It had been there all along, staring her in the face, and she hadn’t realized it. Had she always been this stupid, or had it only been since she’d fallen so head over heels in love with Connor Drake?
Becky Whitby, whom she’d seen with Sir Marcus Tyler on the morning of her wedding to Drake, was mistress to the pirate Lucien La Fond, whose nautical attacks on Dixon ships had long been rumored to be funded by their chief competitor, Tyler and Tyler Shipping.
That story Becky had told in the vicar’s study, about Sir Marcus wanting to get his hands on Drake’s map—Payton had put that story down as unmitigated bunk. But what if it were true? Not the part about Becky being an innocent pawn in the whole thing—that she knew was a lie. But the part about Sir Marcus being desperate to get his hands on that map—that part might be true. And it would explain why Drake was still locked up below, instead of having been sliced into shark bait long ago, which would surely have been the Frenchman’s first inclination.
Dipping her scrub brush into the cold seawater she was using to clean the floor, Payton pressed her lips together determinedly. She was going to get him out of there. She had to. Just as she knew he would never leave her had the situation been reversed, she could never leave him.
And besides, things weren’t all that bad. They’d been in far worse scrapes than this, after all. She couldn’t remember one, but she was almost sure of it. All she had to do, really, was get them off this ship before they reached Nassau. Payton still didn’t know what fate the Frenchman had in store for Drake there, but whatever it was, she knew it wouldn’t be a good one. So it was simple, really. She just had to get him off the ship before they reached New Providence.
Of course, he wasn’t going to like hearing that very much. Drake had always been a very exacting commander, expecting his orders to be carried out to the letter, and offering swift punishment to those who failed to do so—unless they could give him a good reason why his orders had been ignored. He was exacting, but he was just.
Payton thought she had a good reason why she hadn’t carried out his order that she leave the ship. The reason was that, simply, she couldn’t. She just couldn’t leave him. She didn’t suppose he was going to consider that a good reason, but then, what was he going to do about it? Not a whole lot. He was chained to the wall. What could he possibly do to her?
She found out, the very next time she had opportunity to bring the prisoner his supper—this time distracting Tito with a bottle of whisky, stolen from the captain’s liquor cabinet—and enter Drake’s cell.
Night had fallen by the time Payton was finally able to escape the galley and let herself into the hold, and it took a moment for her eyes to adjust to the darkness in Drake’s cell. She hadn’t thought to bring a candte—her hands were too full to carry one anyway, since she was cradling all the food she’d managed to smuggle out of the forecastle, tucked beneath her shirt—but moonlight spilled through spaces in the wooden planks overhead … enough moonlight for Payton to see that Drake, though he’d obviously noticed her, hadn’t bothered climbing to his feet.
This actually shocked her more than anything she’d seen so far aboard the Rebecca. Back in the days when they’d sailed with her brothers, Drake had always risen when she’d entered a room or come on deck. Her brothers had teased him about it, since Payton, in her bare feet and braids, didn’t exactly resemble the sort of fine lady upon whom gentlemen practiced social niceties. But Drake had always ignored them, continuing to rise whenever Payton appeared.
Until now, apparently. Now he just looked up at her from where he sat, slumped against the far wall, his elbows on his knees. Looked up, saw her, and looked away.
Bloody hell! Here she was, with all sorts of food she’d had to go to no end of trouble to scrounge up—fruit, bread, not to mention a few strips of salt pork that felt quite uncomfortable against her bare belly—and he had the nerve to snub her like that! Not that she cared about the fact that he hadn’t stood. But he could at least acknowledge her presence …
And then it hit her. Maybe he was ill!
Good God! That had to be it! Those bastards. What had they done to him? She’d kill them all.
Hurrying into the cell, Payton fell down to her knees at Drake’s side, pieces of fruit and bread rolls dropping out from beneath her shirt and falling to roll unnoticed across the hardwood floor.
“Drake,” she cried, her naturally husky voice breaking. “Are you all right? What did they do to you?”
He swung his head round to face her, but for once, those glowing silver eyes had no effect on her. She was too busy scanning for wounds to notice how his gaze raked her. Had they beat him? she wondered. Whipped him, perhaps? He certainly didn’t look his best—even in the dim moonlight, Payton could see that his trousers, which had once been fawn-colored, were now a dingy gray, with twin tears through which his darkly tanned knees jutted. His waistcoat and jacket were long gone—Payton had thought she’d spotted the Frenchman’s first mate wearing them, along with Drake’s gleaming Hessian boots. All he’d been left with were his trousers and a linen shirt that had once been white and whole, but was now gray and ripped down the middle, so that it revealed all of his chest and most of his strongly muscled stomach.
But though he might not have been dressed as usual in the height of fashion, Payton, looking him over, could detect no injuries. He looked, in fact, incredibly well for a man who’d subsisted, for the past month, on little more than mash and water. Even the beard and mustache did nothing to detract from his overall handsomeness, serving only to emphasize the aristocratic planes of his face. Looking at him, Payton couldn’t help but think it sad that Miss Whitby had turned out to be mistress to someone else. The two of them would have made a lovely couple.
Then, when Drake continued to stare at her in utter silence, a horrible thought occurred to Payton. She reached out to grasp him by the shoulders.
“Drake!” she cried. “Did they cut out your tongue?”
The upper lip that just a moment before she’d been admiring, even coated as it was in tawny hair, curled. “No,” he replied, his deep voice so low it was nothing more than a guttural growl. “Of course not. Payton, what are you still doing here? I thought I told you to get off this ship.”
She blinked at him. “You mean … you’re not hurt?”
“Of course I’m not. But you’re going to find your backside smarting something fierce if you don’t get it out of here this minute—”
He made as if to lunge at her, but Payton scrambled away backward on all fours, like a crab. When she’d reached a safe distance, out of reach of his chains, she sat there in stunned silence, watching him with wide eyes.
He was on his feet now, but not out of any sense of gentlemanly duty. No, he was trying to get hold of her, undoubtedly to make good on his promise to wear out her backside. He was making all sorts of horrible grunting noises as he strained ineffectually to break his chains. Payton, who’d only rarely seen Drake lose his temper—and certainly never because of something she’d done—could only watch, in horrified fascination. She’d seen her brothers lose their tempers before—especially Ross—but she had never seen any of them quite this angry.
She watched him rage for a while. He was cursing fitfully now, oaths that would have burned the ears of any properly brought-up young lady, but which Payton had heard daily and sometimes uttered herself, when provoked. Occasionally she glanced at the door to the brig. She’d closed it behind her, but that didn’t mean that his voice wasn’t going to carry to other parts of the ship. They didn’t have to worry about Tito overhearing them, but there were others on board who didn’t have their lips wrapped around a bottle, and who might get curious.
She decided she had to shut him up—if only so that she could talk some sense into him—but she didn’t have any idea how to do that without going near him, and remembering the way he’d shaken her the day before, she wasn’t about to get anywhere within grabbing distance of those enormous hands. Payton tried to rem
ember what Georgiana had done, the last time Ross had had a similar temper tantrum. She seemed to recall that tears had been involved.
Tears? She was going to have to cry?
Oh, Lord. When were her trials going to end?
Pulling her knees up to her chest, Payton let out what she hoped sounded like a sob, and dropped her face down onto her arms, which she’d folded over her knees. She sat like that, twitching her shoulders a little and making sniffling noises, peeking up occasionally to see if Drake had noticed. He had not. He had hold of one of his chains, and was busy trying to yank it from the iron support to which it was anchored to the wall.
Payton, disgusted, thought she’d better cry a little louder, so she let out a louder sniffle, then quickly dipped her head down again when Drake finally glanced her way.
“Payton?” He didn’t sound at all concerned, the way Ross always sounded when Georgiana cried. Drake sounded more suspicious than concerned.
Damn it all to hell. Was she going to have to summon up real tears? Payton tried to think about something sad. Her dead mother. No, that wasn’t sad. She’d been only a few hours old when her mother died. She didn’t remember her, had never even known her, not like her brothers, who sometimes sighed and got a faraway look in their eyes whenever Sir Henry mentioned his beloved wife’s name. What else? Mei-Ling leaving her, to go back to her own family. But that wasn’t sad, either. Mei-Ling had been so happy. The Constant? Her family giving away the only thing she’d ever wanted? No, not that, either. It still bothered her, but she had more pressing concerns just at the moment.
Drake. What was the Frenchman going to do to Drake? That was what troubled her, what had been troubling her every moment for weeks now. If anything were to happen to Drake, why …
Tears came, quite suddenly, and most miraculously. Payton was so startled she almost stopped crying in her shock. Then she remembered she was trying to cry, so she let herself go, and let out a really good, gut-wrenching sob. Lord, but it almost felt … well … nice.
A sly peek at Drake—blurry through her tears, but still quite visible—showed that he was staring down at her with a stunned expression on his face. Good. She hid her face back in her arms. Really, this crying thing was quite effective. She ought to have thought of it sooner.
“Payton.” She heard the chains rattle, and then there were twin thumps. Glancing up, she saw that Drake had dropped to his knees. She was still huddled out of his reach, but even from that distance, she could see that he had calmed down, his anger at her forgotten—at least for now—in his concern over her tears.
“Payton, are you all right?” All the suspicion was gone from Drake’s voice. Instead, she heard only the tenderest concern. “Did something happen, honey? Did somebody hurt you?”
Honey. He’d called her honey. He’d called her that before. And sweetheart once, too. How nice those words sounded on his lips! She let out another sob, but this one was for joy.
“Payton.”
Lord, how the sound of his voice saying her name thrilled her! She’d never noticed before how those two syllables, uttered from those two lips, in that deep, deep voice, could send little chills up and down her spine. It was all she could do not to start laughing through her tears.
And then the extraordinary happened. Something warm and gentle touched her bare ankle.
Payton lifted her head sharply, thinking rats might have invaded the hold. But then she saw that it wasn’t rats at all, but Drake, who’d reached his hand out as far as his shackles would allow—as far as her right foot, wedged into the slightly too-small buckle shoe she’d borrowed so long ago from the Virago’s cabin boy.
Payton blinked down at that hand, so large and dark against the skin of her slim ankle. If that hand—so intimidatingly masculine, with the gold hairs springing so thickly from the deeply tanned skin; so predatory in its size and strength—had belonged to anyone else, she’d have whipped out the knife she’d stolen from the galley and embedded the blade deep into the middle of it.
But it didn’t belong to anyone else. It belonged to Drake.
Lifting her gaze, Payton saw that Drake’s was already boring into her.
A second later, she’d launched herself at him. Though she was slight of figure, the force of her catapulting body was enough to knock him flat onto his back. Before he could react—she was fairly certain he was going to do his best to push her away—Payton straddled him, as she had the day before, and promptly stretched out so that her heart lay over his, their faces just inches apart.
“Can we,” Payton said a little breathlessly, “try that again? What we did yesterday? Only this time, with our pants off?”
Drake’s jaw was set. She saw it, even in the dim moonlight, and knew it boded ill.
“No,” he ground out. “Not here, Payton …”
Doubtless he had some more romantic scheme in mind for her defloration. She was very flattered. Really, she was. But it was far too late. She could already feel him growing hard beneath her.
It may not have been romantic, but it was all they had. All they might ever have.
She lowered her head, and brushed her lips against his. Just once. His arms flung out on either side of them, weighted down by the chains, he remained motionless, staring up at the ceiling, his expression stony. She brushed his lips with her mouth again.
“Payton,” he said warningly. And this time when he spoke, his voice was little more than a growl. She could feel it reverberating, deep within him.
She ignored him. If he really wanted to stop her, she knew, he could have, despite the chains. He was twice her size. Even with his wrists shackled, he could have thrown her off. But he didn’t.
She lowered her mouth to his once more.
And this time, he kissed her back. Kissed her back, and then said, almost savagely, “All right. All right, then. If this is what you want …”
Then he lifted his arms, seized hold of both her shoulders, and pulled her down against him, crushing her mouth to his.
Chapter Nineteen
It didn’t hurt, his kiss. He might have meant it to, but he was too much of a gentleman ever purposely to hurt a woman. Indeed, when she protested—at the suddeness of the gesture, not its violence—he loosened his grip at once. But he didn’t let go of her entirely. It was too late for that.
He’d never let her go. Not now.
Not that Payton wanted him to. No, what she wanted—what she’d always wanted—was only to curl as closely to this man’s heart as possible. And already, she’d succeeded. She could feel that heart thundering beneath the firm wall of his chest, and thought to herself, with some amazement, I caused that. His heart is beating so hard because of me. This thought reasserted itself a second or two later when she felt the stiff urgency of his erection prodding her through the material of both their trousers. I caused that, too, she thought.
A giddy sense of power came over her, even as he was kissing her. His tongue swept the insides of her mouth. He obviously intended to be thorough about this. Encouraged by the sound that escaped from Drake’s throat—halfway between a groan and a sigh—when Payton tentatively met the thrust of his tongue into her mouth with her own, she was surprised when he abruptly tore his mouth away, and began to burn a trail down her throat … though she wasn’t surprised enough not to lower her neck toward him, to better receive each fiery lick. Distracted as she was by this sweet torture, Payton was only dimly aware that his hands were moving across her body, caressing her through the material of her borrowed clothes. At least, she wasn’t aware of it until she felt his fingers skim bare flesh, and realized that he’d skillfully untied her shirt again.
She gasped as his large, knowing hands closed over her breasts. She had seen what those hands were capable of, knew the strength that lay coiled just beneath those callused fingertips. It amazed her anew that his touch could be so infinitely gentle … especially when she was equally aware, from the fire in his kiss, of how long he must have been waiting for this moment.
Wasn’t that obvious in his uneven breathing, the heavy drumming of his heart? That he could keep his lust in check and proceed with such slow patience, mindful that this was her first time, only strengthened her conviction that this man was the only one for her.
When his palms grazed her sensitive nipples, however, she forgot all about her admiration of his restraint. Instead, her body took over. Her breasts seemed to swell beneath his fingers, filling his palms. At the same time, her legs, still astride him, parted even further, until she felt the hard length of his erection prodding against her very core. The sensation, she knew, should have alarmed her, as it would have any properly brought-up British girl. But as yesterday had proved, despite Georgiana’s best efforts, Payton was far from proper. As soon as she felt him pressing so insistently against her, her hips began to move in a manner that was as shameless as it was instinctive.
Below her, Drake let out a wordless sound that seemed to Payton to be a groan of pain. Thinking she’d injured him, somehow, she froze … then gasped when, far from hurting, Drake showed his appreciation for her enthusiasm by lifting his head to seize one of her straining nipples in his hot, wet mouth. Now Payton knew what that groan had been about. Not pain. Pleasure. Ripples of it coursed through her body as he suckled on first one, then the other firm, tip-tilted breast.
But while his mouth was raising her to dizzying new heights of arousal above her waist, his fingers were launching a new offensive below it. Without Payton being aware that he’d done so, Drake had unbuttoned the front of her trousers. She was completely exposed to him, though she didn’t realize it until his fingers brushed against the silky hair between her thighs. At that light, almost inquisitive touch, Payton’s eyelids, which had become heavy with desire, flew open. She was shocked by the sight the moonlight threw into startling clarity, that of his large, tanned fingers parting the soft brown tuft at her center. Never mind that those fingers were doing things to her that she’d never imagined in a million years she’d enjoy—stroking her, petting her, filling her. It was wrong, it had to be wrong, what he was doing …
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