“I’ll go see Riesner tomorrow,” Mike said. “Tell him to cooperate with the dismissal.”
There was no doubt in him. He sounded like a man fighting for his life. He wanted her back. But she didn’t believe in miracles. Things were far from perfect. She could never trust him as she once had. “I love you, Mike, but I won’t go on with things the way they have been.”
Mike said, “I know. So we won’t. We’ll get married on Sunday.”
There was a very long silence.
“Lindy. Marry me. Please,” Mike said urgently. “Any day you want, if Sunday’s not convenient.”
Another silence.
“Lindy?” he said, sounding very anxious.
“Oh, sure, Mike.”
“Please?”
“Why should I believe this?”
“I mean it. I love you more than ever. I need you back in my life. This time for good, Lindy.”
For a long time she looked out across the water, remembering the last time they had been together on this lake, in a boat. The spring wind fluttered through his hair as he stood waiting for her to say something, so very different than he had been that night, a different person, as she was.
He wanted to marry her at last. Here it was, big as Lake Tahoe and just as full of mystery, the happy ending, nothing like she had ever imagined. Underneath the ridiculous, persistent, flickering hope that this time would be for good and forever, doubt and fear had taken the place of faith. She had never known how fragile it all was. She had never known how your hopes could collapse on you, and destroy you. How hard it was to go on, knowing that.
“I’ll promise to marry you . . .” she began.
“Ah, Lindy.” His face creased into a deep smile.
“If you promise not to wiggle out of it this time,” she finished.
“No more wiggling.”
“I’ll believe that when I see the preacher here on Sunday,” she said.
They kissed, and then sat down on the built-in benches that lined the stern, touching shoulders. “I’m taking you on a real honeymoon,” Mike said. “I know just the place.”
“You want to leave right now? With the business in so much trouble?”
“The question is, what do we want to do? I have a suggestion. I’m thinking we might want to sell out, go somewhere brand-new. I hear there’s a big opal mine in Australia for sale . . . .”
“A new start,” she said. She ran a finger along his chin, refreshing her memory of its shape.
“Just sell out and go.”
“I’m already packed,” Lindy said, and as she said it, words from Corinthians her father used to quote came into her mind. “Love is patient. Love is kind. It is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongs.”
She realized she would never know why it all happened, why he fell in love with Rachel, or why she forgave him. Why they had ended up in court. She did not have a clue. You just never knew about people. There were so many things going on inside them all the time, waves of memories and events, influences you could never fathom. She thought again, sadly, of Clifford Wright.
“Speaking of business,” she said, “I’m going to have Nina draw up some papers for us to sign, Mike. Things are going to be different between us, marriage or no.”
“Sure,” he said. “Let’s make it plain and simple, in writing. That ought to satisfy even ol’ Jeff Riesner.”
A speedboat went by, and its wake made the cruiser pitch and sway. “By the way,” he said, holding her tightly, “how much is the damage so far in the legal department?”
“A lot, but Nina worked very hard for me. I wish I had something personal to give her, something really special, besides money,” she said, thinking of Genevieve. “I’d like to show her how much I appreciate . . . Oh! I know. How about this for a bonus? I’ll pass along my dad’s claim. It’s not worth anything, but it’s a place to go besides her office. Maybe she would like that. I don’t think I’ll ever go back there now. Too many memories.”
“Great idea.”
“Her costs and hourly fees ran to about a hundred thousand total. Isn’t it awful? What an expensive lesson. She won’t get the percentage, of course.”
He turned her so that the sun warmed her back and began massaging with the art of an ex-boxer who really knew what felt good. “Your legal fees are a hundred grand?” he said, moving his fingers soothingly over the knobs in the center of her back, working slowly, kneading the sore spots he knew so well.
With the tenderest possible touch of his callused hands, he was trying in the best way he knew how to erase some of the injury of the past year.
“You got a bargain,” he said, and laughed. “My lawyer charged twice that.”
“Moan and whine for the rest of today if you have to,” Sandy was telling Nina across town, “but that’s all the time you get. You have an appointment tomorrow at ten.”
“Oh?” Nina had started to pick at her salad. The afternoon sun, reflecting off the lake outside, blazed into the office, warming her face. She tried to yawn, wishing she could nap for just a few minutes and forget the mountain of financial trouble she was in, but exhausted and tired were two different things. She felt exhausted but wired.
“New business,” Sandy said.
“Sandy, no . . .”
“Something big.” She was sitting very still, wearing her most deadpan expression.
She was up to something.
“Sandy, tomorrow’s a long way away to me right now. I have a lot of decisions to make. Even if I could afford it, I can’t consider getting all wrapped up in another horrible case. . . .”
“You’re going to love it,” she said.
And as she spoke, something stirred inside Nina, a familiar feeling, that little thrill.
What the hell, she thought.
She took her feet off the desk, straightened up, and picked up a yellow pad.
“Lay it on me, Sandy.”
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ACTS OF MALICE
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PROLOGUE
Pretending he was still asleep, he felt his wife crawl out of bed.
Outside, he could hear birds. That meant last night’s snowfall had stopped. He wondered if the sun had finally blasted through the layer of clouds that had cursed the sky the past several days.
Jim Strong didn’t move, didn’t even open his eyes. He followed the sounds as Heidi got ready in the bathroom, the ritual of every morning: splash water on her face, brush her teeth, search her face in the mirror until it was all back in place, her past, her present, her secrets.
She sprayed her hair and ran her fingers through it over and over. She squeezed sunblock onto her hands and rubbed it on her pale skin. Every sound, so placid, so falsely suggestive of domestic peace, aroused a fresh wave of anger in him. She had no right to be so sure of anything. Not after what she had done.
He controlled his breathing as she came softly into the dim bedroom and paused at the foot of the bed. He felt her eyes landing on him, and stopping to prowl over his face. Then she turned away. He watched through slitted eyes as she slipped the long T-shirt off over her head, her long white back with the bumpy spine, the tight calves, and delicate feet that she was inserting quietly and carefully into her tights.
She was so very beautiful. After three years, he loved her more than ever. She had seemed so blunt, so honest, like he was—forceful, an athlete with her own code of honor.
He had always thought, if she ever cheats on me, I’ll—but now that she had, he didn’t want to hurt her. He just wanted her to turn back toward him, where she belonged.
The ski bibs slid like satin over her body. Balancing on one leg, she pulled on her Ragg socks, then tiptoed out of the room, carrying her boots and parka.
He opened his eyes. He could hear better with his eyes open. Now she drank a glass of milk greedily, down to
the last drop. Now she stuffed her keys into her fanny pack, and shut it with a zip. Now she bumped into the fish tank, and now . . .
She was leaving.
Out on the street, she scraped snow off the windshield. Then the cold motor turned and started up. She didn’t wait as long as usual for it to warm up. Forcing it into action, she took off.
He threw off the covers and jumped out of bed. Pulling up the shade, he saw what the new storm had brought: sunshine in a searing white blaze, and at least two feet of new snow, feathery and dry.
Was she going to meet her lover? He studied the heavily burdened trees, aware that for once in his life he didn’t know what to do.
No matter. It would come to him.
At Paradise, both quad lifts were operating and the hill was jammed with skiers. Carrying his Rossignols over his shoulder, Jim walked along the wall of the lodge and examined the rows of skis.
No sign of Heidi’s K-2s. He would know, since he’d watched her a hundred nights waxing them and fiddling with the bindings, getting them perfect. He went into the lodge restaurant.
“Seen Heidi?” he said to the day hostess, who looked like Heidi, but was chunky and plainer. Gina something, her name was. He had let her know when she was hired that part of the job was to help him keep tabs on the rest of the family.
“No, sir.” That was good. He liked respect. He was the boss. “I think she was in about half an hour ago. She couldn’t wait to get out on the powder.”
“Who was she with?”
“Um, nobody. Your father’s already in the back office, Mr. Strong.”
“Okay.” He didn’t want to see his father right now. “My brother show up?”
“Alex and Marianne just left,” the girl went on. “They were arguing. I think they separated.”
“The gang’s all here,” Jim said. He chucked her under the chin. He knew she didn’t like that, which made him enjoy the gesture even more. He was angry at her for looking like Heidi.
“Gangbuster day,” she said with a bright phony smile, and went back to work.
Pulling on his goggles to cut the glare, Jim trudged outside. He wondered where Heidi might be skiing. Off-trail somewhere, probably. Maybe somewhere with Marianne. She was probably filling Heidi’s head with ideas about leaving him.
On the other hand, it was Marianne who had warned him to watch Heidi in the first place—good advice, as it turned out. He had watched and watched until Heidi screamed at him to stop spying. Then he had told her he knew.
With that half-defiant, half-scared look he was beginning to know so well, she had admitted it. She had said she was thinking of leaving him. She had told him who it was, cutting Jim off at the knees.
The sun burned into his face. He leaned against the outer wall of the lodge and slathered on sunscreen.
He could just ski, forget about her, and get in a few runs. From the top he could see most of the trails, though if she was off-trail in the trees, he would never find her.
He decided to cruise down some of the black-diamond runs. Give her time to meet her lover, if she had the nerve. He would catch up to her sooner or later, and then . . . something would happen.
He skied all morning on the expert runs. The powder was so sensational he even forgot her now and then, although the anger in him still burned like hot lead in his stomach.
He had never been in such virgin powder. Once he came across Marianne snowboarding along the Ogre Trail, her black hair flying over red bibs. He flew by her, lifting one pole in a salute, but he doubted Marianne had even seen him.
He saw no sign of Heidi. He missed her, wanted her by his side.
Later, at the lodge, he ate lunch. As he spooned thin vegetable soup into his mouth, the hostess told him she thought his father had gone for the day. She reported no sightings of Alex or Heidi.
After eating, he went out again. He was hunting. The day had deepened into a mellow afternoon, still crystal clear on the slopes, warmer.
He fell through light and shadow on white crystals, weightless, swerving and turning and falling endlessly, then riding back up to do it all over again.
No sign of her. He had a brainstorm. Maybe she was skiing the Cliff. She had talked about it often, but he thought she had never followed through. Today, with the snow so tempting, the conditions so perfect . . . maybe.
He took the Bald Eagle run halfway to an opening in the forest and dodged into it, pushing up his goggles as he ducked in because of the dark that closed around him. The faint downhill trail they usually followed was buried under the snow, and he had to look sharp to avoid trees and gullies.
In a clearing on the side of the mountain, steep and wooded, expert territory, the trail opened up.
Heidi wasn’t there, but Alex was sitting in the snow, fixing one of his bindings.
Jim skied straight across to him.
“What are you doing here?” Alex asked sourly.
“What’s the matter? Did you break it?”
“I don’t like the fit. I spent an hour working on these fucking bindings this morning and they still don’t fit. I mean, I can ski, but I really hoped for what I paid I could get them so tight my feet would be screaming.”
“Sit there.” Jim planted his poles and herringboned over to Alex.
“Watch yourself. It’s a long slide and the Cliff is dead ahead,” Alex said. He stretched his leg out so Jim could have a look. The ski stuck straight up into the air.
“I remember.” Jim took Alex’s boot. “I can’t fix it with you sitting there. Get your lazy ass up and stand on it. What did you do to your eye?” He helped Alex up and gave him time to kick out a level platform and stand on the ski.
“Gene Malavoy came up to me in the parking lot last night and laid into me. I don’t even know what it was about. I fought him off and he ran. Know anything about it?”
“I fired him yesterday. Can’t imagine why he’d go after you, though.”
“Fired him? What did you do that for?”
“Let’s talk about it later. Seen Heidi?” Jim pulled a glove off with his teeth and got to work on the ice-encrusted binding.
“She’s off duty today, isn’t she?”
“Yeah. She’s up here somewhere.”
“Maybe she’s with Marianne.”
“I saw Marianne. On the Ogre. Alone.”
“Marianne likes that trail.”
“You doing the Cliff?” Jim said.
“I’m doing the side of the Cliff,” Alex said.
“Pretty extreme run.”
Alex looked at him sideways, on the alert for a challenge. He was three years younger. He had never been able to keep up with Jim. “It’s only for people with a death wish,” he said. “We did it. Remember? I was, what? Thirteen? And you were sixteen.”
“Yeah, but we were crazy then. I still don’t know how you made it. Only thirteen years old. Jesus, Alex. You skied like a sonofabitch back then.” He slapped an open fastener shut on the boot, and noted a slight wince on Alex’s face as the boot tightened over his ankle.
“You don’t think I can still do it?” Alex asked.
“I never said that,” said Jim, getting up, watching it so he didn’t start to slide. “Do it if you want. I don’t give a shit.”
“We could both go,” Alex said, bending down to adjust his bib over his boot. “Straight down, then that last-minute turn before complete destruction. Remember?”
“Hotdogger’s dream,” Jim agreed.
“It feels a lot tighter. Thanks.”
“No problem.”
“You haven’t run down here since?”
“Not me,” Jim said. “Thought about it a few times.” He hadn’t really, not after Alex had left and moved to Colorado with their mother and Kelly. “The snow’s right. Deep powder, slows you down.”
Alex kicked at the snow, testing the bindings. “So?”
“Why not? I feel stupid enough to do it.”
“Let’s do it.”
He watched Alex meth
odically check his binding and boot fasteners, watched him pull his long hair out of his eyes and look toward the edge, face eager and eyes on fire. He remembered the first time they had barreled toward the Cliff, making the turn just in time, going a thousand miles an hour, miraculously avoiding the trees. He remembered the look of fear on Alex’s face, his own abject terror.
He also remembered his father’s rage when Alex bragged about it later. “You are the older one, Jim. I hold you responsible . . . .”
“So are we doin’ it or not?” Alex was already dusting off the poles, going into his stance.
“Yeah,” Jim said. Lining up next to his younger brother, he adjusted his goggles and looked up at the sky. Perfect conditions.
“Last one down is a rotten egg,” Alex said, same as he had said the first time.
Down they plunged, playing to the fringes, moving on the edge of out of control instantly. The powder was so light it barely slowed them down. Knee-deep in it, they slid down the mountain. Jim fought to stay upright and avoid the trees. Alex, up ahead, laughed insanely.
Just that millisecond of watching Alex, and he almost went down! Jim flew on, gesturing like a madman, feeling like a madman, shrieking with laughter in the still air, hearing Alex’s shrieking laugh down below, knowing it was coming up, the last moment, the moment of the turn, and he couldn’t remember and he didn’t care, was it go left or go right, left or right, right or left—?
Alex turned left, so he went right—
Alex went left, but then he went into a skid so fast, he blurred. He was skidding sideways straight down, fast, faster, straight toward the Cliff. Jim, bearing hard right, saw the whole thing: Alex getting the skis under him too late, going into a tuck, going for it—
Over. Alex went over the Cliff. No sound.
Jim thought he heard a bad noise below. Then he skied over a fallen limb and caught it on the edge.
He saw the tree. He crashed—
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