by Gary Gibson
To some degree, she had Bill to thank. In a sense, Bill had given her something she could have found without ever leaving the Angel Station, if only she had known. It was one of life’s ironies that she’d had to spend a while going quietly crazy in a flying hermit’s cave before she could discover that.
Kim had, so to speak, fallen asleep at the wheel – if only the Goblin had a wheel to guide it. She had passed out, entering one of those frequent waking dreams she’d long been suffering, a kind of relapse into the memories that the Books brought to her.
The Angel Station showed itself on two subsidiary screens as well as on the main viewscreen. One of these screens – nestled in a nook just above her left knee, glowing brightly from its niche between the co-pilot’s seat and hers – revealed the Station as a computer-generated torus with an empty centre. The other, smaller screen, situated at head height, displayed a star map. One of the thousands of dots represented there glowed a different colour than the rest. That was the Kasper Angel Station she was about to dock with. Another brightly glowing dot represented Earth and the home system, several thousand light years away. An arrow pointed in the opposite direction, towards the Galactic Centre – which might well have been the next stop from this system, if anyone had ever found an Angel Station that led that far in.
She glanced up. Only a few seconds having passed, she still felt groggy and confused. She’d already had an inkling this was going to be a really, really bad day.
First, Bill had stopped answering her calls. Kim had tried contacting him previously during her long weeks of approach, but nothing. She had checked in with some other people in the human-habitable portion of the Station, and they’d confirmed having seen him around. So she knew Bill hadn’t checked out and caught a shuttle back through the Station’s singularity to some other system – which begged the question, why was he ignoring her?
And the whole time, her air and rations were running lower and lower, and now if she got back and Bill wasn’t there . . . she wasn’t sure what she would do.
And then she noticed a red light was blinking at her. She’d never seen it blink red before, but then she’d never functionally passed out on an approach vector before, either. Kim reached out with an unsteady hand and hit a button. A stream of dialogue had been trickling along so quietly as to be almost subliminal. Hitting the button knocked the volume up and, with a cold rush of fear and horror, she wondered just how long she had been floating along effectively dead in space, with only the autopilot to keep her alive.
‘. . . Damn it, Goblin 4PX, do you read? I . . .’ The voice grew briefly fainter as another voice interjected. Kim couldn’t quite make out what they were saying, but she recognized the tone: angry, worried, someone in charge. ‘No, I’m not in the habit of blowing anyone out of the sky. She’s on auto, okay? We’ll just bring her in. No, there’s no danger, I—’
‘This is Goblin 4PX,’ Kim said rapidly, the blood draining out of her face. Stupid girl. Stupid, stupid girl! ‘I’m sorry, my comms system has been having problems. I don’t know what happened.’ She swallowed, her throat suddenly dry. ‘I, uh – sorry about that.’
‘We hear you, but you know the rules. I’m afraid we may have to insist your ship undergoes a thorough overhaul before you can go out again.’ The voice was reproving, but not too harsh. Kim had met the man behind the voice, once, not long after she’d arrived there. A gentle bear of a man who confessed to her one drunken night that he’d had enough of civilization and living in crowded hives, while alien diseases killed off entire continents. He’d put on his official voice this time presumably for the benefit of whoever was standing next to him. One of the military guys, almost inevitably.
They called it the debriefing room, but it looked a lot like a cell.
‘Thing is, Miss Amoto, there are rules and procedures here.’ The Sergeant held out a clipboard in front of him. Every now and then, as he spoke, he’d let it drop down to his side and tap it against his thigh, so Kim could see a couple of shiny plastic sheets with a really bad photo of her attached. ‘You must be aware of this.’
‘I am, Sergeant.’
‘Hm.’ He nodded and looked over at Pierce, her lawyer – everybody’s lawyer here on the Kasper Angel Station. He was also Earth’s ambassador to Kasper, except of course the Kaspians didn’t know that fact. He was further, by virtue of a strange public relations sleight of hand, the Station’s Mayor. Apparently it had been decided that in order to foster a real sense of community amongst the Station’s non-military personnel, they should have their own Mayor. It was, by Pierce’s own admission, one of the stupidest ideas around. She knew he was also a pretty mean cook when it came to Mexican food, which came in handy because he really didn’t get much else to do out here. Kim had been to a couple of his barbecues.
‘Well, at the risk of telling you something you already know, this Station – this entire system, as a matter of fact – is under military jurisdiction until any possible further threat is checked or identified. Now, the man in the docking control room at the time you were coming in would have had every right to fire upon you after you failed to identify yourself.’
‘My ship was on autopilot, Sergeant. I’ve had a look at the ship myself, and there were some problems with the atmosphere control. My oxygen levels were too low, so I passed out. It happens, especially when you’re out solo for long periods of time.’
‘But you then carried out those repairs before an official inspection team could take a look at your craft.’
‘Yes, because they were necessary.’
The Sergeant pursed his lips until he almost looked like he was pouting. Kim had a feeling he didn’t have much to do with his days either. ‘Miss Amoto, there are specific clauses in your contract to do with our rules and procedures. There are ways of dealing with situations such as this, and you didn’t follow them.’
Pierce looked away from the blank wall he’d been gazing at for several minutes. ‘The contract is thirty pages in length, Sergeant, and in very small type. People don’t have time to read thirty pages of small type when they’re dealing with potentially life-threatening situations.’
Kim willed her cheeks not to burn; she had never considered herself a good liar. Before she had finally docked, she had deliberately damaged a small valve to the rear of the craft, and then fixed it with the repair kit. She had come up with a story and started telling it to Pierce as soon as she’d found him. Pierce had just looked at her with a weary expression; he wasn’t going to buy it.
‘Whatever you say, Kim,’ he’d sighed. ‘Just make sure you get your story straight before we go in, all right?’
The Sergeant glanced at Pierce. ‘She was right next to the Station then. How long would it have taken before we could pick her up from one of the navy ships?’
‘I don’t know, Sergeant. How long does it take someone to suffocate in a ship without a functioning oxygen supply?’ Pierce asked dryly. He leaned back in his seat. ‘There’s really no need for this, Sergeant. The only reason we have these procedures in the first place is because of what happened – whatever happened – to the original occupants of this Station. But you well know there’s no immediate threat to anybody here, and hasn’t been for a very long time. If there was ever anything here, the danger is gone. One lone prospector falling asleep doesn’t constitute a crisis.’
‘Mr Pierce, I follow the set procedures laid down by my superiors, otherwise I have to answer to them.’
‘Yeah, and this is a farce,’ said Pierce. ‘You don’t have the legislative power to make any decisions here. I move we adjourn this meeting until the Station Commander can actually be present.’
The Sergeant stared at Pierce like he wanted to rip his head off. Then he looked at Kim. ‘Miss Amoto, I’m not convinced you’re fit to pilot anything right now.’ Kim’s head was pounding, like needles were being worked into the backs of her eyeballs. ‘I’m impounding your ship pending the payment of a fine for endangering the lives of the people
on board this Station.’ The Sergeant stared at her for a moment, then spun on his heel and left, an awkward expression on his face.
‘Here, knock these back, do you a world of good.’ Kim took the pills and swallowed them dry. Pierce tried to give her a glass of water but she waved it away.
‘Really, I’m fine. You shouldn’t concern yourself.’
‘I thought you were going to pass out all over again back there. You should have seen the look on that Sergeant’s face. He thinks everybody here is crazy, you know.’
‘We are all crazy. Why the hell else would anybody be out here?’
‘What?’ he said, his cheeks dimpling. ‘And turn down the chance to investigate the only extant civilization apart from humanity in the known universe?’ Kim rolled her eyes at him.
Pierce had been good enough to get this accommodation sorted out for her while the Goblin was moved to another dock, where it would be impounded until she could either appeal the fine or pay up. The room was a tiny cube whose facing walls were maybe only a couple of metres apart, but for all that it felt like luxurious roominess after the time she’d spent in the Goblin. She sat on the edge of the room’s tiny fold-down bunk, rubbing at her temples with the tips of her fingers. The Station’s Mayor sat cross-legged on the floor in front of her.
‘Listen, Pierce – I need to do some things. I need to get some things sorted out.’
‘Sure, I know. Try not to worry too much just yet about the review of your licence. To put it bluntly, a lot of these people aren’t too worried if any prospectors get themselves killed out in the middle of nowhere. Apart from the fact you screwed up in front of their noses, the only reason they’re kicking up a fuss is that nothing ever really happens out here – aside from the usual observations of life down on Kasper.’
Kasper, thought Kim: the planet and the system had been named by a Polish member of the first exploratory team to come through this particular Angel Station. He’d named it after one of the Three Wise Men, and the name apparently meant treasurer. She supposed he’d meant to suggest this planet was full of valuable things. It was the kind of hint that made you wonder if he’d come up with the name before or after they got around to investigating the Citadel.
‘Yeah, well, that asshole Sergeant seemed to think something was waiting to pounce,’ Kim said, glancing down at Pierce. Her headache seemed to be abating. ‘But listen, if they tell me I can’t do prospecting here any more, I’ll just – I don’t know – go somewhere else, you know? It’s a big universe.’ Bill? Bill would be around somewhere; the Station wasn’t that big. Once she found him, she could . . . get things sorted.
‘Kim. Cards on the table, you have Observer bio-ware, don’t you?’
She looked at him warily. ‘Sure, yeah,’ she said after a moment. ‘Yes, I do. You already know that. What about it?’
Pierce shook his head. ‘Take it easy. I’m not asking in any official capacity. The bioware – official or off-record?’
Kim surprised herself with her honesty, or perhaps she had been too long out amongst the asteroids of the Kaspian System with no one to talk to. ‘Off-record,’ she said.
‘No problems?’
She squinted at him. ‘No, no problems. Why?’
‘I know a little about how you came to the Kasper Angel Station – and I know Bill. I don’t know if you’re aware of it or not, but your behaviour can sometimes be a little—’
‘It’s not like that,’ she said, cutting him off. ‘It works fine. It’s a fairly straightforward surgical procedure. The thing does most of the work itself once it’s inside your skull. After that, no problems.’
Kim could see the faintest hint of a grimace playing on his lips. Some people didn’t like to think of that, something alien and slimy living in their skull next to their brain, reaching into their flesh and entangling itself inextricably with their neurons, ultimately conjoining with their mind. ‘I had it done by someone reputable but, yes, off the record.’
‘Do you remember why you had it done?’
‘Why?’ She hesitated for a moment. ‘It . . . I had my reasons.’ She looked at him angrily. ‘I don’t like you prying, Pierce. There’s nothing I want to say to you about it. What happened out there was an accident, and nothing to do with it.’
‘Okay, okay,’ he said, raising his hands in placation. ‘I’ll keep you posted about what happens with the Goblin, all right? And maybe we can get some kind of an appeal sorted out.’
‘All right,’ she agreed.
Elias
When he got back to London, Elias dumped the taxi in a back street, sliding a knife under the cheap aluminium panel which hid the vehicle’s brain, thus damaging it beyond repair; if he could make it look like the vehicle had been vandalized, there was maybe a little less chance that anyone would analyse the onboard computer’s log and trace his journey from the Arcologies to this part of London.
He couldn’t have imagined the pain might get worse, but it had. He pressed the heel of his hand into his face, then forced himself to walk away, looking for the first subsurface entrance he could find. The city extended as far below the ground as it did above, and he needed to get himself out of sight. It was a part of town he knew, but he couldn’t go back to his cramped quarters in the Camden Maze; too dangerous until he figured out what was happening.
Which meant the only way to go was downwards.
He found a service entrance he’d used a couple of times over the years when he’d needed to get lost quickly, and soon lost himself in the warren of sewers and service tunnels that honeycombed the city’s infrastructure. There were people down there, shadow-people like the ones that populated the Arcologies outside the city, surviving by whatever means they could.
He went looking for Danny, and found him in the deserted Tube station which had become a kind of home to some of London’s abandoned folk. He was standing with a small cluster of people who were struggling to pick up one of their own from where he lay on the cracked concrete. Danny turned at Elias’s footsteps, then frowned and started forward when he noticed the blood.
‘Elias, what happened to you?’
‘Don’t ask, all right? What happened to your friend there?’
Danny frowned again, then glanced back at the men carrying away the body of their dead companion. As they disappeared into the gloom of the station, Danny shrugged and shook his head. ‘Died of despair, probably. Don’t tell me if you like, Elias, but you need fixing up.’
Danny led Elias back to his hospital: a long, low, luxury-sized mobile home rescued from a scrapyard that now doubled as a clinic. Elias let the priest inject him with something that seemed to distance the pain. Somewhere between the horror of what had happened to him out there in the Asteroid Belt and his present existence, Danny had found religion. As Elias told him about the Blight, Danny stared at him in horror.
‘You should be dead,’ Danny observed eventually. ‘You shouldn’t even be alive.’
‘It doesn’t always kill,’ Elias insisted.
‘You need to tell me more about exactly what happened.’
‘I can’t.’
Danny stared at him with fierce anger and disappointment.
‘Just trust me, please,’ continued Elias. The room around him swayed for a moment, till he felt Danny’s firm grip on his upper shoulder. ‘I was just trying to do the right thing.’
‘The right thing?’ said Danny, his lips set in a thin line. ‘I wonder where I’ve heard that before. Tell me you weren’t responsible for bringing it here, into this country?’
‘I wasn’t responsible.’ Elias’s voice was now a thin wheeze. ‘I was trying to help stop it, all right? But something went wrong.’
Danny smiled humourlessly. ‘That’s the wonderful thing about people. They’re always so surprised when things don’t work out exactly the way they expect them to. I myself always expect the worst, which is why I’m still alive – you should remember that.’ He seemed lost in thought for a few moments. ‘Patching
up your wound I can do, but the Blight is another matter. I can’t help you with that. No one can. But if it’s any consolation, you really should be dead.’
‘Thanks.’ Elias coughed. ‘That really makes me feel so much better.’
‘Listen to me, Elias. What they did to you and the others, they did to me too, remember that. It didn’t work with me, or almost any of the rest of us, but what you possess is priceless. What you can do is . . .’ He stopped, looked down at his hands, which were trembling. He stared at them until they became still. ‘If I didn’t know better, I’d have said it was miraculous. You could have helped so many people.’
‘Not if I was dead. Trencher tried, and now he’s gone. City Authority catches me, I’ll be dead too.’
Something trilled in the background. Danny stepped away, and tapped a paper keyboard spread across a fold-down table. ‘That’s the analysis just done on your nervous system.’ Danny eyed Elias with a carefully neutral expression. ‘It’s not looking good, I’m afraid. Your body seems to be resisting the Blight, but it’s still pervading your system. Enough, I think, to constitute Slow Blight.’
Elias felt his flesh go numb.
‘You know what that is, right? It’s still in there – can’t get it out. It’s part of you now.’
Elias looked at him blankly.
‘Elias, the Blight is some kind of biological machine. It’s much more than just some random bug. It locks itself into your nervous system and tries to change the way your body works. Nobody knows just what it intends, but nobody ever lived long enough to find out.’
‘I’ve heard of Slow Blight. Takes about a year to kill you, right?’
‘The good news is, it’s a non-infectious form of Blight. But it eats you from the inside out, starting with the nervous system. First thing you get is the shakes. I’m sorry to be so blunt about it, Elias, but you should know.’ Elias noticed Danny seemed to be having trouble meeting his eyes. ‘Don’t believe what they tell you when they say it isn’t going to spread beyond India,’ Danny continued. ‘I’ve been hearing otherwise.’