That following morning at Kalli’s request we returned to BlueRidge pack house. It was a strange silent trip back to BlueRidge. I knew that something fundamental had changed, I just wasn’t sure what. A few days later when Lucas woke up I was given some insight into what might be so different. Kalli was no longer torn between her bond with Lucas and Nikoli. It appeared she had made a choice.
To my surprise Kalli embraced her relationship with Lucas. In fact she mated and bonded with him on his first day awake. I knew the moment they became a true bonded and mated wolf couple. Our whole pack did. We were ecstatic that she and Lucas had moved forward. The BlueRidge pack now had a true alpha pair. We could start looking forward to the future.
Part of me never stopped wanting to ask her about that night and what Nikoli told her, but she was still unwilling to discuss it. So after her and Lucas bonded I decided it must have had something to do with Nikoli breaking the bond with Kalli and I thought that was probably a pretty darn good thing. Now, however I am starting to wonder again.
The first month after her and Lucas bonded were fantastic. Kalli and Lucas looked like a normal newly bonded wolf couple. They did everything together and seemed very happy. Then about two weeks ago something started to change. Kalli has become very withdrawn and sickly. She can’t eat real food and won’t feed from Lucas or me. When we try to discuss it with her she becomes super aggressive.
The only time she is even somewhat normal is when she decides she wants to make love with Lucas. Something inside of her shifts and she all but demands that he spend time alone with her. According to Lucas, during those times she seems almost like a normal shewolf. The rest of the time she is down right nasty and very difficult to approach.
However she is getting weak and we are becoming very concerned. We called a pack doctor to come and see if he could figure out what could be wrong. He tried to approach her, but she manhandled him right out of the room. Even with me and Lucas begging her she refused to be examined. We even played the 'If you die, you will be killing Lucas' card. She wasn’t even slightly moved to change her mind.
The pack doctor said he didn’t believe her condition was physical. He implied that my Kalli was going insane and that she was killing herself with her own depression. Our best guess is that this is some kind of withdraw from being away from Nikoli. According to the doctor if she continues at this pace it won’t matter because she has become deathly ill and will likely die in the next few days.
Last week, after the doctor visit Lucas and I started asking Kalli questions about her vampire powers. We were curious if she was still able to astral project. More specifically we wanted to know if she could find Nikoli for us. She damn near tore my head off when she screamed at me
“For Gods sakes Mother don’t ask such stupid questions. I told you to never ask me about Nikoli again. Besides, don’t you think I could project to him I would have? I was regularly having contact with him then all of the sudden it stopped. I think he must be dead because I haven’t been able to make contact with him for almost a month”
Then she left the room and acted like nothing had happened. Lucas and I have tried everything we can think of help her get better and nothing has worked. Once we locked in on it being a vampire thing we started to look for Nikoli. We have tried every method we could think of to find and contact Nikoli and have come up empty.
We were hoping and praying that he wasn’t dead. According to our sources vampires didn’t die with their mate. We think he is alive but for some reason unable to communicate with her. So here we are at our last option. I am in a car with Lucas and a very sick Kalli driving to New York City. Lucas and I are both hoping that if we get her into closer proximity nature will do the rest for us.
Chapter 40
(Kalli’s POV)
I knew that Nikoli was close. I jumped out of the car without even asking for my mother to stop driving. I took off at breakneck speed to where I knew he was. I ran down alleys and little back street. I could feel his aura I just needed to get a little closer.
I tried to make a mental connection but again he blocked me. I was tired of being blocked. I needed him and he knew it. I was going to make sure he never wanted to block me again. He’d been blocking me for weeks. Initially, I didn’t realize it was just a block I actually thought he might be dead. Then, his wall slipped momentarily and I realized he was doing this to me intentionally. I didn’t want to think that Nikoli was trying to hurt me so I had to assume it was because he didn’t want me to know the physical and emotional pain he was in. The block also preventing him from knowing the pain I was in.
Well that ended today. Nikoli could never again hide from me. I sensed that he was in the building just ahead of me. I put on an extra burst of speed and smashed through the door of an old crumbly looking brick warehouse. I spotted him lying deathly still on a dirty blood stained cot. I felt my heart do a little flip. I guess actually seeing Nikoli lying there motionless caused me to be afraid that I was too late. I stalked towards him with the grace of the deadly predator that I am. The moment my hand touched his arm his eyes bolted open. His face registered both shock and joy almost simultaneously.
“How did you find me?” he growled out.
“You shouldn’t have come here. I was trying to keep this away from you?”
Hearing his voice and knowing that he was okay helped me to relax, being this close to him felt so right. I could feel my bones turning to jelly. The air between us zapped like tiny little electric pulses. I’d missed him so much. I could feel tears slip silently down my cheeks as I looked into his eyes.
His face turned to concern and I felt his connection open back up. I felt everything he felt. I knew that he loved me more than he loved himself. I knew that he would do anything to ensure my happiness. I knew the moment he realized that he had caused me pain. I watched as he took in a deep breath and tried to touch me with shaky hands.
“Kalli, I am so sorry, I didn’t realize that you were hurting. I thought I was protecting you. Please forgive me” he licked his lips and looked up at me with such sorrow in his eyes.
He reached out to me and kissed me on my forehead while patting me on the back. He had to be kidding me. I needed much more than that. I didn’t need a brotherly hug and kiss I needed him to fulfill me like a man that loves a woman. I knew I needed to push him to the next level. I needed him to blood and consummate our relationship I leaned in and placed my lips on his
“N-no…” He growled at me, then pushed me away from him.
“You can’t do this. You can’t be with me and him. I can see you bonded with him Kalli. That’s permanent you are his mate.”
I know I must have stared blankly at him trying to understand why he was pushing me away.
“I can’t help myself. I need you, I don’t even understand why. It’s coming from somewhere deep inside of me. Please Nikoli stop the pain. Help me. I think I am going to die if you don’t help me”
I was desperate for relief I knew he could stop the pain and give me what I was missing. I gazed at him with such longing, begging him with my eyes to help me. Nikoli stared back at me for what felt like forever, then he finally exhaled a long breath and said
“Come here love, I will help you get through this.”
I slowly lowered myself to the dirty little cot and sat beside him. I knew that he wasn’t happy that I was pushing him to make love to me but I needed him so much all I could say was
“I don’t care if it’s wrong, please Nikoli, I need you. I just wish it wasn’t going to hurt Lucas.”
I felt breathless and wanted desperately to feel his flesh pressed against mine. I watched as he caught his breath and finally pulled me into him. When our lips met I knew that I was finally going to feel complete. I was like a thousand tiny little butterflies exploded across my entire being. Everything felt exactly right.
His lips were firm and demanding against mine. His hands roamed over my back and sides before the finally found my breasts. I
could feel him gently pinching my nipple which caused it to ache for more. He pulled his lips away from mine, and I found myself moaning softly. Then he resettled his lips against my neck and began to nip and tug at my skin there.
Feeling his fangs graze against the soft flesh of my neck kicked off a whole new level of desire. I felt the blood in my veins turn to lava. I wanted, no I needed to do more than just touch him. My hands continued to move all over his body, I was on fire and I knew he too was burning for me. I grabbed hold of his waist band and tried to help him remove his pants while he got rid of my blouse. I didn’t want anything stopping us from complete flesh to flesh contact.
Nikoli’s pants pushed off easily enough, he them pulled at the rest of my clothes until finally I could feel all of him touching all of me. The moment we were both naked, I found him rolling us over and I was suddenly stretched out underneath of him. He was so passionate and everything was dreamlike that I found myself lost in the sensations.
I felt his manhood firm and heavy between my legs. I knew his fangs were ready to puncture the soft side of my neck. I was almost there. It was just a matter of moments. Then he would enter me and we would be complete. I could feel our souls blending and mixing with each other is such a sensual dance. If this was all that happened I could honestly say I felt complete. It was more than I could have ever dreamed of.
I moaned again in pleasure and bucked myself against him trying to spur him on. I was tired of waiting I wanted him now. I heard him growl and felt his teeth slowly enter my neck. The shear ecstasy of knowing that he would drink from me threw me over the edge and I shivered in orgasmic pleasure.
I had expected that Nikoli to would feel pure joy at the sharing of our blood. Instead I felt Nikoli freeze and grow frigidly hard on top of me. Then he abruptly pulled completely. He launched himself off of the cot and screeched
“My God Kalli, we can’t do this. You’re pregnant”
(Lucas’s POV)
I was so happy when Kalli suddenly shot to life. She had been so listless and inanimate for days. Her mother and I were convinced she was going to die of heart ache. Coming to New York had been our last hope. When we came out of the Lincoln Tunnel and Kalli took off like a bat out of hell, Marie and I knew we did the right thing.
I dropped Marie off at the hotel we booked and went on foot to locate Kalli. I didn’t rush she was a very capable young woman and I knew the humans in New York were not a threat to her. I also figured she could use a little time with Nikoli before I arrived.
I used my nose and my instincts to follow my mate. She was lightening fast in her human form and New York City wasn’t the place where I could just wolf out and follow her. So here I was walking up and down the streets of Harlem sniffing her out. I knew I was getting closer and closer. I picked up the scent of vampire and knew that I was at the right place.
I came around the corner and spotted the shattered door. Kalli must have been in a rush to get in. I slipped in quietly and peered around the corner. I felt my heart stop. Of all the things I had expected to see, I had never counted on her being unfaithful. I had grown up being told that once mated a wolf couple could never be with another. Hell, I can’t even get it up for movies anymore. How could she was all I could think.
I slowly started to step backwards, I wasn’t ready to confront them and I was to emotionally distraught to continue to stand there. Each step I took back towards the door I felt a little more inside of me crack. I knew tears where flowing freely down my cheeks. I was doing my best to remain silent but I noticed that Nikoli froze. Then he said
“My God Kalli, we can’t do this. You’re pregnant”
Those words forced me to move towards them instead of away. I wanted to run and hide and die from a broken heart, but Kalli was caring my pups. If she couldn’t be faithful from just our bond maybe the pups could keep her in my bed and out of his.
I knew that she needed him. The last several weeks had shown us that loud and clear. I just hope that didn’t mean she had to sleep with him. I reached her side and growled at Nikoli to back off. I watched his face go from soft and open to hard and miserable then he said to me
“Don’t growl at me wolf. You won this round. I’m not going anywhere though so get used to me being around”
Chapter 41
(Marie’s POV)
Things around the pack house had been strained and strange since we came back from New York. Kalli spent the majority of her day sitting in the parlor with Nikoli talking and playing all sorts of mental games. Then, when evening fell, she would retire upstairs with Lucas to the master bedroom they continued to share.
I couldn’t tell if my daughter was happy but I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that Lucas and Nikoli were not. It seemed like Kalli was getting everything she wanted and needed and neither one of them were getting what they wanted or needed.
I didn’t have a solution so I continued to look the other way and hope that it somehow managed to work itself out. Kalli was getting bigger and bigger by the day. She was going to give birth any day now and we were all on pins and needles waiting.
I guess most of the pack wondered if the pups would actually be pups of if they would take after Kalli and be some type of hybrid. I was praying for normal everyday pups. The lifestyle that Kalli was maintaining with her beloved and a wolf mate wasn’t normal to begin with and honestly I believed it was highly inappropriate. I didn’t want to but sometimes I couldn’t help but think of my daughter as a strumpet.
I know they tried to make it look like her and Nikoli didn’t have a sexual relationship, but they were too close not to. It was impossible to believe that they were platonic. Even Lucas eyed them wearily when he had to leave them alone. I felt bad for Lucas since the entire pack knew she was unfaithful to him. It was unheard of to have a true mate that was unfaithful It certainly reduced his authority as alpha.
I wish I could make Kalli understand what she is doing to him and the rest of the pack. We are a young weak pack to begin with. Her shenanigans with the vampire are going to get us wiped out. Once a few rouges hear of our cuckolded Alpha and our sinful Luna they will encroach on our territory and wipe us out. I walked into the kitchen to pour myself a fresh cup of coffee when I heard Nikoli bellow.
“Lucas, it is time, Kalli’s water is broken”
To say that the house became a flurry of activity would have been an understatement. We had more never happened before happening all at once. We had a hybrid Luna giving birth to wolf pups while she was blooded to a vampire. Technically, once a woman bloods with a vampire her anatomy starts to change and her womanly organs are the first to shut down.
That said, Kalli was already pregnant with the pups before Nikoli blooded with her so, we were very uncertain about what to expect during labor. I picked up the phone and called for the pack doctor to hurry over. I heard Lucas barrel into the parlor and carry Kalli upstairs to their bedroom. I heard him growl at Nikoli to
“Leave” then I heard Nikoli shout back
“Make me” then I heard Kalli cry out in pain and both of them seemed went quiet.
I heard someone at the door and opened it expecting the pack doctor but was shocked to find the old vampire standing at the door instead. He looked me over quizzically then said
“Well woman, are you going to continue to stand their ogling me or would you mind moving aside so I can go upstairs and be of service to the birthing beloved?”
I honestly didn’t know how a vampire thought it could be of service, but I was so shocked that I found myself shuffling to the side. I watched as he swished up the stairs his robe lagging a step or two behind him. I turned to close the door, and notice the pack doctor getting out of his car.
I waited for him to walk up the drive and walked with him upstairs to Kalli’s room. As we entered the bedroom I couldn’t help but laugh out loud. It was just so comical, for god’s sake all three men were staring at her like she had sprouted multiple heads and was going to explode into a million
pieces any moment.
Upon hearing my chuckles Nikoli and Lucas turned to face me and noticed the pack doctor standing next to me. I could see the relief on both of their faces. Then both Nikoli and Lucas opened their mouths and started speaking at the same time to the doctor in rushed excited voices.
They fired question after question at him. At one point even the old vampire started shouting questions towards the doctor as well. I couldn’t tell if he was doing it because he truly wanted the answer or if he was just enjoying the chaos.
I ignored the men and walked over to the bed to check on Kalli. She had a funny little happy smile on her face. I leaned in close so I could speak to her while the men were occupied with the doctor.
“Hey honey, how are you feeling? Have the contractions started yet?”
Kalli nodded at me and placed my hand on her stomach. I could feel it tightening under my hand. I looked at her face and expected her to cry out in pain. When she continued to show no sign of pain I found my face scrunching together in questioning look.
“Kenyan stopped the pain. I don’t quite understand how it works, but he got into my head and removed the pain” she snapped her finger as continued
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