“I love you.”
“I love you, too. But I don’t know if I could choose you over my child.”
“That’s the way it should be.”
I shook my head, but his hands were moving over me, and he began to kiss me, his lips sliding over my temples, my ears, my throat. I turned into him and it felt so perfect to be in his arms. The darkness of the day began to recede. I closed my eyes and let Brian’s touch, his scent, his being roll over me and take away the reality of what’d happened.
I was alive, and he was making me feel even more so.
He pushed me down against the mattress and ran his lips over my throat, my breasts. I moaned, running my fingers through his hair. There was something so perfect about the way he felt. Ricky had wanted so badly to convince me he could provide me with pleasure, but what he didn’t understand was that this was about more than the physical pleasure we could offer each other. This was about love. This about comfort. This was about being with the man who lit up my soul and made me feel like I was capable of anything.
“I love you,” he whispered again and again, but even that was just words. It was his touch that made me feel whole, that made me realize that what I’d done was justified.
This was where I belonged. This was where I always wanted to be.
Chapter 32
Brian
We flew back to Boston. Brianna hadn’t wanted to go at first, but the idea of leaving her mother had convinced her. We stopped by her place the next morning, but she couldn’t make herself go inside. There were too many memories of her ordeal in this place. Cassidy went inside with Ian, and I stayed with Brianna.
“She loves you.”
I glanced at her. “What?”
“My mom. I’ve never seen her look at anyone the way she looks at you.”
“I love her, too.”
“Why didn’t it work out before?”
I shrugged. “I was married.”
“Did she know?”
“Not at first.”
She nodded, her eyes shifting from me uneasily, looking everywhere but at the façade of the buildings around us. “She wouldn’t have been with you had she known.”
“I know.”
“And then I wouldn’t be here. So thanks for lying to her.”
That caught me by surprise. I chuckled. “You’re welcome.”
“If you break her heart again, you’ll have to deal with me.”
“Fair enough.”
“Seriously. I can give quite the cold shoulder.”
“I’ll remember that.”
Cassidy and Ian returned then, shoving a duffle bag filled with clothes into the back before taking their seats. We met the private plane at the airstrip and tried to relax during the long flight. I called Killian halfway through, and he reassured me that Stacy was fine. He was watching her from a safe distance to keep from frightening her, but watching close enough to keep her safe. So far he hadn’t recognized any threats.
I couldn’t stop thinking about what the kidnapper had said though. That she wouldn’t be safe, even with Killian there.
Why was this happening? What did they want from me?
And then I heard Brianna’s soft laughter, saw the smile on Ian’s face—a sight that was so incredibly rare—and the light dancing in Cassidy’s eyes. I didn’t want to care about this bullshit right now. I just wanted to enjoy my family.
“Stay with us,” I said to Brianna. “The house is big and empty. Only Cassidy and I in a house that could sleep up to a dozen people comfortably.”
“For a while.”
“Stay as long as you want.”
She glanced at her mother. “We talked about that. I could find a job with a law firm there.”
“You could. I’m sure they’d all be more than happy to have you.” I reached over and touched her knee. “I’d be happy to have you. I want to get to know you.”
Her eyes dropped. “I guess we all have a lot to figure out.”
I caught her shoot a look at her mother. Cassidy was staring at her hands, not saying anything, even though it was clear she was following the conversation. There was something about the look on her face that frightened me a little.
That night when we were alone in our bedroom, I lounged on the bed and watched her slowly undress.
“Is there something we need to discuss?”
She looked a little surprised when she looked back at me. “What do you mean?”
“You do know that I want you to stay here. Permanently. Right?”
She shrugged her slender shoulders.
I got up and went to her, sliding my arms around her. “I thought we’d discussed this. I love you. I don’t want you to go away.”
“Well, you happened to catch me between residences. I can’t live in that condo, not after what happened, and I severed most of my ties to Austin, though I’m sure my brother would let me camp out on his couch.”
“You’re staying here.”
She turned in my arms and kissed me gently. “And then?”
I lifted her chin. “Do you want me to get down on my knees?”
“I want you to tell me what happens now.”
“We get married. We live happily ever after with our daughter living down the hall until she’s old and gray and sick of taking care of us.”
She laughed, but there were tears in her eyes.
“Cassidy, surely you understood that this was a forever sort of thing. I didn’t think I had to make it official. I just thought…we could fly to Vegas next week…”
She kissed me with more fire than I’d ever known from her. I liked it.
I lifted her and carried her to the bed, digging at my clothes because I couldn’t be inside of her any faster. As I rocked against her, enjoying the feel of her, she kissed me with that depth, with that enthusiasm that took my breath away.
I couldn’t imagine my life without her. I couldn’t imagine ever waking up again and not finding her next to me. I couldn’t imagine facing even a second without knowing where she was, how she was, when she was going to be at my side again.
This was my life. Let that madman try to hurt me. As long as Cassidy was here, I was whole. I didn’t need anything else.
Chapter 33
Cassidy
“I should be doing this for you, you know.”
“Soon,” Brianna said as she finished adjusting my veil. “I just have to meet the guy.”
“You will.”
She stepped back and smiled, her eyes dancing with joy.
“You look absolutely amazing.”
I turned and studied myself in the mirror. The dress was barely down to my knees, an off-white that seemed more appropriate than the startling white dresses the shop had to offer for younger brides. But this one hugged my curves and made me look much fitter than I really was. And the veil made my dark halo of hair shine.
I did look good. I guess that’s what love does for you.
“He makes you happy. And all this flying around in private planes is pretty awesome.”
I laughed. “Then you like him?”
“Love him.”
I hugged her tight. “I’m sorry I never told you the truth.”
“You had to have known I’d figure it out myself eventually.”
“Maybe. Maybe not.”
I stepped back and studied my daughter. She was dressed in red, a color that shouldn’t have worked on her, but did. Her skin glowed, her face beginning to round out again after a few weeks of good food. She had nightmares at night sometimes. I would wake and hear her call out. I’d go to her and we’d talk for a time, sometimes the rest of the night. But she rarely talked about what had happened to her while those men were holding her.
Just as I hadn’t told her what I’d done while they were holding me.
We hugged again, then she gestured to the hotel room door. “We should go.”
The car was waiting for us outside the casino. We held hands all the way to the small chapel. I
t was decorated with lilies and carnations, my favorite flowers. And Brian was waiting, four of his sons standing beside him at the altar.
Brianna took my arm and slid it through her arm. She walked me down the aisle, a vision in her dress, a contrast to mine. There was a photographer and witnesses, but I only saw Brian. He watched us, a smile that was so big and beautiful that I couldn’t imagine anything better.
I was marrying the man I loved. Who could possibly ask for more than that?
It wasn’t a cheesy, awkward ceremony. It was very simple and perfect. The pastor was respectful, the witnesses kind. And our children, smiling as they watched us commit ourselves to one another for the rest of our lives.
It was more than I’d expected a Vegas wedding to be.
But I was pretty sure my mother was spinning in her grave.
“To happiness!” Brian lifted his glass, as we sat around a table at an Italian restaurant in the lobby of his casino. “May we all find the one person who makes us want to have a Vegas wedding.”
The boys laughed and Brianna made a face, but they all understood Brian’s sentiment. And when he kissed me, they all looked away, then, as if on cue, made faces and groaned.
“Yuk!”
I laughed. Brian threw ice at them from the wine bucket, crying, “Disrespect!”
But, all in all, it was a beautiful evening.
We were nearly done with our reception when Ian moved away from the table. I felt the tension come over Brian as he watched him go. I took his hand and squeezed it, trying to reassure him.
We’d all been on pins and needles these last few weeks. We had no idea when, or if, the men behind Brianna’s kidnapping would return to hurt us again. We couldn’t go to the police now, not after the fact. And there was likely nothing the police could do, anyway. And Jack had basically told Brian all of this was his problem, so he was unwilling to put his men on it. Ian did as much as he could with the camera the kidnappers left behind at the warehouse where they held me. But there wasn’t much on it.
All we could do was live our lives and hope it was over.
I looked at my daughter and hoped it was over.
“To Pops and Cassidy,” Kevin suddenly said, holding up his glass of wine. “May you find happiness in your future and forget the pain of your past.”
“Amen,” Brian said.
“May you spend your glory years together in bliss,” Sean added.
“May you always find warmth in your bed, not coldness,” Kyle said.
Brianna looked around, a little confused. But then she stood and held up her glass. “I guess this is an Irish thing. I’m not good with toasts.” She studied Brian and me. “May you always love each other no matter what the future might bring.”
I inclined my head, touched by her words.
We tapped glasses and drank the last of the champagne, as Ian came back to the table. There was tightness in his expression. I didn’t know him well. He came to the house a few times a week, but it was usually to take his father into another room and speak to him, sometimes for hours. But I could always tell by his expression when he had bad news.
“Not now,” Brian said as Ian approached him, also warned by the look on his face. But Ian ignored the admonition.
Ian whispered something in Brian’s ear that made his shoulders slump and the joy leave his face.
“Fuck,” he whispered softly under his breath.
“What?”
Everyone was watching the two of them now.
“Stacy’s fiancé,” Ian said, glancing at Brian. Brian simply nodded. Ian continued. “Stacy’s fiancé was killed this morning. It looks like a mugging gone wrong, but there are no details to be had just yet.”
An uneasy silence settled over the table.
It was clearly not over yet.
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HIS
*** HIS is the first book in my first boxed set
BILLIONAIRES IN LOVE
Chapter 1
What do you say when you see your nemesis standing right outside your door?
“Hi,” I croaked and wrapped my arms around my middle.
I didn’t want to croak. Croaking was the last thing I needed to do when I faced this man. So I tried again. “What are you doing here?”
Oh, God! Was that my voice? That breathless ‘I’m about to swoon’ version?
This was too much.
“You knew I was going to find you,” he said quite flatly.
“Why on earth would you want to do that?”
That was better. Still croaking, but not as bad. Instead of sounding like a geriatric toad, I sounded more like a teenage toad. That was better, right? That gave me some confidence.
I straightened up and pushed my chest out. His eyes immediately dropped to my boobs, and it felt as though some high voltage laser had singed them. My brain was a little muddled, and I could feel my nipples hardening to pebbles right before his eyes. This was crazy.
“Maybe because of that.”
He flicked his hand toward my chest in reply to the question I had forgotten I’d asked. But then, as his eyes widened a little, I realized he wasn’t pointing to my chest. He was actually gesturing toward the small, round bump that my belly had become over the last few weeks.
I was fifteen weeks pregnant. And he was the father.
I took a deep breath and let it out slowly.
“You’re here because of the baby.”
He raised an eyebrow. “What else? Did you think I wouldn’t find out? That I’d let you walk away with my flesh and blood?” There was no amusement in his eyes. They were chilly and staring at me quite dispassionately.
So he was angry. I got that.
But he was being unreasonable.
“I did what I thought I had to do. Can’t you see that?” I asked him, trying to appeal to his better nature. I hadn’t seen any evidence of it, but it had to be there. Any man who wanted a child as fiercely as this man wanted the baby in my womb has to have a better nature, right? I had to believe that.
“All I can see is that we are not going to have this conversation on your doorstep.”
His tone said it was not up for debate. Yet, I hovered there, trying to look for a way to stall him. I did not want him in my apartment. I did not want him in my space. It wasn’t like he was going to hurt me or anything. Nicolas Costa was a lot of things, but he wasn’t the kind of man who went around hurting women. I wouldn’t have agreed to this insane arrangement if he was.
I couldn’t believe I was here, standing with Nicolas Costa, about to have his baby. I put myself in a difficult situation, and I didn’t know what to do about it.
Dear God…if only my mom were here, she would tell me everything would be alright. Actually, no. First, she would chew my ass out and tell me what an irresponsible, thoughtless thing it was I’d done, and then she would wrap her arms around me and tell me she understood why I’d done it and that she loved me.
I felt my throat grow tight and scratchy, and I had to blink really hard to push back the tears. My chest hurt. I rubbed it absently…not like it did any good. I missed my mother so much. It had only been three months since she’d died, and I’d not yet gotten used to being without her.
I sighed again and stepped back.
“Come in Mr. Costa.” I kept my voice cool and polite, hoping if I projected that image, I would actually begin to feel it.
It was time I stopped running away from the facts—no matter how much I disliked them. The truth was, I was pregnant with this man’s baby and I had signed some legal documents saying that I would give him the baby when it came. It had seemed the right thing to do at the time, and I even collected a partial payment.
God, that really does sound bad, like I sold the baby in my womb. But it was nothing like that. Nothing like that at all. The baby wasn’t really mine…not really.
The fertilized egg was not mine. I was merely a carrier, a human incubator. But that didn’t stop me from feeling like I was this baby’s m
other in every sense that mattered. And that was the crux of my problem. I loved it with a fierceness that amazed me. And I didn’t care what this huge hulk of a man said. He would have to go over my dead body to get to the baby, and I intended to let him know that.
Chapter 2
It all began fairly innocuously.
My mom was a maid in Los Angeles, working for a couple of well-known actors, some politicians, and a few rich, but not so famous, business moguls. She’d done it for as long as I could remember in an attempt to keep us off the streets. Her best friend, Constance, was in the same line of work. In fact, they used to work for the same agency. But then Constance got a full-time position with Nicolas Costa, who just happened to be one the hottest Hollywood directors the world had seen since Frank Capra or Alfred Hitchcock. She talked about him constantly those first ten years or so. Sometimes I felt like I knew him just from the things Constance said about him. He seemed human. Kind. That is, of course, until he got married. Constance didn’t have much to say about his wife, actress Aurora Parker, or him, really, after their wedding five years ago. It was like her kindly, honest employer had disappeared and was replaced with something out of that old movie, Invasion of the Body Snatchers.
Then, one day, I went to visit my mom and Constance was talking about the Costas needing a surrogate for their baby. When she mentioned the insane amount they were offering to the right woman, I knew I had to give it a shot. I needed the money. Not too long before then, my mom was diagnosed with cancer, and there was just no way her insurance would cover the amount of chemo she would need. Not only that, but the chemo would make her too sick to work, and that would mean losing her insurance all together. So the burden fell on me, but I couldn’t afford the treatments she needed—not on a teacher’s salary. After everything my mom had given up for me…being a single mother is never easy, but being an uneducated immigrant only made it that much harder. I hated the thought of my first pregnancy being a surrogacy. And the idea of giving up a child that I would carry for nine months was overwhelming. But I was willing to do anything for her. She was all I had, and she’d given everything just to make sure I had everything she never did. I would never know my father, but I was okay with that because my mom loved me so fiercely that I never felt anything was missing from my life.
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