She wanted to say more, and couldn't. Fear stilled her voice in her throat. She was right—but—Everything I said is true—and—everything she said is true. This is going to get me killed, but I've come too far to turn back now. I made my choices back at the Keep.
"I made my choices, and I'm going to live or die by them," she finished, hoping she sounded brave, but all too aware that she probably sounded like a foolhardy braggart. "And I'm going to see my grandmother whether you bar the way or not!"
She touched her heels to Verenna's sides, and the mare bolted forward. The old woman stepped adroitly aside at the last possible moment, and they cantered past her and were out of sight or hearing in a few moments.
Kero reined the mare in as soon as she'd run out some of her nerves; the path was still just as dark and potentially treacherous. And the last thing I need is for Verenna to break her leg within sight of the Tower. I should be in sight of the Tower by now, she thought, looking upward through the branches of the trees. That old woman—in tales she'd either be a demon sent by the mage that took Dierna to turn me back, or a creature of Grandmother's, sent to test me. If she's a demon, the next thing will be a whole swarm of them after me—
The back of her neck crawled at that thought, and she could not resist the temptation to stop, turn, and look down the path behind her.
Nothing. Just the moving shadows of tree limbs, and an owl winging silently across the road. Even Verenna seemed calmer, no longer fighting the reins, no longer sweating.
So much for the tales, she thought, a little embarrassed by her wild fears. Sometimes a crazy old woman is just a crazy old woman.
* * *
The Tower was exactly as Kero remembered it; or at least, the little of it she could see in the darkness was exactly as she remembered. Halfway up the side of the cliff, a single light burned beside the door. There might have been a fainter light coming from a curtained or shuttered window above that, but it was too faint for Kero to be sure it was there.
Verenna whickered inquisitively as she dismounted. The trees and brush had been cut away for several lengths at the bottom of the cliff, leaving a wide expanse of meadow. Not a carefully manicured and tended meadow though; this one was knee-high in grass and wildflowers, and looked very much like a natural clearing.
The moon shone down on this swath of grass unhindered by brush or trees, making it possible for Kero to see quite clearly. There was a hitching post beside the beginning of the staircase; a steep, narrow, open stone stair. Not even a Shin'a'in-bred horse was going to be able to negotiate that; it was barely wide enough for a single human.
And it's a good thing I have a head for heights, she thought soberly, eyeing the stair dubiously. Oh, well....
She tethered Verenna to the hitching post, giving her enough lead-rope so that she'd be able to graze a little. It's too late for wolves, and too early for mountain-cats. I hope. Once again she looked back down the path, and once again saw and heard nothing out of the ordinary. She turned and started up the staircase, with one hand on the rough stone wall, resolutely looking at the steps and not over the open side. The stone beneath her hand was still warm from the afternoon sun. She forced herself to hurry as much as she dared, taking the relatively shallow steps two at a time; she'd have run, but the footing was too uncertain and the light was deceptive.
By the time she reached the top, she was feeling the strain in her legs. She paused for a moment to square her shoulders and lift her chin, then hefted the cold metal ring set into the door, and knocked. The first blow sounded dull, as if the door was a lot thicker than it looked.
The door began to open before she had a chance to finish the second knock. She released the iron ring hastily, before it would be snatched out of her hand.
A lantern she had not seen bloomed into life beside the door as it opened. The soft yellow light fell on a silver-haired, green-eyed woman who bore a strong resemblance to Kero's mother Lenore. Except for her hair, she showed few signs of age; she was as slim and erect in her soft blue-velvet gown as any girl, and moved gracefully, if slowly. There were a few crow's-feet around her eyes, concentration-lines on her brow, and smile-lines at either corner of her mouth, but otherwise her face was unwrinkled. She was exactly as Kero remembered her—which was eerie. She should have shown some signs of increasing age....
"Kerowyn?" The sorceress frowned. "I knew there was something wrong, but—never mind. Come in."
Kero edged cautiously past her grandmother, careful not to touch her, and tried not to stare. There was no telling what she'd take offense at, and Kero had to keep repeating to herself that this strange, ageless woman was her grandmother. I can't believe she still looks like this. Mother looked older, and not just because she was so sick. Kethry turned away to close the door, and Kero took the opportunity to glance around while her back was turned.
There was no anteroom; she found herself in some kind of public room that took up the entire bottom floor of the Tower. It was full of comfortable clutter, the kind of things Kero would have expected to find in any woman's rooms. Ordinary things; an embroidery frame by the window, a basket of yarn and knitting beside the fire, cushions piled carelessly everywhere. What furniture there was tended to be worn, overstuffed, and looked as if it saw heavy use. Kero shivered despite the unexpected warmth of the room. The lighting was concentrated near the fire, leaving the rest of the room in shadow, and Kero wasn't certain she wanted to look too deeply into any of those shadows.
Kethry closed the door with a dull thud, but did not shoot the bolt home. Kero looked back at her, hoping she hadn't noticed her granddaughter's wandering attention. She turned with a frown on her face, though Kero could not tell if it was because of her, or for some other reason. Kero clasped her hands behind her back, nervously, and waited for her grandmother to speak.
"I felt something—wrong—down in the valley," Kethry said vaguely, her brow creased and her eyes looking somewhere past Kero's shoulder. "Something magical. I've been expecting a messenger, since I pledged Rathgar when he wed Lenore that I would not enter his domain uninvited—but I didn't expect that messenger to be you."
She promised Father—dear Agnira! Kero took a deep breath, and stored that bit of information away for later. If there was a later. She looks so odd—blessed Trine, I hope she hasn't gone senile— "I'm the only one fit to ride, Lady Kethryveris," she began.
"Grandmother," Kethry interrupted tartly, her focus sharpening for a moment. "I am your grandmother. It won't hurt to say so. Sit," she continued, gesturing at a bench by the door as she took a seat opposite it. "What happened down there that they sent you to bring me word?"
Kero nodded, a shiver of real fear going up her back, and gulped. No, she's not senile. If she still admits she's my grandmother—wants to admit it—maybe she will help us— "Grandmother, nobody sent me. Nobody could send me. I came by myself. It's—it's horrible—" She told the story a second time, watching as Kethry grew more and more distant—and more and more collected—with every word. By the time she was halfway through, her grandmother looked like the powerful, remote creature the stories made her out to be. And Kerowyn continued, a sick, leaden feeling in the pit of her stomach, trying not to break down in front of this self-possessed, regal woman.
But she began to relive the tale as she told it. Her stomach churned, and her throat began to close with harshly suppressed sobs.
I have to get through this. I have to make her believe me. I can't do that if I'm crying like a baby.
She managed to sound relatively calm, or at least she thought she did, until she got to the part where she'd first come up from the kitchen. She faltered; stammered a little—then clenched her teeth and plowed onward.
But she kept seeing the bodies—
And then she came to the part where she saw her own family fallen victim; first Lordan, then Rathgar.
That was too much; she lost every bit of her composure and fell completely apart.
There was a brief flurry of mo
vement as her grandmother rose—and warm arms clasped and held her.
She found herself sobbing into a blue-velvet covered shoulder, found her grandmother holding her as no one had held her since her mother died. It was something she hadn't known she needed until it happened—
She cried all the tears and fears she'd held in since this nightmare began; cried until her eyes were swollen and sore and her nose felt raw. Kethry didn't say a word, simply held her, stroking her hair from time to time, and it was with a great deal of reluctance that she freed herself from that comforting embrace to finish the story.
She had to do so with her eyes shut tightly against the tears that threatened to come again, her throat thick, and her hands knotted into fists. "Are you going to be all right?" Kethry asked when she had finished.
Kero took a deep breath, opened her eyes, and shrugged. "I'll have to be," she replied. "I told you, I'm the only one left."
Kethry nodded, pushed her down into a chair, and narrowed her eyes—and turned from comforter to something far different.
The sorceress' face lost all animation. She cooled, she became somehow remote.
"The men," she said dispassionately. "Describe them again."
"They didn't look like much," Kero replied, falteringly. "Ratty looking. Like bandit-scum, the kind we'd never hire, except that their armor was awfully good. It wasn't new, but it wasn't dirty enough for them to have had it long."
"No badges, no insignia?"
"Not that I saw," she said, hardly knowing what to think.
"How did it fit them?" her grandmother persisted.
"What?" Now Kero really was perplexed. Her grandmother looked impatient.
"You're no dunce, child, how did it fit them? Well, or badly? Too big, too small, places where it was just held together by jury-rig straps?"
"Uh—" Now that she thought back on it, the armor for the most part had fit badly, gaping places where it was too small on some men, too-large mail shirts spilling over knuckles on others. "Badly, mostly."
"Ah. Are you sure you don't want to go back and see if there's someone that can go after Dierna besides you?" She gave Kero a measuring look. "You look to me as if you've done enough already. I wouldn't say you're up to this, personally."
"No," Kero said as forcefully as she could.
Kethry nodded, and changed the subject. "Did it seem as if anyone was the leader?"
The questioning went on until Kero was ready to scream for the wasted time. And Kethry kept asking her if she was certain she didn't want to go back. She answered everything as honestly as she could, but it almost seemed as if her grandmother was now looking for an excuse to dismiss her and her plea out of hand, before she'd even had a chance to voice it. She certainly was just as discouraging and disparaging as the old woman down on the trail had been.
She's not going to listen; she thinks this was all Father's fault and she doesn't care what happens to the rest of us. Kero was shaking now; there was a light in Kethry's eyes that she didn't in the least like. Hard, and cold—uncaring? Perhaps. The sorceress' face was unreadable.
Still, when Kethry seemed to have come to the end of her questions and stood up to pace back and forth with her arms crossed, deep in thought, Kero took a deep breath, and made her carefully rehearsed speech before her grandmother could tell her to take herself off.
I'll never have another chance—
"Grandmother," she said urgently, "I have to go after Dierna. If I don't—there won't be anything left of the family by the time her uncle gets done with blood-feud. He might leave me alive—but not Lordan."
Kethry blinked, and seemed to shake herself out of an entrancement. "I actually know that, child," she said dryly. "I've had dealings with Baron Reichert before. That man wouldn't be satisfied if he devoured the world. In fact—never mind. I'll tell you later. So what do you want out of me?"
"Help!" Kero cried. "Lordan won't live out the night without a Healer—and I need help, too. A magic weapon, something that will make it possible for me to get Dierna away from those bandits—"
A lightning-caller, a tame demon—something that can attack them from a distance so I don't have to get too close.
"They aren't bandits, girl," Kethry interrupted, her brow creased with a frown. "At least, that mage isn't. Whoever, whatever he is, he's good, he hid his presence from me right up to the time of the attack—and he wants a virgin girl for something. I would guess he was hired, and the girl is his price for this night's work. I suspect your father made one enemy too many, and that enemy has decided to extract a complete revenge and end him and his line. Or else—" She gave Kero a sharp glance, and didn't complete her surmise.
There's something she knows that I don't, Kero realized suddenly. Something she isn't going to tell me. "I still need a weapon, Grandmother," she persisted. "And Lordan—"
"Lordan will survive until I get there," the sorceress said abruptly, turning so quickly that Kero's heart jumped. "Trust me on that. And as for your going after those bandits—what makes you think you can do anything? You aren't trained in magery or weaponry."
"I have to try," Kero said stubbornly. "I have to. There's no one else, and you told me what Dierna's uncle—"
"Why you?" Kethry repeated.
"Why not me?" Kero stood up, as tall as her shaking knees were permitting, and raised her chin defiantly. "Why not me—if you'll help, I can do it. You did more with less when you were my age."
She was all worked up and ready to say a lot more, but to her surprise, Kethry nodded. "There's truth in that, child," her grandmother said softly. "More truth than you know. And now I know who it is I've been waiting for all these years...."
Waiting? For—
"Stay there." The sorceress crossed the room to one of the shadow-shrouded corners, and bent over a chest, opening it with a creak of iron hinges.
She turned with a long, slender shape in her hands, and as she moved into the light again, Kerowyn could see that it was a sword. Not a very impressive blade; the hilt was plain leather-wrapped metal, and the sheath was just as plain.
"Here," Kethry said, holding it out to her. "Let's see if she'll take to you."
She? Kero reached forward to take the hilt without thinking, and as she clasped it, Kethry pulled away the sheath.
For a moment, no more than a breath, writing blazed up on the blade itself, as fiery and white-hot as if the sword had just come from the heart of a forge. Kero gasped, but Kethry only nodded, unsurprised.
"She wants you all right, child. You're the only one of my daughters or granddaughters she's spoken for. She's yours now—or you're hers." Kethry slid the sheath back over the now perfectly ordinary looking blade. "Take your pick. When she speaks, I don't think anybody denies her."
"What did it say?" Kero asked, aware of—something—in the back of her mind. A testing—but distracted by what her grandmother had just said. Granddaughters? Daughters? I thought Mother—
"Woman's Need calls me, as Woman's Need made me. Her Need will I answer as my maker bade me." Kethry tilted her head sideways to fix Kero with a penetrating stare. "This is my sword Need, Granddaughter—the sword I wore for most of my life. Your sword, now; for well or ill, you're bound to her like you'll never be bound to another living thing, man or woman. But I don't think you'll rue the bargain."
Kerowyn almost dropped the sword in her surprise. This was Kethry's famous blade? Even she had heard stories about this sword. "B-b-but I don't know how to—"
"You won't have to," Kethry said confidently. "She'll take care of you. At least in this instance she will—well, you'll see."
Kero managed to stop gaping and slid the sheath onto her belt, removing the old blade she'd taken from Lordan's armory. "Grandmother," she said slowly, looking from the sword to Kethry and back again. "A few moments ago you wanted me to go back home. Now you've given me this—and you're all but throwing me after those raiders. Why?"
Kethry clasped her hands behind her, and stepped back a few paces,
looking Kero up and down with a distinctly satisfied expression. "I was testing you," she said calmly. "What you're about to do is going to change your life forever. Oh, don't look so skeptical; I know what I'm talking about. It will. And the road you're about to take is not for the fainthearted. But you seem to be made of stronger stuff than poor Lenore." Kethry nodded, slowly. "Yes indeed. I think you'll do."
What happened?
One moment, Kero was standing in the middle of Kethry's Tower, staring at her grandmother. Then there was a moment of dizziness, as if the floor had dropped out from beneath her, and she found herself here, at the foot of the stairs.
She blinked, and the moonlit meadow wavered a little in front of her eyes. Dizzy—blessed Trine— She staggered two steps forward, her hand outstretched in front of her, stopping herself on Verenna's shoulder. The mare snorted in alarm and jumped, as if she hadn't known Kero was there until that moment.
The dizziness vanished. She looked up suddenly, only to see the light in the Tower blink out, leaving it entirely dark.
"Gods." She stared up at the Tower, but could make nothing out in the shadows—and something told her that if she climbed all the way back up again, she could pound her fists bloody on that door and never raise a soul. She'd gotten all the answer she was going to get, at least for now.
She looked back down at the sword hanging from her belt. It was not the one she'd gotten from the Keep. It was the one she remembered her grandmother giving her.
She stroked the mare's neck to calm her. "I think I've been dismissed, Verenna," she said quietly. "I didn't get the answer I came for—"
But maybe I got a better one, she thought slowly. And at any rate, it's the only one I'm going to get.
She clenched her jaw, and mounted before she could turn coward. "Come on, girl," she said to the mare, turning her back down the trail, the way they had come. "We've got a hard ride in front of us."
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