Black and White Flowers (The Real SEAL Series Book 1)

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by Rachel Robinson


  Taking my face in his hands, he says, “It’s the first time. More importantly I want it to be my last first. Our last first.”

  Smith is so close I can taste his breaths and smell his skin. “I’m okay,” I reassure him. Placing a kiss on his chest, right over his heart, I tilt my head up to look at his face. “I want this. You mean everything to me. I’m okay when you’re with me.” With his soulful eyes wandering over every inch of my face, I gather what confidence I need and drop the silk robe. The light fabric flutters to the ground around my feet. ”Do you like?” I ask, backing away slowly so his view is unobstructed. His chest rises and falls at a more hurried pace and he doesn’t have to answer me.

  With one hand bent behind his head, he reaches down to unbutton and unzip his jeans. “I want you badly,” he says. “You look amazing. Beautiful.”

  “Right here?” I ask. Turning in a slow circle so he can appreciate the shards of lace from every angle, I move my feet slowly and let my body sway seductively. “This is where you want me first, right?”

  While my back was turned, Smith stealthily closed the space between us. My back against his front, he leans down, moves my hair out of the way and kisses my neck. “You have no idea what this means to me,” he whispers in my ear.

  “Show me,” I reply. Pressing my bottom back and against him, I feel his erection. “Show me now because this means everything to me and I want it so badly I’m not sure I can take another second of not having it.” I spin to face him and let my hands find the waistband of his jeans and boxer briefs. In a quick movement, I pull them and follow them down to the floor until I’m kneeling in front of him.

  Peeking up, I see his look of awe and utter lust as I take him into my mouth slowly. I let my tongue wind around the tip briefly before I slide him into my mouth as far as my gag reflex will allow. Smith moans, but he doesn’t take his eyes off me. I stroke his thick shaft and lick his balls until I find just the right tempo. His legs are shaking and wetness floods my core in response.

  “That feels too good, Care. Enough. Enough,” Smith says, trying to still my head with his hands. “Slow,” he chides, stepping out of his tangled pants.

  “I’m too worked up to slow down now,” I pant. Standing, I wrap my hands around his waist as he pushes me back to the center of the room. He kisses my cheek, my forehead, and then my lips. The wet sounds of our mouths and our breaths are the only sounds to be heard. Smith slips his pointer fingers under my bra straps by my collarbone and eases them down until my breasts spring free.

  He licks his lips. “We shouldn’t slow down then,” he says. “You’re so fucking beautiful.” Taking one breast into his mouth, he pauses before going to the other. “So goddamn beautiful. I can’t help myself, Care. I want to devour you. Keep you here forever.” I stroke his hair and close my eyes, oblivious to anything except what’s right here and now.

  My mind clears completely for all that isn’t Smith Eppington. His muscles are coiled and hard, and his eyes are truly only for me. First, he tosses down a faux fur throw blanket from the sofa and then, bending over, he easily takes my body weight in his arms and lowers us onto the floor. He never stops kissing me. It’s the delirious feeling of floating and falling and consuming him right back. He breaks away briefly and remarks how my panties are his favorite color as he slides them down my legs. I don’t tell him that’s why I chose them. I smile and tell him something more true. “I love you. You know that, right?”

  I’m completely naked and my words give him pause. The soft glow of the candles and the moonlight infiltrating our safe place transforms this moment into something magical. “I think I do know that,” Smith replies. “I’ve never heard words that made me happier. Or frankly more turned on.” His cock pulses up in protest. “You have no idea how you affect me. How you’ve always affected me.”

  Smith doesn’t give me a chance to respond. He bends his head down and kisses me between my legs with his tongue. He licks me deep and slides a finger in at the same time. He’s just as turned on by it as I am. His breaths come fast and my own hands become frantic. Pulling him closer, writhing under the strong weight of his hands pressing me down. Breaths turn into panting and then into moans. He’s a quick study—knows exactly what gets me off. Tonight I want something more than his magical tongue and fingers. “I want you inside me, Smith,” I beg. With the sides of his face in my hands, he raises his gaze to look at me. “Inside me.”

  “That’s an order I can’t ignore,” Smith says, sitting up. He scoots over to sit on the blanket and takes me with him. I walk, on my knees to straddle his legs, and lean forward to kiss his lips—taste my wetness. “How’s that taste?” he asks.

  “Like I’m ready,” I reply. I kiss him again and glide my lips down the side of his neck—the bad side—and trail soft kisses across his wide shoulder and back again. His dick is beneath me, warm and hard as steel, flexing and throbbing. “Are you ready?”

  He doesn’t reply with words. Smith reaches between our bodies to position himself and with his free hand, pushes my ass down. I cry out. It’s pleasure. It’s pain. It’s unlike anything else in this world. A small groan escapes his lips and into my mouth. “Did I hurt you?” he whispers.

  I lean back to look at him and slide up a touch. “You could never hurt me,” I reply. Then I lower myself back down onto his slick cock. It fills me so fully that I don’t want for anything else in this moment. I ride him several more times, connected, melting into blissful oblivion while watching the forever memory dance in his hooded eyes. He works my clit with his thumb, a gentle assault compared to the girth of his member splitting me in two.

  I throw my head back and relish all of my senses. The sweet smell of the floral candles burns through the air as do the crickets chirping outside the window, Smith’s lips dragging down my throat as he makes the sweetest of love to me. His body is hard, but his heart is so soft—so ready to love freely without reserve. “I’m going to come. Where?” he grinds out in between clenched teeth. “Where?” he asks again.

  We spoke about the fact that I’m on birth control already. “Inside me. I’m coming. Inside me,” I say. It’s jumbled because my thighs are tingling and my whole body is about to fire into the atmosphere, but I’m sure he’s understood. With both hands on my ass he brings me up and down at the speed that he desires. It’s punishing and erotic. I slump over his shoulder and hug him around his neck as I come around him. It’s fast and slow at the same time. The waves of pleasure are so severe that I see stars, my whole body overwhelmed with the satisfaction of release.

  Smith brushes several strands of hair away from my face as I continue to slide up and down on top of him. “I need to see your face,” he says, holding my cheek lightly.

  “I’m here,” I say.

  He licks his lips a moment before his mouth crashes into mine. He kisses me with his eyes open for a second or two and then, with his gaze locked with mine and his hands still on my face, he comes. His eyes flutter closed briefly as he unloads several hot bursts deep inside me. I wrap my legs around his waist and clutch him as tightly and as closely as I can.

  I think from this position we can’t be closer. Him inside me, his heart beating against my chest, his chin folded over my shoulder. His breaths falling down my back. It’s all so personal, so vehemently different from what I’m used to. Regardless if this was the right choice—he and I—I now realize this was my only choice.

  “Is it wrong that I already want a second time? And a third after that?” Smith asks. I feel the rumble of his spoken words in his chest as he speaks them.

  I press a kiss to his shoulder. “You’re still inside me. I don’t think we can count this one over yet,” I reply.

  He lets his palm graze down the center of my back until he finds my ass. Then, he lifts me up. Almost to the point where his cock leaves my body, but not quite. When I don’t think I can take another second, he lets me fall back down, taking him all the way in, filling me completely.

  I
moan, the noise echoing loudly in the room. He hisses out a long breath. “You’re still hard,” I rasp. I run my teeth down the edge of his ear and let my tongue glide along the rim.

  “Care, I’m going to be hard anytime you’re in the same room as me for the rest of our lives.” He groans when I suck his earlobe and assault him with a slow ride. “I’m ruined now. In the best fucking possible way.”

  I circle my hips in a small circle, forcing a new sensation. “This was beyond all expectations and dreams. Ah, yes. Keep doing that. Fuck,” Smith growls.

  “This feels so good. Your cock is so big and thick. It rubs me the right way. I want to come again, filled with you,” I reply. The motion of circling and grinding is the perfect angle for my clit and I feel the sensations of orgasm building again.

  He takes my face in his hands. This time he tilts my face to the ceiling and licks a trail from the hollow of my neck up to the bottom of my chin. “Do that. Around my dick.”

  I push myself down a little further. And in a quick move, with one arm around my back, he leans me down so I’m resting on the floor. Smith rubs my clit while he thrusts inside me, rubbing my G-spot with the head of his erection. I close my eyes with the uncontrollable bliss of this position. I tell him I’m going to come, and he leans forward so he can kiss my lips while I explode, my core clenching as much as it can around his girth.

  I pant several long, drawn out breaths, my chest heaving with exertion and pleasure. “I can’t even breathe that was so good,” I whisper. The scent of sex and the candles warps my reality. It’s like coming to Jesus. Being rescued. Something burned into the core of my being.

  “Please breathe. I wasn’t trying to kill you. I promise,” Smith says. “I wanted to make you feel good.”

  Feel good. He wanted to make me feel good. Does he have any idea how trivial that sounds coming off the lips of a person who has saved my life? “Smith,” I chide, rubbing the good side of his face. “We knew the sex was going to be like this. This breathing entity of its own. We were made for each other.” His half grin fades as he realizes the magnitude of what we’re feeling together. “Now it will be a chore to keep us off each other because we’ve opened Pandora’s sex box.”

  His eyes crinkle in the corners with that comment.

  “I’m just glad it meant as much to you as it did to me. It’s why I wanted to wait. To make sure this was it,” he says. Smith winces as he draws himself out of my body. “That was the most pain I’ve ever been in,” he proclaims, grimacing as he wraps a hand around his slick cock.

  I smirk. “Your invitation is open. Anytime.”

  He kisses me on the nose and pulls me up to a seated position.

  “The fur blanket is going to be sullied in mere seconds.” I raise one brow when I feel his come leak from me, warm and wet. “I never understood that in movies and books. Why do people have sex on fur? It can’t be cleaned easily and it’s possibly the most impractical fabric to use.” I sigh and shift positions to try to dodge the inevitable. Smith pulls me into him, kissing me breathless.

  “Maybe they want to mimic a Something about Mary hairstyle, though? Except on fake animal fur.”

  “That’s just weird,” I say, my lips brushing his. With his arms wrapped around me right now I feel something I’ve never felt. “You make me feel so safe. Like no matter what happens I’ll always be okay because you’ll protect me. It’s so cliché.” Bust also so true.

  “Always,” Smith says, his face buried in my hair. “I’ll always protect you from everything. On my honor.”

  You know how when you’re a little girl playing dolls, Ken walks Barbie down the aisle when they get married? It’s mostly because you don’t know any different, but also because he’s the only man doll. Even when I grew up I liked that idea more than a father figure doing the walking. It’s Ken who is changing your life. It’s Ken who will drive the convertible back to the pink mansion. It’s Ken who is rescuing. It’s Ken who is protecting.

  Now that’s cliché.

  And it’s also the one truth I’m now positive of because Smith Eppington is my Ken. And I want to marry him and keep him forever.

  Chapter Eighteen

  Smith

  I LEFT CARINA SLEEPING in our bed. The windows were wide-open and the fresh air was cool and smelled like morning. Her naked body was half concealed by white sheets and parts and pieces of her skin played peekaboo. Long brown hair fanned across her pillow and mine. Her eyelids fluttered as a signal of deep sleep. As I stood there debating on whether I wanted to wake her up to kiss her goodbye, I took stock of everything I love. Every breath passing through her plump pink lips. All of her: every last fragment. The weak ones, the strong ones, the ones that can’t be defined.

  I left her sleeping. I didn’t wake her. I didn’t kiss her for fear of waking her and disturbing the perfect moment. I didn’t say goodbye.

  “Epp. Epp,” someone calls. I turn toward the voice, dragging myself from my daydream.

  I raise my brows and nod in my chief’s direction. “What’s up?” I ask.

  “You need to go sit in on the brief. Now,” he says. Everyone is on high alert. The offices are bustling with people who aren’t usually here. Phones are ringing off the hook and smiles and jokes are replaced by serious expressions and goddamn briefs. I always do as I’m told.

  “Yes, sir,” I reply with a quick head tilt. I set off for the conference room and walk in to a bunch of men in uniform talking loudly.

  There are always reports of horrendous attacks that may happen. Few actually come to fruition, but today, we’re dealing with intel of something larger. Something much, much larger. Moose slides me a tablet when I take a seat next to him. Zane, a SEAL seated on my other side, rambles curse words under his breath at record speed.

  “It’s happening,” I say, as much as I ask. I’ve been preoccupied, my mind revisiting making love to Carina on replay. We had sex in three rooms of our house last night. I took her in every position imaginable. I came more than twice in one night and I’m still hard thinking about it. So while this horrible news isn’t unexpected it’s surprising.

  I click on one link. And then another. Sweat beads on my forehead even though this is the conference room where the AC is broken and it runs constantly. Maybe it’s purposeful. I’m not sure of anything right now. I can’t be.

  Zane murmurs back in my direction, “It’s happening.”

  I click another link. There are photos attached here. My mind goes black. When I’m inside the situations it’s different. I’m in control. There are several plans in case one goes bad. What I’m looking at now is something I can’t control. Something I can’t fix. Not in the present, anyways. It does, in fact, remind me why I became a Navy SEAL to begin with.

  I was a precocious little boy with wide eyes and a penchant for getting into mischief. Not real trouble, though. The kind of trouble you get into because you’re always trying to figure something out. Always asking questions. Always trying to fix things. Even if they aren’t broken. It reminds me I’m due for the yearly apology to my mother for blowing up our washing machine when I was thirteen. The whir the noisy machine emitted was normal, but I tried to fix it anyways. I don’t think she’ll ever forgive me for that.

  I grew up in an upper-middle class neighborhood where a lot of us planned on going into the military after high school graduation. Living in SoCal the allure of the Navy was close geographically and emotionally. After 9/11 happened it strengthened my resolve to serve even more. I watched those towers crumble to the ground in a pile of smoke while sitting in my high school English class.

  We weren’t sure right away what it meant or why it happened, but it didn’t take long for the pieces to fall into place. No one wants to believe a tragedy so great can occur. Especially on American soil. The news portrays these types of disasters, but typically they’re always in another country. Might as well be another planet for all that it directly concerns us. September 11 showed America that it can happen here,
and it can happen easily. My soul was forged in fire and dipped in iron when our president confirmed they were attacks of terror.

  I would become the terror and reflect it back onto anyone who threatens our way of life. Anyone who doesn’t fight fair. Anyone who is owed deadly retribution. Hell Week was hard, but I knew what I would face after it, would be more difficult than anything a screaming BUD/S instructor can deal out.

  There was an even divide with my peers. September 11 either sent them far away to college to study for a degree that would keep them away from the trenches, and then there were the men like me, who wanted nothing more than to dig the trenches, shoulder to shoulder to help defeat the traitorous monster regardless of the cost.

  “The televisions. Turn on the news,” Moose says, next to me. I’m gripping the side of the tablet harder than I should and the case makes a straining sound.

  People are going in and out and all of the phones in the room are in use. Someone is teleconferenced in and is on the screen on the wall—face blank and words monotone. I can’t hear above all the chaos. I stand from my chair.

  “It’s real time. We’re getting the intel only minutes before it happens,” Zane says. He glances from his tablet to the television. “It’s unreal,” he finishes, eyes wide.

  I bend over the screen in front of me and click another link. Another terror attack. And another. The news broadcaster on the television announces the one I read a few minutes ago. Another link pops up in our system. “Another one,” I whisper.

  Moose is sitting down next to me, scribbling a list as he goes. “Chicago, Tulsa, Austin, San Francisco, Miami, Vegas, Biloxi, Detroit, Phoenix, Virginia Beach,” I say, reading over his shoulder. “There’s no pattern,” I mutter.

  Next he starts another list with the international terror attacks happening right now. He can’t write as quickly as they’re happening. No one can. Hundreds, then thousands of huge attacks in minutes. It’s like a spider web encompassing the entire planet. My breath is stolen. My whole body feels weak. The images are coming faster than I can process.

 

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