blood.
“You all right?” asked Rawley.
Sugg just gave a low chuckle.
“Come on,” said Rawley. “Found a cave.”
When Sugg didn’t say anything, Rawley hauled him to his feet. Sugg couldn’t stand, couldn’t keep his feet under him, so in the end Rawley had to drop him. It took a few more tries before he had the man up and across his back and was staggering under his weight. A few good heaves and Sugg was slung over the saddle of the horse, who made it clear it didn’t want no part of it. But finally it was done. Taking the horse by the reins, Rawley headed for the cave.
In the dark he missed it at first and had to double back. No moon had come up, none at all. In the end he only found the cave again because he remembered the way the creek had sounded right near it, but it took stopping and setting fire to a dead branch to find where to cross the river, and even then some searching still to make out the cave’s mouth.
He put the horse down below to graze, left the torch to burn itself out on the shale, and slung Sugg over his shoulder. Sugg groaned once but otherwise didn’t hardly move. Rawley stumbled his way up the shale with him, slipping and falling and once even dropping the man, but finally he pushed the fellow up over the lip and into the cave’s mouth. He went back down for the tinder and his bedroll before clambering in for good himself.
“This the cabin?” asked Sugg from the floor, his voice barely above a whisper.
“No,” said Rawley. “But it’s shelter.”
“Not far now,” said Sugg absently. “Just around the next bend.”
Rawley ignored him.
He seated Sugg against the wall while he arranged the branches, got a fire going. He kept it low, both in case they were still following and because he didn’t want to fill the cave with smoke, but there was still some warmth to it if you were close. It wasn’t no cabin, but it wasn’t open country either. It would do.
In the flickering light, Sugg looked pale, almost dead. Rawley said his name once and then repeated it. Sugg did not seem to hear.
Rawley circled his way around the fire and shook him.
“Here,” whispered Sugg. “Still here.”
Rawley carefully worked off the other man’s boot. He kept expecting him to moan or flinch but he never did, neither spoke nor moved. When the boot finally came loose, it came with a rush of blood, spattering Rawley’s hands and his own boots. How much blood can the man have left in him? Rawley wondered.
He slit open Sugg’s soaked pant leg with his knife, then carefully peeled back the dressing. The skin beneath, once he sopped up the blood, appeared livid, the lips of the wound puckered and swollen. He cleaned it best he could, then bound it up again in the same sodden dressing. Then he circled back to his own side of the fire and sat.
“You’re still alive, right?” Rawley asked. When Sugg didn’t answer, he came back around the fire pit and prodded Sugg’s side with his boot, repeating the question.
“What?” asked Sugg. When he spoke, he didn’t move his lips hardly at all, it seemed to Rawley. Or maybe he did. Maybe it was just the flames and shadow that made it seem so.
Rawley leaned over, spat. It didn’t hit the fire but sizzled on one of the rocks forming the edge of the fire pit. “You’re still alive?” asked Rawley for the third time.
“What kind of question is that?”
“You’re going to lose the leg,” said Rawley.
There was silence for a long while, then a strange high-pitched wheezing that it took Rawley a moment to realize was Sugg laughing.
Rawley sat still, staring into the fire. He was hungry, but it still felt good to be off a horse.
“Got food in the cabin?” he asked.
“Sure,” said Sugg. “Help yourself.”
Rawley kept staring. There was something about the way the air drew in the cave that made the fire go from leaping high to nearly guttering, all in the course of a few seconds. He couldn’t stop staring.
He breathed in deep. “Tomorrow,” he said. “Tomorrow, you stay here. I’ll go see if I can find the cabin.”
“Tomorrow I’ll be just where I am,” said Sugg.
“What do you mean?” asked Rawley, confused, but Sugg didn’t answer. “That’s a strange way to put it,” said Rawley. “When are you not just where you are?”
“Exactly,” said Sugg.
Rawley stared farther into the fire, deeper this time. When he came to himself, he was not sure how much time had passed. He shook his head back and forth to clear it. “We should get some sleep,” he said. He turned and started to stretch out on the cave floor, jostling about to get comfortable. He was almost there when, so softly he wasn’t sure at first that he’d heard it, Sugg called his name.
“What is it, Sugg?” he asked.
“Something in my boot I need,” said Sugg. “Reach down and pull it out for me?”
“The boot you’re wearing or the boot you’re not?”
“Not,” Sugg said.
“The bloody one,” said Rawley, flatly.
“The bloody one,” confirmed Sugg.
“Like hell I’m reaching into that blood-soaked thing,” Rawley said. He pulled himself up onto his elbows. Across the fire, Sugg still hadn’t moved. “It’s not sanitary. What you after, anyway?”
When there was no answer, Rawley sighed. He pulled himself over and reached, fumbled the boot up off the stone floor, then rolled until he was sitting up. He upended it, shook it, but nothing came out. He knocked its heel against the floor a few times, then upended it again. Still nothing. He tossed it back. It lay flopped over Sugg’s foot.
“What you say it was?” asked Rawley.
“Didn’t say,” said Sugg. “A good-luck charm.”
“No, there’s nothing there,” said Rawley.
“Figures,” said Sugg.
They stayed there watching the fire quiver. It was, Rawley thought, like a living, breathing thing. As soon as he thought that, the fire grew dim, threatened to go out.
“We should stretch out and get some sleep,” Rawley said.
“I’m fine,” Sugg’s voice said over the glow of the coals. “You stretch out. I’m jus
t fine here.”
“All right,” said Rawley. But for some reason he kept sitting there, staring into the fire and at the dark shape of Sugg across from him.
He didn’t know how much time had passed. Maybe a long time, maybe just a little. It was as if the dying fire had hypnotized him, or maybe he’d fallen asleep. But when suddenly he heard Sugg’s voice, he wasn’t sure if he was dreaming or if Sugg was really talking.
“Know the story of black bark?” Sugg’s voice asked. It was completely dark now. Rawley couldn’t see even the barest glimpse of the other man. He waved his fingers in front of his face but couldn’t see those either.
“Black what?” he asked.
“Bark,” said Sugg.
“Like from a tree?”
“Sure,” said Sugg. “Why not?”
“What do you mean, why not?” asked Rawley, more awake now, irritated. “Either it is or it isn’t.”
It was as if Sugg hadn’t heard. He was already telling the story. “A man found a piece of black bark in his coat pocket,” he said. “He wasn’t sure how it had gotten there. It was just there.”
He paused for long enough that Rawley asked, “And that’s the story?”
“More or less,” said Sugg. “The whole of it gathers up in those words, in that beginning. Everything else is just teasing it out.”
“What kind of story is that?”
“Shall we tease it out?” asked Sugg.
Rawley shrugged, then realized Sugg wouldn’t see it. “Go to sleep,” he said.
“You’ll sleep soon enough,” said Sugg. “For now, listen.”
“A man found a piece of black bark in his coat pocket,” repeated Sugg. “He wasn’t sure how it had gotten there. It was just there.
“He took it out and stared at it. He wasn’t sure where it came from, what kind of tree, if it was a tree.”
“What else has bark?” asked Rawley, feeling suddenly very strange.
“This man too was the sort of man who only knew about the bark of trees,” said Sugg. “Like you. And in his mind, he went through all the trees he knew but couldn’t think of any with bark as black as this. Maybe that should have told him something. But he just looked at the piece of black bark for a long while and then tossed it away.
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